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Pajama Poet

The only thing left to fear is death!

About Me

Well, its 4am on January 3, 2007. I am sick as hell, can’t sleep and am just about out of cigarettes. What better thing to do than to re-write my MySpace "About Me" section? (Yes, I do have problems.)I was born a poor black child. Actually, I was not. That is one of Navin Johnson's opening lines from The Jerk. (Which, incidentally, was the first movie I ever saw in a theater. For those of you doing the math, yes, I was eight years old.) Seriously, I was born with asthma and in the course of my five days on this planet, I died three times. (Whenever I contemplate about god, I think he was trying to tell me something, but I digress.) My mother had a real tough time throughout the labor, mainly because of the painkillers and anti-depression medication withdrawals. Unfortunately, she had to stop taking her medications for the last few weeks of her pregnancy. She suffered these conditions due to the cruelty of my father. He was abusive coward who was so enraged by his lack of success he lashed out at those weaker than him. My dad was furious about my poor health, and blamed my illness on my mother. As I am his only son, I was meant to carry on the family name. (He took this a little too serious, I mean we were not the Ewings of Southfork; we were the Foxs of Queens with a fortune that was sizably less.) So, after I was healthy enough to take home, my father separated from my mother. (Actually, I am being generous; he actually threw her and my one-year-old sister out on the street.) His heroic nature did not stop there. He soon realized the challenges of raising a sickly infant and conned my grandparents into taking me in. Now my grandparents were great. My grandmothers name was Kitty, and my grandfather was Thomas. When they decided to alleviate the burdens of their baby boy, my father, they were well into their sixties. It's funny; as I write this I find it truly amazing that they cared for me as they did. My condition worsened over the years, and weekly hospital visits to the emergency room at 3am were an all too common occurrence. Especially considering that my grandfather was still working.His schedule was; up at 4:30am and off to work, put in an eleven-hour day as a maintenance engineer, back home for dinner at 3:30pm and off to bed at 7pm. Grandma never worked. She had raised my father and his sister Teresa, and now me. She was a strong Irish woman who would sooner knock you out than have you speak ill of another.They truly tried to provide for me they best they could. But due to the poisonous nature of my father, they became party to myriad of lies that lead to my downfall. The greatest of which involved the circumstances that surrounded my grandmothers death.Throughout my existence I have portrayed many roles in this play we call life. I have been a drug addict, a victim, a thief, a liar, a drain on society, rich, poor, a S.O.B., troubled and thankfully; enlightened. In 2006, I found a love for poetry. (Yes, I am heterosexual.) I enjoy reading and composing it. I have studied many of the traditional forms and found that, while I can write them, they hurt my head. Therefore in 2007 I am returning to my original form; spoken word. (It is debatable that this is a good move.)Writing seems to pretty much sum me up. My career involves writing books and developing programs that educate youth and low-income individuals about personal finance. The experience is one that I wouldn’t trade for much (although we all have our price.) My career has allowed me to be a guest of many educational institutions helping to educate youth about the importance of being financially responsible. Some of the institutions I have had the honor of speaking at include Arizona State University (Tempe), Rider University, University of Connecticut, The Hampshire Educational Collaborative, Springfield College, Enfield Public School System, Chicopee Public School System, Springfield Public School System, American International College and Western New England College.In 2005 I was invited to serve as a guest lecturer for the Bruce Wells Scholar Upward Bound program at Clark University and panelist for both the Nichols College: Cycle of Debt In America student Q&A and the California JumpStart Coalition: Innovative Financial Literacy for Youth conference.Because of my unique youth experiences, I am passionate about helping others in the community. I donate my time to fundraising for the Massachusetts Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to Children and the United Way of Western Massachusetts. In 2005, I was invited to become a member of the Board of Directors and Treasurer for Dream, Believe, Achieve, an organization that provides educational programs to area adolescents who are residing with foster parents, guardians, and to those teens who are living independently in the local community.Currently, I am enrolled in college and am working toward my Associates Degree. I plan to go on to my BA, MBA and whatever other letters I can put after my name. My friends call me Doctor Fox, so I may go on for a Doctorate. (They also call me Pornstar, but that doesn’t mean I’ll be in a skin flick.)
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My Interests

Being sarcastic, writing, exercising, reading, watching TV, catching movies, hitting up the beach, meditating, checking out the local music scene, having a great conversation.

I'd like to meet:

First and foremost; a damn good woman. After that, I would like to meet people whom I might otherwise have the pleasure of meeting. If I had to throw out some descriptive about the characteristics of those I hope to meet, they would be: civic-minded, compassionate, fun-loving, adventurous, sheet-stealers, smile-wearers, ethically grounded, sane, a touch of evil, maybe even a bit off center.

Music:

Type O Negative, Suicidal Tendencies, Van Halen, Judas Priest, Dio, Deep Purple, Blue Oyster Cult, Tesla, Nonpoint, Cold, Linkin Park, Seether, Theory Of A Deadman, Breaking Benjamin, RA, Motley Crue, Danzig, The Crystal Method, L.A. Guns, The Chemical Brothers, Static-X, Nickelback, Crazy Town, Warrior Soul, Hurt, Yes, Led Zeppelin, Drowning Pool, Thousand Foot Krutch, Ozzy Osbourne, The Who, Rush

Movies:

A Clockwork Orange, Alien, Aliens, American Beauty, American History X, Big Fish, Blade Runner, Braveheart, Die Hard, Donnie Darko, Ed Wood, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Fargo, Fight Club, Finding Nemo, Forrest Gump, Full Metal Jacket, Gandhi, Gladiator, Glory, Groundhog Day, L.A. Confidential, Monty Python and the Holy Grail, Reservoir Dogs, Saving Private Ryan, Schindler's List, Se7en, Shrek, Sin City, Sling Blade, Snatch, Stand by Me, Star Wars, Star Wars: Episode III - Revenge of the Sith, Star Wars: Episode V - The Empire Strikes Back, Star Wars: Episode VI - Return of the Jedi, The Bridge on the River Kwai, The Incredibles, The Lord of the Rings: The Fellowship of the Ring, The Lord of the Rings: The Return of the King, The Lord of the Rings: The Two Towers, The Jerk, The Matrix, The Princess Bride, The Shawshank Redemption, The Usual Suspects, Twelve Monkeys

Television:

Rescue Me, Dr. Who (2006), Battlestar Gallactica, WWE Raw, House, NCIS, Lost, Criminal Minds, Soap (it’s from the 70’s folks) Justice League Unlimited, The Life and Times of Juniper Lee, Bones, the 4400, Scrubs, Best Week Ever, Colbert Report, Grey’s Anatomy, the Closer, The Batman, Deadwood, Supergroup, Boston Legal

My Blog

Silence  Triolet

It overpowered me, the oh so cold silence... Deafening madness to a man with no ears. Burrowing softly; it's been a while since& It overpowered me, the oh so cold silence. Hurting so smoothly, I...
Posted by Pajama Poet on Thu, 25 Jan 2007 04:06:00 PST

Drunkards Prayer  Rondeau

Hold onto your child with all of your might, Don't release me into this city's night. I know I'll misstep; I shall walk astray& Drowning in spirits and making gay, Losing the strength to win this figh...
Posted by Pajama Poet on Mon, 22 Jan 2007 07:37:00 PST

If You Can Still Cry... - Lyrics

If you can still cry, Things will be ok! Because if you still try, (There) has to be a way&   To make your tomorrow, As bight as the sun. To cast away sorrow, And be whole; be one.   The sa...
Posted by Pajama Poet on Sat, 20 Jan 2007 07:51:00 PST

Praying for Prophecy - Ghazal

A gaze shall haunt for eternity? This is my prophecy; That my heart shall die five fold. Oh sad prophecy.   Doomed! Her eyes chill me to my very core. In them I once saw promise; a sweet proph...
Posted by Pajama Poet on Fri, 19 Jan 2007 01:14:00 PST

On-Line Porn - Light Verse

A pull, a tug, An "eh," a shrug& Yup, he's got the porno bug. His preference is southpaw style, (Admittedly, it takes a while&) But when he's done, he cracks a smile :)   - Thomfox (011807)...
Posted by Pajama Poet on Thu, 18 Jan 2007 06:58:00 PST

Anarchy Pudding - Tanka

Anarchy pudding& Confusing lust versus love. Fragile emotions& Drive a saint to be evil, And a devil to cower.   - Thomfox (011707)...
Posted by Pajama Poet on Wed, 17 Jan 2007 01:46:00 PST

A Long Overdue Short Farewell to an Old Friend

What's it been, 20 years?  By my count; 12,000 beers. Been too drunk to count the cheers& Sober now; recall the tears.   Alas, I take my leave of you, Chalice filled with tempting brew, An...
Posted by Pajama Poet on Tue, 16 Jan 2007 08:49:00 PST

& And Dr. King Made Me Think - Cinquain

"Life's most urgent question is: what are you doing for others?" These words of Dr. Martin Luther King beg me to ask& Do we take time to love neighbors as sisters and brothers? Countless millions wear...
Posted by Pajama Poet on Tue, 19 Dec 2006 01:28:00 PST

My Fn Life; in Semi-Poetic Form&

I try to bring new words; They've all been spoken. Someone hands me a cigarette, But I'm already smokin'. I remember puff, puff give; Damnit I'm chokin'!   I got rage in a bottle; The glass is ...
Posted by Pajama Poet on Sat, 13 Jan 2007 10:34:00 PST

My First Public Reading... (I "Made" in my PJ's)

So, I did my first ever poetry reading tonight.  For those of you that don't know, I make a living as a public speaker.  Put me in front of a 1,000 people talking about credit and I am golde...
Posted by Pajama Poet on Thu, 11 Jan 2007 08:21:00 PST