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Johnny Suicide

god gave me style, god gave me grace, he put suicide in your face!

About Me

I have a project called johnny's suicide You're listening to one of Sad-istic & I's songs right now, as you hear me singing along, but probably don't even know it, or realize it, but yet, you know I have well over a dozen tattoos...Does it really matter what I say here? I can say anything in the world, and it would not show you who I am. You can see bits and pieces of me, but they'll always decay. Read on if you want though, if you're smart enough to realize the reality of things you'll keep moving along. If you're an idiot, you'll be turned off by my words and you'll leave me alone, which is fine by me. I die a little bit more everyday anyway...Best friends know everything about you. Friends know something's about you. People know little about you, but judge you just by what they see, and sometimes by what they hear by word of mouth. Here you get somewhat of an idea "About Me." Here you get somewhat of a taste of me. Here you can feel and watch me bleed.I’m a genderless, nocturnal, insomniac who has dreams with a lack of sleep in them. Half the time I don't even know who the hell I am, but I'm known as more then the following:Johnny "sci-fi" Suicide Mr. Suicide Suicide John Lestat De La Von The Left Wing Lion KingBelieve it or not, but I'm not laid back, I'm insane with a pain in my brain. I'm bi-polar with dyslexia and ADD so don't fuck with me. I have no patience for your bullshit! For the most part, I'm loud and proud, silent, but not violent...unless you really piss me the fuck off! I live life fast and the best way I can, while trying to enjoy it. Some people think it's a little over bearing, well some people can just kiss my ass! Life is to short to worry about what others think. So let people think what they think, this is my life, not theirs!I'll make this short and simple, but if you want to keep reading along go ahead, I won't stop you. All you really need to know is I live my life each day like there’s no tomorrow. I’m all about play now, pay later, even though I try to not have regrets. It's the mistakes of others that I hate. I don’t really have much patience anymore, especially when I’m agitated and aggravated with bullshit.I wear my loyalty on my sleeve. Some say I seem unapproachable, but that's just the mask I wear, I swear, sometimes I'm so open-minded I try to talk to other people, and I forget that I'm not like them, so they don't talk to me or just ignore me altogether for that matter, and just blow me off because I don't matter. Well, I got news for you. I'm not goth, I'm not glam, I'm not what you think I am. I am the Lions left hand, goddamn, I'm so tired of pretending I'm not like them, when I am. My skull cracks...I'm a perfect reject. Yeah, I guess I am weird, but I don't try to be...that's just me...cant you see? Dont you see? What is and what isn't me? (You are what you attract...and that’s a fact) I like to be healthy, so in my spare time I like to make up music and work out to stay in shape. I'm a guy who dares to be different, genuine and unique. I've been told I have a nice smile, great personality and I’m trustworthy, open-minded, caring, hung like a black man without a sun tan, and funny when I want to be, but if push comes to shove I'll become rude & crude, so fuck you, you're not pure, in my eyes I see a whore who I don't adore!I am very goal oriented. I know what I want out of life, and know how to get there with my ambition, drive, motivation and determination. I'm spontaneous and supportive of others. I feel sensitive yet assertive, submissive yet dominant. I’m a hopeless romantic, filled with dreams of fairytales. I follow my heart way to often which results in unhappy endings. I've had my heart broken way to much to take anymore. I'm tired of getting hurt, being burnt, and left out in the dust to rust.I sing with a lot of courage and love for music. I write about what I'm feeling in lyrics, poems, expressions, emotions, music, drawling, painting, sculpting any forms of art really, but mostly all from the tip of my pen, to the spit in my throat, to the tip of my tongue, to strings/sticks/keys.Well lets see, what else? I work a lot of hours, and when I’m not working, I’m at the gym working out to stay fit. If I’m not doing that, I’m probably profecting my music skills or modeling.I am in the process of working on my first full length album, which has a lot to do with my life. And everything that has happened to me and things that are still happening to me up to this day. When it’s finished I truly feel people will be able to relate to me in one way or another through my touching words and tender music on a personal level.I also just got out of a really bad car accident, so I’m going for physical therapy. I was hit by a guy in an SUV. He ran a red light at about 70 mph, when he should of been doing 25 mph. Although I got messed up pretty bad. I’m lucky I was able to walk away from the car I was in, and I am lucky to still be alive. (You would be saying the same thing if you seen the car, and the aftermath of the scene) It was just like a bad dream. There were gas lines that almost broke. And traffic lights and trees that fell down all around the place, but my life is up and down like a roller coaster I'd have to say, and I wouldn't have it any other way!Basic Personal Info: What I Look Like/How You See Me As Follows: pierced insides/tattooed hair, Eyes: greyish blue, Height: 6' 1", Weight: 150 pounds, Body Style: firm & toned Activity Level: active.These are the words I live by. I've been throwing them around inside my head for years now. I couldn't have put them in a more perfect order myself. "All the pretty boys hang out with the ugly girls, and all the pretty girls hang out with the ugly boys. The ones I want will never want me, just as the ones they want will never want them."I Don't dwell on the past, I don't even think about the future...I live in the now, don't think so much and I will show you how.

My Interests

I've always been attracted to pale skin that shines white as snow, and big eyes that flow with imagination!Well, I seem to be attracted to the more darker things in life, but not to morbid or sadistic you sick prick. I mean the beauty of how it shows itself off, without ever really knowing. In a way kind of like how my words keep flowing. The more you read you’ll find your insides glowing, and your brain paying attention, while showing you day in, and day out what life’s all about!In no order...Gore, GirlsGuitars, Fast Cars, Guns, Sex, Sluts, Snakes, Sharks.need I say anymore? Fuck off if you're a whore...who's a friend and who's a foe? Well, I guess will never know!I like Listening To/Playing Music. I really can't live without it. I'm almost the same way with movies as well as to writing lyrics, poems, songs and such as comedy I like much. I like to sing and play guitar at the same time live. I like writing about anything and everything, hanging out with friends, making up music, going to concerts, shows, parties, drinking, hanging out with people I don't even know, meeting new people, going on-line, going to the movies, going to philly, making an ass out of myself, doing stupid stuff for no apparent reason, getting crazy, screaming my lungs out, going stark raving mad, driving around endlessly, watching independent films, Catching Days/Nights when I can get good sleep, Drunk Bowling/Playing Pool, people that have a good personality, confidence, long or jaw length hair, pale skin, eyes I get lost in, a smile to die for, tattoos, piercing, sterling silver, adventurous, wild, spontaneous, artistic, conservative, clean-cut (and I mean shaven) easygoing, chill, flexible, open-minded, flirtatious, playful, friendly, kind, humorous, witty, sensitive, nurturing, loving, outgoing, procrastinator, Quiet/Shy, Serious/Responsible, spiritual, talkative people.Collecting, in my room you will see posters all over the walls and ceiling just like tattoos on my skin. I like things either white, black or grey. All others will fade away!My Favorite Activities: Dining out, entertaining, hanging out with friends, intimate conversations, investing, Listening To/Playing Music, motorcycling, painting/drawing, partying, photography, Pool/Billiards/Darts, Reading/Writing, shopping, surfing the world wide web, chatting on-line, Traveling/Weekend Trips/Adventure, video games, on-line games, Movies/TV.What I look for? A great sense of humor, eyes I could get lost in, an open mind, and a smile to die for. I would prefer them to be honest, interesting and intelligent. Someone who can actually hold their side of a conversation. I'm open to talk about problems. Also likes me for who I am, not worrying about what friends think, takes care of their own body, and is pretty decent looking, having own style, and likes good music and such. One of the most important things to me are being faithful, have to be faithful, because I would do the same. So ya gotta have faith, commitment can't work if only one of us wants it!My idea of The Perfect First Date: Everything would pretty much just naturally click on its own. Maybe hanging out at their place or mine watching movies, cuddling, or driving around listening to music.My Perception of An ideal Relationship: They would stay with me through thick and thin. And through all kinds of life changes, they would stay with me through all of the wretched!What I've Learned From My Past Relationships: Never take things for granted...if you do they won't last. Always be friends at first. Take the time to get to know each other. Have honestly and trust. Lust is the killer, love is the thriller. I can never think it's love, so I assume it's lust. I do this because I've had my heart broken way to much to take anymore. I'm tired of getting hurt, being burnt, and left out in the dust to rust.Things That Hurt Me And I Hate From Past Relationships: If you don’t like someone for who they are, or for what they are, you’re not going to like them at all in the long run. And if you do, you’ll just try to change them into something their not suppose to be in the end anyway.Interests: Painting, Drawing, Partying, Reading, Writing, Fuck-Me-Boots, Make-up, Hairless Bodys, Candles, Thongs, Skirts, Fishnets, Silk/Stockings, Tea, Health/Wealth, Intimacy/Physical-Chemistry, Love, Sex, Sleeping while our legs are intertwined, Waking up next to you, in your bed or mine. Nocturnal, The Moonlight, Pussy ass hair bands with headbands. Motorcycles, Cars, Trucks (Don't care for planes, trains or the bus though)Drinks: Vodka/Red Bull, Rock Star/Jager, Red Headed Sluts, MAGIC HAT, Jack Daniel's, Jager, Tequila Rose, Captain Morgan Rum/Pirate Bay/Tattoo, Guinness, Heineken, Yuengling, Samual Adams, Land Shark. Once in awhile Wine and Champagne for the occasion, or just for the fuck of it!Bars/Nightclubs, Concerts, Karaoke/Sing-a-longs, Drum Circles, Coffee Houses, Bookstores, Restaurants, Amusement Parks, Antique Stores, Flea Markets, Garage Sales, Art Galleries, Museums, Parks, Shopping Malls.White/Black/Grey. I really like the color white, snow white is bright when it's in your sight. I wouldn't have it any other way...what else can I say? Oh yeah, I hate it when people spell grey "gray" that's so gay!DISLIKES ARE: Drama, don't infect me with your bullshit! Stay the fuck away from me if you're full of it! I can't fucking stand drama anymore as well as lying, stealing, back-Stabbers, greediness, people who don't share/care. Hate, death, body hair, the hot summer heat, the extreme rays of burning sunlight. Astrology...EVEN THOUGH IT CAN SOMETIMES BE TRUE! HTML HELL, stalkers, PIGS...can't stand them, they're like COCKROACHES. You can never get rid of them! Sex with people I just met, don't like, or just plan don't know yet. Messing around with girls the first time of meeting them...it never lasts, it's always over after that, so take this as a hint or get a fucking hint, unless I really like you a lot. Making out with girls who have sandpaper tongues suck at kissing, they can't kiss to save their life. Gold, math, onions, peppers, pickles, when people fuck up my small simple orders, being compared to other people. Having to sit still in boring ass classrooms with nothing else left to do, while the room has to be complete silence on the other hand, when I just feel like fucking screaming and running around the room. When people call me skinny. Don't make fun of me to make your pathetic self feel better about yourself. How would you like it if I called you fat, you fat fuck you! See you don't like it now I bet do you? I can't help that I was born with a high star metabolism. No I'm not a fucking junkie you crack whore! I could probably eat more than you, the horse you rode in on and your mother. I know you think I'm so pretty and all, that's why I'm sorry to have to say this, but my skin is shit. I have scars and acne to prove it. I'm sorry I'm not as perfect as you. I'm pretty true to myself, are you? Yeah I'm skinny, I know, stop telling me about it. Shut the fuck up already. I can see for myself when I look into the mirror. I also HATE when girls try making me be their emotional tampons or boy toys. Having a Tall/High upper body, although I do like my wide shoulders. Sitting up straight is hard for me to do. I slouched since grade school, but because I didn't like to stand out being head over everybody else at the lunch table, my long legs for being in the way all the time like a spider. I do like my third leg though, so I'm not going to complain about that! And last, but not lest, I regret all the things I forget, and all the good ideas I lost from not being able to remember them in time to write them down...all from the loss of paper and a pen, as well as Crashing/Smashing/Bashing computers and not recording when I should have been.I hate to lose pictures more then anything else in the whole wide world...well that and lyrics...I can always lose a guitar, because I can replace it and still play the same chords, but my words can never be re-written in the same order kind of like pictures can never be re-taken the same way.Another thing that interests me is only one political view of others, and that is of an Anarchist. They say screw the goverment try telling them what to do, get the hell outta here. I say let people learn from their own mistakes, and the stupid will die in the chaos.

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I'd like to meet:

I’d like to meet someone who is cool and down to earth, but also has a crazy wild side to them at the same time. I guess you could say a naughty, but nice side is always a plus. But what it all boils down to is the kind of person I could just hang out with.This kind of person would be up for anything. Wither it be something fun, like going out somewhere, or just staying in watching a movie. Maybe even going to the gym with me, since I am very active and care a lot about what my body looks like.I work during the week, Monday thru Friday from nine to five, so I tend to not have a whole lot of time left in my day when it’s nearing to the end. And when I do get done, I don’t even really relax until sleep deprivation catches up with me days on end, wither I’m tired, too beat or whatever. I always push myself each and everyday to get what I need to get done. This way I can reach my goals and achieve my dreams.In whatever free time I have left I like to record, jam and work on music when I can. Sometimes I even go with my friend to help him record live bands. But that’s not really like working, it’s fun meeting and hanging out with cool people.I actually have a 3.6 GPA even though I am very busy with my life at this point, someday I will go back to school to finish up my last years of college I have left so I can be a psychologist. But who said I can’t fuck with your head now?I'd also Like to Meet the people I have yet to meet, that'd be neat. People who are different, and don’t care about what others think, is what I look for really. Women who wear eyeliner/mascara, and can walk around in high heels with panties around their ankles! (A girl that is sexy and can make me laugh is deadly) Other musicians and poets...people who love music, are cool and down to earth...also someone to go skiing with, and someone to teach me how to surf, and go ski diving with!Johnny's tattoo

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Add to My Profile | More VideosNOT ALL THE WAY, BUT SOMEWHAT DRUG FREE PEOPLE. I DON'T WANT TO MEET ANYMORE ABUSERS, USERS OR LOSERS. THEY ARE IN MY DISLIKES. I CAN'T STAND WEAK PEOPLE WHO HAVE ADDICTIONS, RELY ON DRUGS ALL THE TIME, AND NEED THEM CONSTANTLY "TO GET BY" OR FEEL LIKE THEY "NEED THEM TO SURVIVE" SO THEY GET HIGH WITHOUT ANY REAL REASON AS TO WHY. I FIND IT VERY FUCKING PATHETIC AND IT ANNOYS THE HELL OUT OF ME!

Music:

My project: Johnny's SuicideNegative Nancy'sThe Drama MineArmy of AnyoneNine Inch NailsNirvanaNada SurfBright EyesDopeOrgyMarilyn MansonMisfitsKMFDMSex PistolsIggy popJesus and Mary ChainThe DreamingStabbing WestwardCoal ChamberMurderdollsA Perfect CircleCrossbreedColdSlipKnoTDevil DriverDanzigSkinny PuppyThe DoorsgODHEADThe White StripesSilverchairMotley CrueStone Temple PilotsGuns N' RosesType O NegativePrimitive Radio GodseminemGarbagePanteraTears For FearsKoRnToolAlice In ChainsStatic-XCradel of FilthRage Against The MachineRefusedMachine HeadProfessional Murder MusicVision of DisorderOtepRob ZombieRagdollMudvayneRed Hot Chili PeppersDepeche ModeMinistryBeastie BoysGreendayThe KillersCollective SoulThe Smashing PumpkinsNicklebackLiveBeckSonic YouthMelvinsVaselinesSlayerFilterRammsteinSoundgardenP J HarveyFaith No MoreFlyleafAngels And AirwavesScissor SistersNorotic FishJukka2147.DeSuicide CommandoOhGrSoul Asylum...I'm sure you get the idea by now...and if you don't, good luck!I ALSO LIKE RAP SO DON'T JUDGE ME AND BE HATIN' (RAP DOES NOT ALWAYS = CRAP) HOW DO YOU LIKE THAT?

Movies:

Horror... Donnie DarkoDumb and DumberBlack Circle BoysOld SchoolUnderworld 1 & 2The Salton SeaBuffalo '66Clockwork OrangeEyes Wide ShutDazed and ConfusedGhost ShipHackersFast Times At Ridgemont HighErnestPee Wee HermanHouse On Haunted HillInterview With The VampireMatrixThe Ninth GateNight of The Living DeadPoint BreakThe BeachQueen of The DamnedRequiem For A DreamRock StarSLC PunkTaxi DriverTerminatorThe CrowThe Lost BoysVampire ClanVanilla SkyResident EvilBoondock SaintsThe BadgeDisturbing BehaviorBoogie NightsLost HighwayCold Around The HeartFrom HellTurbulence 3: Heavy MetalPirates of the CaribbeanBreakfast ClubMallratsClerksEdward ScissorhandsFearEmpire RecordsRomeo & JulietBlowHow HighHalf-BakedAmerican History XWild ThingsPowderThe Virgin SuicidesFight ClubReservoir DogsPulp FictionDawn of the DeadPitch BlackTexas Chainsaw MassacreSpidermanThe PunisherSuper TroopersAirheadsArmy of DarknessMeet the ParentsPrivate PartsThirteenCape FearSling BladeFinal Destination; 1, 2 & 3Butterfly EffectMayIdle HandsCabin FeverBadder SantaAdam & EvilEncino ManHangman's CurseBio-DomeWhite OleanderUncle SamThe Time MachineEight Legged FreaksA Home at the end of the WorldThe HoleMean GirlsParty MonsterSecret WindowRebel Without A CauseHeavy MetalVampire Hunter DLady DeathSaw 1, 2 & 3GrindBeautiful GirlsWonderlandVelvet GoldmineThe Girl Next DoorNapoleon DynamiteWicker ParkEternal Sunshine On The Spotless MindTroyKing ArthurMy Own Private IdahoSpank The MonkeySupercrossCorpse BrideAcrimonyThe Fast & The Furious 1 & 2(I still want to see Cradle of Fear)

Television:

(You know...) Horror, Sci-fi, Gore (Whore are you ready for more? or) Are You Afraid Of The Dark? (Where I wait and lark in) The Twilight Zone (All alone with) Beavis & Butthead, Sifl & Olly (For) Headbanger's Ball, The Howard Stern Show, Tom Green, The Conan O' Brian Show, Saturday Night Live, Quantum Leap, Highlander, Buffy the Vampire Slayer, The Sopranos, Jackass, Punk'd, Pimp My Ride, Viva La Bam, Damage Control, Crank Yankers, South Park, Family Guy, That 70's Show, MacGyver, HBO/Showtime, Cartoon Network, Comedy Central.Comedian's George Carlin Dane Cook Jim Breuer Denis Leary Dave Chappelle Andrew Dice Clay Adam Sandler Will Ferrell Pauly Shore Disk Jockey Howard Stern Magician Criss Angel Dare Devil Evel Knievel Actors Brandon Lee Johnny Depp Nicolas Cage Vincent Gallo Mark Wahlberg Sean Penn Dude, I Hear Cannabis Is, Like, A Treatment For AD/HD, Or Something. Christopher Walken Matthew Lillard Adrien Brody Porn Star John Curtis Holmes Musician's Christopher Hall Ville Hermanni Valo Scooter Ward Scott Weiland Maynard James Keenan Jack White Glenn Danzig Jaco Pastorius Tommy Lee Elliott Smith Iggy Pop Sid Vicious, the death! Jim Morrison, the poet! Edsel Dope, the energy! Jay Gordon, the confidence! Michael Trent Reznor, the frustrated father! Kurt Donald Cobain, the son of a gun! Marilyn Manson, the holy spit!

Books:

I like to read: Fairy Tales and Nursery Rhymes, Dr. Seuss, Fiction, Magazines, Poetry, Trade Journals, Edgar Allen Poe, Stephen King, Sticks And Stones, Kurt Cobain: Heavier Than Heaven, Weird N.J. Dr. Suess. Marilyn Manson: The Long Hard Road out of Hell, Science, Psychology, Drugs, Behavior, And Modern Society, All of Harry Potter, as well as a lot of Goosebumps from back in the day. (Have yet to read 1984) You know, actually now that I think about it, it’s kind of hard to read stuff for me, let alone watch it if it’s not good, or keeps my attention for the long run without my A.D.D. distracting or fucking tormenting me to death...so I put up with it the best that I can each and every goddamn day when I get up and look into the mirror. (Plus I'm a slow reader when reading to myself, and I'm a really fast reader when reading out loud to others)Anne Rice has been put to the test and is the best! I Am, Lestat De La Von. Just one bite, and I'll sink my teeth into you!

Heroes:

You can be my hero, but for now I'll just pick... Me, Myself & I for NO Apparent Reason why I keep Myself Alive.All of my heroes are dead and gone. With nothing left to linger on. No one to look up to. Nothing left to do. (Although I do have some influences from people that have struck somewhat of a nerve somewhere deep inside of me from the past to present to make me the future.These are the ones who influenced me, to make me what I am today.An Artist And A fucking Work of Art!And last, but not least, Dr. Seuss, because he made a whole wonderland of weirdos like me, you see?Dr. Seuss' lost tounge twister This is this cat This is is cat This is how cat This is to cat This is keep cat This is a cat This is dumbass cat This is busy cat This is for cat This is forty cat This is seconds catNow go back and read the THIRD word in each line from the top. Betcha can't resist bitch!

My Blog

I want to let you in on this!

Well, as you can tell, my profile has been under construction for about a week or so. just keep checking back for updates! Myspace is finally getting cleaned up like a bad junkie who let himself go ...
Posted by Johnny Suicide on Mon, 29 Jan 2007 05:53:00 PST

tattooed Arm

tattooed arm, russian soldier. lips of steel, heart of hell. words i cannot remember, yet you are my right hand man, but i am still not your left wing lion king. words scattered everywhere, thought...
Posted by Johnny Suicide on Fri, 26 Jan 2007 10:28:00 PST

ONLY Jersey people can understand this...

A girl says to her date, "You're in for a real treat. I've been told that I have a body like New Jersey." So, her date grabs her waist and asks, "What's this?" She replies "Middlesex." He grabs her b...
Posted by Johnny Suicide on Mon, 22 Jan 2007 10:03:00 PST

A Psychiatrist...

was conducting a group therapy session with four young mothers and their small children... "You all have obsessions," he observed. To the first mother, Mary, he said, "You are obsessed with eating. Yo...
Posted by Johnny Suicide on Mon, 22 Jan 2007 09:09:00 PST

Mr. Rodgers

Damn it, I've always wanted to meet Mr. Rodgers. I thought it would be really cool if he had an episode on going to get a tattooed or pierced!
Posted by Johnny Suicide on Wed, 17 Jan 2007 12:24:00 PST

a friend told me

in 1996 handguns murdered 2 people in new zealand, 13 in australia, 15 in japan, 30 in great britain, 106 in canada, 213 in germany, and 9390 in the united states alone&god bless america!
Posted by Johnny Suicide on Wed, 17 Jan 2007 12:01:00 PST

laying it on the line...

I can't stand when dumbassholes ask me things I've already covered in my profile.  And I hate when they get all pissy when I can't talk to everyone on here because that would be more then my life...
Posted by Johnny Suicide on Wed, 29 Nov 2006 08:25:00 PST

people take what they want

another cell phone down the drain...i hate people that break into cars and steal things that are locked away.
Posted by Johnny Suicide on Mon, 30 Oct 2006 02:03:00 PST

write, right, rite...am i alright? ahaha

write, it's the best thing to do.  come on, you have it in you!  the hell with a psychiatrist!  write what you feel to help you heal from the feel of what's real. you see, my problem pr...
Posted by Johnny Suicide on Sun, 24 Sep 2006 10:24:00 PST

How Come

When I follow my heart nine times out of ten it leads me to unhappy endings...no matter how hard I try or the less I care?Maybe it's not my heart that's wrong, but my soul that's trying to make me fee...
Posted by Johnny Suicide on Fri, 15 Sep 2006 04:58:00 PST