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Magazine -M.d'Arsinoe /CAFE CARNIVORE -M.d'Arsinoe -------- -------- Govinday,Wash.,D.C.how i got to be Thee Desperadothee desperado.. how name got me. for years, i've worn a 'poncho', it is one of my favorite things. my sister came to see me, in calif., was doing scultures for movie 'wildflowers' --a first, tremendously brave endeavor by Melissa Painter , whom i'd met when she was 13.. she wrote & directed, starred Daryl Hannah, Eric Roberts, Irene Bedard, John Doe.. so, i was working there, in afternoons, we'd take off, just me & my twin. go to MUIR BEACH , one of the beautiful places in this world. i'd always be wearing that shroud-like poncho. it was cold, we walked barefoot on the edge, noone around. she had been surviving a particularly jagged sort of hell, coming to calif., she was hoping for ...relief. there was no sun, but a superb, flat light , all colors blunted. that good sound of big waves , we walked on the edges. my feet were blue, went to perch on a perfect rock, wrapping myself tight in poncho. watching her, standing waist deep in waves, both of us facing the sea. she went straight out, till just her head showed. i knew she'd swim, for a while, even dressed.. water is redemption. it can ease our suffering. she did not come back. i understood this, buthad to get her. standing, scanning ocean's horizon between it's guardian rock gates, she was gone. used to live there, knew well the currents, so did she. took off poncho, went in, waves harder, hitting my face, losing my only contact lens. stupid. she is much stonger than i , & better swimmer. i would not find her. staring at the sea, details gone , no lens. hands up, i prayed. come back. miles from the road, car, phones... no one to scream out to for help. sat back on rock, again in poncho. just sat, i would become part of rock, of this place. i would never move. there was no sun, it was down anyway. her footprints , in a line that walked to sea, stood out in relief. took picture of that., maybe only time i'd moved. hearing v faint voices, there was a little group , coming slowly along the beach. watched them, totally covered. even as they got near, i was already becoming mineral. knew they would never see me. it was the footprints that they saw, & they all stood, in the place she'd walked in, as if they knew.. silent. maybe 10 minutes.. then they turned , as one, going home. alone, again. almost dark. there she was, an injured , primeval amphibian-- pulling herself onto drier sand. poncho kept us warm, we managed back-- film crew met us at a cafe, rum & hot chocolate, she was a-ok. everyone figured we were up to our usual outrageousness. of course we joked about it. she made a magnificent painting , later, of the sea, from my rock's eye. which was quickly sold at her exhibit, to a person we knew, a fan, sort of..it would [painting] live in a famous estate where J.F.K. had lived. as if we gave a fuck. few years later, i got pretty sick, a year of misdiagnos's , my sanity under complete assault 'it's in your head' bland head of mediochrity [sp] , amazing, i was in quicksand of that, & the best cliches.. i felt my body giving out.. became again, that rock. withdrew into my 'compound', where i lived w my Cerberus dogs. alone, again, i would not leave, 'you can never get well if you stay there w. those animals.. ' even my once-beloved family doc told me i was delusional, no matter i'd shown him test results from N.I.H. 'you're a very talented artist' said he ' you could easily have created those..' maybe that, what he said-- was what 'broke' me. my life, i've been through plenty, always kept my boots on. in face of real terror, worse illness, death.. now, i was ashamed , a TKO, from a brilliantly created 'intruder' [which would not get ''found'' , for another couple tears ] all this, i tell , to explain how i got name ''THEE DESPERADO''. sister was drowning also, back in her own Dante's journey. phone was our connection. me, mostly in bed, walking w cane, sometimes finding guts to try new docs, accept their varied doses. take care of creatures. write a 'living will', for them. rarely able to sleep, nights were bad, crying ..unstoppable, except w/ massive tranquilizers. a ridiculous thing. never would 'a thunk it possible. taking up space, air, unable to work, borrowing, losing any regard i'd ever had for self. one night, midwinter, me in top of bunk bed [always wanted one....'answered prayers, etc.' ] late. wrapped in poncho. blubbering, howling. animals mute, oh, how well they understood. had a nice 9mm. glok., always near when i'd sleep..old habit. never had i considered it for this. barrel facing me. phone ringing. i'm still an optimist. call I.D. was her. she asked. i told. she'd been munching on 'frito's.. never stopped, as she listened. 'what are you wearing ?' said she. only person could remind me of funny. 'poncho'. i told her. 'oh, that ! the GOOD, BAD & UGLY, remember i named it that, when we went 'swimming that day?' i did. started up inconsolable yowling. 'wait, wait' --- she's crunching. ---- the watching part of me , so long disabled, like George Burns on my shoulder-- poking me, 'this is GOLD'------ ''i'm going to sing for you'' .. still chewing, ''ok ?, now, you listen ! here goes, but , i gotta keep eating, i'm starved.. ok. .....'desperado.. why don't you put up your fences..' '' she was singing so well w / a mouth of chips --i burst out laughing. the 9 ' went back to sleep. so, the name. & 'Thee Desperado' was my favorite Arabian stallion..... ta da.5:14 PM - 2 Comments - 4 Kudos - Add Comment - Edit - Remove Rife Machine wow what a great story am glad 9 mm went down and she called you. thanx for sharing it. 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Opie and Anthony - OG Larry King from 92.3 K-Rock New York on Vimeo .style type="text/css"-------- I've known Sam all my life... I've probably known Sam long before I was even born. I knew Sam as Zhora, when she landed in 1973 Paris with her friend Heavenor on the Champs Elysees in a little broken down VW bug.
They'd been driving around Europe, but Sam was at the end of her rope, she wanted to go home, to DC, to her mother, to her dogs... She didn't have time for the likes of me.
I write about Sam in my book ELLE on Earth. She was my first true love... But as most loves in my life have been, they've always been tragic.
Sam and I wrote to each other feverishly, I still have these letters, until one day, the letters stopped. We fell into each other's heads but never could find it in ourselves to fall into each other's arms.
Instead we led separate lives... Until, a few months ago, Sam, now Margarite, her true maiden name, finds me on the Internet, and we start catching up... we've been catching up ever since.
She's a wonderfully talented artist, who despite a feature in ELLE Decor, never prostituted her gift. It remains as it is, poignant, inspired by the strangest of places, the stuff Juxtapoz is made of . Sam lives on a farm in Virginia with her horses and art. The Govinda Gallery in DC gave her a great big exhibition where we met again in the 90's when Wetlands opened.
This summer sometime, maybe, if my heart can take it, I'll take the drive down to visit.
I hope this homage to a real character, who lives her life for Universe rather than the hollow ground of fame and fortune, will please her
//////// / Daryl Hannah -[as Sabine] on set of Wildflowers, w/ blue tiger [M. d'Arsinoe Margarite d'Arsinoe awoke to the feeling of a rough tongue licking her face, her body curled up under a blanket of snow."I looked up and saw the night sky and a cow with horns," she recalled of that night during the blizzard of 2003.Earlier, Margarite had fainted while carrying a bucket of water to the paddock on her 3-acre farm near Middleburg. The icy water spilled all over her body. She would have frozen to death, if not for her cow Deliverance.Margarite, 51, fainted because of Lyme disease, a bacterial infection transmitted by the bite of an infected deer tick no bigger than the period at the end of this sentence. If detected early, Lyme can be treated successfully with oral antibiotics. If left untreated, the long-term effects can be deadly.Many individuals with Lyme in Loudoun County are going untreated - sometimes for years -- because the disease remains difficult to diagnose.Most doctors look for a tick bite and the characteristic "bull's-eye" rash. However, many Lyme victims don't recall being bitten, and the rash may never develop. Or, it may be hidden somewhere like under the hairline.Diagnosis is also difficult because Lyme symptoms, including fatigue and joint pain, aren't conclusive. And the traditional blood tests can be inaccurate."Western blot tests can produce false negatives," said Dr. Leila Zackrison, a Fairfax-based Lyme specialist and rheumatologist. "It still misses people; it's just a big mess."Increasingly, Loudouners are learning firsthand the seriousness of the disease. Lyme is considered an epidemic in Loudoun, and entire families are being plagued around the county.Near Waterford, June and Jeff Oresik, and their two children -- Emily, 14, and Justin, 17 - all have Lyme.June said after making some phone calls she came up with the names of 35 people who have the disease, including 10 who live almost exactly in a row on Hamilton Station Road, where the Oresiks live.In the Lovettsville area, each member of the Hausfeld family -- Tim, 45, Karen, 43, Christina, 21, Tony, 19, and Kelley, 15 -- either has Lyme or is believed to have it.Karen Hausfeld went more than a decade before being diagnosed in January. Now, she can no longer work or keep up with household chores. During the night, she has full-body tremors and can't sleep."This thing is going to get me. I know that," she said. "In the meantime, I'm not going to let it make me a prisoner in my own house. I still have to live, and I have to set an example for my children."Karen believes she contracted the disease while living in Ashburn, but she doesn't remember being bitten by a tick or seeing a rash. Doctors tested for Lyme more than once, but the results were consistently negative.Doctors told her she had everything from fibromyalgia to Bell's palsy. She's had numerous surgeries to repair connective joint tissue."I've had surgery after surgery after surgery," she said. "I feel like I'm 103, instead of 43."Karen's son, Tony, felt his entire body suddenly become paralyzed two summers ago due to Lyme. He went into a week-long coma before taking three months of rehabilitation to learn again how to talk, walk and take care of himself. He tested negative for Lyme until last January.In another corner of Loudoun off Hillsboro Road, 17-year-old Zach Pittinger has Lyme disease, and his father, Jeff, might also have it.Zach spends most of his time with his mother in Beltsville, Md., but he may have contracted Lyme in Loudoun.He was diagnosed about 10 years ago and took a few weeks of oral antibiotics. Soon afterward, the disease either came back or he was reinfected.Every six to eight weeks throughout much of Zach's childhood and adolescence, he came down with flu-like symptoms; as a result he missed a lot of school.Last summer, Zach's mental health took a turn for the worse. "I'd have so many thoughts, I'd write things down on pieces of paper and stick them all over my room," he said.On Sept. 15, 2005, Zach had a psychotic episode that landed him in Sheppard Pratt, a mental institution in Maryland, for two weeks."I thought my mom and dad were literally attacking me," he said. "Here are the people you trust your whole life, and they turn on you. It was like something out of a sci-fi movie."A few months later, Zach moved from Maryland to Loudoun to be with his father, who worked from home because Zach needed full-time care.In June, Zach completed an aggressive eight-week treatment of intravenous antibiotics administered via PIC line, or a peripherally inserted central catheter. The PIC line pumps high doses of antibiotics straight to the heart through a vein in the upper arm. He said he's feeling better.Zach completed his junior year of high school through an alternative half-day program at Douglass School in Leesburg. He's back in Beltsville with his mother and hopes to graduate on time next year in Maryland.Meanwhile, Margarite d'Arsinoe recently completed an eight-week antibiotic PIC line treatment at the new outpatient infusion clinic at Inova Loudoun Hospital."I'm here to say this has saved my life," she said. "I'm going to be the Erin Brockovich of Lyme. I have a voice."The federal government is currently recruiting individuals for Lyme disease clinical trials in Maryland, California and abroad. For information, visit www.clinicaltrials.gov .Contact the reporter at [email protected]©Times Community Newspapers 2007
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//////// / Daryl Hannah -[as Sabine] on set of Wildflowers, w/ blue tiger [M. d'Arsinoe
ZOROASTER,--XENOPHON,-PYTHAGORAS,-SHEL SILVERSTEIN,-MIRCEA ELIADE,-SUN TZU-,GERICAULT,-LARRY MOYERS,-E.CALIL,-ADNAN-'-WE live at torkham border,DREAM OF CHINGHIS KHAN'-, ,-MARY GRIGONIS,-STEVE LEWIS,-JOHN HUSTON,-HAROLD BLOOM-, STEPHEN J. HAWKINS,-DR. MICHIO KAKU-, OLIVER SACHS-,RAY BRADBURY, -CESAR MILLAN,-RICHARD BURTON [BOTH!]-,LYNN MAGRUDER,MY MAMA,SHE MADE IT ALL POSSIBLE, AND THEN SOME !!- DESSA, my BRILLIANT GIRL, EMILIE FROMONT,-SHE LOVED ME.-JOHN B WHITE. HE WAS MY FATHER..MORE, A BEST FRIEND. - SAMANTHA J., HER BEAUTIFUL STRENGTH, COMPASSION, WISDOM--ETC..ETC..-,RON BENNINGTON & FEZ WHATLEY [RON & FEZ] i heard them on radio first time,driving through so many flags, night of September 11.'01.LOVE YOU, BUDDIES!! --OPIE & ANTHONY & JIM NORTON- learned to linger longer, as worlds collided-THANK YOU !KAREN, my saviour & warm heart, REMY CHEVALIER--OUT OF GURDJIEFF..WE WERE 17.-, GERAPO, CAMARON, CURRO CAMACHO, PILAR ALVAREZ, MANITAS DE PLATA...THE DREAM MADE REAL--Shel Silverstein, ~~''she chews buttons & howls at the moon''~~GATE 5 days..,HEAVENORE.-WE SAILED ,IN A TINY RAFT, EATING GARLIC ON RITZ....MR. ARMEGEDDON ENGINEERING--WHO NEEDS TRANSLATION! MAX THE KNIFE..,PAGANS ---NEVER GOT CHANCE TO THANK YOU, TIMES YOU RESCUED ME.-MY AUNT ANN, UNCLE BOB-A BRILLIANT SCIENTIST-[ROBERT DeMARS]-HE WILL CREATE A VACCINE FOR H.I.V.... MY FABULOUS/FAMOUS/GENIUS COUSIN--THE GREAT AUTHOR--JUNE BAILEY WHITE 'MAMA MAKES UP HER MIND'...F. FELLINI., ANTHONY QUINN., LENNY BRUCE,GEORGE CARLIN,TAVIS SMILEY, MARTIN PURYEAR, FRANCIS BACON, JIM [VETERAN'S P.T.S.D. PORTAL] the visions that never abandoned me, as i did them..the many hands that bravely kept me from drowning.Melissa Painter, 13 when i met her, she wrote/directed/ movie 'WILDFLOWERS' -Daryl Hannah, as Sabine [me], what can i say ??? D.Ironside, gave me first congas, & encouraged my love those drums. CHARLIE ROSE---WHAT A GUY !! I HAD HUGE HONOR TO BE INTERVIEWED BY HIM!!,-KEN RINGLE, OF WASH. POST., WROTE A STRONG STORY ABOUT MY FIRST EXHIBIT--AT--GOVINDA GALLERY/ CHRIS MURRAY !! WE WERE 16---- HE GAVE ME 3 FABULOUS SHOWS!! THANKS !!!! G.W. HOSPITAL--BRITTANY BOYD, WRITER FOR LOUDOUN/TIMES MIRROR--MADE OUR ['silent epidemic'-lyme disease] STORIES REAL FOR OTHERS.. NINA HYDE...A TRUE HEROE---WE LOVE, AND MISS YOU. THOSE MANY UNSUNG HEROES--I WISH I COULD FIND YOU, THANK =YOU..SOME, WASH.D.C.,P.D., N.Y.C., PD., VA.STATE TROUPERS, LOUDOUN SHERIFFS--SO PATIENT, KIND.... PAUL REICKHOFF----GREAT MAN--NOT LETTING ANYONE IGNORE OUR TROUPS, AND , our VETERANS.- come BACK SOON!--
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