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SAMANTHA

WHAT YOU ARE FEELING IS A PERFECT REFLECTION OF WHAT IS IN THE PROCESS OF BECOMING.

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Myspace Layouts, Graphics and Glitter. Myspace Contact Tables SOME PEOPLE HAD NORMAN ROCKWELL, OTHERS....SALVADOR DALI... I AM GUILTY, INNOCENT, FORGOTTEN AND UNIMAGINABLE. I AM DEAFENING, SILENT, INSANE AND GRATEFUL. I AM A BARREN DESERT WITH THE RICHEST OF SOILS AND A BURDEN TO THE WEAK. I AM MANY, I AM NONE, I AM ANYTHING I CHOOSE TO BE...I LOVE, LOVING...I AM UNRELENTING, PASSIONATE, TERRIFIED AND FEARLESS... I AM THE KNOWING, NOT THE CONDITION THAT IS KNOWN...INTERESTS: TELLING THE TRUTH, HUMAN BEINGS AND ALL THAT STUFF THAT SURROUNDS THEM, ACTING, ACTING, ACTING, FILM, FILM, FILM, WRITING, WRITING, WRITING, POETRY, LOVE, LOVING, COMPLETELY...DANCING, DANCING, DANCING AS IF NOBODY WAS WATCHING...BREATHING, DEEPLY...WOMEN, MEN...MEN AND WHY THEY BOTH TERRIFY ME AND... CAN, BE, BREATHTAKING IN THEIR EVERYTHING...BOOKS, BOOKS, BOOKS PLEASE...SPORTS, MARTIAL ARTS, PHILOSOPHY, SPIRITUALITY, THE LACK OF SPIRITUALITY, SEX, SEX, SEX...QUANTUM PHYSICS, MORALITY AND IT'S EFFECTS ON SOCIETY, POLOTICS, RELIGION, CURING POVERTY, HUNGER, DISCRIMINATION AND ABUSE, THE OCEAN, THE MOUNTAINS, WATCHING...MY DOG AT THE DOG PARK, FASHION, CONSTRUCTION, ARCHITECTURE, CONVERSATION, CONVERSATION, CON, VER, SAY, SOMETHING, CARAOKE, LAUGHING AS MUCH IS PHYSICALLY POSSIBLE WITHOUT PUKING...SCARING PEOPLE BY...B/S/EEING ME/THEM ;)...SMILING AT THEM, TALKING TO THEM OR ACTUALLY LISTENING TO THEM...HOW WE AS A SOCIETY HAVE BECOME NUMB 2, 1 ANOTHER...BUT ALL OF THAT REALLY PALES IN COMPARISON TO WHAT I LIKE TO CALL, "MY LIFES WORK" WICH BASICALLY ENTAILS ME COVERING MY NAKED BODY IN PEANUT BUTTER AND FLIPPING OFF THE SILVERBACKS AT THE ZOO...BUT THAT'S ONLY ON SUNDAYS....WHY?...BECAUSE OF GOD. MyGen absolute; left: 1px; top: 18px"Profile Generator

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I was born in Richmond, Victoria in Australia...my father was in the airforce, a staunch military man and a sociopath... my mother, insane and...a woman. We lived in Penang Malaysia for a while then into the red earth of the brutal Australian desert...At seven, or eight? my mother with bags packed silently scoops me up in the middle of the night one night, we escape my father and divorce proceedings begin. My mother slowly dies over the next two years to Cancer and I begin my journey in and out of foster homes until being placed back with my father at nine..after years of...my father kicks me out at twelve and I spent the next several years living in the streets, stealing cars running drugs, going to jail and basically just being a bad girl...to cut a very long story short...in 1991 a dance contest was held across Australia to find a girl and a guy to come to the U.S to dance...I won....and here I am... I lived here illegally for many years struggling, trying to survive financially and emotionally until becoming a "real" part of American society with a social security number and everything;) if you get to know me better, i'll fill in the gaps...;) I am an actor, a writer, a painter and... those are at the top of the list, they are what I do for love and money, respectively xox Please visit my blog/s...a collection of words, stories and poetry about people I have been, seen, known, lost, loved hated etc. It is a sliver of a book I am writing, (one of many), a book of poetry and stories written to inspire, relate and reach out to those who have lost there voices and there hope...Never give up...ever...be realistic, plan for a miracle. HEROES: MOTHER EARTH AND THE UNIVERSE SURROUNDING HER....GAHNDI, MARTIN LUTHER KING JR, ANYONE THAT SPEAKS OUT AGAINST VIOLENCE AND INJUSTICE. ANYONE CONTRIBUTING TO THIS WORLD AS APPOSED TO TAKING FROM IT OR FEELING OWED BY IT. WAR VETERANS AND DOCTORS ARE HEROES, SCIENTISTS, FIREMAN, POLICEMAN, TEACHERS, ALL HEROES...PEOPLE WHO ARE REALLY IN LOVE. ANYONE WHO REALLY IS WHO THEY SAY THEY ARE AND ARE NOT AFRAID OF THEMSELVES, MY DOG JACKSON, MY DOG KACKSON, MY DOG JACKSON. DR CHRISTOPHER NG, HEIDE FLIESS, SHERICE IVERSON, ROSA PARKS. ANYONE THAT ADOPTS A DOG, ANYONE THAT ADOPTS A CHILD. ANYONE WHO WORKS IN THE SERVICE INDUSTRY, HEROES ALL THE WAY. INDIE FILM MAKERS, FILM MAKERS, STORY TELLERS, WRITERS, ARTISTS MUSICIANS, DANCERS, PHOTOGRAPHERS, PAINTERS...THE ONES THAT HAVE CREATED ALL OUR FAIRYTALES. ANYONE THAT CRAWLED UP OUT OF THE GUTTER AND FOUND PEACE AND HAPPINESS. ANYONE THAT FINDS THE STRENGTH TO LEAVE AN ABUSIVE RELATIONSHIP, EVERY CHILD THAT HAS PRETENDED TO BE ASLEEP, ANYONE OVER THE AGE OF FIFTY, JUST FOR MAKING IT THAT FAR WITHOUT TAKING A BLOW TORCH TO A CROWDED MALL ON CHRISTMAS EVE...
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I'd like to meet:

YOU.

Music:

Ani Difranco, Madness, Alice in Chains, Erikah Badu, Nirvana, The Beatles, Neil Diamond, yes I said it..Hot August Night baby!, Queen, John Lennon, Jack Johnson, Pantera, Rage against the machine, Tupac, Nwa, Tech Nine, The Propellor heads, Red Hot Skinny Peppers (extra spicy), prodigy, Brandy, Mozart The soundtrack to Hair, Crosby stills...Joe Jackson, Elvis Presley, James Taylor, Van Morrison, Mozart, Beethoven, Journey, Michael Jackson, Joan Jett, Pat Benitar, Deep House, Tribal Drums, No FX, Jodeci, Earth Wind And Fire, Isaac Hayes, The Doors, Yellow, Talk Talk, Smashing Pumpkins, Billie Holliday, Fats Waller, Vangellis, Tricky, Little Kim, Duran Duran, Black Eyed Peas, Aaime Mann, 311, Ben Folds Five, The Clash, The Beta Band, Bob Dylan, Marilyn Manson, David Bowie, The Deftones, Tool, Nine inch Nails, Elvis Costello, Foo Fighters, The Kinks, Peaches, Pete Townsend, Peter Gabriel, Rob D, Farina, NERD, 50 Cent, Jay Z, Jazz, Blues, Shiela Nicholls, Scritti Politti, New Order, A.B.C, Rolling Stones, Supertramp, The Moody Blues, Sade, Smog, Annie Lennox, Square John, Stevie Wonder,Tom Rush, Stevie Wonder, Velvet Underground....Everything except country but I even Like SOME of that...music touches me in ways that are indescribable, the soundtrack to my life...

Movies:

To Sir With Love,Immortal Beloved, True Romance, Secretary, The Gods Must Be Crazy, Dead Men Don't Wear Plaid, The Jerk, Pootie Tang, Two Girls And A Guy (anything Robert Downey Jr Is in, around or near), Talk Radio, In America, NATURAL BORN KILLERS!!!...etc, Pulp Fiction,The Big Lebowski, Old School, Anchorman, The Party (Birdy Num Num), Monty Python, The Meaning Of Life etc... Birdy, When Harry Met Sally, All About Eve, The Wall, Romeo And Juliet, A Streetcar Named Desire, The Graduate, In The Mouth Of Madness, Grease1 AND 2 (the best worst movie ever made.), American History X, From Dusk Till Dawn, Fight Club, American Me, The Hustler, Trekkies, Buffalo 66, Dangerous Liaisons, Reservior Dogs, Brothers Keeper, In America, Enter The Dragon, Edward Scissorhands, Monsters Ball, Punch Drunk Love, Like Water For Chocolate, My Life As a Dog, Il Postino, American Movie, Waiting for Guffman, Best In Show, Diner, The Outsiders, Say Anything, Pretty In Pink, High Fidelity (basically everything John Cusac has had anything to do with.) Irriversible, American Beauty, Gummo, Run Lola Run, Blade Runner, Rocky, Flashdance, The Exorcist, The Shining, Nighmare On Elm St, Y Tu Mama Tambien, Born Into Brothels, Kissed, Muriels Wedding, The Godfather...The Nightmare Before Christmas, Dead Ringers, Gladiator Days, What The Bleep Do We Know, Wall Street, Depends on what catagory, I really really really really love films ...

Television:

Sex In The City, The L Word, Absolutely Fabulous, although I usually have to buy them on DVD to see them in sequence. When I was young I loved Dr Who, The Jetsons, The Monkeys (Both the band and the japanese morning show), My Favorite Martian, Kimba the white lion, And Carl Sagan's Cosmos...I thought his voice was sexy. I think The Office is a brilliant show... (British Version, sorry saw it first.)Curb Your Enthusiasm, The Chris Rock Show, Anything on TLC, detective shows, medical shows, love em, 6 Feet Under, Top Chef, I watched the first season of the Contender religiously, was totally obsessed every Sunday...Even cried when Alfonso lost, but he's still a bad ass, Loved Breaking Bonaducci, especially when he broke the cup over his noggin in therapy and did order Blind Date Uncensored one night, ahh....fucking beautiful, sheer magic, two thumbs up...Love watching the QVC channels for shits and giggles and if Tammy Fayes a flappin I'm a watchin, although I hate reality TV...(I'm seeking help) TV sucks for the most part but it's supposed to, it's TV, not HBO.

My Blog

TODAY

Life is truly a magnificent experience....tinsel whispers just behind a silk curtain that brings warm breezes and smiles so big it tickles....today was....lovely......why? because, I said so.............
Posted by SAMANTHA on Fri, 03 Nov 2006 09:47:00 PST

CRUMBS

Tiny bread crumbs scattered throughout her life, she has bent down to pick them up only to lift her eyes and find herself at your feet. Scattered misunderstandings and a constant wonder if you really ...
Posted by SAMANTHA on Sat, 21 Oct 2006 09:53:00 PST

MERRY CHRISTMAS

He was supposed to arrive Christmas day but it turned out to be the day after. As morning breathed it's first breath I was up, awake and I couldn't have been happier. Even though I was well aware of t...
Posted by SAMANTHA on Sat, 21 Oct 2006 01:13:00 PST

CARLOS

I am at work and it's late. I am tired because I am both bartending and dancing tonight, the beauty of being an illegal alien...there is too much conversation for me...noise.I have been here since 10:...
Posted by SAMANTHA on Sat, 21 Oct 2006 09:34:00 PST

BROKE

"I'm in heaven now" says the DJ, I however am not, I am lost, tired and I can't find Jaime anywhere. My pseudonym is floating around inside me somewhere but can't seem to find it's way to the forefro...
Posted by SAMANTHA on Sat, 21 Oct 2006 08:17:00 PST

ANGEL

Laying on the bed waiting for her shroud to dry she misses him. Quietly but without doubt, she misses him.A tired soul posessing only moments of a life lost, wondering...am I destined to be alone?She ...
Posted by SAMANTHA on Sat, 21 Oct 2006 07:46:00 PST

YOU

When this life wears me out, I breathe through you. I have violent parts, broken, they somehow become quiet when I see you...This fake plastic dream of life I hold so precious seeps with movement when...
Posted by SAMANTHA on Sat, 21 Oct 2006 07:31:00 PST

I SWEAR, I'LL NEVER TELL YOU.

I swear I'll never tell you.My sadness sleeps insede me only waking to remind me how completely I am, uninvited.The sour stench, my childhood, invalid and there I stood, compliant.Failures blessings i...
Posted by SAMANTHA on Sat, 21 Oct 2006 07:24:00 PST

SORRY

Your sorry sounds not worthy of the times you truly hurt me. So I stand outside the body I've decided to reside in.Most of their whispers sound and sift her judgement into shyness. Samantha lies, she ...
Posted by SAMANTHA on Sat, 21 Oct 2006 07:15:00 PST

FEATHERS

What I woke to find today,I found we all we're cheatedStuff it down your throat he said.Slaughtered hope lay desperate.Be careful not to breathe he saidYou take up too much space.I can move outside my...
Posted by SAMANTHA on Sat, 21 Oct 2006 07:08:00 PST