It was a long and gloomy night that gathered on me,
haunted by the ghosts of many hopes, of many dear remembrances, many errors, many unavailing sorrows and regrets.- Dickens, David Copperfield
All the facts, you need to know! Well, I..ll tell something about me, if you want to hear it, so listen up. :)
Two souls, alas! reside within my breast-I..m a real emotional girl, who is in love with history, literature, world music and art. So many lovely and beautfiul things captured my heart all through the years and became real good friends. I love bohemian lifestyle, folklore and traveling.
My "second soul" is very useful for daily living; I..m in love with the small things in live..I love to cook, to joke around, to go to the cinema ; I can be very infantile and clumsy sometimes and I love to watch animated movies and read children..s books beside the profound ones. ^^ So don..t be worried if anything on this page seems to be too mixed up; it..s just me :D
I love ancient customs and learning from other cultures and religions.
I..m studying History of Arts, Cultural History, Comparative Religion on the University of Jena. My special subjects: 19th Century Symbolism, Fashion History (1500s-1920) and Cultural History of Death in America...sounds brainy, but isn..t. :D
In Autumn 2007 I start to work as a bookseller, which is probably the best job in the whole universe.
I also do a lot of music by myself.
I..ve worked with a lot of indie-bands in the past,did some street-music, played and sang in a few musicals (Rocky Horror Show/ Cats/ Cabaret and stuff), but sorta failed being a professional actress..^^
Since 2001, I..m murmuring the vocs for the German band Kontrast (formerly known as Isecs) under the pseudonym Nebelgeist. (After two weeks of touring with them, you have a lot good stories to tell your grandchildren. ;))
I..m also playing guitar, bass and cello.
Currently I..m tyring to rock my zither. ;)
Here are the things I know absolutely nothing about:
Latin, mathematics. Learned and hated both. :)
~ loving and beloved girlfriend (actually the only thing I..m good in).
I..m collecting antiques, mostly curiosities, clothing, books or religious kitsch. I..ve got a faible for taxidermy, bones, bibles, teapots, dolls and daguerreotypes (1850- 1910). The fave thing I own is a 1860s portrait of Saint Mary, which is supposed to be haunted. (it..s very funny to sleep with all those things in your flat ;))
I also have a lot of treasures which other people would consider as "useless" geegaw.
I also craft a lot of things by myself.
And here are some very useless details about my life:
- I wear glasses, but you..ll never see them on pictures ^^
- I would love to name my children Vincent or Charlotte or Nepomuk or Mildred
- When I was about 4 years old, I had a crush on Disney..s Robin Hood
- but my first love was Peter Pan.
- I believe in fairies. (And I caught one on handycam! :))
- I dislike people who do not ;)
- I..m afraid of whales (except orcas)
- Tea, coffee, cake and cookies will be my ruin one day
- My Zodiac is Gemini
- My fave number is 4. The most interesting, scary or wonderful things happened to me on dates with 4, I was even born on a 4th in a year with a four
- In my free time, I write stories for children
- I..m currently writing on a book with the working title "The Realms of Violet Hills"
- I..ve got 5 cats: Miss Marple, Viola, Chibi, Maynard and Trent; my beloved Mozart died one year ago
-When I was a child, I was afraid of all those silly Monty Python animation scenes *and* the Yellow Submarine movie (I still can..t stand that one nowadays)
- I can..t fell asleep without reading or listening to an audio book, wearing a sleepmask or drinking tea.
- I believe in fate
- My fave word is "biscuit"
- When I was a child, I wanted to be a circus tamer, a cartoonist or a singer
- "One Hand in my Pocket" by Alanis Morrisette is the song which describes me best
Future plans:
-speak Spanish fluently; learn Tango, learn to cook proper Jewish and Creole Food; learn about Ouiltmaking, visit a palm leaf libary; celebrate DÃa de los Muertos in Mexico; finish the book, I..m working on; sew my own wedding-dress :)Travel a lot: New England States & Louisiana/ USA (I..m planning this journey for over two years now -_-); Mexico & Spain (to learn more about my mother and myself); Peru; Ireland (again! :)), Lourdes & Saintes Maries de la Mer (for obeisance and self-discovery), Austria and India.
"It’s funny but on good days I don’t think of her so much.
In fact never. I never just say hi when the sun is on my tongue and my belly’s all warm. On bad days I talk to Death constantly, not about suicide because honestly that’s not dramatic enough. Most of us love the stage, and suicide is definitely your last performance, and, being addicted to the stage, suicide was never an option.
So we talk.
She says things no one else seems to come up with, like let’s have a hot dog, and then it’s like nothing’s impossible.
She says if you allow yourself to feel the way you really feel, maybe you won’t be afraid of that feeling anymore.
When you’re on your knees you’re closer to the ground. Things seem nearer somehow.
- Tori Amos, Introduction to Neil Gaiman..s Death: The High Cost of Living
Houellebecq - Dernier Temps
Et des nuits de souffrance qui semblent insurmountables
Où l’on pleure bêtement les deux bras sur la table
Où la vie suspendue ne tient plus qu’à un fil;
Mon amour je te sens qui marche dans la ville.
Il y aura des letters écrites et déchirées
Des occasions perdues des amis fatigues
Des voyages inutiles des déplacements vides
Des heures sans bouger sous un soleil torride,
Il y aura la peur qui me suit sans parler
Qui s’approche de moi, qui me regarde en face
Et son sourire est beau, son pas lent et tenace
Elle a le souvenir dans ses yeux de crystal,
Elle a mon avenir dans ses mains de metal
Elle descend sur le monde comme un halo de glace.
Il y aura la mort tu le sais mon amour
Il y aura le malheur et les tout derniers jours
On n’oublie jamais rien, les mots et les visages
Flottent joyeusement jusqu’au dernier rivage
Il y aura le regret, puis un sommeil très lourd.
Houellebecq - Letzte Zeiten
Es wird schwierige Tage und Zeiten gebenUnd Nächte voll Leiden, die nicht überstehbar scheinen
In denen man blöde flennt, beide Arme auf dem Tisch
In denen das Leben nur noch an einem Fädchen hängt;
Mein Liebe, ich spüre, wie du durch die Stadt gehst.
Es wird Briefe geben, geschrieben und wieder zerrissen
Vertane Gelegenheiten und Freunde, die müde sind
Zwecklose Reisen und sinnentleertes Hin und Her
Stunden, reglos unter der glühenden Sonne,
Es wird die Angst geben, die mich wortlos verfolgt
Die mir näher rückt, mir ins Gesicht schaut
Und ihr Lächeln ist schön, ihr Schritt langsam und
beharrlich
Sie trägt die Erinnerung in ihren kristallenen Augen,
Sie trägt meine Zukunft in ihren metallenen Händen
Sie steigt auf die Welt hernieder wie ein Halo aus Eis.
Es wird den Tod geben das weißt du meine Liebe
Es wird das Unglück geben und die allerletzten Tage
Man vergißt nie irgendwas, die Worte und Gesichter
Treiben fröhlich bis ans letzte Gestade
Es wird das Bedauern geben, dann einen Schlaf so schwer.
My wonderful Fiance. And me. Obviously. (He likes roly-polies..That..s why we are going to marry...this Victoria thing...it..s nothing serious, she..s a douche. Can...Can I say that...that word..here? Douche?
Don..t you mess with us! The Crew of the Rolly Roger.
Thunder, thunder, plush and plunder :D