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About Me

Welcome to my bit of Myspace. I am here basically to promote my works as a writer and also make a few friends along the way. I am married and live in Essex and for the past 5 years i have suffered with depression, post traumatic stress and anxiety disorders. Now, before you run a mile shouting "this guy is a loon," I am pleased to say that for the most part of my life I am quite ok and seem to have come out of the other side of the bleak tunnel I was in. I have decided to write a book about how I got to that point and how it almost destroyed my life. I could dwell on the past and sometimes I do, but I decided to draw line under it all by writing this book and using it as a self help tool and a way to help non sufferers understand what it is like to go through this horrific illness. It is by no means the first book of its kind, but I have tried to do something different by injecting some humour and hope into it. Also will be a second book with my poetry, called "Do Beach Huts Dream?" Anyway if you wish to know more then please message me. Thanks for stopping by.

My Interests

I'd like to meet:

Paul Weller, A happier me, Stephen Fry and anyone who wants to beat this damn madness.

Music:

Paul Weller, The Who , Simple Minds, U2 etc etc

Movies:

The Fisher King, One Flew Over the Cuckoo Nest, you get the picture

Books:

A Man Derailed by me do beach huts dream by me

Heroes:

Anyone who gets to the other side of depression and kicks its ass

My Blog

Bhuddist with a shotgun

I have had my second coaching session with Tracy for my bid to win an Olympic gold medal at the London 2012 games. This time i only closed one eye and actually saw the clays i hit. Unfortunately...
Posted by Paul Holmes on Wed, 24 Sep 2008 11:28:00 PST

Shooting clay pigeons with your eyes shut.

I have to say that yesterday i had an amazing experience. i had my first coaching session for clay pigeon shooting. i met up with my excellent coach, tracy and she briefed me all the safety stuff, lik...
Posted by Paul Holmes on Fri, 12 Sep 2008 03:22:00 PST

Part of chapter 3 from my book.

After months and months of being left to rot and fester in my cage I now called home, I got a phone call out of the blue. It was a particularly bad day for me, I was extremely low and feeling li...
Posted by Paul Holmes on Wed, 10 Sep 2008 11:56:00 PST

Shooting and the road to 2012

Tomorrow I have my first ever coaching session for clay pigeon shooting. I have told Tracy my coach what I expect and I want a gold medal around my neck in 2012 so no pressure. She obviously thi...
Posted by Paul Holmes on Wed, 10 Sep 2008 11:49:00 PST

So you think you have depression?

Seeking Help. So you think you have depression do you?? That's the sort of question you would get from the GP when you tell him how you feel. For some reason GP's seem to have this great knack of...
Posted by Paul Holmes on Thu, 04 Sep 2008 09:08:00 PST

Depression

Depression can be something different to everyone. A simple mood, a feeling of lack of motivation or the full desire to throw yourself off a building. Most people who have depression will wish t...
Posted by Paul Holmes on Thu, 04 Sep 2008 09:07:00 PST

Meat Bones & Skin

Meat, Bones and Skin I am the same as you moving flesh grinding bones peeling skin nerves that feel eyes that see ears that hear Yet my eyes see different things to yours my ears hear crying ...
Posted by Paul Holmes on Thu, 04 Sep 2008 09:06:00 PST

A Constant flowing tear

A constant flowing tear a watery eye a constant flow of tears an eye thats seen the worst of our fears the cork in your mind that holds back the past the memories filed away m...
Posted by Paul Holmes on Thu, 04 Sep 2008 09:04:00 PST

Lightbulb

I am a light bulb. Your left arm is the positve your right is the neutral your lips are the earth I am the bulb with your arms around me with your lips on mine i shine i shine the greate...
Posted by Paul Holmes on Thu, 04 Sep 2008 09:03:00 PST

Seconds to Go....

Seconds to go.. I am 15023750400 seconds old. with only 11352960000 seconds to go. what have I done? what have i achieved? where has the time gone? wasted in black moods wasted seconds on feeling sorr...
Posted by Paul Holmes on Thu, 04 Sep 2008 09:01:00 PST