GoddessGlam

SIMPLY ME-I AM: Cool, nice, crazy, creative, unique, eccentric, talented, caring, understanding, sympathetic, sensitive, loving, loyal, trustworthy, sweet, outgoing, funny, moody, gifted, lucky, blessed, emotional, fun, and an all around wonderful person who’s one in a million-especially when it comes to being a friend or loving someone with all I am.. I AM: A down to earth chick who is VERY INTO my family & loved ones, who has a lot of weird interests, who has a few different sides hidden in me that I don’t express much cuz I can’t figure out how, who has a gift and talent for writing novels/stories/poetry, who talks to "my higher power(s)" daily, who finds that “little things” mean everything, who holds a small teddy bear & a black rosary wrapped around my fingers when I sleep, AND who just happens to have some major illnesses, a chemical imbalance (which requires me to be on some mind altering drugs and lots of painkillers-l always say "I feel like a truck hit me but I'm in a damn good mood!”)…I AM GODDESS GLAM (Thanks to those who gave me that nickname-they must have known a side to me that is SO TRUE!), I AM SKID KID (This is the nickname SKID ROW gave me!), I AM VAMPIRESS (This was my stage name-weren't we all in a band at one time or another???), and I AM also now known to vamps/goths as "Goddess Glampiress"...but basically...I'm JUST ME! IN DETAIL ME-(if you care to read on): I tend to always put others before myself and can give killer advice based on my own experiences, but only when I'm asked for it. Not to say I don’t have my own problems, it’s just that I’m very “in tune” to other people’s needs & situations. Even when I'm down, I can lift someone up higher than they ever thought they could be and it makes me happy to be able to do that. My flaws are major and easy to recognize-I "wear my heart on my sleeve", I trust too easily, I take a lot of things to heart or personally when I sometimes shouldn’t, and I have an addiction to many things-good and bad. I have accepted that these flaws are part of who I am and since they can't easily be hidden, in this cruel world people sometimes tend to take advantage. So, I've learned the hard way and now put my guard up and try read people carefully and get to know them before I give them my whole "self" or my heart. I am VERY open minded, personable, and non-judgmental. I do not "judge books {people} by their covers" and I wish everyone would do the same. So, all I've said to describe "me" is not me trying to "front", impress, embellish, or sound like I'm bragging, being condescending, or arrogant. I will be the first to admit I'm no angel or saint, but I am very honest and confident about the kind of person I am. I love being me and I wouldn't change anything about being me even if I could (Well, since I'm WAY TOO honest for my own good-on good days I feel this way...on bad days it MAY be another story...but I can always find SOMETHING I love about myself at least once a day-HAHA). If you take the time to get to know me, see what I'm about, genuinely appreciate me for who I am-flaws and all-you will know that you have made a forever kind of friend. If you are willing to be that same kind of friend-I will consider myself lucky in finding you as well and will let you know it often and in many different ways. I am not very religious (meaning I don’t practice any kind of “organized” religion) but I do believe in many “higher power(s)”-I always say this as not to offend anyone since a “higher power” for some doesn't exist, or it may mean many different “some ones” or “some things” and be in a million different forms. I DO believe in "miracles"-I've been given so many absolutely wonderful gifts and I appreciate each and every one with all my heart. I don’t know hardly anything about ANY religion-but some have told me I’m probably closer to being a “Wiccan” or being into “Wicca”-as I said-I don’t know much about it and I like it that way becuz this way I cannot be categorized and therefore can be "Just Me"-My own unique, special ME. I am drawn to nature, my sign (which is Cancer 7/2/74), and my symbol (Water). I've been told by my mother that I was born into a generation of "witches" so I study a bit here and there on how to use a could be “handed down" gift of power. I've always been drawn to "things" and subjects that are not of everyone’s everyday activities-like information on the different uses of things involved in the somewhat taboo subjects of: "wicca", "witchcraft", the using things that go along with these subjects sometimes..."magic", "charms", "spells", "formulas", "chanting", "rituals", incense, crystals, stones, and gems, Tarot cards, healing, meditation, relaxation, massage, etc...I'm a student, a teacher, a creator, a thinker, a reader, a believer, a healer, an "element" lover; and I think this MUST be said to anyone who reads this: My intention is and will always be to HARM NONE...I have harmed a few unintentionally when provoked, but it was in my younger years and I'm not quite sure how I did it and I'm not proud of it. If all my studying and learning to "practice" can be used for nothing but good, then I will think all I've spent my time doing/working for is worthwhile...I'm especially seeking ways to heal my loved ones who are sick (and myself too, but I put all the others I love first before I seek help for myself). I met my husband and SOUL MATE, Steve, on the internet 9 years ago and we've been married since 6/26/99. I remember the first time Steve surprised me with tickets to see Sebastian Bach (7 yrs. after the first time I met Bas-and yes, Bas still remembered me & actually stepped off the Winnebago singing "Taunya, I REMEMBER YOU"!! AHHHHHH!!!),-Steve drove us there, pushed me around in a wheelchair (I injured my ankle the day before), quietly and sympathetically listened to me blubber about my “love” for Skid Row, and stood out in the freezing cold for an hour-that was THE night that I KNEW I would be with this man for the rest of my life. We are kind of “not the norm” when it comes to being a couple-due to a lot of reasons. Some are our faults, some are not of our control-but we do love each other deeply. A funny example…you know how most people say, “Honey, we’ve had good times and bad times, but the good ones have outweighed the bad!”? Last year I woke him and said, "Happy 7th Anniversary Honey!! It's messed up, but it seems like we’ve had more bad times than good ones BUT the good times have made all the bad ones worth it, huh?”-he moaned loudly, rubbed his eyes and said, "Oh Geez...It's been that long? Only 7 years? Feels more like 70 years!!" I nudged him with my elbow and he smiled, gave me a quick peck and said, "Yeah, I guess you're worth it...I've come this far...might as well stick around.". I dropped my jaw then he cracked up, hugged me, and then rolled over and went right back to sleep! HAHA This year-(year 8!!)-for the first time since we were dating-9 yrs. ago!!!-we went away for the weekend to a favorite place of mine and then on the DAY of our anniversary I awoke to a beautiful summer bouquet of flowers and a card!! AWWW...how lucky am I? We are now in the process of "family planning"...let's keep our fingers crossed. I almost melt when I think of planting a seed from our love and creating a whole being that is he and I together. Besides, with my age my WHOLE body is saying, "DO IT NOW!!!". It's time, I know it is...I just pray it CAN happen for us. But, if it isn't possible we have more than enough love to share with an adopted child. There are so many children out there that need loving and stable homes, especially the older ones. It seems that when people adopt they mostly want newborns, but IF we have to adopt we are going for an older child-they are most forgotten and need the most. We have it to give and that's all that matters. Sigh...Steve is wonderfully supportive in all I do and has been with me through so much...indeed, I'm blessed. Steve is kind and gentle and has a sick sense of humor...he loves to pick on me and my sister for being so close, the music I love so much, the movies I watch...he just loves to tease me about everything-even if deep down he likes it too-even a little bit. I think his favorite thing is to go around calling me an “80’s Lady”… (since I love Skid Row and the hair metal and the old "rock clothes" and such)...I TRY to ignore him and say, “OH, IT IS coming BACH!!!!!!!” He just shakes his head and laughs at me and then makes up little songs..."She's an 80's lady...la la la...!" I don't think he'll EVER stop teasing me about a lot that I'm into. He's just an instigator, but I secretly love it. I have to admit though that since I’ve gotten older and don’t get out to many shows/concerts, I did lose the “rocker chick/ headbanger look” for the most part-I have straight, natural hair now; most of the time-(no more huge teased bleached blonde hair with big ol’ POOFED up bangs!) and I dress fairly normal-housewife, homemaker, soon to be "mommy"- most of the time-(not many places to wear my “rocker chick” outfits/lingerie, caked on make-up, and the tallest platform shoes/boots ever!), and I don't really LIVE to meet/party with bands anymore. It used to be hilarious, when I used to dress to go see one of my “Hair Metal” bands play, Steve would say it embarrassed him cuz no one else at the club looked like that-just me…me and my “80’s Lady” look…HAHAHA…then there he was-short hair (OH AND THE FETISH I HAVE FOR LONG HAIRED ROCKERS, HOW DID THIS HAPPEN?!?)?, baseball cap, jeans, t-shirt, and Timberlands…not to mention the fact that in my platform shoes/boots I am about 2-3 feet taller than him and he is 6’1”! HAHA How we ended up together I will never know-we are so opposite! These days I dress I guess what you would call "normal", but I don't dress my age, that's for sure. I'd say I really don't dress my age becuz I usually don't feel the age I am-I feel younger than I am. Then sometimes I feel like I'm 80-the ol' bones creak and I can't get out of bed without moaning...HAHA Depending on my mood and the place I'm going it could be: If I'm feeling at the time like a "housewife" or pretty "normal"-Jeans, pedal pushers, leggings (all of the before mentioned skin tight) and usually black), or shorts, a rock t-shirt or a "hippie shirt", hair straight down or in a ponytail or a clip, sneakers or sandals, and maybe some foundation and eyeliner...(Steve likes this look the best ("I have me a hot hippie chick!" HAHA) If I'm in a "Glam" mood and feeling like a bag of "Skittles" it can be a crazy concoction of spandex & lace pants, skirts mixed with pedal pushers, overalls over slinky bodysuits or skimpy tops, and shorts all mixed together, crazy jazzed up shirts mixed with others, colored garters, fishnets or tights, lots of bare skin "rock/Glam" accesories (colorful bracelets, rings, earrings, fake body jewelry), colored platform sneakers, sandals, boots, shoes or "Mary Janes", straight dyed hair in many colors down or in pigtails or braids, and lots of pink, blue, and purple glitter make up...COLOR COLOR COLOR!...If I'm feeling a bit "Goth/Vamp" then it's usually anything/everything I have that is BLACK-pants, skirts, shirts or rock t-shirts, black garters, fishnets, or tights, my velvet cape, some bare skin, some "metal/ rock/Goth/Vamp" accesories (lace gloves, arm sleeves w/handcuffs attached, fake body jewelry, rings, silver/gold hoop earrings, black onyx, rosaries, crosses, crystals), black platform shoes or boots, stilletos or platform pumps, normal color or temp. black hair straight down or in long pony tails at the sides, and dark, dark make-up-smokey eyes (TONS of eyeliner, mascara, and black/brown eyeshadow), black lipstick/gloss, drawn on face markings...BLACK DARK BLACK DARK BLACK DARK...BUT I "PLAY" no parts. I don't "claim" to be anything I'm not. Like I said, I'm not "Glam", "Goth/Vamp", or "Normal"-I'm just ME and I dress to fit my mood and environment. I dress how I want to-no matter who likes it or wishes to judge me. Honestly, most days you'll find me at my house lounging in boxer short PJ sets, sports bra tops or tanks with lounge pants or boxers, and if I decide to go anywhere and it's NOT an "event" I throw my hair up in a clip, get out the ol' spandex shorts/leggings, tank tops, and forget the make up and jewelry. It's just how I am...I do have some MAJOR fetishes though-some from way back and some new ones as you've read...I love hair dye (right now mine is brown (my natural color) but soon enough it will either be dark cherry with purple streaks again or hot pink with blue streaks), I’m addicted to tattoos (got 2 so far-I want probably 4-5 more before I'm done. My mom MADE me get my 1st one and I bet she regrets that now!!!! HAHA), I'm in love with piercings (I don't know if I'll ever get any real ones-I don't care for needles or pain, but I'm considering the nose, tongue, and lip...but for now I'll stick to the fake stuff. HAHA), I worship long hair (on men and women), and of course, as with anyone who HAS fetishes, there are always private ones that you won't discuss with strangers...:P I am truly blessed and very lucky to have such a GREAT family to love me unconditionally, keep me positive, be there for me, and try to keep me on the right track...(my Mom Joan, my Dad Gene, my Husband Steve, my "Skid Row" sister Linda ("Snakecharmer"), My OTHER family for eternity-(In-Laws by marriage-Family/Loved Ones by CHOICE!)-Mom & Wanda, "Fill In" mom Wilma "Flintstone", Sean (my pseudo-son) & The CRAZY C. Family, Crazy Aunt Janie, "Prissy Missie", "Inspirational Shari", Al, Bran, & "Little Man", Kim "Berly", The Martin Family, & some special “Guardian Angels”-"ANGEL ASHLEY" (U wrapped UR wings around me every time I needed them-Fly high, honey, and I’ll hold on tight!), "SAMMY BEAR" (I’ve been with U since birth and I’m honored that U’ve kept me in your heart so I could witness all UR amazing transitions from child to beautiful woman-I KNOW what it’s like to have a child-even tho U were NOT from MY loins-U R like a daughter 2 me!), and "KAT KRASH" (U came out of this huge world with open arms and an addictive smile and U were an “instant forever friend”-Not only did U teach me 2 have fun & smile every day/all day, but U helped me find the youth and spontaneity I thought I’d lost-I found a little RNR sister in you-NEVER change!). OK, OK, I’m done for now…The "ONE AND ONLY" True “Goddess Glam” has spoken...now get down and lick my boots...