Screaming Girl, 2008, oil on canvas, 60" x 40"
Hurricane Katrina victim, 2008, oil on canvas, 60" x 40"
I am not from here...
..
I never learned that the fire burned...
I won't let go...
I howl...
This is from Hazards Of The Moon,
Part of the Omen Project, an ongoing thought about man and war.
he said: 'Where have you gone?'
She said: 'I am not the one who did the leaving.'
Mind the Gap
this is my most recent video project
it mates a text that has been in development for 10 years to video loop
Amok the Assassin; Deep Black Incantation 9
This is a site with my performance/installation work, my writing, my videos... the Omen Project
www.omenproject.com
Nebraska, the big sky..I was born two weeks late..first memory..when I was 6months old a cat scratched me in the face, just below the eye..at 3 I began having 'night terrors'..crazy metaphysical dreams..very surreal.. I would wake up in the middle and could talk about what was happening..fully cognizant of reality..two completely different realities at once..I would also sleep run..freaked the folks out at first..then it was just normal..I had a shetland pony..my grandfather was into horse raising, everyone had a horse in my family..owned the county sale barn..spent lots of time watching him play poker, and watch the animals being sold at auction..ran through fields of corn with abandon..at 5 my brother scared the **it out of me, by telling me about nuclear armageddon..never forgot..thanks bro..the parental units had me campaigning for Nixon and Reagan..still have a President Nixon pin..my dad is a 33rd degree Freemason..I liked hiding..and not being found..model rockets..science experiments..I don't think that I ever was on time..my sixth grade speech was a lengthy example of how to calculate and draw up your own astrological chart..grandmother was painter and homeconomics teacher..I liked building model cars and airplanes and then destroying them with fireworks..drummer..photography..first camera, Cannon AE1..first apple laptop, 1984, Apple IIc..computer programming..lots of fights..stopped talking..expelled from school..physics/astronomy..I didn't have a grade point average, they just gave me a diploma and said leave..after they gave me an IQ test they just stopped caring (138)..hate going to bed..hate getting up..day dreamer..Hot Rod, 1970 Mustang fastback..fast..I was a munitions specialist in the Airforce..worked ground support for the ASAT program..part of Reagan's 'Star Wars' defense program....Ventura.. managed not to go to the first Gulf War..SoCal beaches lifeguard..(yes..it was just like Baywatch)..surfing..college swim team..200fly..400IM..500..1000..the mile..Mohawk..mosh pits..physics student..changed to anthropology..it took me a long time to get a girl to go on a date..San Francisco..Visual Anthropology..started over with one class left to graduate..Photography..installation/media..lower Haight..espresso..no sugar..no cream..Kabbalah..studied Sanskrit..black magic..thought experiments, day dreaming, visual and auditory hallucinations..a drug dealer in my victorian all wood building caused the local gang to have an arsonist burn the house down..lots of gasoline and all that dry wood meant that 12 building got burnt, 10 completely destroyed and one kid killed..somehow my room escaped damage..oh and it was thanksgiving morning..my friends birthday..and the our apartment spent the night watching yellow submarine on acid..damn big fire..went up like an explosion..the hole damn block..two weeks later I nearly slid off a 200 ft high cliff while having sex..Hotel Casa Loma..witnessed a man knifed to death by a roaming lunatic on a speed binge..Chameleon Club..spoken word with Bucky Sinister..tattoos..Dan Higgs..music..DMT..Burning Man..showed up two weeks before anyone was there, empty, nowhere, the silence produced a whistling in your mind, in 1994 when it was way out in the middle of the playa..no cops..less people..more anarchy..ride bicycle with eyes closed..fun..I have a great Guardian Angel..I keep her working..Adobe Books..my totem animal is a black Jaguar..spent a night in jail on who knows how much acid..surreal..leaped headlong fast from building to street..ran through the streets..motorcycle police..boot pressing down on face..hog tied..that one got me community service..which led to me getting a great job..working at theater Artaud..cant sleep without sedation..conscious dreaming..realized that I was done with school when I freaked out my Dada Seminar teacher..strange..dropped out..wanted to escape Amerika for Europe..took the money and went to Budapest, Hungary for 6mo..my own little artist residency..loft..painting..baths in a sink..sex in a stairwell..Pitank..Bartok..List..Palinka and Paprika..hash and espresso..Hungarian Wine is the best..3 shows..meditation/tantric..changed my life..Tsewong Dorge=Diamond Of Powerful Life..Dream Yoga..had success forming a body of light..and many times success at at least maintaining consciousness as I slept..back to SF, became TD of theater Artaud..lighting design..run sound..video ops, rigging, carp..TD at Dance Mission Theater..performance art..Butoh..DADA Festival..noise art..nearly got killed on the way to Burning Man when the driver of our truck flipped the truck over upside down in a 20 foot ditch..if I hadn't of yelled at him we would have driven head first into the ditch and been crushed by the 30,000lbs behind us..10 hour traffic jam..still put on a show..no injuries..danced..howled..breathed fire..Berlin for a bit..great sausages..K77..love drinking great beer out on the street..NYC..BedSty Do Or Die..performed..lots of painting..great sex..more travel please..Greenpoint [email protected] to stop because of my bloody shoulders..Diamond Mind meditation while I walk and ride the train..video festivals..my paintings seem to really upset some people..they asked me to take my show down early..strange..I wake up with the sun..I sell paintings..I make videos..I only seem to have shows in Europe of late..Pierogi Gallery..bored..need more sales..need more.. 12.18 meets 12.17 this is very good.. Goals for 2007: Love, gallery representation, $100,000 in sales, a new studio.. OK I have the new studio but could I please have windows with the studio? seriously-I cant wake up... more kisses please
the system is large..
I exclude no thing, all is factored, and applied. the circle is squared.. the light is everywhere..
I don't suffer fools
Raised by wolves...grew up in a tree.
OM BENZA SATO HUNG
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Do not think badly of me
If I run about the stars, haphazardly
Mixing with the clouds and the mountain tops...
Hazrat Inayat Khan
set forth ten thoughts that form the foundational principles of Universal Sufism:
There is one God the Eternal, the Only Being, None exists save God.
There is one Master the Guiding Spirit of all souls, who constantly leads all followers toward the Light.
There is one Holy Book the Sacred Manuscript of Nature, the only Scripture that can enlighten the reader.
There is one Religion the unswerving progress in the right direction, toward the Ideal, which fulfills the life's purpose of every soul.
There is one Law the Law of Reciprocity, which can be observed by a selfless conscience together with a sense of awakened justice.
There is one Family the Human Family, which unites the Children of Earth indiscriminately in the Parenthood of God.
There is one Moral Principle the Love which springs forth from a willing heart, surrendered in service to God and Humanity, and which blooms in deeds of beneficence.
There is one Object of Praise the Beauty which uplifts the heart of its worshiper through all aspects, from the seen to the unseen.
There is one Truth the true knowledge of our being, within and without, which is the essence of Wisdom.
There is one Path the effacement of the limited self in the Unlimited, which raises the mortal to immortality, in which resides all Perfection.
To Have Done With The Judgement Of God
--- What do you mean, Mr. Artaud?
--- I mean that I have found the way to have done once and for all with this monkey and that if nobody believes anymore in god everybody believes more and more in man.
And it is man that we must now decide to emasculate.
--- How so?
How so?
From whatever angle one approaches you you are mad, mad enough to tie down.
--- By having him undergo once more but for the last time an autopsy in order to remake his anatomy.
I say, in order to remake his anatomy.
Man is sick because he is badly constructed.
We must decide to strip him in order to scratch out this animalcule which makes him itch to death,
god,
and with god
his organs.
For tie me down if you want to,
but there is nothing more useless that an organ.
When you have given him a body without organs,
then you will have delivered him from all his automatisms and restored him to his true liberty.
Then you will teach him again to dance inside out
as in the delirium of dance halls
and that inside out will be his true side out.
by Antonin Artaud