wh'I'M (whoever I AM)

LIFE IS A TEST...BUT I HAVE CLIFF NOTES. Next step you ask??? OFF THE CLIFF. LOSE FAITH. GAIN CERTAINTY. Time has been "taking" us for years...and ITS OWN time has finally come once again...OUR TIME HAS ARRIVED....IT IS HERE...For we are truly in the midst of Uncommon hOURS....It is inDEED time to TAKE time BACK. For InDEED we trust. MODspeed. GOD SPEED. I occasionally bite my fingernails out of a semi-conscious desire to remind myself of the impermanence of the flesh and every morning I wake up and shave with a straight razor soley for the purpose of getting to then make the "conscious" decision of whether or not I'm going to slit my own throat. Life seems so much more vibrant to me this way. I'm totally approachable but clinically unreachable. I tend to get strange looks when I cut the grass....perhaps something to do with the scythe that I'm wielding. I slice my morning grapefruit with a miter saw. The only thing I keep near the piano that could even be remotely considered sheet music is a first edition copy of Charles Bukowski's "Play the Piano Drunk, Like a Percussion Instrument, Until the Fingers Begin to Bleed a Bit." I've been known to chase a Tai-Chi class with an 8-ball of cocaine solely for the purpose of casting off the rather overwhelming and oft times unsettling feelings of peace and well being the discipline often leaves me with...howEVER, as "IT" states IN the Bible, specifically, in the book of Mark chapter 7 verse 15 of the KING JAMES VERSION: "There is nothing from without a man, that entering into him can defile him: but the things which come out of him, those are they that defile the man." In truth, it's probably less the actual drug and more the process of "chopping up and cutting out lines" that appeals to my meticulous nature....looking foward to crushing up and snorting Geritol in my twilight years. I'm probably the only person in the history of Las Vegas to ever come to Sin City with the intention of cleaning up and drying out...it is the desert afterall. And you know what they say, "Keep your friends close and your enemies closer." I generally like to keep mine right under my nose...except for the times when they're actually up it....I enjoy acting on occasion...most recently I have reprised my breakthrough role as "an upstanding pillar of society" for the highly revered Outagamie County Judicial System for a limited engagement run...as it appeared the state of Wisconsin was taking a vested interest in my driving privileges...consequently I have decided to be proactive and take countermeasures...I am now in the process of procuring my pilot's license...see you on the tarmac!!! I have an appreciation for sarcasm & metaphor. Over the course of my professional career I have had the great pleasure of working under the auspices of/collaborating directly with not a few of our generations most impacting & influential theatrical/cinematic/artistic/musical visionaries in the business...A BIG THANKS, to every crew member, cast member, artist, mad man/woman and musician I have ever shared a stage, gallery or arena with....along the way, I've also worked with a few other individuals of note including but not limited to: Susan Stroman, Lynn Taylor Corbitt, Jerry Zaks, Twyla Tharp, Harold Prince, and most recently for Chris, Matt & Phil of BLUE MAN GROUP...though in regards to the "boys in blue, " it didn't take me too long to come to the grave realization that THEY DO NOT IN FACT employ chorus girls in ANY of their productions and I'm afraid (so much better than being a fraud) that I was quite simply no longer able to sit idly by bearing witness to this heinous, brazen travesty....this blatant disregard for the deterioration of American theatre as I see it...;^) Consequently, I ended up working on the largest and most awe inspiring production show in existence on the planet today...Cirque Du Soleil's KA @ The MGM GRAND. Strange though...despite it being perhaps THE COOLEST show I've seen to date, it was oddly enough perhaps the most UNinspiring gig I've ever had...so I moved on yet again. Still, you truly have to see KA to believe it....it truly is a spectacle to behold....and I dear friends am a spectacle to be held...ALL YOU NEED IS LOVE!!! LOL!!! Needless to say I tend to date younger women.....they typically have much less shit to move...though their stories are generally, necessarily shorter, they are no less relevant....and though many have ridiculed me on occasion because I AM generally twice as old as the majority of women in my life, in my defense I'm not HALF as mature as they are and I am merely trying to bring a little balance to the universe. At the end of the day I'm looking for someone specific to accompany me...to journey with me as I help myself...to keep myself alive...to perhaps nurse me along in the, once again, Geritol induced stupor of my twilight years...that or simply & humanely put me in an early grave...they both hold their own unique appeals. Afterall, the goal of life is not to arrive calmly and peacefully at one's grave in some well preserved, manicured corpse, but rather to sort of skid into it sideways, screaming in horrified, unencumbered ecstacy at the sheer overwhelming brilliance of the ride. Andre Gide once wrote that "It is better to be hated for what you are than loved for what you are not." Timothy Leary once said that we should "Celebrate our victories in life with funeral rites for our slain illusions....to wear some black on our wedding day." And though I rarely put faith in most people things say...ESPecially myself, results are a difficult thing to deny.Trust those who seek the truth, but be wary of those who find it. Personally, I can't think of anything more rude than for one person to allow another person to get "familiar with," "used to," or "comfortable with" another...Such things merely lend themselves to feelings of complacency and ill conceived perceptions that one fully "understands" another and that there is nothing more to know or "remember" about them...no more mysteries lying deeper within. I leave you with one last thought that I love from Johann Wolfgang Von Goethe: "Whatever you can do, or dream you can, begin it. Boldness has genius, power, and magic in it."Alright, maybe just one more...."The measure of our ignorance is the depth of our belief in injustice and tragedy." -Richard Bach (Yeah, balls on with that one in my book.CHECK THE VIDEO BELOW FOR A LITTLE SOMETHING TO ASPIRE TO: