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Circus Envy

From childhood's hour I have not been As others were; I have not seen As others saw

About Me


The name's Envy, but most respectable people call me the defendant. Unlike some of my infamous clown predecessors, I never want to be perceived as a child predator. Rather, Circus Envy is an expression of my own twisted childhood and an avenger of lost innocence. As an adult, he is my outlet for drinking too much, speaking too loudly and becoming the overall center of attention. In real life, I have a tendency to be more reserved.

My interests include travel, photography, and mischief of all kinds. I entertain a variety of close friends, including B-Grade film stars, horror fanatics, drag queens, other less describable misfits and my ever faithful sidekick, Candi Chaos!

Perhaps my greatest passion is horror. I love most aspects of this genre, including Halloween, seasonal haunts, ghost hunting, horror movies and conventions.

My Interests

Basically, I'm just the boy next door... if you happen to be confined to a padded cell. My passtimes include various impulsive behaviors, especially those related to Halloween, TDE Radio, photography, haunted places, carnivals, eccentric individuals, psychology, riveting conversation, occasional unnecessary pharmaceuticals and my favorite Chihuahua, Mojo!

I'd like to meet:

David Duchovny, Gillian Anderson, Hildi Santo Tomas, Rob Zombie, Tim Burton, Robert Smith and other degenerates that may be up for fun and gratuitous clown sex.

Music:

The Cure, Jonathan Mayfield, Rob Zombie, Courtney Love, Julee Cruise, Iggy Pop,80's new wave, Disturbed, REM, James, Angelo Badalamenti, Danny Elfman, Nirvana, Soul Assylum, Blink 182, Love and Rockets, Daniel Ash, Cross Canadian Ragweed, Southern Culture on the Skids, Alice Cooper, Nina Simone, Elliott Smith, Dead Can Dance

Movies:

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Television:

Carnivale, The Munsters, The Addams Family, My Name is Earl, The Simpsons, The X Files, Dog the Bounty Hunter, Trading Spaces, Ghost Hunters, The Girls Next Door, Parker Lewis Can't Lose, Monster House, COPS

Books:

Siddartha by Herman Hesse, Lost Souls by Poppy Z Brite, The Thief of Always by Clive Barker, most works of Edgar Allan Poe

Heroes:

All that succeed in realizing and pursuing their greatest passions.

My Blog

Derailment

I let myself get close to you.  Initially, you soaked it up, every dime and every affectionate gesture.  I felt as though I were petting a tiger, full of rage and strength, but docile to my ...
Posted by Circus Envy on Wed, 09 Jan 2008 11:37:00 PST

Memoirs of a Hand-fed Mamas Boy

Life in limbo& or at least that's how it felt.  Some would say I was making "progress", but with growth came commitments, responsibility and all the other entrapments of adulthood& the dreaded ...
Posted by Circus Envy on Wed, 28 Nov 2007 10:21:00 PST

The infinite wisdom of a 24-year old

At age 33, I sometimes find it difficult to embrace my past philosophies. Things were simpler then... yet infinitely more detached. Age and emotional maturity have revealed much grayer areas. Is ...
Posted by Circus Envy on Thu, 06 Dec 2007 03:52:00 PST

Nothing

I am nothing special, but I aspire to be. Covering up, I work so hard to mask the real me. Ashamed of my shortcomings, afraid of my own fear, I strive to find the niche where I might dare to be s...
Posted by Circus Envy on Fri, 20 Jul 2007 05:46:00 PST

Envy celebrates 33rd B'day

As you may have read in a prior blog, entitled "Tangible Dreams", I recently inducted a handful of valuable friendships into my ever-growing band of merry misfits.  However, I was honored to cele...
Posted by Circus Envy on Wed, 31 Jan 2007 08:06:00 PST

Zacherley

Check out Envy on the official website of legendary horror host, Zacherley! Although it is the same photo appearing in my own gallery, it is an honor and a privilege to be recognized by the original "...
Posted by Circus Envy on Sat, 12 Aug 2006 10:13:00 PST

Tangible Dreams

I am writing this blog in celebration of my newest friend, Patterson.  As director Henry Selick once said of Tim Burton, I believe Patterson and I are from the same planet, if not from the same n...
Posted by Circus Envy on Wed, 19 Jul 2006 02:09:00 PST

My Haunted Roots - an abridged history of a family haunted

My parents first moved into our family home back in 1961.  The only previous resident was the person from whom they bought it.  This individual also happened to be the builder.  No prio...
Posted by Circus Envy on Wed, 08 Mar 2006 04:19:00 PST

A Florida Vacation

The Super 8 in Kissimmee is the epitome redneck heaven.  Affordable rates and blaring sunshine compensate for lackluster amenities.  Overhead is not wasted on frivolities, such as crown mold...
Posted by Circus Envy on Thu, 19 Jan 2006 11:44:00 PST

Halloween RIP

I am lost.  Postpartum depression that typically follows Halloween has set in full force.  I lack the motivation necessary to reacquaint myself with the real world.  Instead, I mourn th...
Posted by Circus Envy on Fri, 11 Nov 2005 01:14:00 PST