"I don't mind living in a man's world, as long as I can be a woman in it." -Marilyn Monroe
...me? ... many nicknames, seen many things, and I know I must have 9 lives. I honestly love when I say so, I'm trying my best to understand this earth and it seems to get tougher everyday. People.. one moment they are unbelievably beautiful and the next, they are just like animals. I'm making it like all of us.. because of the beauty all around .. and god.. and the pure fact that Life just goes right on. Everything passes.. you can do anything.
Some know this chic (me) by Xev, Lady Xev, Ravenna, Dawn, Bella, Jade, Angel, Siren, Miss, Phoenix, Oracle, sunshine.. (those are the ones used most) and there are more HAHA to many to mention.. what the heck is my Real name again? Most know me by at least one of those.. *wink* I prefer CatWoman or Selina of course.. LoLz such is life. ***Meow.***
Interests?? Gemini here.. everything!
..First, ALL of The ARTS.. Anything that attacks the SENSES, that touches the soul, that reaches out to others.
You name it I've tried all I could get my little paws on.... Dance... Drama/Acting, Singing, Music (consuming it or creating it), Writing (poetry/story), Also abstract painting, pencil sketching, photography, ceramics, ALL ARTS, Expression, Spirit!!! I spend most of my own "Artistic energy" Writing... Poetry/songs/stories or whatever I'm asked to write (..or what POPS into my head while I grab a napkin and lip-liner to catch it and get it down. Usually while driving (very common lol)
Otherwise you call something "ART" and you've got my Interest.. I love to Experiment and test things out..
....I've always been a Dreamer.... I Learned to Dream by women WISE enough to Teach me to.
I grew up being taught to DANCE by my mom and grandmother (who was once a dance instructor in the 40's :) and a complete DIVA if you ask me.. XOXO grandma.. I miss you sooooooooo much!)
LIFE is ALL in the DANCE ...the Movement, Feeling, Beat/Pulse Light Spins Turns, & Corners, the unpredictable, the comfortable, the Music, The DANCE... That is the most important thing that I learned about this crazy LIFE.
I learned the dancers "motto" for all of Life.... It's a simple one.. but VERY POWERFUL.. You must Stand TALL, keep FACE, Hold your chin UP, keep Poise and Grace, and always WALK ON... Just keep dancing.. ALL of life IS a dance... and you always keep that dance going...
Like Al Pacino says in "Scent of a Woman".. "You can't make a mistake in the Tango.. if you get all "tangoed up".. you just.. Tango on..."
Besides the Artistic (expression of all kinds)...
Psychology is a great passion for me, I've studied since I was 6 it is my Major and what I've always wanted to do... and WILL do.
I also try to see the strong things around me.. in nature.. and in people.. and learn from them.. SO I have a love for Crows.. and for Dandelions.. as a child in Illinois I grew up with them all around me.. so strong.. so unbeatable..... those kinds of things INSPIRE me.
The most beautiful and STRONG little Flower anywhere.. :) Did you know that the dandelion is the only flower that has stopped evolving? I guess when you can grow right out of the middle of concrete, you are done evolving. *grins* ... as a girl I used to say that if I ever found "the one" he would bring me Dandelions instead of Roses... ;)
Ever since I was 5 I have LOVED every single thing that has anyting to do with IRELAND!!!! I used to say to people that "God made Ireland so that those people who wanted to go to heaven could have a place to go to feel like they were there".. Ireland was the closest thing God made to it..
There is just something magical about Ireland.. something no other place could ever have. I still feel this way. And hope to retire there if I become a very lucky old woman!!!
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Once you find out what it's like to wake up & see how easy it could've been to not have woken ~ you realize how tiny and precious and Unique your Life is!!! SO LIVE now!! What a gift all of every sense is!!! ..don't waste a SINGLE MOMENT....... ALL of LIFE.. living.. ART and Beauty are important. All need to be chased each day!!
I try to surround myself with Life, Love, People, new thoughts, debating, Living, philosophies, sensuality, Dreams, Ideas, There is more to life out there.. than one person can ever ever experience.. there is a lot that I haven't gotten to yet!
......oh just too much to see... MEOW!!!
I want to enjoy EVERY moment, each breath, touch, word, sound.. every idea.. every chance. I intend to continue to open my eyes into everything.. (Ill get just as far as I can reach).
If your inner SOUL is alive You are very blessed... My favorite Actor (Rutger Hauer) has a wonderful scene from Blade-Runner that Explains just WHY ***we must chase our Passions no matter how small*** watch that movie!! I usually put a clip here but his speech is not online now, Ill put it up when it comes back. *winks
"A perfect Blossom is a Rare thing.. you could spend your whole life looking for it... and it would Not be a wasted Life" -Hirotoro (Samurai)
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"I walked a mile with Pleasure, She chattered all the way; But left me none the wiser, for all she had to say. I walked a mile with Sorrow And ne'er a word said she; But, oh, the things I learned from her When Sorrow walked with me!" - Robert Browning Hamilton
I can say now that "The bullet's quit the gun." I've gotten away...... and This VIDEO ..Reminds me.. of the day I got away. I flew off in a plane ..once in the sky.. I felt so strange. I can't explain the feeling. It felt like I was back ..with my own self.
"First principle: "One must Need strength, otherwise one will never have it." -Nietzsche 1899
It was a Mess of struggle, love, pain, guilt, blame, confusion, isolation, waiting, fixing, helping, crying, praying, dodging bullets, avoiding things that crumble who you are.... There is a word for it and I never knew I'd be one of those women that it would happen to. It will NEVER happen again. You can swear that to any grave or to god above. "Abuse" they call it. And it was my own husband.. I never knew or saw or thought.., and NO I did not deserve it, and I am not wrong for Leaving. It's not wrong to save what is left of your heart and spirit. I know my spirit was dying. Aug 06, that is when I arrived here in Arizona.. when I came here I had nothing left. Just boxes and memories and a lot of confusion. It wasn't physical abuse it was emotional, the type that psychology says is more dangerous because of invisible bruises. I got brave in AZ and joined groups, a psychologist and figured things out for myself. So since then its been 2 years of cleaning up what I did not even realize got trashed in my life.. Everyday I am getting stronger and back to me.. it is hard but to feel again who I really and truly am THAT is WORTH IT.
*smiles* I stole this from a friends page.. I LOVE it.
So many have been through this. Its not embarasing or to private.. unless you want to pretend that we have no struggle in life. It's honest. I want to be one woman that says it happens, it blinds you, but FIGHT your way OUT! You will ee the warrior you have in you.. (smiles) I was lucky to see that part of me and I pray a lot that more people get to realize they don't need anything they think they do. Let go of this world, and you will make your spirit stronger ~ Fly .. because you are ALREADY free.
KILL BILL is everywhere right now lol. I love that film (both 1 and 2) Survivors have always been my favorite characters. The bride (beatrix), or Aliens Lt. Ripley, or Vader, ultraviolet, Catherine Tramell, valeria, Sil, and the actresses that always play those roles, Marlene Dietrich, Sharon Stone, bettie davis, Gretta Garbo, I loved Marilyn Monroe in the Misfits.. her last film. So right now.. Kill bill will be sticking around this page for awhile.. *smiles*
Blind love n lies is no new story. What they don't tell you about is the fog that clears out of your mind clears slowly.. you don't see CLEAR until you are away from that person. The Heart, soul and mind get CUT up.. BUT they all heal when the cuts stop for good. What I know now I learned from studying like CRAZY. I didn't just wake up and see. It takes work to learn about personalities and abuse and what it all really is, not what the media says. After all this........... I try to help fight against it by putting knowledge out there for anyone else who might be blinded... See my page right here on Myspace!! .. www.myspace.com/_emotionalabuse
....I am active in it now with a website and anything else I can do to make a difference. My Website is in my FRIENDS section if you want to visit. You can't forget that those who get away shouldn't leave the ones still there behind.
I had unfinished business with that person just like the bride in Kill Bill. Like she says, "I roared and I rampaged.." And I am happy to say I've won....
Reality is always stranger than fiction. Yep I'm still healing.. but I know I am on the right path and I can feel sunlight again.. Living here in Arizona I've seen so many NEW beautiful things.. just the SIGHT of a mountain can make you realize what is important.
Don't WASTE a moment in life.. know that you deserve MORE. You should be treated like the PERSON and the DIAMOND and the treasure that you ARE.. psychology states that abusive personalities are drawn to the giving or caring or empathetic kinds of people... to gems. Think about that.
...ROTJ ..yah.. gotta love it.. in the end.. betrayer gets betrayed.
I just want to mention..... there are some great and beautiful Ladies that I had thh honor to know in the last year& 1/2 ....they have not made it through the abuse.. they are gone, they were murdered in last year 1/2. And no it did NOT start with physical abuse, it was emotional abusers that did this, lovers that never raised a HAND to hit them, don't ignore and underestimate the crass or sarcastic or cruel or strange things.. make sure you are SAFE (..and your kids).
Example: I saw 3 victims get killed and 1 detective as well... why? All because of 1 emotional abuser and his father. I'm not going to tell that story now but I saw one woman rise out of those ashes and become even more AMAZING than she thought she ever could be. She knows exactly who she is. And that I really don't have words to explain how I feel about her. Just DON'T underestimate or believe the blaming. And don't assume others will protect you or tell you or anything. YOU have to fight your battle. Just because there are no bruises doesn't mean there is no shark in the water.. I know it really can happen to anyone, I never ever ever saw that TRAIN coming.
Even Marilyn experienced it.. even Sharon Stone.. ANYONE can end up there.. especially when you are a loving and open hearted person.. they are drawn to opposites.. research learn these things.. its WORTH it.
The candle.. is for them. The 3 who should not have died.. who were beautiful and hurt no one.. but ended up.. leaving us because of the fog. And it is for anyone else waging their own war praying for it to end. Please pray for anyone just starting to grow wings to fly away... To me I'm praying for One person in particular... YOU KNOW WHO YOU ARE HUNNY AND I LOVE YOU more than you think!!!!!! There is not a night I don't think of you, you are blood to me.. nothing has ever stopped my thinking that.
We sow our thoughts, and we reap our actions;
We sow our actions, and we reap our habits;
We sow our habits, and we reap our characters;
We sow our characters, and we reap our destiny.
...Psssssst if you haven't seen KILL BILL.. See it.
Another great one is quentin tarantinos UNKILLABLE. wow that was a great one that slipped through the cracks.
**wanna play?** Be THE BRIDE!! Just click on the PIC of the Bride ICON and PLAY KILL BILL!!!
BELOW You can Be "Beatrix" and fight OREN Ishi's Army called "the crazy 88" try it!
Be the BRIDE and FIGHT press Play Here CLICK ..
Put kill bill in your profile too!
The LINK takes you to another page, and you scroll all the way down to the bottom.. there you press the first button and then use the ARROW KEYS to use your Hanzo Sword!!
QUOTE: "..I've got 2 lives down.. let's see thats.. 7 lives left.. got enough in there to finish me off?!?! ~CatWoman (Selina Kyle)
Nine lives. I love all animals, but I truly truly LOVE the cat.... (9 lives! I relate! *smiles*) CATS always land on their feet.. they are Survivors.. they are aware of who they are, what they deserve, and what they want.
SO many of us are Survivors too.. we've BEEN there and back. I'm one of them.. and when you realize the beauty in life, in each breath.. you end up trying your best to LIVE...
....NINE lives....
Just on 6/26/07 I got news again I was in danger. And I have survived something deadly, I had pre-cancer cells underneath my cervix and I thank God that I was ABLE to have the surgery on 7/10/07 that takes the cells out!! The doctor has told me that I am healing up healthy now.. I will keep testing and he says I will probably never get them again! For the rest of my life though I need to test every 3 mo. I tested 01/08 and was clear, I want to frame the paper that says that. I probably should have gone (a few times!) but lately I've met a few more like me out there!!! I really love all of you.
...My Kitties...
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Lil Miss Kyle Adopted by Lady Xev
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Don't forget Say HI and pet "lil cherry" and "lil Miss Kyle" Named after the Great Cat-Woman *(Selina Kyle)*
I remember a Scene in kill bill when (the bride) woke up from her coma and her feet would not move, she focused on them.. saying "WIGGLE your Big toe" over and over.
....She slowly got her toe back, then as she said her "other little piggies", her feet, and her legs.. and that's how it has been. Step by step my heart grows its wings.. feather by feather, the fire of a phoenix renews me.. out of the ashes there is always rebirth.
I've met so many other women out there that are SURVIVORS!! We strengthen one another. I will Never be a cat in a cage again. I prowl for myself now....
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WHO?? ........
MANY people. So many people that have come and gone.
I would have lovvvvved to have met Norma Jeane Mortensen (aka marilyn monroe). I adore Norma. She was a TRUE woman to me. So many things about her real life that I relate to as well. I recognize her strength, I have looked to her for courage for a real long time.
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Visit my new page Memories of Marilyn!!!
I'd want to ask her how she got through it all (the little things) and one day I hope to see her in the life beyond this. I so wish she was still here with us, she was very wise, very very intelligent, and had so much to say.. She was taken from our world by someone and gone far too soon... xoxoxoxoxo
....Hmmm...Who else?
Well "V" if he were a man and not only an "Idea" wink..
Those that speak out and those that plan for a better future and do their part.. they are really who "V" (the man in room 5) truly IS. I'd love to be one of them, meet them and find more of them. *winks
..... to me, V (below) seems like a modern Prince charming.. (IMO There is absolutely nothing Sexier than a truthfully Confident, Honest, tender, Spiritually STRONG (and Very Well-SPOKEN (yowzzza)) man.. yes I've a weakness for the "well spoken".. *giggles* (but dont-cha try to trick me, I'll notice!) (haha) To me V is very beautiful. All men are, yet some.. because of their soul, stand out.
....... the most interesting people that I have met were people like all of us... I've met famous and some hidden away gems and a few shouting to the world, they are all just normal.. meaning crazy like the rest of us. LoL. I've never met anyone that was not incredibly interesting.
I really miss those that are gone now, but I Love those who still remain, who I can still sit with, talk with, be with, share memories with, and be silent with.
Mia in pulp fiction says "Thats when you know you've found someone really special, when you can just shut the F^^^ up for a second and enjoy a Moment of silence..."
......So who? ..EVERYONE.. (You!!) I am VERY curious There is a craving in me to know everyone and reach people, it's ALWAYS been there. I LOVE to meet those that just can't hold it all in!! I've always wanted to meet Absolutely Everyone before my days are through....
I've met so many great people just by going to the strangest places and seeking them out. I miss my friends back home in Chicago!! And here I really look forward to meeting the new people, seeing new ideas, new cultures..
Artists, Free spirits, People that LIVE, Open minded people, Flirts like me, Expressive originals, the Curious, the Thinkers, The poets, the artists.. the Dreamers, the unafraid, the bold, the unsure, the thinkers, leaders, lovers, EVERYONE! ..we are all endlessly fascinating..
...UPDATE...
......... I Caught stage fright at age 9 from an experience of something that happened around that age. Grrrr. Since I was very little, Acting has been so close to me. Something that I needed to have in my life then.. imagination and storytelling, empathy and consideration of other lives different from my own.. the ability to express what I am feeling about a character or circumstance through that artform (acting).. I love it. And I want to keep that art in my life for good. I need help to get over stage fright!! This life is for the taking.. I just need a Lift. Is there Anyone with ANY experience in that? Let me know... maybe there is someone who has some advice......
Most of all..
Id love to meet Honest and real people. Truly Un-selfish, smaller ego people.. Those not afraid to Live in life, or to give/share life with all the people, to be open-minded and open-hearted.. "life is just life" so don't hold yourself or anyone else's standards but your own heart..
Nothing's certain in this life.. only that god's with us and what we find out for ourselves ..is true. I know we exist to be here for each other.
I will be prowling around a lot here you can bet on it, to find more people to meet.. I want to meet all who already share this LIFE with me.. In reality we are already all very connected. Never underestimate how close we all are! The world is small and you are never more than 3 people away from anyone, I've learned that!
...I love meeting those interested in Similar things.. OR completely different things!!..
...I want to see, touch, taste, and feel Everything... I LOVE meeting/touching/communicating/being with people when I can. It's not uncommon to spot me talking for 3 hours with a stranger... the best times it is someone completely different than me... I love to think the way "you" think.. to feel what life is like for someone else.. (even if just for a moment).
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"Curiosity Killed the Cat, BUT Revelation brought her back!!!"
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"Those who danced were thought to be quite insane by those who could not hear the music.†~Angela Monet
The Silence of the Stars out here has taught me how musical Silence can be... Beautiful and full of Dreams...
....MUSIC....
Music? I grew up a DaNcer! So...All of it!! From the beginnings to the end.... The Empathy you learn while your learning to move to each sound, each cue, every emotion in the sound.. you NEVER forget that.....if it has SOUL I will Love it.
.......First....MADONNA.......
Since I was about 5yrs old I've looked up to her inner STRENGTH, RAW honesty, Dance ability, and MOST OF ALL HER COURAGE (She is a real DANCER taught very harshly by Martha GRAHM!)
!!! U2 !!!
(Paul Hewson) aka Bono/U2 .. No other band has done what they have. The Poetry the music is based on is exceptional, inspiring.. its simple concepts and tangible dreams reach everyone.. I respect Paul for who he has tried to become.. not to mention for trying to make this Earth a little smarter..
Then.. The Doors have music that just soothes my inner soul.. PURE PSYCHOLOGY and poetry.. truth told without censorship. Especially LIVE!!! They represent **THE DOORS of perception.
Jim Morrison is also one of my favorite Poets.. It takes much honesty and courage to mix the tremendous beauty/sensuality of life with the Darker sides of truth (like yin yang)
I only wish that he had as many fans of his Poetry and film as he does his music. He wanted to be a FILM maker.. there is only one film out there that he has finished.....
JIM also reminds me deeply of my uncle who past away.. way too soon and in the same way (heroin).. they were much to alike in the heart (storytellers, beauty seekers, partiers, people who just never found their "place" here) for me to "forget". Completely Crazy and loving but Tough when it came to it.. but so soft hearted within.. I love you Uncle Rich!!! See you again ...
Then of COURSE David Bowie..(what can I say.. my complete Weakness since age 9!!!!!) When it comes to describing David Bowie.. I can't seem to find words.. "BRAVE" comes to mind. (I'm being good.. Bowie is .. exceptional)
There is no WAY I can list everyone I enjoy.. I LOVE all music!!!! Most that grow up learning to Dance.. WILL Love all music for the rest of their lives!
(Out of many...) Ella Fitzgerald, Goldfrapp, all of the music of the last 100 years 20s, 30's, 40's, 50's-60's, the 70's!!, 80's, 90's, and today too.. I love it ALLLL.
...hmm also Bobby Darin, NEIL YOUNG, B.B. king, Johnny Cash, DMX, Sinatra, Fiona Apple, Tina Turner, Marylin Monroe, Pearl Jam, The Church, John Lennon, Fleetwood Mac, Sheryl Crow, Melissa Ethridge, Pink Floyd, Garbage, Tori Amos, Stevie Nicks, The Cranberries, The Eagles, Nirvana, ALL the motown singers, Radio Head, Mary J Blige, Julian Lennon, KHZ, Signal Room, Chris Issak, Nine Inch Nails, Kylie Minogue, Christina Aguillera, Enigma, Enya, Marlene Dietrich, No Doubt, Janet Jackson & Michael, Gorillaz!, Zepplin, Avril Lavigne, ((((Dont look for a pattern here you won't find one. I love it ALLLL)))) ..Any Divas so I can practice.. I LOVE to sing!! (allllll music.)
I LOVE at least ONE song from every artist I ever come across. Everyone has something beautiful to say...
Since my Hometown is Chicago.. I love Chicago Blues especially played by strangers in the street on a chilly gray day.... Gospel and MOTOWN is also a big part of Chi-town. Also Acid jazz or ANY any jazz
Mmm.. can't forget abstract music, Improv, new age, meditative and Electronica, the 40s big band, even disco (yes it rocks!) ...I LOVE the music I hear at festivals, the New bands, the unusual, the unseen artists, CELTIC AND IRISH music of ANY KIND AT ALL (I love Ireland)!!!!
ALL multi-cultural music ~ India, Eastern/Japanese, belly dancing music, Native American DRUMS or Flute... the Music you can only hear live at Re-Inactments.. (of historical time periods), the beginnings of music instrumentals, and Music from all different cultures, the music that speaks with no Lyrics..
LOVE Movie Soundtracks too.. like those of ALIEN (all of them), SPECIES 1, Blade Runner, pulp fiction, Wolf, Basic instinct, kill bill, Ghost in the Shell, Dances with Wolves, Ultraviolet, so many great movie soundtracks..
THE BEST ARE THE Sound-Tracks with music by composer Jerry Goldsmith!!!! I ADORE his sound. He is known to make music with forks if he has to.. got his start on the twilight zone.. Elliot Goldenthal is also amazzzzing.
Music can move me so so so easily.
....OOOOoh and If you know where to find great Japanese Music (cultural) please tell me!!! *WINK*
Music is just like spoken word or human sound.. when we make a sound or use a tone we are expressing emotion.. emotion that can be recognized..
That sound alone is recognized as a kind of language that tells the listener something.. So since music is made up of these "tones and sounds".. it is the same..
Each audible note IS already in itself an Emotion. One that we all have in us. One that we recognize.
Test it! Play a note or tune to any random person in this world & it that person will "FEEL" either the same exact type of emotion that another will guess that they feel, or they will sense something VERY similar.
SO.. as I see it, every form of music has its own Beauty. It is a part of us.. we dont really create it.. we only ALLOW it to come out..
That makes it verrrry hard for me to pick Favorites!!!
I love just about all I hear. Anything with FIRE and some feeling that what I'm hearing is Real... I'm ALWAYS looking to find out what others love!! New music, new discoveries! SHOW Me what you got!!!! I enjoy ALL music with meaning, with a lightning bolt.. it doesn't matter what type it is.
...I DID say all of it didn't I? ...You were warned.....wink wink
Movies/Film
I love Film, Drama, ExPrEsSiOn.. stories.. I've always believed that fiction is just a mirror of what is already real.. (what was, what is, or what could be).
It is a way of taking many things that already exist and combining them together to Teach.. to fascinate.. and to help us survive. We've told stories around the fire since we first took steps on this Earth... stories are essential to being human, forming culture.. creating dreamers.. without dreamers the world would cease to spin.
This may take some time LoL ...IMAGE can be like a bullet to the Heart... And the Eye is the window to the Soul...
.....So, What to watch? What to take IN?
FIRE.......
"If mothers ruled the world, there would be no g-d wars in the first place!" Sally Field, 2007 Emmys
.....FIRST I want to list my favorite Actors/Actresses because I am pretty Loyal to whatever any of them do.
Any artist can tell when there just is no real Fire...BUT in the midst of all that there are also some hidden Diamonds.. The Actors/actresses that may not pick the Perfect roles.. but Glow with the talent that is just not being tapped, yet still just leaks right out....
It's those actors tend to become my favorites... I will watch the films of my Favorite actors no matter what.. rain or shine/good, bad/ugly, lol...
My favorite Actor .. Rutger Hauer!! I love Everything that man does...!!!
...and since I was 5 I've LOVED loved loved Everything James Earl Jones!!... EVERYthing!!!
I truly look up to the strong women that happen to be actresses as well.. Sigourney weaver and Sharon Stone (a survivor of abuse and cancer) being my top two favorite actresses....
....The Diamonds....
Sharon Stone, Sigourney Weaver, Nicole Kidman, Gretta Garbo, Natasha Henstridge, Xenia Seeberg, Traci Lords, Claudia Black, Katherine Hepburn, Hugo Weaving, Rebecca De'Mornay, Hayden Christensen, Michelle Pheiffer, John Hurt, Sir Anthony Hopkins, Kenneth Branagh, Uma Thurman, Christopher Walken, Al Pacino, Val Kilmer, Lucy Liu, Johnny Depp, Wayne Pygram, Judi Dentch, David Bowie, Vin Diesel, Elizabeth Taylor, Vincent D'Onofrio, Salma Hayek, Demi Moore, Max VonSydow, Lief VanCleif, Marlene Dietrich, Sandahl Bergman, Kevin Spacey, Jack Nicholson, Bette Davis, Jane Russell, The Great Vincent Price, Cary Grant, Marlon Brando, Richard Harris... (oh this list goes ON..)
......you get the idea.
Anything Greta Garbo!!!.....
Or Marlene Dietrich....
I've adored Katherine since I was 8...
...oh yes and ANY single thing Marilyn Monroe!!! xoxo...
I just wish she had the chance to show us her inner passion, her Dramatic.... THAT was her dream...
..Norma Jeane Mortenson...
......Favorite FILMS........
My Number ONE Forever: ALIEN...the whole Saga.
This film has...
==My fave director, Ridley Scott..
==My Fave actress, Sigourney Weaver..
==My Fave surrealist artist/painter H.R. Giger, giger.com.
==AND fave musician, Jerry Goldsmith,
ALL together!! Where do you ever find that? You don't!!
(Aliens, Alien3, Alien Resurection) Part 4 is my favorite story of all time, so I call it my fave movie (even though the director is terrible! grr) I LOVE the character number 8. Relating to her, I may get that 8 tatoo SOON. An amazing story!
Here is a Pic of my fave scene from Alien Ressurection...
... Ripley 8 is Born...
..Next closest to my heart.. 2nd fave saga, Starwars ALL of them 1-6. Not really a starwars fan.. I've always been an ANAKIN fan.. anakin/vader... wondering about that character since I was 6. And his story is Very very close to my heart.
...and WITH that saga I have superglued to the case of ep3 the new film V for Vendetta!! (yes I did)
..Why? Because V for Vendetta just belongs super glued to the SW saga. Remember V saying "It means I, like god, do not play with dice and do not believe in coincidence.." V
....a Johnny Cash song.. set to scenes ABOVE.. really good.
FAITH is their only ally. Men of great great FAITH.. tremendous Faith in what CAN be..... It is that FAITH is what strikes me most about the two characters.
No matter how long the wait, no matter what pain, what memories, their faith is rewarded in the end and they gain victory....A great lesson.. to have FAITH. They also both die in the arms of someone who Truly loves them for who they Really are and always were.
..When I was 5 my fave movie was Conan the barbarian.. oh dont laugh!.. it's because of James earl JOnes and Sandahl Bergman playing the warrior queen of theives VALERIA!!
...As for the Rest... The films you will find stuck in the DVD player, the ones that scream "WATCH ME" pretty often.. (Besides my AeonFlux Anime LOL) ..are these...
Basic Instinct 1, Basic Instinct Two,.... Kill Bill One and Two.. ....Sphere!!, Contact, The Hitcher!!, The Road to Freedom!, THX-1138, The Cell!, Blade Runner!, Labyrinth!, Species!, Dead Calm, Pitch Black, Chronicles of Riddick!, Shattered Glass (a true story), Pale Rider, The Muse, INSTINCT!, Finders Fee (hillarious), Ghost in the Shell, The Lion in Winter, Pulp Fiction .. ,The Road to Freedom!!, The Cube!, Unbreakable, The Complete AEON FLUX Anime Collection (NOT the film), Ultra-Violet!, Billy Jack!, Silence of the Lambs, The Last of the Samurai, Fight-Club, Scent of a Woman.... Tombstone!!!, (4 Val Kilmers DocHoliday!)
Memoirs of a Geisha, GIA, Minority Report, The Matrix, Faraway So Close, All About Eve!, Dr. Stragelove (or How I learned to stop worrying and love the bomb), The Others, Mars Attacks, Eyes Wide Shut, I Heart Huckabees, Anger Management, Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy, Nell, Moulin Rouge, The Joy Luck Club, Capote, The Million Dollar Hotel, Queen Catherine!!, All About Eve!, ALL MARILYN MOVIES!!, What about Baby, Whos that Girl, Hedwig & the angry inch, Mr. and Mrs. Smith, The great white hope, The blood of Heros, Wolf, Hamlet (only with Kenneth Branhaugh), Blind Justice, The long kiss goodnight, Charlies Angels FULL throttle (for Demi's Madison!!), Shadow of the Vampire, The man who fell to Earth, Halloween 1,2,3,4, (for Dr. Loomis), Hellraiser 1-4, The Village, Gladiator, 2001, 2010, Galaxy Quest, Hell-Child (with Xenia Seeberg) ...Batman Returns, for the BEST Catwoman EVER!!... ....Poltergeist, Ghost Busters, Final Fantasy the Spirits within, One Flew over the Cukoos Nest, For a Few dollars more, The Big Lebowski, What About Bob, Un-forgiven, The Misfits (Marilyn's last film) OH SO much more!!!!
ALL Marilyn Monroe Films!!!! All Gretta Garbo!!!!, Katherine Hepburn, Bette Davis, anything on the CLASSICs channel!!! Or Depp films, ALL of Vincent Price.. lol OH the list is Just too long here.. but those are some of the tops. wink
...Also ANY films Directed by, Ridley Scott,!!! Just everything with real Empathy....with FIRE!!!...
I LOVE films.. from black and white/early talkies to 2010.. You get the idea.
........Here below is more A L I E N...
...The Xenomorph (alien)...
...LOVE this creature!!!
...The Woman...
..Lt. Ellen Ripley last survivor of the Nostromo..
...The Queen...
...The Sacrifice...
...The REBIRTH..Clone Number 8...
"My mommy always told me there were no monsters, no Real ones... but there are.." -Newt (alien2) -Ripley8 (alien4)
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The Writer of ALIEN has said that his story came from the inspiration he found in surrealist artist H.R. Gigers creations.
He saw Gigers Book "Gigers Necronomicon" in the 70's. He had to have one of those creatures come to life. And it happened.....Giger also did the artwork for movies like Poltergiest, Dune, and he created SIL for Species...
...by Giger (visit www.giger.com)
H.R. Giger is My all time favorite artist. He is a surrealist, but I see him as a Realist.. One who sees the YIN and YANG, the absolutely beautiful and the grotesque, the evil and hope, the destruction and the Creation.....and bravely displays it.. displays US.. He paints a mirror of our realities.
You Should Be an Actor
You Should be an Actor.. You have a Flair for the Dramatic, and you probably already do a lot of "acting" in your day to day life, just to entertain Yourself. You may crave to tell the stories that acting can help you tell.
No need to steal the spotlight.. You'll get plenty of attention if you start Acting professionally!
What Sort of Artist Should You Be? ..if you're an artist, take the Quiz! Its a good one. :)
CHALLENGE.... THINK YOU KNOW ANAKIN? TRY YOUR LUCK AT MY QUIZ? I CREATED A "HOW WELL DO YOU KNOW ANAKIN" QUIZ... the ones who do best will be rated Highest on the List.
JUST CLICK ON THE QUIZ AND YOU CAN GET THERE AND SEE HOW YOU SCORE.. you can take it as many times as you want!
Sooo HOW WELL DO YOU KNOW ANAKIN?
...lol thanx to those who do take it hehehe!!
..T.V.. Somehow this Quote pops into my head...
Trevor: "Everything you need only I can give." AEON: "You can't give it.. can't even buy it.. and you just don't GET it." -Aeon Flux anime
I did stop flat in my tracks to watch "AEON FLUX" when it was on the AIR. And I OWN the whole collection!! Wish there was more! (NOT the film it's just not Aeon.)
Be my GUEST and ENJOY a BIT OF the real AEON.. ..BELOW!!!
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I try to stay "out of the box".. I don't watch much TV.. I even miss my fave shows most of the time LoL. There are treasures, you just have to really dig for them. If a show stops me, grabs me and makes me think.. I may watch.
Usually I go for the UN-usual on tv... I love to watch what will make me watch just to laugh at "t.v." itself.. I am a big big LEXX fan... (some of you can tell WINK)
I Love to watch THE GHOST IN THE SHELL SAC (for the major), And relax to anything Adult Swim... at night it is so serene and such a great mixture of Artists.. famous and new-coming.. The Boon-Docks, Inuyasha, Fullmetal Alchemist, Cowboy Beebop, Neon Evangelion, Bleach, ETC. Amime has SO much to say about Psychology, luv it..
Love BattleStar Gallactica! (mostly for "number 6", her use of Psych and all the incredible psychology involved in all of every character!!)
Join me in a Quiz?
What Battlestar Gallactica Character Are You Most Like?
Number Six
Your personality is more like Number Six. No one really understands you all that well, but maybe your prefer it that way. You use your looks, wiles, and cunning to achieve any goal you set for yourself. One moment warm and nice, the next whatever it takes to get the job done. Your intensity and drive is impressive and complicated, as is your ability to manipulate the way people think. Just be careful - playing with thought can be more dangerous than most believe.
Take The Quiz Now! WINK......
I am loyal to law and order Criminal Intent!!! Love to see GhostHunters! on Sci-Fi.. it's amazing to watch. And on Fridays there is Most Haunted I Love paranormal or shows that can Teach me something, get me THINKing.. If something Teaches me a new idea or Expresses thoughts I've not dreamt up Ill be watching...
I love the NASA channel for the silent videos, Discovery channel, Democracy now interviews, I also love the new CHILLER channel for the old shows like Hitchcock presents and Night Gallery! Spooky stuff is great at night, puts me to sleep lol (like ALIEN my fave movie - Im never more relaxed) .. Science channel, Logo, Sci-Fi.. Animal planet, or anything with discoveries, insights or dreams.. yah I'm a dreamer.
...As for Drama...
I Laugh through most of anything Six Feet Under!!!, CSI is intriguing.. Judging Amy is great, I think all the shows I really love end up going off the air! Remember Space Ghost?? I don't stop laughing that entire show!!
Number ONE.. I am always pulled right into law&order "Criminal Intent"!! BUT ONLY with Vincent D'Onofrio!! I''ll try to "solve" the Psychology before Detective Gorren does lol. I'm getting there, it is A Great Challenge...
I've studied human psychology since age 6 ...and Vincent plays the BEST kick butt Psychologist I've seen since Dr. Loomis in Halloween. lol.
Strangely it was but characters like Dr. Loomis that got me very curious about psychology at age 6. :) And got me hitting the books even then. I'd love to kick some "ahem" like That when I practice! lol....below is a pic of Dr. Loomis in action lol.. (..the Reason I watch Halloween!!!)
(family tradition each Halloween.. watch Loomis kick butt) The ONLY Dr.Loomis grr There is only one!!!!
I usually end up watching (when I can) the un-usual or the shows with something to SAY. Something they seem to Shout.
....Oh and did I say AEON FLUX? lol.
I also loved Farscape, (when it was on) because, well because it was so OUT THERE.. lol.. and ...ah.. because of a ***terrible*** crush I have had on "Scorpius" since the show began .. oh yes I did say Scorpius. (Quit laughing! Wayne Pygram is a hottie!) whoo.....
This is Scorpius near Sikuzu .. he has a way with the Ladies.. *grins
Please.. lol.. enjoy this bit of Total and complete NONSENSE with Scorpy Vs John!! I LOVE it!! Be warned the clips contain reality and dreams both.. LOL.
Scorpi Vs John
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WHEN I DO WATCH the box I watch for the actors or actresses.. IF I see Empathy.. a good FEEL, a pull, a spark, then you've got me. If not, CLICK.
QUOTE: "..thats.. 8 lives down.. I think.. Ill save one.. for next Christmas.. meantime, how-bout a kiss anti-Claus..???" -Cat-Woman (Phieffer)
.........BOOKS?
...yes! There is not very much out there that I'm not interested in learning about and not many DREAMS that I don't want to hear about... it just has to have FIRE.
...I'm reading now... "Voices and Silences" James Earl Jones (autobiography) It is EXCELLENT. And Im also reading Hannibal Rising which has me hypnotized.
I dip into "The Female" (antique), Forbidden City (antique), and Chikara. SW Dark Apprentice too.. shhhhh. Im finding a lot in antique stores (older but VERY well written amazing stories).
I am NOT one to stick with ONE author or ONE Genre!! You'll find me prowling around in EVERY aisle... Gemini here.. Everything interests me..!! Everything, everyone, every voice, every idea, every book in there.. unless its a commercial idea. ..(*cough*)
MY Motto IN LIFE: "If IT grabs me, I Grab IT...."
I write :) so when I look in a book I really search to find WORK, to find sweat and blood, to find a POINT..
I do love the Bookstore Crazzzze.. LoL.. Love it. Love the ideas, the bands, the talk, the Coffee.. lol...Ever feel like YOU are the Alien though? lol.. It is just a really strange place to go.. if you look at it.. To walk in looking for philosophy and have a starbucks right there with 6 dollar bagels.. $8 dollar Grande, low sugar, Mocha latta chillers, flavored with irish creme & mixed with decaf, replaced with soy, smothered in whipped Cream.. but no sprinkles.. and served HOT but over ice.. (hmmmmm). Just makes me wonder.
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....While there, What do I GRAB??
Well the Coffee first... *wink*
Mystery, Sci-Fi, Autobiography, poetry, psychology, alternative, philosophy, etc.. Anything with a flame of fire brimming from it I'll read.
Some old favorites include...
-An American Night (Jim Morrison) -Marlene Dietrich's ABC --"The soul would have no rainbow if the eyes had no tears" --- LOVE "Philosophies of Art and Beauty" ---"Sex" by Madonna and her other books--- any Jung or Nietzsche or Issac Assimov ANYTHING by Poet Maya Angelou ---"Sex, Time, and Power", --"Wild Women" (bios about real women or any stories of real Women who were "rare") --"The Ground Beneath her feet", --ANY autobiographies (written BY the person who lived the LIFE! lol) Kahlil Gibarahn is had a wonderful l mind as well.. There are so many great books out there.. these are just Some favorites..
For the SW girl in me my favorite by far was the amazing read in "Tatooine Ghost" Yet I do love the way Timothy Zhan writes ..Im a big fan of Mara Jade!
Books are a great escape, a wonderful way to learn about life and survival, a great way to grow... But the best way to LIVE is to go out there and write your own "Book"!!!
We each have ONE in us.... and we know it.. don't afraid to JUSTIFY your love your LIFE and LIVE!! ..your book is yet to end..
.....Favorite Quote.....
~ "Love is Patient, love is Kind..
Love is not envious, jealous or boastful..
It is not arrogant or rude..
Love does not Insist on it's own ways..
It is Not Irritable or Resentful..
It does not rejoice at wrong and wrong doings..
But rejoices in right and Truth..
Love bears all things..
Believes all things..
Hopes all things, Endures all things..
Love never ends.
So faith, hope and love abide these three..
.....But the greatest of these ...is Love" ~
......Heroes......
Survivors.. people who are strong enough to say "no".
The ones who stand up in a crowd without concern for upsetting/distracting/interrupting/rocking the boat of the masses...
The silent Givers.... the ones who speak Loudly for those without voice (or choice)..
The ones who do not want to be listed in any "HERO" category..
People without masks, people that use their masks wisely.
The ones with Empathy get my sympathy.. my
up-most respect.. my prayers.
I look up to those I can learn from.. Strong Women, those who DO and do not just sit and "say".
The ones who LIVE life.. take chances.. overcome mountains in their way... Lift up complete strangers.
The person that smiles at you in a grocery store.
Thinkers.. Lovers.. Leaders..
That person you remember that was unafraid to be his/herself anywhere with anyone.
The ones unafraid to Listen to the Spirit..
GOD is Speaking.. What is being said is repeated only by the brave.. Listen.. you'll hear it...
.."Empathy, no judgment, no condemnation, FREEDOM, every life being equal, love for the loveless.. each strangers face being one in your own mirror.." ..these things scare many people.. But the brave will try to Listen.
.....Have mercy on the lost.. mercy on the fighter.. mercy on the hero who is hidden away behind pain.. mercy on the brother who is not blood.. mercy on the one you judge.. the one you hate.. the one who is one of us all..... one of YOU...
...a scene from V for Vendetta..
....Just for KICKS I did this.. and I always end up Anakin
Who Would you be Most Like of The Jedi or Sith?
Anakin Skywalker - Jedi Guardian/Sith Lord/Chosen One (Balancer)
Hmmm.. clouded your future is! The outcome of your training is not yet known. For now it looks like your path leads to both the light and the dark-side of the Force. Balance is not yet mastered. You're well knowlegable in the Force, yet Pain, hatred, runs deep throughout your body. Your feelings towards others are very strong, FULL of Love!!
Take This Test too!
((PS........ be your own Hero.))