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Zaoe Zerimar

Sometimes when I say "Oh, I'm fine" I want someone to LOOK me in the eyes and say "Tell the truth"

About Me

Staying clear of those people who "aren't stupid, they're advanced! I just can't take stupid people in high ranking places.Working for a living!Foamy the squirrel lives here!Sometimes wondering why God let me live when many of my friends were killed in a stupid war. Yes, I am screwy in the head. I have documents from the military saying I have that stupid post tramatic stress disorder. Live with it! Who cares that I have seen my friends die. Who cares if I had to be the one to put what was left of my friends in body bags and ship them home. Who cares that sometimes the nightmares return to haunt me. Yes, I am nuts in the head. I didn't want to be. But time does heal, and facing your demons when they talk to you. If it wasn't for my friend Mark Callan, I would have jumped off City Hall at downtown Los Angeles a long time ago. He helps me cry for my friends. I went to the doctor for a check up and he found the documents on my screwy head. He went and announced to the staff at that clinic that I was a hero that survived a war. I wanted to crawl under the chair. I am no hero. The heros are resting at the military cemetery. I feel that this new war is making more suckers like me who are sick in the head. I have no answer for you about this war, but I do have an answer for me, If you meet me, we can spend time watching the sunrise and thanking god for allowing us to have friends. You can buy breakfast after that!

My Interests

Wiccan life. Hating the people who say one thing and mean something else. (Gee, lets see, like Georgie Bushie), and just looking for that clear morning before the sun comes up or just sitting out at night to listen to the life forces.

I'd like to meet:

Other former military people who have a story or a burden to get off their chest. We can't do it alone. I know, I have tried and almost destroyed myself.It really sucks to be thinking one way and people think another way. I enjoy the darker part of living and it just makes people lose it! I kind of like doing that. I guess the shock value and the look on peoples faces kind of make me laugh. I was told, "Being in to that dark goth crap is just stupid". WELL, don't I just fit in to your idea of what I should be! When they have seen what I have been through, then we all might be something to bitch about.

Music:

Joan Jett Rob Zombie, Punk, Misfits, the Clash, Lenny Kravitz, Stevie Wonder, System of the down, Bauhaus Front 242. KMFDM. Bella Morte. Cruxshadows. Diary of Dreams. NIN. Skinny Puppy. Siouxsie and the Banshees. The Mission UK. Fields of Nephilim. Joy Division. Smashing Pumpkins. The Cure. Rosetta Stone. My Life with the Thrill Kill Cult. VNV Nation. Assemblage 23. BlutEngel. IKON. London After Midnight. Ministry. and many more that I can't remember because i'm advanced.

Movies:

Not today!
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Television:

Daily Show, Comedy central, other than that, not much TV viewing

Books:

The center of everything--Laura Moriarty Rise of the Vulcans--(Who Knew?) The Broke Diaries by Angela Nissel--(Read it!) Mixed! My life in black and white by Angela Nissel--(hilarious) The five people you meet in Heaven by Mitch Albom--(thought provoking) God damit read a book people!

Heroes:

Stephanie, Mercy, and two dear friends I have lost contact with. Gil Cruz, who I was proud to work with at Patterson in LA, (Hey Gil, if I find you, I owe you two cases of beer and two bottles of Crown Royal!!), and Norman S. Hickerson, who is the person who guided me to do what is right, to carry on when things do not work right, and got me through my personal losses. ( Norm, I miss you very much and if you see this, I thank you for being there when I lost my mind!) That is for real. And to Carrie, {AKA Cleo and now Tigress ;)}, I know you are a good person! Don't let things get you down. You have a massave support group here. If you let them know they will stand up to help you!