H.E.

When you can't believe in yourself,
I want you to remember to believe in me.
Believe in me,
who believes in you.
-Name, Rank, Serial number- This is where people write about how beautiful and unique they are, they end up stringing together bullshit incidental adjectives that don't mean anything. Have you ever noticed that when people make lists in order to define themselves, they seem just like everyone else?
It is a great piece of folly to attempt to make anything out of my early life, it can all be condensed into a simple sentence, and that sentence you will find in Gray's Elegy:
'The short and simple annals of the poor.'
That's my life,
and that's all you or anyone else can make out of it.
- Abraham Lincoln
-Potential I'll Never See- My name is Zak, and my last name is of ukrainian origin. I live in Miami florida. I dropped out of high school in 9th Grade. Instead of getting a GED, I enrolled in a fully accredited private school and got my highschool Diploma (GPA 3.82) at the age of 23. I intend on going to college/ University. I have no idea what I want to do... I think I'm going to pursue a degree in musical composition. Okay okay, now I want to do musical engineering and digital video editing. Okay, maybe not. Eat me.
-Not living, I'm just killing time- My life seems to have a disinclination to motion, and I know that I move especially slow; I am a perpetual child. I haven't decided what I want to be when I grow up... Really, I think I'd prefer to never grow up at all, though I can't help but grow old. As a kid I suspected that adults were all full of shit, and now as an adult I've confirmed my childhood suspicions.

"I have no doubt that it is the peculiar misfortune of both you and me to dream dreams of elysium far exceeding all that anything earthly can realize."
- Abraham Lincoln
-Carry A big Stick- More about me, I'm kind of introverted. I'm not necessarily shy, just quiet, and I don't always make eye contact during conversation. I generally lack interest in the mundane progression of most peoples' lives. I tend to be an observer, where I find myself on the outerfringe of a conversation, lingering near by, just listening. I don't want or need to be part of every conversation. You learn a lot about the people around you, and about the world, by just listening, instead of trying to be heard.
-POOLS CLOSED- I'm a nerd and a complete goober. I enjoy playing video games, and appreciate fully articulated action figures. I'm easily amused by internet humor, absolutely nothing offends me. You can call me cynical or sardonic, but then again, I'm really just an asshole like you.
-The Spoken word- I enjoy tragedies, sad stories, and spoken language. The recitation of compelling dialog moves me to no end. There's nothing quite as riveting and beautiful as a commanding voice. A strong voice can rally nations, stir hearts, and bring about the fiercest of tears.
"A Tragedy is a literary work in which the main character comes to ruin as a consequence of a moral weakness or fatal flaw."
- George Carlin
I AM A MONSTER.
"If a person brings so much courage into the world that the world must kill him to break him, so of course it kills him. The world breaks everyone and afterward many are strong at the broken places. But those it cannot break, it will kill; It kills the very good, the very gentle, and the very brave impartially. If you are none of these things the world will kill you too, but there will be no special hurry."
- Hemingway
A Farewell to Arms, 1929
-Set to Record- I have an idiot savant like capacity for remembering things about people. Not word for word, just the general details, and not all the time, just about random Stuff.
-Fuck Your Scene- I have come to find that I am anti-social, but then again, it's honestly very hard to find people worth spending time with. Granted, being miserable and rotting alone in my room isn't exactly the best way to live... But OMG, if you're some pretentious MIA/LA/NY tool that spends 90% of the day thinking about clothing "lines," or movie auditions, or modeling jobs, or if you hang out in the same clubs as Paris Hilton, or dated some loser from a reality TV show... and if you're some sorry ass indie film fag that thinks you're a producer because you wrote some shitty script and filmed it on a crap semi-professional camera; please do me a favor and kill yourself. I don't care which famous dicks you've sucked. Suck mine or go away. KTHXBYE!
-Fuck All That Noise- I'm not part of any social group or scene. The Miami Night life: consisting of Clubs, bars, and strip joints; really isn't my cup of tea. I don't have a clique, or peeps. I don't know someone who can "get us in". I don't have the "mad hookups", and I've never met the DJ. You won't catch me drinking myself to death and pawning it off as a "Good time"... and no, You won't find me in a champagne room doing bumps off the belly of some tragically damaged whore.
-My Absent God- Religion. I'm not a religious person. In my opinion, everyone has a right to their own religion, and their own beliefs. I don't believe in God... I just haven't seen enough evidence to prove that "God" exists, But I've also been wrong about a lot of things in life. If you believe in god, I'm perfectly fine with that. It's your right. I'm not an atheist, basically just a secularist. Religion tends to have a poetic essence, and I appreciate that aspect quite a bit. I'm a fervent believer in fatalism. But if you're in the business of selling god, then I'm not buying.