Right now you might think this look pretty gross. Keep tweaking and eventually it wont look so bad...it might look like a pretty good place to get high or hide from the police that most likely aren't there. I will make going through people's garbage fun and dumpster diving will become a hobby! You might not know what you are looking for but you will know it when you see it, right?
Hey, you might even shower every day or so now (though you are on tweaker time so a day is really about three). When you do does the dirt come off? When you get out of the shower and run the towel across your arm does dirt still come off? How clean are your hands and nails? Look around you, what do you see?
If you think that this doesn't affect anyone else but you, think again. Maybe you don't have kids so you think it doesn't matter. But you are someone's son, daughter, sister, brother, uncle, cousin, grandchild, friend, husband, wife, girlfriend, or boyfriend. Does that matter?
You. Anyone who wants to stop, needs to stop, or already has quit using. Anyone interested in finding solutions to oppression, addiction, mental health, sexual assault, abuse, neglect, poverty, homelessness, and self-hatred.
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EVERYONE IS WATCHING! EVERYONE IS WATCHING! EVERYONE IS WATCHING!
EVERYONE IS WATCHING? EVERYONE IS WATCHING?
You might not think you will pick at your skin. Maybe you think this is overdone to scare you, but it's not. Maybe for you it wont be the feeling of bugs crawling under your skin, but instead you might think you have done so much dope that shards are coming out of your pores. Can you even tell if you have sores? Ha, maybe you are one of those that gets stuck in the mirror.
One thing I CAN promise, if you do me you soon wont recognize yourself. I will take the life from your eyes... the color from your skin...the hope from your soul.
SMILE!!!!! Oh hell it doesn't matter if you smile, there really isn't a whole lot to smile about. Besides that you will probably be too busy moving your mouth around and grinding your teeth or clenching your jaws. Isn't this fun? At least you still have teeth to grind!
I smell like cat piss. Don't you want to smell like piss, too? I mean who doesn't? Ok, so maybe you don't think I have a smell or there are obvious clues to doing me. The people in and out regardless of time of day, the drawn shades, the damn camera, working on your car or whatever project you have going on at all hours that takes you hours which has really been days...well let me just tell you, I make you think this is normal.
I will make you look like a damn fool and you wont even know it. So, try going to a hotel. Well when the same thing happens there, people know something is going on. We are obvious. We look sketchy.
For sure, I get others to look at you different and at some point you will do some crazy things. When we are together, it is pretty damn obvious - I don't care and you wont either (you might find yourself angry even violent).
The following are phone numbers and/or links to informative and possibly helpful pages...
Washington State Detox, Alcohol and Drug Rehab Centers
Free and Confidential Information (can chat .. with someone, too)
Call center open 24 hours at 1-800-784-6776
www.addictioncareoptions.com/states/washington.htm
IF YOU DO NOT have insurance or money you ARE entitled to state funded programs (WA).
Contact Washington Detox, Drug Rehab, Alcohol Treatment Office
Division of Alcohol and Substance Abuse
PO Box 45330
612 Woodland Square Loop, SE, Bldg C
Olympia, WA 98504-5330
Phone: 877-301-4557
www.addictioncareoptions.com/states/washington.htm
Washington state will pay for alcohol/drug treatment if you do not have the financial resources. Go to the closest DSHS office to apply. This link tells you the process and lists other resources and information.
www.counselingseattle.com/acronyms/ADATSA.htm
Project NEON
Raising awareness and providing options gay/bi guys that use crystal in the greater Seattle area.
(206)323-1768
www.crystalneon.org
Crystal Clear - Strength Over Speed (gay/bi men)
Seattle's Original weekly support group exclusively for ex-crystal users. Groups M, T, Th, F, Sa
For more info call (206)323-1768 or drop by Seattle Counseling Service, 1216 Pine Street, Seattle, WA
Seattle Counseling Service is a community resource that advocates, educates, and serves to enhance the well-being of the LGBT communities.
www.seattlecounseling.org
Harm Reduction & HIV Risk Counseling
Needle Exchange (Seattle and King County, WA)
Location and times listed on website (or see my blog)
(206) 205-7837
www.metrokc.gov/heatlh/apu/resources/needle/.htm
Gay City Health Project
511 E. Pike, Seattle, WA
(206)860-6969
Weekly drop-in support for gay/bi/trans crystal users
Appointments and walk-ins.
www.gaycity.org
Do you need a place to live? Oxford Houses are great if you are looking for affordable, supportive, clean and sober housing. There are men's houses, women's houses, and ones for women with children. www.oxfordhouse.org
SoberRecovery lists hundreds of alcohol/addiction treatment resources in the U.S., Canada, and Overseas. This site is full of information including non 12 step and dual diagnosis programs, holistic treatment, and more.
www.soberrecovery.com
Crystal Meth Anonymous
www.crystalmeth.org
A place for ex-tweakers and recovering crystal meth addicts.
This is NOT Crystal Meth Anonymous.
www.xtwkrs.org
Narcotics Anonymous
www.naws.org
Nar-Anon is a fellowship for those affected by someone's addiction. They have meetings worldwide.
www.nar-anon.org
Alcoholics Anonymous
www.aa.org
Greater Seattle Alcoholics Anonymous
www.seattleaa.org
Codependents Anonymous (find a meeting anywhere in the world)
www.coda.org
Alcohol/Drug 24 Hour Helpline
800-562-1240
www.adhl.org
Is your life affected by someone's drinking? To help them, help yourself.
Al-Anon/Alateen
1-888-4AL-ANON (1-888-425-2666)
www.al-anon.alateen.org
Official South African Al-Anon Family group website. South Africa.
www.alanon.org.za