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I'm a SURVIVOR!

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MY CURRENT MOOD/FEELING... I'm here but "lost"!!!
PLEASE GOD, give me STRENGTH to move forward and NOT do anything stupid that may bring me pain! Please send all my angels (including my 4 kids' angels so we'll all BE PROTECTED from 'this force' that is so overwhelming and OUT TO GET ME). Even with my prayers, the kids prayers, and the white sage smoke to cleanse our air... there's still something pulling me down! Give me WISDOM to figure it out and COURAGE to overcome it (again)!
To all the wonderful people I've met on here and actually consider me a friend and a leave me all these nice, beautiful notes on a daily basis, I WANT YOU TO KNOW, THEY ARE MUCH APPRECIATED! I may not be able to say thank you everyday because of the hectic household I have... but just know, that EVERY time I read a received comment/message, it 99% of the time makes me *smile* ... Something I don't do much of lately... Things are getting too trying for JUST me and my kids' fathers aren't exactly stepping up to the plate to help out like they should be... my bad for picking my kids' daddies, huh?! *lol*
I SURVIVED:
CHILD ABUSE
: between ages 0-4yrs (I beleieve that might've played a role in my "teenage pregnancies")
PHYSICAL Domestic Violence for 6 years (1992-1998)
EMOTIONAL Domestic Violence for 3 years(2002-2003)
PHYSICAL and EMOTIONAL ABUSE for 4 months (2007)...
CURRENTLY: SINGLE by CHOICE, trying to raise 4 beautiful, SPECIAL (in their own way) children :c) It's B-E-Y-O-N-D hard at times but like my favorite saying goes, "This too shall pass" ... the moments of frustration from all the fighting and between ALL of them and then to see them completely turn around 10 seconds later and ALL BE LAUGHING like nothing happened is awesome!!! That's something I know I need to work on... paying MORE POSITIVE ATTENTION to all 4 of my kids!! (than just 'screaming' when 1 does something 'bad'). But I do have to admit (and you know there's others just like me... MY CHILDREN ARE MOST BEAUTIFUL WHEN THEY'RE SLEEPING :c) especially if you catch them with s quick smile on their face (because I believe their angels are playing with them) or when they're spread across the bed, as little as they are, there's just enough room for you to curl up, around him/her and let them hold one of your finger while they stay asleep--PRECIOUS MOMENTS to always be remembered.
(read my BLOG to get to know me)
Here's the quick run down on who I am...
I'm a beautiful person once you get to know me (just a lil shy), I'm a powerful person because I stand up & will fight for what I believe in, and just by looking at what I've gone through in the past, and kept my head above water, and am still standing strong today, should bring some meaning and/or motivation to someone/whoever reads this & needs that type of encouragement. I'm still young, only 30, but I've gone through more than most people will in their entire lives :c) I'm not ashamed, I'm not exactly enthusiastic (about the bad parts) but that's what made me who I am today.... I'm a SURVIVOR, a FIGHTER, a PROTECTOR (of my children), a SINGLE MOTHER (of 4), and definitely a WOMAN!!
End DOMESTIC VIOLENCE
NATIONAL DOMESTIC VIOLENCE HOTLINE
OUR CHILDREN ARE OUR FUTURE!
! STOP CHILD ABUSE !

Sexual, physical, emotional, neglectful.... it all hurts the same
As a victim of child abuse, I don't believe ANY more children need to go through the pain that it can cause for the rest of their ENTIRE lives! It's not just a moment taken away from them, it's a big part of WHO they are and the "lucky" ones can call themselves "SURVIVORS" but unfortunately some fall "VICTIM" to this and can't ever get up... it's NOT their fault, it all depends if they get/have enough support when they're ready to face what happened!

My Interests

Re: JESSICA
We can pull down the pics now! :c)
Thank you All for leaving beautiful comments, supportive messages, and most of all--Thank You for helping out a friend... Love Always & God Bless *hugs* Angelina *hugs*

My latest "interest" is:
TRYING to MAKE a DIFFERENCE in our world, country, state, city, neighborhood, ourselves :c) If I can stay on my positive path and change or enlighten someone's heart, then I'm doing what I believe now, is my purpose here.
(Not just here on MySpace but "here" as in this world)

September 17th
Click below

AFSP (American Foundation for Suicide Prevention)


Is still accepting donations... click on the pic below

July 22-23, 2006 *accomplishment* Not only did I raise over $1300...

It was an awesome experience! Over 1.100 walkers/people who raised over 1.7 million dollars for this event. We walked 20 miles up & down hills of San Francisco from 8:30pm til 5:30am!! Everyone was so friendly, yet there were one's who just walked.... we all had our own reasons for being there. Some of us, like me, chatted almost the whole time, while others, just listened :c) Either way, WE ALL MADE IT THRU THE 20 MILES & ACCOMPLISHED WHAT WE WERE ALL THERE FOR... to get the word out. $1.7 million raised sounds like alot of money to help benefit this cause but they help so many people! It doesn't seem like we hardly raised enough.There's still time to put the word out about AFSP (SUICIDE PREVENTION & DEPRESSION AWARENESS) and still get donations in (for those of you haven't gotten the chance to do so yet)
To put in YOUR DONATION to AFSP, click the 'donation button' below AND HELP MAKE A DIFFERENCE

06/11/2006 Gideon: I will continue to pray for your cause. =) Take care =) Gideon

06/14/2006 Leilani: You can do it Angie!! You are a survivor! I'm with you all the way!! Your working friend, Lani :-)
06/15/2006 Janice: I am so proud of you. I believe in you.
06/16/2006 Janee: Hey Cuz: I hope you reach your goal!
06/17/2006 Jeanna: GO ANGIE !!!!!
06/21/2006 Anania: Here's all I can afford.... have a good walk (and I hope you get 'lost') hahaha j/k
06/21/2006 Jasmine: Angie, here you go... it's not much because I'm preparing for the baby but here ya go & you can always cry on my shoulder. Jasmine
06/23/2006 Nina
06/27/2006 DORIS
06/28/2006 Anita: Good luck!!!
07/02/2006 Selina: Aight, I'll be the 1st
07/03/2006 Shane: U go girlz!! Luv ya Mom & Selina
07/03/2006 Michael: I think its great that you are doing this. wanting to see you sometime (wink) kisses - Mike

07/04/2006 Steven: looks like we will be taking a long walk lol
07/05/2006 Dale: Angie, You can do it!
07/07/2006 Betty: Good Luck!
07/09/2006 Edward: Angie much love to you and Selina. I hope they allow her to walk with you. That's important and it's for a good purpose

07/10/2006 JANEE
07/10/2006 Annetta: What'cha gonna do?! HaHa :c) Go walk! and Have Fun, girlz!!
07/12/2006 Caroline: Selina, you're a beautiful, young girl. Keep up all your hard work! ~Caroline
07/12/2006 Wiley:Good Luck
07/12/2006 Evelyn: Selina~ Girl, you need to keep up the good work you've been doing. Life is very PRECIOUS! You're too young to have any problems, I LOVE YOU! TAKE CARE! ~E.V.E
07/12/2006 Monica: Selina, you can make a difference. Enjoy life and have fun!! ~Monica
07/12/2006 Nicholas

07/13/2006 Jan: Angie & Selina-- Good luck to you both ~Jan
07/14/2006 Belinda: Hey Girl! Sorry it's not much, it is summer which is pay stretching time for us teachers. Good luck! Sorry it took me so long to contribute!
07/20/2006 Manya: I know you can do it! My support and strength are and will be behind you as you walk for this important cause.
07/20/2006 Roger Jr: I hope and pray everyone will support this cause. I will help so much.
07/21/2006 Lourdes: Good Luck :c) Have fun!!
07/21/2006 Janie: Good luck
07/21/2006 Deborah: I know you can do it! Have faith in yourself :c) Selina and I will be waiting for you at the FINISH LINE!!
07/21/2006 Michael: Keep working hard at this. You have full support from Chicago.  Love you all
07/21/2006 Tara: Selina~Though times are maybe hard for us as we learn and grow in life, we still have each other for support. ~Tara
07/21/2006 Leeda: Selina~ I know life's hard sometimes but just remember for every bad thing that happens, a good thing makes up for it. There's a lot in life to look forward to! And alot worth living for...
07/23/2006 Lennette: Here ya go Angie :) You better make it past the FINISH LINE (or I want my money back) j/k ~Lennette
07/24/2006 Christine: CONGRATS TO YOU ANGELINA! You did it! God bless you and your kind heart! :) Christine


The people with pictures above are SPECIAL because they donated out of their own generousity and I haven't even met them (yet). These are the type of people that can help us change the world!...

LOCAL NEWS:

CHECK TO SEE IF YOUR NEIGHBORHOOD'S SAFE


Head Start Programs need our help
Take action! They need you to call Congress
DIAL 202-224-3121 or 202-225-3121


BANANAS needs our HELP! They provide so many free services for parents in Northern Alameda County...

but it requires resources to make it happen! Please click the BANANA below to get to their website to read all about.

Help OUR LOCAL ZOO: Oakland,CA needs donations



NYSP is a local Summer Sports Camp at Chabot College for our Youth... 2006 might be it's last year because of our countries's cutbacks!! Please if you can take a moment to write or even call them, it would make a big impact!! My 2 older kids (ages 10,12) both went this year and they loved it... they played 4 different sports a day, 4 days a week, for 4 weeks... it was alot better than trying to find them babysitters or leaving them home alone to be 'latch key kids'... Please help make a difference

Senators on the Appropriations Committee need to know there is broad support for this program. Republicans: Arlen Specter, Pennsylvania Chairman
Thad Cochran, Mississippi
Judd Gregg, New Hampshire
Larry Craig, Idaho
Kay Bailey Hutchison, Texas
Ted Stevens, Alaska
Mike DeWine, Ohio
Richard Shelby, Alabama

Democrates: Tom Harkin, Iowa, Ranking
Daniel Inouye, Hawaii
Harry Reid, Nevada
Herb Kohl, Wisconsin
Patty Murray, Washington
Mary Landrieu, Louisiana
Dick Durin, Illinois

Or if you need help with this, contact information, staff names, please contact our person in Washington:
Dan Wexler
[email protected] 202-997-3404
Please help our local communities!!

I'd like to meet:



Music:



AROUND THE WORLD

STOP Human Trafficking!

It's happening everywhere against WOMAN and CHILDREN!
Click below to find out more on this disgusting crime

HELP FIND MISSING CHILDREN - click below to see pictures





STOP YOUTH POVERTY - click the link below

Children International


SPONSOR A CHILD



VISIT MATT(Mexicans and Americans Thinking Together)

HELP END CHILD ABUSE
(don't be scared to call & report it!)

I didn't have the courage to stand up to my abuser til one day he went too far & almost hurt 1 of his children... and that was the day, the 1st time I ever called CPS. And did my life change from that day on... and the other 6 childrens lives! We were all scared but we all felt a sense of relief at the same time.

God Please watch over the children and me everyday AND everynight... so my once abusers don't hurt any of us again...

Movies:



Angel of Peace & Love

May all of your angels gather around you every day to help you in your life... for they are always there... just as God is.
God love you, I do, (Sylvia Browne)


Angel of Light

Angel of Patience

Lord,
Thank You for Your protection. I feel so valued when I consider that YOU have appointed angels to guard me and keep me safe.
Amen

More Angels
Angel of Serenity

Angel of Hope

Angel of Justice

Angel of Reverence

Television:


Not only did this day impact so many lives in such a horrible way that they'll NEVER forget... but... there's a positive side to this as well. While I was pregnant with my 3rd child, I was driving home & got rear-ended by some hit & run driver. I went into frequent, mild contractions & was hospitalized. I had a little over a week before my due date but after 24 hours at the hospital, they decided it was best to induce me. That day was Sept.10, 2002. I so didn't want my child to be born on 9/11 but... that's what happened! He came 17 minutes too late! 12:17am on Sept.11, 2002, my son was born. And then later to find out that 16!! babies were born in that hospital during that whole day. The hospital staff said that that was an unusally high amount of deliveries for 1 day.
I guess God does work miracles because although so many lives were taken away that very same date last year, he replenished the earth with many more lives the next year :c)
I was blessed with a child exactly 1 year after this tragic event so I'll never forget what happened to our country. But believe me, this child, who came into this world on that day, exactly a year later is going to be someone special!! I can already tell... :c)
Dear LORD, God Bless me, my family, my friends, and my home (and everyone else in this world) Amen!
"People's lives are changed
as they take God as their Partner. Stop trying to do it without God."
"So many people get into trouble when they cut God out of thier lives. Keep God as your Partner."

Books:

Current book: The Indigo Child

It's very interesting to see what's going on with ALL THE SPECIAL CHILDREN these days...
Here's a website about them:

And a website that questions them:
Indigo Children?

Heroes:

THE ALMIGHTY GOD who loves me (and you)
HE LOVES all His children of all colors
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My Angels who are always by my side

My Heroes On Earth

Me for finally "finding" ME again!!
To 'victims' that aren't SURVIVORS just yet & to the SURVIVORS:

"Don't let your fear of a coward hold you back from trusting others that are honorable!!!"

~Brian (4/21/07)~
My BEAUTIFUL kids! for keeping my on the right path
Being that my Grandfather was in WWII & my Dad and Uncle were in the Vietnam War (and my ex-husband was in Navy)... I have to show love to our troops today. Although, I believe in PEACE... our soldiers deserve recognition!
My friends/cousins who've stuck by me during my worst dealings in life...
My DV Advocate... I'll never FORGET! My Family Court Lawyer... She's AWESOME & a great friend! My Employer/DV Lawyer... who's still trying to help me FIGHT! MY 2 Counselors (my child's counselor/Dr)... who keep telling me I'm a great person AND mother & I just need to realize it myself :c)

Just For LAUGHS


My Blog

~A Galactic Fairty Tale~ !!! Read This !!!

A Galactic Fairy Tale by Michael Lightweaver A long, long time ago in a galaxy far, far away there were all of these little light beings just hanging out enjoying life in that joyful & timeless d...
Posted by I'm a SURVIVOR! on Sun, 16 Sep 2007 07:55:00 PST

To MY FRIENDS that missed the bulletin, THANK YOU

  I've been gone (away from MySpace) for a pretty long while now, to once again, PUT the pieces back together! I don't want to blame anyone or anything for my mishaps from 10/06-7/07 but THA...
Posted by I'm a SURVIVOR! on Mon, 03 Sep 2007 09:15:00 PST

This is what ANGELINA's about ... (moved from page to BLOG)

A couple of you thought you HAD me figured out, caught up, cornered, locked in... Some of you thought you KNEW me, thought I was "throwing my life away", just another statistic, a loser, a playa', th...
Posted by I'm a SURVIVOR! on Wed, 18 Apr 2007 09:46:00 PST

WHO AM I?? ... (moved from page to BLOG)

WHO AM I?? (I catch myself asking that question alot lately?)I thought I was a simple, ordinary person to explain but the further into my soul I reach, the more I find out about myself AND the emotio...
Posted by I'm a SURVIVOR! on Wed, 18 Apr 2007 09:26:00 PST

Teenage disappearance/Runaway or Kidnapped?

A couple weeks ago, my daughter's best friend (at the time); age 13, was either kidnapped or ran away with a 19 yr old. He had the nerve to pick her up after a church service... This bothers me b...
Posted by I'm a SURVIVOR! on Thu, 05 Apr 2007 02:56:00 PST

Your Purpose or Your Problem

..> Your Purpose or Your Problem Dear Friend(s)~(Sent to me in an email by a friend... It really helped me 'see' things in a different/better light) Hope you feel the message too!!  "I'm a Sur...
Posted by I'm a SURVIVOR! on Fri, 30 Mar 2007 06:51:00 PST

RUDE AWAKENING

 = ANGER  = OMG!  = SAD/HURT  = CONFUSED/COMPASSION  = NOT HAPPY but glad that NOTHING happend directly to my 4 kids and myself   Last night around 2am, I heard pounding...
Posted by I'm a SURVIVOR! on Thu, 26 Oct 2006 11:39:00 PST

WHAT ELSE COULD GO WRONG????!!!!!!

MY CURRENT MOODS/YES I feel always these ways currently:  = Confused, crushed, why me? why the kids?, surprised, how could this happen?  = Sad, my world's spinning, scared, what if?, who els...
Posted by I'm a SURVIVOR! on Sat, 07 Oct 2006 09:26:00 PST

ALAMEDA, CA~~ 2 teenage girls SEXUALLY ASSAULTED

Growing up in Alameda (especially BayFarm), this story makes me sick!! I now have 3 children who go to school out there & 1 child who goes to school near there.... As a mother, I can only pray tha...
Posted by I'm a SURVIVOR! on Sun, 06 Aug 2006 12:24:00 PST

Messages between 2 people...about kids' dad

From: Here 4 a REASON Date: Jul 29, 2006 5:58 PM Hola!! I'm just ... straight! :c) Cool that my kids are safe & happy & away from trouble... I can't even explain to you what the hell I feel! B...
Posted by I'm a SURVIVOR! on Sun, 30 Jul 2006 01:29:00 PST