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Alpine Absinthe

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This is an unfinished story. Not edited in any way. And I will finish it once I am back in that frame of mind. Too busy to delve that deep right now...
Something for the preoccupation of a mind with a 30 second life.
Once again caught, twisted, internal to musings of a giant spider carrying my foes on her back. Harrassment by long proboscis and gentle squelching motions a regular field day around here. But it is not the spider’s fault. Her legs are meant for chasms and crevices, not a solid foundation of mental anguish welling between toes and those creepy crawly things that slither and squirt their way through dreams and horrors waiting between the retinal epithelium and optic nerve. Insectoid and segmented drawing ever nigh to what liquid musings await. She sucks even deeper, attempting the draw and six shooter appeal of a cowboy with no horse. Not even a cow boy hat safe from her search for the nutrients inside my head as I pretend to block a path more open and ripping with every deep breath of heart attack pain. But it is not her fault. I suggested that she look and was not surprised when she started to devour. Her feet continue to slip and revenge soaks in deep with a little yip and tuck into a mental agony screaming with the excitement of getting back what was removed. Fuller than ever and fully satisfied for a few minutes more of a grey dull life I continue the hunt and peck for more delectable events than a blond.
Searching the ever twisting, relentless hallways of asphalt reverberating with thousands of individual pebbles protesting a life of service to the general populace of a dim crowd for that one hidden meaning peeking with a brilliance and sparkle stolen from a fiery furnace known to be hidden deep within the torture caverns of a certain lost city. Somewhere a spider resides with venomous intentions and poisonous claims. Her jeweled scales meant for battlefield shields and ladies tresses. Silver meandering through hair white with new moon brilliance shining off a slick black lake of petroleum skinned from long lost monsters and reams of children’s books meant to draw the unintended. I know of her existence by hunting the shadows for the well-worn, piss stained drunks with pasts filled with golden highways and plentiful horns brewing with sloth and liar’s dreams. She lurks in daylight, playing with spindles full of blood and innocence laughing at the innocuous nature of pretty, pretty princesses drowning in bile.
Ah, a treat in blue wrinkled weather and clouded cataracts gazing at a moon full to bursting with putrescent light and pus filled shadows...
here is another portion of writing...
It peels off in strips. Rolling away to reveal the new skin. It is fresh. Unmarked. And quickly dries and hardens in the cold, crisp air. The new skin should do well for a while. With a new vigor found by the loss of a few shreds of burden, we move. It is long since such quickness of movement was known. Too long. But our journey is off and no more thought can be put to the past. That is what we left behind, blowing away in the wind.Our new skin proves tough and could not be marked by sword, knife, spear, or word. And many times we have needed its protective finish. From every side we are bombarded by hate and cruelty. By lies and contempt. And we cannot strike back. We have no weapons we can use yet. No ability to let our own contempt and hatred take retribution. Not until our time has come. If it ever does.We are traveling to another land for now. Away from those of past focus, away from the tormenters in the years before our new skin was seen. We will not be known there. At least, not for a while. It is always inevitable that fear treads before us, and hatred behind. But we have learned many things in the long years. We do not try to blend in, to fade into the society around our dwelling place. We do not attempt to befriend those we meet. We do not try to find help. Though we had made several attempts to break this curse before, always it ended in disaster and death. And we would be run out of town. Again. And again.We learn slow, yes. But we learn. So to a new place we go with our new skin. To hide until such time passes that we are again hunted down. Of course, we have also learned to leave before they find us vulnerable to attack. And we grow a new skin and go away. All the hunters find of the hunted is visages and remnants of a past spent in sorrow. A past spent biding our time.

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I am and always will be a silver freak. It is the most beautiful metal...



I'd like to meet:

Someone who has the capability to understand the quirks and terminology and reasons and conundrums that compose this ever changing shell. Well, that and somebody worth thanking for existing. But I live in Texas.

ever feel like this?



Amazing!

Music:

What music I allow access to my brain is a phosphorescent indicator of past helplessness and frustrations, bitterness and hope. I listen to sad, sad, sad songs to try to convince myself life isn't really all that bad. Sometimes I succeed and life's miseries are backburned for shorts spurts and flailings. Most of the time I fight dragon against tiger, trying to wield the better claw against the inability for an attention hound to get attention.

Angry music becomes the bitter shroud of self apathy and hinders the adherence to formalized happiness. It breaks the fourth wall and screams unheard into starlit night incapable of compassionate thought. Cold shouldered back to earth, I listen.

My Chemical Romance: I'm Not OK (I Promise)

Courtesy of IFILM

Silverback Jonz!!!

good song..

My Chemical Romance's Myspace Page

A most creative and interesting video and a nice song to boot. Just found it.



Movies:

To watch the portents of another life on screen's flat and empty without the benefit of light is mesmerizing. I can see in them where I wish I could be, where I wish I belonged. But such beleagured thought holds no praise for the unworthy. So I sit and wish, knowing that this life is merely the last in a long run of cyclic pain. Films engender the heart and mind of a crazed and pathetic loser.
Donnie Darko. A Clockwork Orange. Labrynth. Tale of Two Sisters. I Love Huckabees. Sideways. Whispering Corridors. Bleu (1993). Requiem for a Dream (2000). Dancer in the Dark (2000). The Squid and the Whale. The City of Lost Children. What Dreams May Come. Rashomon. Metropolis (1927). Too many to list.
There are a few movies that are driving me insane, because I do not remember the titles and they were so rich and beautiful. One is a french surrealism film. It featured a swimming pool that had turnstiles in the front and it was falling apart with masonry and plaster and everything falling into the pool. I wish I could remember the name or find it somewhere. Another is a recording of an opera performance written during the surrealist times using a style of composition that has something to do with twelve. Maybe 12/12 time?? I do not remember. It was in german and the title, I think, had the word for wolf in it.
Lost in Translation

Television:



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Books:

Sci-Fi, Fantasy, Horror, anything that builds a portal out of this dismal world into one where I am god.

Comics and graphic novels. Of course.

And we can't forget webcomics, now can we? ?No, no, no.





Yay Sinfest!

So few Vegetarians have any empathy towards the poor plants they eat alive.



mmmmmm, barbeque christian... tasty...

Heroes:

Lenore. Poor, lost, misunderstood Lenore. (C) Roman Dirge

My Blog

Washington State

Not going to be in TX for the next few days. YAY! Going to WA to see Grandma. Getting old, losing health, pointless to visit when dead, that sort of trip. On the one hand :( but on the other hand :)))...
Posted by Alpine Absinthe on Wed, 14 Nov 2007 12:46:00 PST

Magic the Gathering City Championship.

So I didn't win. But I did build my deck the night before. And I kept forgetting to pop one of my cards which probably would have gotten me more wins. But I wasn't last!!Came in fifth out of 8. Not to...
Posted by Alpine Absinthe on Mon, 05 Nov 2007 07:59:00 PST

Halloween

There are times when I wish I had more friends. I tried to go up to the House of Torment and Illusion Manor. I know someone who works there... But...I could not convice anyone to come with me. And the...
Posted by Alpine Absinthe on Mon, 05 Nov 2007 07:49:00 PST

Waxing Poetic.

Life is actually turning towards the better. For years it would fly me past the nice bright shiny toys and then laugh maniacally as I grasped in anguish at what quickly became a mere speck on the hori...
Posted by Alpine Absinthe on Mon, 22 Oct 2007 12:48:00 PST

FISHIE!!!

Ima BAAAAAAAD GIIIRRRRRRRLlllll!!!!!So I went fish shopping.... yeah. I really do need to not spend the money. But the tank looks AWESOME now. And so I don't  have to spend much more than I alrea...
Posted by Alpine Absinthe on Sun, 21 Oct 2007 11:25:00 PST

Fishie! Fishie! Fishie!

FISHIE!!!!mmmm this weekend was pleasant.. Saturday we went to get cards from the Lorwyn set (MTG, and if you don't know what that means don't worry about it). This was release weekend... mmmmm Lorwyn...
Posted by Alpine Absinthe on Tue, 16 Oct 2007 01:49:00 PST

New Toy

Soooo..... I have a new toy... MUAHUAHUAHUAHUA!!!Can you guess what it is? Huh? Can ya!Let me give you a few hints....It has a rhombohedral crystal structure..It is a main component in cinnabar.It is ...
Posted by Alpine Absinthe on Fri, 12 Oct 2007 12:28:00 PST

I can’t really say this week has been crappy... yet...

This whole week I have been having issues with failed gels and problems with the morning person doing SPEs. I don't have anything against him per se... just his work habits.Monday was relatively uneve...
Posted by Alpine Absinthe on Thu, 11 Oct 2007 12:33:00 PST

Oops. Forgot...

There was another band there.. I completely forgot.. Lol.. The Nematoads. They played surfer music. Very good surfer music. Quite charming and very upbeat. Enjoyed them too. Was in the middle of selli...
Posted by Alpine Absinthe on Wed, 10 Oct 2007 10:55:00 PST

Ah.... what a little searching will do.

So I should have searched for the info before posting the last blog. But I didn't. The other band's name is Bright Shadow. They were fantastic as well. And lucky me. Both Call the Circle and Bright Sh...
Posted by Alpine Absinthe on Wed, 10 Oct 2007 10:53:00 PST