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More about who i was in general then.....
I'm some kind of mongrel alien from another planet who came here to consume vast quantities of fish, fruit and vegetables, and to scare bands by following them around and turning up when they least expected me to.
Somewhere along the line I found the internet, I found some truly special people to share my life with and I lost a lot of the innocence that brought me here in the first place.
I used to have the beginnings of a career going, but I couldn't cope with the intense pressures at work and the desperately harsh and critical environment I was in, so I ended up leaving amid sickness and despair and so, because of this, I am now "self employed".
I don't do much these days, as a rule, apart from wibble around on the interweb, sleep a lot, read dodgy biographies and books about history, humanity, fish and fashion, go to gigs by the same bands in as many cities as possible in a stalker like manner, try to learn everything about the world and what's in it, travel to new places whilst staying out of the sun and worry about my weight and my hair.
Apparently, it has been observed and noted by others that I used to be really fun and happy and enjoy a lot of things, but of late, i've become somewhat melancholy. There are many reasons for this, and some of them might become evident over time, others are less obvious to others but to me are equally valid.
I see a lot less of my friends than I should although this often saddens me I also sometimes feel I have neither the energy nor the patience to be as good a friend to those I should be as they deserve of me.
But I am always open to invitations and also, you are always open to invite yourselves to my world...
I am very wary of trying to form any bonds or friendships with people I have not met or cannot meet, but I long for a place where perhaps I can be more honest and less dependent on the opinions of others for my esteem.
I value those of you who are able to give those honest opinions, and those of you whose wisdom and insight I cherish are always welcome in my life.
I sometimes rant and rave about the wonders of pigs and at other times complain bitterly about how cruel life has been to me. That's what i do, so don't be surprised.
I also can be fickle - cynicism has made me less tolerant of the wide eyed dreamy young things out there who feel it's all going to be brilliant once the weekend comes.
I'd rather sit down and talk to someone who has tempered their optimism with a few reality checks and setbacks and who prefer to consider the world in a way that is less simplistic than merely about where the next party is or how to get out of doing their physics homework.
So here, in my little space, are the myriad collection of people i know or have long known and loved, bands i adore, people i trust and believe in and those whose opinions matter to me, in one way or another....
I also really like new clothes. Love me? buy me clothes! :o)
I also keep a livejournal, if you are curious to see what things I witter about - I tend to update it more frequently than I do my blog here... but like everything in life, things rarely remain the same for long...