Broken Moms Ministry -brokenmoms.com

WELCOME TO BROKEN MOMS
I am not a licensed professional. The subjects and resources listed on this site can all be verified by the organizations I have recieved the information from. This website is to help moms who have been lieing to themselves the way I did so that they can stop and move forward. Its not glamorous or profitable to admit my truths, but it is the TRUTH. If it offends you, my deepest apologies. ....If you are a mom who is currently struggling with motherhood, we want you to know you are not alone! In fact there are millions of moms struggling with what you are going through right now. We work hard to provide you with resources from other moms who have made it through some difficult times that they never thought they could have made it out of, myself included. We won't downplay what you are going through and we know that most things are easier said than done...but we strive to be here for you, because you may feel like such an outcast that there is no one there for you. First and foremost GOD is there for you! And in the flesh and spirit we are here for you. You are beautiful even if you don't think so, you were born on purpose and with a special purpose, your negative experiences were not mistakes, your weaknesses are your chance to create strengths from...If we could we would give you the biggest hug and tell you that everything will get better, because it can. If you are at the bottom you only have up to go! Don't think about how much work you have to do on yourself or your situation...just take one thing at a time and start moving forward and you will begin to see things change. Get some good in your life, watch inspirational church shows, stop listening to depressing music, get some good books...make it your mission to change your life by changing what has not been working. Baby steps my sisters....and lots of deep breaths...We are always here for you!
Hebrews 10:32-36 "Remember those earlier days after you had received the light, when you stood your ground in a great contest in the face of suffering. Sometimes you were publicly exposed to insult and persecution; at other times you stood side by side with those who were so treated. You sympathized with those in prison and joyfully accepted the confiscation of your property, because you knew that you yourselves had better and lasting possessions. So do not throw away your confidence; it will be richly rewarded. You need to persevere so that when you have done the will of God, you will receive what he has promised."

WHY I STARTED BROKEN MOMS
For ten years I kept myself locked inside my own prison of shame. Ten years, every day and every night, I held this burden and suffered in silence. In ten years I did not tell one person the truth. For ten years I blamed myself for not being able to care for my own child. Everyday I degraded myself for not being able to understand in my own mind why I could not be a good mom and care for my child. In addition I felt ashamed for not being able to explain to the people who have cared for him why I could not.For ten years, not one person who knew of the course of events leading up to me leaving my child reached out to help me or told me that it was not my fault. The day I dropped to my knees and said out loud, "I can not live like this anymore GOD, I don't know if you are real, but I can not do this alone anymore", HE immediately put the correct angels in my path that helped begin my recovery. It was not easy; in fact many times I wanted to give up because it was so difficult to come out of the years of shame, hiding and lying.It was my inability to reach out and admit why I was a broken mom that led me down years of self abuse that could of been prevented. When I was finally told that it was not my fault and that by leaving my child somewhere safe with family was heroic, I knew that was how I felt deep inside and that it was my turn to take my pain and turn it into another woman's gain.When I have out weighed the reasons why I should provide outreach to abusive moms I have asked myself, why did GOD save me? Why Does GOD continue to bless me? Why did he release me from all that sin? Why did he remove me from the land that had imprisoned me? The only answer HE continues to give me is that mothers are not meant to suffer.If by speaking out I can spare one woman from the lies, the shame, the grief, the alienation, the misunderstanding and the lack of education of what it means to be an unprepared mother, it will be my greatest honor to GOD for saving my life, for setting me free and for helping me speak the truth about my own life.May you someday be able to speak the truth about your own!

MOVING FORWARD IN YOUR LIFE
I realized that I could not tell you to tell the truth and release the shame if I could not! I knew the time was now, the day was here and after all the releasing of the evil, lies, shame, manipulation and disease I was not going backwards. I chose to not be embarrassed and allowed myself to move forward.I chose to learn from the sickness and not go back to it! When you do not have a nonjudgmental person to confess your lies and secrets to, the lies and secrets stay in you creating disease. When you accept the lies as truth for your life and begin to believe them, you have chosen to remain locked in the disease. Consider reading this is your nonjudgmental person. Write all your lies down and let them go!Since I never made commitments in friendships, relationships or employment no one would ever find out the truth about me. And because I only had three people in my life, I was able to hide away in my disease, nurturing it in alienation, depression and drug addiction. I chose to stay sick and alone. No one was forcing me to lie, no one was throwing me away and no one was living my diseased life. I chose to stay sick. I chose to create new lies. I chose to stay locked into old lies bringing them into the future tainting and ruining any possible good. I chose to stay sick.After acknowledging I chose my own demise, it was clear that I could choose my own recovery.I am asking you to choose life! It only starts with a choice. "It's not that easy, what will people think of me, I don't know any other way." Are all understandable feelings in the beginning of your recovery, but just know that is all doubt and doubt is just another layer of the disease.After ten years of being a broken mom I chose to let the healing process begin and it has made all the difference in my life. My life has become something I could have never invented or thought I'd deserve and I am grateful everyday for the truthful hard work I put into my recovery.Here is to the beginning of your healing recovery process! May you learn so much more than you thought you ever could about your true self and may you go on to inspire other broken moms!

OVERCOMING DEPRESSION SUPPORT
I lived for over 15 years with debilitating depression. I was a lab rat for when Prozac/Paxil hit the market in the early 90's. I went through every mental health label from bi-polar to multiple personality. I self medicated. I attempted suicide for attention and some to end my life. I starved myself. I overate and purged. I hated myself. I was sad for myself. I abused myself. I put myself in so many dangerous situations. I had no self esteem. I had no hope. I hated GOD and the church. I had awful therapists. I was an abuse victim. I was abusive. I grew up with abuse all around me. Everyone in my family was "depressed." Depressed was all my mind knew how to be. Once I learned that I needed to "fill my bucket" my bucket being myself, with GOOD THINGS in order to really stop being depressed It only made sense that I was depressed for so many years....it was all my brain knew how to be. Do you know the brain is a muscle and it retains sensory information and acts accordingly...if all that was coming in was abuse, negativity, fear, anger, sadness...then doesn't it make sense that that is all I would know how to be....ding ding...light bulbs going off, DUH I thought but let me tell you it wasn't that easy to say ok, so now I'll bring in some good and stop being depressed, oh know, it did not work like that, but I was willing to put in the work. I HAD TO RETRAIN MY BRAIN TO OVERCOME DEPRESSION AND YOU CAN TOO!!!This isn't a get quick program, it is real life.*READ OUR OVERCOME DEPRESSION SUPPORT BLOG*

POSTPARTUM DEPRESSION SUPPORT
*READ POSTPARTUM DEPRESSION SUPPORT BLOG FOR COMPLETE CARE INSTRUCTIONS**Are you or someone you know experiencing any of the following: depressed, irritable, exhausted, unlike yourself, sadness, anger, guilt, worry, feelings of inadequacy? Postpartum Support International CAN HELP!PSI is built on the foundation of providing support to families. If you or someone you know might be experiencing symptoms of prenatal or postpartum mood or anxiety disorder, know that it is treatable and you’ve taken a very important first step. We have PSI Coordinators throughout the world who provide information and support. There is someone in your area who can help you if you are experiencing any of the following: depressed, irritable, exhausted, unlike yourself, sadness, anger, guilt, worry, feelings of inadequacy?

DOMESTIC VIOLENCE SUPPORT
**PLEASE READ DOMESTIC VIOLENCE SUPPORT BLOG FOR QUESTIONS YOU CAN ASK YOURSELF AND SAFETY PLANNING**DOES YOUR PARTNER: Embarrass you with put-downs?Look at you or act in ways that scare you?Control what you do, who you see or talk to or where you go?Stop you from seeing your friends or family members?Take your money or Social Security check, make you ask for money or refuse to give you money?Make all of the decisions?Tell you that you're a bad parent or threaten to take away or hurt your children?Prevent you from working or attending school?Act like the abuse is no big deal, it's your fault, or even deny doing it?Destroy your property or threaten to kill your pets?Intimidate you with guns, knives or other weapons?Shove you, slap you, choke you, or hit you?Force you to try and drop charges?Threaten to commit suicide?Threaten to kill you?Intimate partner violence (IPV) is a serious, preventable public health problem affecting more than 32 million Americans (Tjaden and Thoennes 2000).The term "intimate partner violence" describes physical, sexual, or psychological harm by a current or former partner or spouse. This type of violence can occur among heterosexual or same-sex couples and does not require sexual intimacy.IPV can vary in frequency and severity. It occurs on a continuum, ranging from one hit that may or may not impact the victim to chronic, severe battering. Repeated abuse is also known as battering.