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About

You already know my name.. and if you can't figure it out, please do not continue reading. I was born and raised in the worst ghetto in Durham. And yes, I survived with no bullets in me. I now live in Raleigh. In my own apartment, thank you. I'm sure you think you know me or know my type but I assure you, you do not. I am not a type. I am my own person and damn proud of it. Do not judge a book by its cover. Because I am blonde (most of the time) does not make me stupid. Because I love music and go to shows does not make me a groupie. Because I have many responsibilities and do not slack on them does not mean I don't have fun and have no life. I am an adult (who often acts like a kid) so deal with it.

I have an incredible person in my life.. Chris Meck (**that's a clickable link there**). I love him..a LOT. Our inside jokes that no one else gets make my days worthwhile. I go to sleep next to him and wake up beside him and it is truly amazing. We have the same thoughts and finish each others sentences. He makes me smile more than anyone else. Even when we argue, we always end up laughing and knowing how much he loves me makes me feel special. He is my best friend. All together now, awwww.

I have many dreams that I work very hard at achieving. I will model. I will be in a band again. I will be a writer. I will be someone. There is so much that I want to do and I don't care how long it takes to reach my goal. I will reach it. Anyone that tries to bring me down will only make me push myself harder. I will be successful. Watch me.

I find out that I am the topic of many peoples conversations. Why thank you! If I am that important to talk about, I consider that very flattering. Like the amazing Marilyn Manson has said "Any publicity is good publicity.. love me or hate me, you've all heard of me". That pretty much says it all.

Music is a huge part of my life. Yes, I will choose going to a show over almost anything. There is nothing like live music of a band you really love flowing through you. Music is one huge emotion. I listen to many genres of music and I don't classify myself as hardcore, emo, metal and definitely not SCENE. I do like hanging out with people who dig the same music as me but will not shun you for not liking what I like. I will respect you for the music you like and I expect the same.

I do not look at myself as being better than anyone else. I do have my priorities and my head is on very straight. I have a handful of friends that I care a lot about. Two of my best friends live very far away from me and it kills me not being able to talk to them all the time yet I am so happy and proud of them for living their own lives and doing their thing. Yes, Jamie, Tanissia, and Michelle, I'm yappin about you. I've come to realize that it doesn't matter how many friends you have or who you know, as long as you can count on yourself and believe in yourself, everything will work out. I tend to sugarcoat things too much due to understanding everyone has feelings and I am very reluctant to hurt someone if I dont have to. Although, this gets me in trouble a lot so I'm thinking that instead of putting others feelings first, I need to just say how I feel and what I think always. No matter what.

I am not a bitch and I have no tolerance or respect for those who are. People who voice their opinions is one thing but to be hurtful, cruel and deceptive on purpose..no. Beauty is something that comes from within and is not found in your ego but in how well you treat others. And I always treat people that way I want to be treated. I expect so much from people and I trust too easily. I always look for the good and rarely watch my back. This is something else that gets me in trouble because in general, most people suck and are not worth my time. Not trying to be harsh but just stating a fact. I try not to hold grudges but if you have done me wrong and for some reason, I've forgiven you, I still have what you did in the back of my mind and there it will stay until you proove to me otherwise.

I've had many falling outs with friends.. mainly girls. There is a reason for this and its because I am not like most girls. In fact, I can't stand most girls. Girls are conniving, backstabbing two-faced assholes. A lot of say you feel the same way I do but I've heard that before and you turn out to be the very same. Im sure you wont change my mind on this due to knowing the 3 or 4 girls I can really trust and that have never turned out to be fake, liars, and/or backstabbers. They're good, honest people that I love and I know love me and have my back. I don't have to worry about if I can trust them or not. I know they aren't sweet to my face and talk shit behind my back. And I am thankful for having them in my life.

I am no longer letting things from the past bother me... life is too short to waste time and dwell on stupid crap people have said about me or done to me. I am moving on because I am above it. Again, I am an adult (who often acts like a kid) so deal with it.

Just remember that this is my Myspace site. If you don't like it, move on.

Let it be known..

..there is nothing I need from anyone except love and respect and anyone who can't give me those two things has no place in my life.. ~caliban

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THE BASICS

NAME:
J3N
AGE:
22
LOCATION:
Raleigh, NC
LOVES:
Meck, music, live shows, playing drums, modeling, making/ receiving mix CDs, Pucca, Sanrio, Olivia de Berardinis, pin up grrls, lip gloss, makeup, stars, cherries, reading, movies, Marilyn Monroe, drinking coffee in bookstores, my doggies
SOUNDTRACK TO MY LIFE:
Tapping the Vein, White/Rob Zombie, Bullet For My Valentine, Lennon, 36 Crazyfists, Dope, Sevendust, Plumb, Atreyu, Alexisonfire, Motley Crue, Marilyn Manson, Dead Poetic, Spoken, Zeromancer, A5A, Butch Walker, Dead Star Assembly, Chris Daughtry, Eighteen Visions, Fuel, Hanzel und Gretyl, Killswitch Engage, DrainSTH, KoRn, Stabbing Westward, Butch Walker/Marvelous 3, Celldweller, DHT, Element Eighty, The Fray, Maroon5, Sarah McLachlan, Tori Amos, QueenAdreena, Unkel Bob
MOVIES I COULD WATCH OVER & OVER:
Head Over Heels, American Beauty/History X/Psycho, Beetlejuice, Girl, Requiem for A Dream, ..But I'm A Cheerleader, Fight Club, Almost Famous, Empire Records, 8 Heads in A Duffel Bag, Natural Born Killers, Boys Don't Cry, Closer, Detroit Rock City, Donnie Darko, Halloween series, House of 1000 Corpses & Devils Rejects, Idenity, Lost Boys, Never Been Kissed, Pretty in Pink, SLC Punk, Stir of Echoes, Strangeland, Virgin Suicides, Wicker Park, Velvet Goldmine, Welcome To The Dollhouse, Gossip, Crank, Factory Girl, Paradise Lost Documentaries, BLACK CHRISTMAS, Tenacious D and the Pick of Destiny
WOMEN I LOVE, ADMIRE & RESPECT:
My Mom, Tracey, Courtney, Angelina Jolie, Bettie Page, Brigitte Bardot, Heather Thompson, Joan Jett, Kate Hudson, Lennon Murphey, Marilyn Monroe, Sheri Moon, Sabina

Upcoming Events

June 24: Joe Bemis** Currently signed with Fuse Talent & Model Mgmt www.FuseTalent.com

Links

Bands: *Bullet for My Valentine *Tapping The Vein *Rob Zombie *36 Crazyfists *Dope *Lennon *Sevendust *Deadstar Assembly *Celldweller *Unkle BobPhotographers/Artists: *David LaChapelle *Olivia de Berardinis *Calliope's Room *Photos by GlamourPussWhat Makes Me Happy: *The Electric Blender *Dog Blog TV *Let's Get Some Shoes(YouTube) *Text Message Break-Up(YouTube)