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About Me


Born. Moved around to Greece. Got Saved. Syracuse. Started school. Rebecca Lemon, my first wife. She cut my hair. Snotty nose. Little league. Chased the girls. They ran away to Trevor Hayes. Read the Bible Second grade. Baseball cards are my life. Oakland A's. Spending summers at Camp. Pee-the-bed-Peewee. That's Me. Still chasing girls and they still run. Fourth grade was a brat. Fifth grade family grew. I withdrew. Sixth grade hated school with a passion. Hated teacher even more. Mrs Seymore shut my brain off. Took a while to turn it on. That comes later. PK reatreat. Got a bed on my head. Met God. No, for real. Changed my life. Eighth grade. Rochester. Bible Club. Bible Boy. Rap music was my passion. But God had my heart. Cross country really good. Rode my bike everywhere. Long letters long phone calls. Prom night was a bore. Nevermore. Hurt my back. No more sports. Still runing. Round the block and straight to God. Graduate. What a Breeze. ZBI then CBC. Dad died. So did I. At least a part of my heart. Brain back on. Found a passion in confusing my professors. KT set the standard. No one's met. So I'm still single. LA. Don't know Spanish. Doesn't matter. Hundreds saved. Graduate. Youth pastor. What a flop. Tried again later still a flop. In between lived in Bing. Found my home then left it. Now I'm back. Nevermore. Still reading, now writing. From all I see, that's me.

My Interests

"A major revolution to be won in the immediate future is the dissipation of man's illusion that his own welfare can be seperate from that of all others. As long as man is shackled to this myth, so long will the human spirit languish. Concern for our private material well being with disregard for the well being of others is immoral... but worse, it is stupidity."
- Saul B Alinsky

"Earth's crammed with heaven
And every common bush alive with God
Only he who sees takes off his shoes
The rest sit around and pluck blackberries"
- Elizabeth Barrett Browning

"God is the beyond in our midst"
- Dietrich Bonhoeffer

"Happiness lies in living for others. That is evident. The desire for happiness is innate in every man; therefore it is legitimate. When trying to satisfy it selfishly - that is, by seeking for oneself riches, fame, comforts, or love - it may happen that circumstances arise which make it impossible to satisfy these desires. Therefore it follows that these desires are illegitimate, but not the need for happiness. But what desires can always be satisfied, despite external circumstances? What are they? ove and self-sacrifice. Since one wants nothing for himself, why not live for others?"
- Leo Tolstoy

"[The Irish are the] one race of people for whom psychoanalysis is of no use whatsoever."
- Freud

In the late afternoon, when the children tire of their games, it is then that they turn to torturing the cat.
G K Chesterton

In the Soviet Union, we are in the habit of admiring the faces of actors rather than their backsides. This is what you call freedom - freedom for the girls to show their backsides. To us its pornography. It is capitalism that makes the girls that way. What kind of sick man would ask a girl to do something like that?"
- Nikita Khrushchev (On seeing Hollywood in action during his visit to the US)

Spirituality is the lamp, morality the door, ethics the vehicle, love the altar.
- Bill Holton Leadership Lessons of Robert E Lee

It doesn't matter how much you have, so long as you fight with what you have. It doesn't matter where you fight, so long as you fight. Because where you fight, the enemy has to fight too, and even though it splits your force, it must split his force also. So fight, on whatever the scale, whenever and wherever you can. There is only one way to win victories. Attack! Attack! Attack!
- Douglas MacArthur

It is wonderful how much may be done if we are always doing.
- Thomas Jefferson

Treat people as if they were what they ought to be, and you help them become what they are capable of becoming.
- Geothe

The man who fears to be alone will never be anything but lonely, no matter how much he may surround himself with people.
Thomas Merton

There is some advantage in being the humblest, cheapest, least dignified man in the village, so that the very stable boys damn you. Methinks I enjoy that advantage to an unusual extent.
Henry David Thoreau

Gaining enlightenment is an accident. Spiritual practise simply makes one accident prone.
Zen proverb

I'd like to meet:



Music:

Jesus, Take the Wheel
God Can (adorable)
Hands and Feet

Movies:

Saw Hero again recently. It's got to be the greatest movie I don't think of when I'm talking about the greatest movies of all time.

Television:

Pointless waste of time. Except football on Sundays. That's a very enjoyable waste of time.

Books:

A New Year, time to start all over again. 100 books 1 year again?
January 2 - Alexander Hamilton (biography) - Dan Chernenko
January 9 - Survival in Auschwitz - Primo Levi
January 14 - Leadership Lessons of Robert E Lee - Bill Holton
January 24 - Biographical Dictionary of Christian Theologians
February 3 - Twelve Greeks and Romans Who Changed the World - Carl Richard
February 10 - Crime And Punishment - Fyodor Dostoyevsky
February 11 - Khruschev: A Man And His Era - Michael Taubman
February 12 - Who Switched The Price Tags - Tony Campolo
February 16 - How The Irish Saved Civilization - Thomas Cahill
February 18 - The Mysterious Flame of Queen Loanna - Umberto Eco
February 22 - The Communist Manifesto [with commentary] - Karl Marx
February 25 - The Cossacks - Leo Tolstoy
February 26 - God's Debris - Scott Adams
February 27 - A Love Worth Giving - Max Lucado
March 11 - The Commanders of Chancelorville - Edward Longacre
March 12 - Opening Atlantis - Harry Turtledove
March 14 - Czars - James Duffy
March 16 - When God Whispers Your Name - Max Lucado
March 20 - A Chance To Die, Biogrphy of Amy Carmichael - Elizabeth Elliot
March 24 - The Future of Religious Colleges
March 30 - We - Yevgeny Zamyatin
April 6 - Reaper's Gale - Stephen Erickson
April 12 - Rifkind's Challenge - Lynn Abbey
April 18 - War and Peace - Leo Tolstoy
April 25 - Flatland - Edwin Abbot
May 1 - Before They Are Hanged - Joe Abercombie
May 8 - Shadows of Summer - Dan Abraham
May 15 - The Blade Itself - Joe Abercombie
May 20 - The Five People You Meet In Heaven - Mitch Albom
May 22 - The Bible - God
May 24 - Things Fall Apart - Chinua Achebe

Heroes:

My God
If God was a dj

My Blog

Outside of Our Experience

I'm reading this book that has a chapter on being able to communicate outside of your realm of experience and it really got me thinking. I'll ask a few questions that it has had bouncing around in my ...
Posted by lowercase beejai on Thu, 29 May 2008 08:16:00 PST

The Little Blue Circle

Eckhart Tolle. A New Earth:Awakening To Your Life's Purpose. It's not a book I've read, but as I stand here looking at it, I am wondering why it is so familiar. The name and the title do not ring a be...
Posted by lowercase beejai on Thu, 22 May 2008 07:08:00 PST

Get Off The Bus

http://blog.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=blog.... ...
Posted by lowercase beejai on Tue, 20 May 2008 06:37:00 PST

The Song Of A Bitter Man

"You see, I am not talking about something complicated or unusual in the least. God wants us to be present where we are. He invites us to see and hear what is around us and, through it all, to discern...
Posted by lowercase beejai on Tue, 20 May 2008 08:58:00 PST

Day 5 of 180

When you've got a bucket that's full of water and you bump it around... water's gonna spill out of it. When you've got a bucket that's full of mud and you bump it around... mud's gonna spill out of it...
Posted by lowercase beejai on Sun, 18 May 2008 07:34:00 PST

Day 4 of 180

I started in on my commitment late and so I sit here well past midnight with ninety minutes left to go. Ninety minutes is too long. As I look up and see the dragon I think to myself, "So this is wher...
Posted by lowercase beejai on Sat, 17 May 2008 09:19:00 PST

Day 3 of 180 (I’m Sorry)

In Barnes and Noble I was walking from my chair to the restroom when an image pulled at my eye. I am ashamed to admit that I glanced to the right before my will pulled my face to the left and I contin...
Posted by lowercase beejai on Fri, 16 May 2008 09:17:00 PST

Day 2 of 180

Well, I made it through the first day. The thing I was wondering last night was, why did I make it public. Granted, I am not going into detail into the deeper reasons for doing what I am doing or even...
Posted by lowercase beejai on Thu, 15 May 2008 04:58:00 PST

Day 1 of 180.

Can I do this? It has been a question that has been coursing through my mind all day. Strike that, it is a question that I have been asking myself ever since I thought up the 180 days in church Sunday...
Posted by lowercase beejai on Tue, 13 May 2008 03:48:00 PST

Pro Life Means Pro Life In Every Situation

    One of the big arguments that some pro choice advocates continually throw back at me is something along the lines of, "How can you be so against a mother having the right to termina...
Posted by lowercase beejai on Thu, 27 Mar 2008 07:17:00 PST