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morsosculi

Mors Osculi(lat.) = that death of lovers which proceeds from the supreme joy

About Me

WATCH THIS PAGE INSIDE INTERNET EXPLORER PLEASESomething about my belief...
There is much to see in this world. I..m not generally talking about the physical matter surrounding us, but the projection flow of unconscious knowledge. The unconscious always communicate in one or another. I have in a long time tried to build up an communication link to my inner Self, and especially the Higher Self (which is the "real me"). I have a quest to unite my Soul or Higher Self with "God". The Unio Mystica. God is already in us as we are in God, but it there is a great "distance" inbetween. Our body is God..s Temple. By some reason our Soul (and God) communicate with matter through this Temple...Maybe the souls (and God) need matter to be aware of their own existence? Are we the thoughts (souls) in God that makes His/Her conscious about His/Her Self? Anyway, I think God act through our unconscious and therefore I try to understand ways to reach it.
Psychology teach me how to know the magic that resides in our own being. Me, as an masculine entity need to become friendly with the feminine entity of my psyche, namely the Anima. The Anima has manifested itself through different forms like an old woman, a succubus, enchantress, all kinds of sexy and attractive women, and goddesses (und so weiter). In the middle of all this lies buried the real Anima. The true essence of feminine energy. The Anima is Adam..s Eve (and Adam is Eve..s Animus), so these energies are ancient and powerful. Come forth! It is a sad fact that I have harmed my Anima through my life by making it as a part of my Shadow Self (my dark side)...What I do right now, is to bring light to it and make it positive in the way I can. By accepting my Shadow I accept my Anima.
I mentioned earlier that I am building a link to the unconscious...I use meditation and magic to accomplish that. Sometimes it works, sometimes it don..t. It depends always what I work with from time to time. I only use magic to know myself and the different worlds inside. That mean for an example a lot of invocations (I call forth entities from within). I have experimented with evocations (calling of entities outside myself) but spiritual beings often get dark or evil when forcing them "down" to the physical domains. It is much safer with invocations...
I believe that the Soul has always existed. The Soul have no space (three dimensional space-time) and it is therefore eternal. The unconscious is also eternal and is a vast library which contains the collected knowledge from past lives. There have to be ways to reach some of this...if you know a way, please tell me...
Here is two old poems that I have translated to english. I did them for about 8 years ago...
in your sensitive mind
life comes in tender waves
flowing through you like a restless fairy
lost in its own dream
the sphere of oblivion
awake within thy thought
created by a demon
eager to accomplish evil
so without the love of life
you tremble as thou wonder
where reality has hidden

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interpreted dreams dwells
in the morning abyss
destroyed in bittersweet anguish
the heart of reason
rots in the depths of hell
temptation in the veins
the blood of Christ
sparkles with regrets
and the lost virtue of a demi-god
searches for divine intimacy

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I love to walk beneath the trees when the leaves falling over me and the cold breeze makes me shiver.
I love to sit quietly in the dark in my apartment when everybody sleeps.
I love to dream about dreaming.
I love to embrace the spiritual entities around me.
I love to write and paint when i..m not there.
I love to feel the presence of something unnatural.
I love silence.
I love to talk without saying anything.
I love when the snow lay on top of the graves in the cemetary.
I love life as a part of death.
I love love.
I love...

You scored as Ecclectic Pagan. A veritable blend of all the pantheons and perhaps a dash of a few other religions as well, you're the versitile Ecclectic Pagan. You have no problem wearing an ankh while setting an offering to Herne on your alter just below your image of Hera. You don't believe in coloring within the lines, and are a bright free-thinker. While you respect the views of your fellow pagans, as far as you're concerned, religion is the sky, and there's no one about to clip your wings with lines and limitations.

Ecclectic Pagan


95%

Kabbalistic Pagan


65%

Norse Pantheonic Pagan (Asatru)


65%

Eastern Pagan


60%

Zoroastrian Pagan


55%

Egyptian Pantheonic Pagan


30%

Celtic Pantheonic Pagan


25%

Shamanic Pagan


20%

Sumerian, Babylonian, and Mesopotamian Pagans


20%

Catholic (Pagan?)


20%

Roman Pantheonic Pagan


15%

Greek Pantheonic Pagan


5%
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My Interests


philosophy
metaphysics
nearly everything occult
magic
quantum physics/cosmology
Jungian psychology
fetish
parapsychology
art
victorian era
gothic culture
fairytales
comics
angels
photography
fashion
eerie things
mythology
old books
poetry
elves
spirituality
cats
pre-raphelites
CG (computer graphics)
Everquest 2
the medieval
dark faeries

I'd like to meet:



Lisa Gerrard. I owe her so much thanks. She speaks to my soul with her divine voice. God bless her.

The Faery realm. I wonder if a bean-sidhe will cry and sing for me when I shall meet the hereafter?

I know I meet angels everyday. So do everyone. They just seem so far away. I wish just one of them were closer.

Girls that really love to play pc-games, console games. Who knows what MMPORG is. One example is the lovely Susanne Möller (below)...

Music:


Estampie, Hagalaz Runedance, Mazzy Star, Medieval Babes, Stoa, Welle Erdball, Cinema Strange, Coil, Damien Youth, Cranes, Rasputina, Butthole Surfers, Auf Der Maur, Nashville Pussy, Social Distortion, The Kills, Turbonegro, L7, PJ harvey, Dead Can Dance, Bone Orchard, Dead Kennedys, Discharge, Sodom, Johnny Cash, Cramps, Sparks, Abba, Babes in Toyland, Lunachicks, Agnostic Front, Bad Brains, Black Flag, Buzzcocks, Dickies, Ramones, Misfits, Yeah Yeah Yeahs, Ripcord, Vice Squad, Slayer, Within Temptation, Moon Lay Hidden Beneath a Cloud, Arcana, Black Tape for a Blue Girl, X, Stooges, GBH, Joan Jett, Bolt Thrower, Diamanda Galas, Cannibal Corpse, Falkenbach, Girlschool, Motörhead, Summoning, Nancy Sinatra, Nick Cave, Tori Amos, and lots of more...
There is also many composers that are wonderful like Gorecki, Pergolesi, Berlioz, Zbigniew Preisner, Paart, von Bingen.



Movies:


Nightmare before christmas, The Lord of the Rings movies, Vincent Price movies, Pi, Nosferatu, Cyrano de bergerac, vampire movies, and much much more.

Television:


Umm hard to say but here..s some:
Buffy the vampireslayer, Simpsons, Married with children, X-files, Millenium.

Books:


I collect books of occult nature, especially about magic...

I can name some books i..m reading:

Tertium Organum, P.D. Ouspensky
Three roads to quantum gravity, Lee Smolin
The meditation and Kabbalah, Aryeh Kaplan
The fabric of reality, David Deutsch
A new science of life, Rupert Sheldrake

That..s the kind of books i..m reading mostly. Not much literature at the moment. I wish I could read more of that but I don..t have time to do that as well.

Heroes:


God,Shakespeare,Plato,Crowley,Da Vinci,William Blake,Cyrano de Bergerac,Aragorn,Jung,EA Poe,Heinrich Cornelius Agrippa...AND...
Everything or everyone that inspire me to be creative and to live my life better than I can do myself ;-)

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My Blog

Long Survey About Myself (Bzoink)

Long Survey About YourselfWhat time are you starting this?:03:55 pm Name?:Mathias Nicknames?:Thias, Tia Date of birth?:1 december Sex?:Take a guess! Height?:1.85 cm Eye color?:Bluish Where were you bo...
Posted by morsosculi on Sun, 23 Sep 2007 09:28:00 PST

"new" painting

Yes, I decided to show my "new" painting. It isn´t the latest i´ve done. Actually it is about 2-3 weeks old... I have had many doubts about this painting. Should I let it stay as it were or continue w...
Posted by morsosculi on Mon, 04 Jun 2007 02:57:00 PST

words and more words

Something I wrote earlier today. Just had to express myself somehow...  i am bleeding loving horrified glimpse of doubt periless in my knighthood that is old forgotten written about in dusty volu...
Posted by morsosculi on Sun, 04 Mar 2007 09:08:00 PST

about my work

I thought I should share with you all what I do at "work". It´s a project that i´m part of, were I model houses in Autocad and apply the textures in 3ds max. If you want to check out the project-sites...
Posted by morsosculi on Sun, 05 Nov 2006 04:44:00 PST

sketches

When I visited my parents last weekend I did these. I know they are not perfect and is not intended to be.  I got to learn the boring face proportions... I made them all blacker in Photoshop...
Posted by morsosculi on Tue, 17 Oct 2006 08:09:00 PST

new oil painting

Hey, I thought I should share a brand new painting that I did yesterday. It isn´t often that I do such big work as this, but this time I thought...well what a heck! As always when I paint with oil I g...
Posted by morsosculi on Sat, 16 Sep 2006 09:37:00 PST

blahaj

Ok...this is my first blog ever and i´m just trying it out. Hopefully it will be fun so I will continue writing here... i feel kinda moody today. more than usual that is. i don´t feel like pressing sh...
Posted by morsosculi on Fri, 25 Aug 2006 06:58:00 PST