Hi...I'm Jolene...
Music, writing, painting (watercolors), reading, thinking, hiking, running on the treadmill, smart, witty men with messy hair, coffee, sushi, fresh fruit, Europe (Belgium & The Netherlands especially), making out, window shopping, puppies, pajamas, a nice red wine, road trips...
Readers who like to be inspired!
GO ASK OGRE
Jolene Siana was an alienated teenager from a depressed neighborhood of a dying Midwestern city. Her mother was single, alcoholic, and abusive. In this unstable environment, Jolene grew suicidal and became a cutter someone who cuts their skin to feel relief from emotional pain.
Jolene found solace by obsessively drawing and painting, and immersing herself in dark and foreboding music that began to emerge in the late 80’s: industrial, goth, and post-punk indie rock. This love for music and making art, mixed with the feeling that no one understood her, led her to begin writing revealing personal letters to Kevin Ogilvie (a.k.a Ogre), the front man and vocalist of Skinny Puppy, a groundbreaking industrial band. Nivek Ogre seemed a kindred spirit to Jolene, and he soon began to receive a flood of elaborately illustrated letters, collages and journals filled with Jolene’s thoughts, dreams, and challenges, as well as the day-to-day minutiae of being a teenager in Toledo, Ohio.
Shortly after Jolene started writing to Ogre, a reply arrived from him by mail. Ogre’s interest led him to meet Jolene in person. He encouraged her writing and said that he had saved all of her letters, and one day, he would return them all. Over the next three years, Jolene evolved from being an extremely troubled high school senior into a college student who flirted with disaster by way of drugs and abusive relationships, into a young woman who had begun to discover a sense of her own worth.
Nine years after Jolene sent her last letter, a large box arrived at Jolene’s door. Ogre’s promise was fulfilled. After sifting through 73 letters, 14 postcards, and five notebooks, Jolene found herself with an unintentional memoir.
Go Ask Ogre is a fascinating collection of letters and artwork in an intense, intimate peek into the real-life world of a misfit, who, through the power of self-expression, found her own way out of the dysfunctional world around her. Delving into the industrial and goth music scene, a world that many parents and political leaders blamed for horrors like Columbine, Jolene found a way to forge her own path to self-awareness, self-acceptance, and hope for the future.
Go Ask Ogre is a cross between newer young adult journals such as Diary of a Teenage Girl by Phoebe Gloeckner, Please Don’t Kill the Freshman by Zoe Trope, and The Journey is the Destination by Dan Eldon, and themes from classic young adult diaries edited by Beatrice Sparks (e.g. Go Ask Alice, Jay's Journal, etc.). Departing from the tragedy-laden Sparks tradition, Go Ask Ogre presents it’s dysfunctional teen with a sense of humor in an admirable buoyancy, even in her darkest moments. The book brings a meaningful twist to the deviant teen morality tale by providing a real-life and inspirational happy ending. Go Ask Ogre also reveals what is was like to grow up weird in the Midwest in the 80’s at a time when heavy metal and Reagan ruled, and being into alternative music branded you an outcast and freak.
Unflinching in its candor, Jolene’s book also speaks directly to young people about self-mutilation and other aspects of teen desperation.
Luc van Acker
Air
Tori Amos
Bauhaus
Belly
Beck
the Bolshoi
Sarah Brightman
Nick Cave
Meg Lee Chin
the Carpenters
Clan of Xymox
Cocteau Twins
Collide
Chris Connelly
the Cure
Dead Can Dance
Depeche Mode
Descendents
Duran Duran
Enya
Everlasting Arm
Feersum Ennjin
Garbage
Glimmer Kids
Hoopherphonic
James
Millia Jovovich
cEvin Key
KoRn
Kilna
Left Orbit Temple
Low Flying Owls
Love & Rockets
Lydia Lunch
Lusk
Loreena McKennet
Ministry
Necros
New Order
Nine Inch Nails
Portishead
Sinead O’Connor
OhGr
Petern Murphy
Pigface
Queen Maude Land
Revolting Cocks
Damien Rice
Robyn Hitchcock
Qntal
Siouxsie & The Banshees
the Sisterhood
Sisters of Mercy
Skinny Puppy
Slipknot
the Smiths
Elliot Smith
Stella Maris
Tear Garden
This Mortal Coil
Thompson Twins
Tones On Tail
Tool
Trembling Blue Stars
T.S.O.L
VAST
Zeitmahl
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Soundtracks
A Clockwork Orange
Harold & Maude
Hairspray
The Sound of Music
Once
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Top 11 Songs Ever
(…for the moment…)
The Centre Bullet by the Tear Garden
Everybody Wants to go to Heaven by Love & Rockets
Five-O by James
Giving Ground by The Sisterhood
Help Me Lift You Up by This Mortal Coil
Love & Violence by OMD
Rain from Heaven by The Sisterhood
Say Yes by Elliot Smith
The Sun & The Rainfall by Depeche Mode
The Ubiquitous Mr. Lovegrove by Dead Can Dance
Vienna by Ultravox
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Top 10 Songs to dance alone in your room to:
Ask by The Smiths
Big Sexy Land by The Revolting Cocks
I’ve Done Everything for You by Rick Springfield
Jump by Loverboy
Kiss Them for Me by Siouxsie & The Banshees
Rock Me Gently by Neil Diamond
Separate Ways by Journey
Sunday Morning by The Bolshoi
St.Vitus Dance by Bauhaus
Kiss Them for Me by Siouxsie & The Banshees
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Top 5 to Make Out To
Angel by Massive Attack
Close to Me by The Cure
Gimme Shelter by The Rolling Stones
Lorelei by Cocteau Twins
Strange Kind of Love by Peter Murphy
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Top 9 Songs to Mourn a Break-Up
The Blowers Daughter by Damien Rice
Eden by Hooverphonic
Empty by Ray LaMontagne
Fond Affections by This Mortal Coil
I Still Do by The Cranberries
Pictures of You by The Smiths
Some Kind of Stranger by The Sisters of Mercy
This Time by INXS
Thrown Away by VAST
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Top 3 Songs to Inspire
Dreams by The Cranberries
Dreams by Gabrielle
Strength by The Alarm
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Top 6 Songs to get the Aggression Out of Ya…
The Choke by Skinny Puppy
Breathe by Ministry
Kerosene by Big Black
So What by Ministry
Thieves by Ministry
Wait & Bleed by Slipknot
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Top 4 Songs About A Girl Named “Joleneâ€
Jolene by Dolly Parton
Jolene by Ray LaMontagne
Jolene on the Freeway by The Kostars
Paradise by New Order
(These song selections could change depending on mood
…there is so much music to love.)
Suburbia (80's), Donnie Darko, Harold & Maude, Chitty Chitty Bang! Bang!, A Clockwork Orange, The Sound of Music, The Notebook, The Crow, The Wizard of Oz, Wings of Desire.
My friend BOB FiSHER wrote this film!
The Perks of Being a Wallflower, Go Ask Alice, Please Don't Kill the Freshman, Stick Figure, Skin Game, Gril Interrupted, Prozac Nation, Running With Scissors, Electroboy, A Heartbreaking Work of Staggering Genius, Cut, The Journey is the Destination, Spilling Open, The Diary of Anne Frank...
Bob Fisher
Dr. Drew
Maude
Anne Frank
Miep Geis
Anais Nin
Madonna...
Strong women
who follow their heartsand
don't let anything get in their way...
survivors...
& finally,
Maria Von Trapp.