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Endeara

Is all that we've see or seen but a dream within a dream

About Me

"I give myself sometimes admirable advice, but i am incapable of taking it." I am Thai and Italian. lived in New York til teenager then went on quite the adventure around different places. Life what a wonderful adventure...and yet the strangest i have ever known. No regrets all that i have experienced has been a blessing, for from them comes knowledge and wisdom. Two things i hope to continue to acheive until my time here is done. I appreaciate every moment of every second for it just takes one of those for your life to change. Animals are special.... they probably know more than we. Treat them well, all of them!. Teach your children to love themselves that is where it all begins, your actions speak more than you know and they will carry that with them into adulthood .. so watch them. Love yourself..for then you are giving back to the universe more than you realize, the capbabilties in love are endless. Treat the craziest of people kind for no-one else does. Love your enemy for they are the inspiration for your success, fight them with kindness and wit.. maybe they never had the two. and in whatever you do (work, walk, talk, love, all that makes up you) it is a representation of yourself so do your best it is all you and others deserve. When something beautiful or breathtaking catches your eye take that moment in...savior it...and remember "SACRED IS THE PRAYER THAT ASKS FOR NOTHING BUT GIVES THANKS EACH DAY" You may not get what you always want but you will get what you need, we are well looked out for just got to believe.
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My Interests

thou art to me a delicous torment. as are all men !

Music:

Prince,Miles Davis,Garbage,Harry Connick Jr.,Chaka Khan, Nikka Costa, David Sanborn,Santana,Jimi Hendrix, Doobie Brothers, Billy Holiday,Enigma, Sade,Seal,Terrence Trent Darby (sanada maitreya),PM Dawn,Ice Cube,George Clinton,Elvis Presley,T.I.,New Age, music from other countries, Root City Band, New Congress.Nathan Miller,the Rule, Jonathan Earl Band, Greazy Meal, Mambo, The Doobie Brothers, Guy, After 7, the ohio players, Garbage, Rob Thomas, Mint condition, Joto,Sante Fe, forward Motion, man that is really just touching the surface on what i love.. how can you really name just a few.. i LOVE MUSICIANS oh yea and thier music.. ha ha ..... and yes i like country, blues, classical....and what puts a smile in my tummy is Opera...either love it or hate it.

Movies:

Movie addiction i do have, the ones that move me in some sort of way from being scared to spiritual, to make me cry which i do quite often from my incureable romantical heart : The Notebook, Dragonfly, Gone with the wind, Cleopatra (Elizabeth Taylor)wrong as it may be in some depictions still a masterful make for that time, The Libertine, Walk the Line,Chocolate, Underworld,Lord of the Rings, Lady sings the Blues,The last Dragon, Purple Rain (of course),my favs seem to be (now u make the connection of these and then tell me) Alexander, Troy, Tristen and Isolde, Kingdom of Heaven, King Arthur, Count of Monte Christo, i guess i could go on and on but that is just a taste

Television:

bad for you...but i do have some favorites which are mostly done....so yea....couldn't name any now- havent turned on the tube in months - i have no idea what is going on in outthere..might be better that way... oh wait... House is good. but haven't watched it lately.

Books:

Converstions with God, Edgar Allen Poe, Edgar Cayce, Women who Run with Wolves, Forbidden Knowledge, William Shakespere, Embraced by the light, The Alchemist, Temple of My Familiar, Finding The Buddha Within, The Dead Sea Scrolls, The Complete Jesus, The Color Purple, The Spirit Catches and Then You Fall Down,celestine prophecy, celestine vision, running with scissors, the religions of man, Aesops fables.

Heroes:

of course my mother given we have missed a lifetime but better late than never..and all those making a difference or trying to in this world... musicians they have a passion that i am so familiar with... and they get to voice it...

My Blog

sometimes THEY don’t get it...

gosh what can i say about this ....experience in life right now....i find myself renewing myself once again.. it seems to happen around every Birthday.. and funny i was reading this book on Sextology....
Posted by Endeara on Sat, 13 Oct 2007 07:26:00 PST

cant even really explain but will try

wish i could really put into words what it is like to watch someone fall prey to the darkness of the mind a place we all have....just depends on how much you listen to it or go there i guess... i tend...
Posted by Endeara on Sun, 30 Sep 2007 03:28:00 PST

just more of what seems to be out of my thoughts but i didn’t write it.

this out of the book called The Invitation by Oriah Mountain Dreamer :   "I am compelled by some deep hunger of the soul driven by a desire that will not leave me alone, to live life to the fulle...
Posted by Endeara on Tue, 25 Sep 2007 03:28:00 PST

i dont know...there is never just one subject for a title

so as i was at Target buying the Godfather II and Viva Las Vegas with Elvis Presley...one of my closet obsessions.. Elvis .. gosshhhhh.. any how as i was sitting on the floor of my room.... ...
Posted by Endeara on Fri, 21 Sep 2007 08:50:00 PST

Well .....

Here i am back online and just so giddy about it.....takes no time at all .. i realize something.....when we are alone and not knowing what to with oneself and then wishing the person you desire was h...
Posted by Endeara on Sat, 08 Sep 2007 07:26:00 PST

work work and more work

but that is what life is all bout ain't it.. and then you play if your not sleeping when your not working that is.. but then dreams can be playtime too.... beautiful day it is today...decided to say h...
Posted by Endeara on Sun, 26 Aug 2007 09:38:00 PST

i meant

to say perfect i am "NOT". k so don't think i said the opposite....please far from it.   only our universe is. and the divine.   and making love.. hee hee.
Posted by Endeara on Sun, 22 Jul 2007 01:39:00 PST

i will be back...

In the mix of our lovely myspace soon....been busy with life, work , motherhood and just plain eveyday world...all good.. learning as i should every day.... i miss the connection with some of you and ...
Posted by Endeara on Sun, 22 Jul 2007 01:37:00 PST

The Invitation....fits perfectly ....find it read it !

It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for, and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing. It doesn't interest me how old you are. i want to know if y...
Posted by Endeara on Wed, 23 May 2007 03:36:00 PST

Just saying....

Someone close to me who hasn't been the first in my life to ask.... Why aren't you married yet ? or Why are you single ? Do you have a boyfriend ? i usually reply.. a few or a couple....i smirk... Th...
Posted by Endeara on Wed, 11 Apr 2007 01:21:00 PST