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The Girl who wanted to be God

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About Me


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I'm impoverished due to illness - SEND CASH NOW!!!
(...well, one has to at least try all avenues, eh?)


first - a spot of promotion for some top musical chaps:


(no you CAN like the Sisters AND the Mission actually..and no, you CAN'T have my 4 night mission gig tickets for next Feb, EVEN if you ask nicely!!!)


...and moving quickly onto other rock'n'roll news....


YOU MUST BUY THIS ALBUM!!!
beacuse they're brilliant and this is a gem from history that you might never get another chance to own your own precious copy of!



My interests should tell you most of what you want to know - put it simply I'm supposed to be a music loving, animal friendly, slightly loopy person who loves to travel, dress up, dance, go to gigs and hang out with like minded people.



When I'm alone at home and NOT screaming at the walls or wrapped up in breathtaking panic, I'm reading, dreaming, thinking, learning, pondering on life's questions or looking at cute pictures of pigs and baby animals....


Of course, there's possibly more to me than that, but putting it into words requires more space than i have here - feel free to ask me about any of my interests though - and i might blog an explaination for any that you do ask about.....


Another quick rock'n'roll interval:
Check out Devilish Presley's website for more info on their current tour!





I'm currenty not working due to complete crapness at keeping a job, keeping employers on my good side and dealing with people as a result of my enduring problems with chronic severe depression and worsening social anxiety.


As a consequence of this, I'm always totally skint and having been eating nought but rubbish for six months ++ my once svelte and model-like figure has become somewhat more blimp like than I should like - please send amphetamines!

I finally have somewhere to live though... close to the river, convenient for the city and the west end.. blah blah blah, but mostly devoid of furnishings or fittings, hence all my "stuff" is still in storage. Good thing really, I take up too much room due to my current porkiness and none of my nice clothes fit anymore anyway.. *sniffle*

Housewarming gift list to be started pronto... oh, hang on, i've still got the one from LAST year....just gotta find the URL and update some of the choices...


So, reading between the lines some of you might gather, this is a pretty bleak time in my life.... but things can only get better, eh?
Chin up!
Oh hang on, which chin?

At least, at the very least, I have music....
and a few very good friends, so all is not lost....


FEED YOUR EARS!!


Another commercial break: LOVE THIS BAND, DAMNIT!
Bella Morte - "Earth Angel"

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So, whilst I'm here, in limbo land, I may as well rant about some things I do care about, trivial or not. Things that do keep me wanting, even just for a moment, to be alive. To act. To do more than just stagnate slowly...

Things I have done because I knew I had to, and because I wanted to, and because I could.... Things I will do again and again til my body breathes no more....

Send me to some gigs - I need the exercise!


Well, i can but wish, eh? Hope keeps me going. Something has to....

This is my "public" myspace profile -...so yes I also have another profile, but that one's reserved for people I know in person and bands I know/love who have their own myspace profiles (not fansites).
You can find it if you look on my list of friends - if you're that nosy, of course....

I dance to forget. And I dance to remember. And I dance to feel something other than pain. Though music also makes the pain worse....

You read this far?? No, sorry, there's no prize. I wish there was, but no, there's merely... gratitude?

My Interests


80's music, addiction, ageing, all about eve, alternative fashion, alternatives to western medicine, ancient history and culture, animal rights, anti-feminism, aubergines, beauty and ugliness, belle and sebastian, body image and dysmorphia, body modification, body piercing, burial rites, challenging social norms, changing my mind, childhood dreams, cinema, clan of xymox, clothing and symbolic meanings of dress, colonization and empire, crime, cruelty, cultural and social jargon, cultural anthropology, dead rock stars and the glamour of rock and roll suicide, death and dying, deathrock and horrorpunk, death wishes, definitions of sanity, depression, diy clothes, dream disciples, drugs, duran duran, ethnic identity, ethnicity and diversity, europe, european identity and the formation of the modern continental divides f1 racing, fabrics and textiles, fashion and the interpretation of imagery, fear, fear of slugs, film and filmstars, fishnet, furniture, gender bias, gigs, gin and slimline tonic, goths, hair extensions, hand bags, hello kitty, heroin in popular culture, historical analysis, holidays, inner city deprivation culture, insanity, isabel allende, japan, joolz denby, junkie imagery in art and music, language, laziness, lingerie, lip service clothing, major depression, make-up, makepovertyhistory, making clothes, manic street preachers, manuskript, media and media studies, medicine and the study of disease, mental illness, modern cultural studies, modifying clothes, my friends, naps, new model army, nick cave, norway, norwegian cheeses and strawberryt jam, nynorsk and regional dialect, opium, oriental cooking, overanalytical writing, paradoxes, perfume, pharmaceutical information and research, pharmacy, photography, physical geography, piggies, pigs, platform boots, poetry, pop culture, popular music studies, post-modern debunking, pre-christian scandianvian beliefs, pre-raphaelite art, psychiatry and the false premise of answers through long term therapy, psychotherapy, punk, pvc, reading, religions, richey james edwards, rosetta stone, sadness and dysthymia, safety pins, sanrio, serotonin, sewing, shoes, shopping, sid vicious, silly hair, silver and modern jewellery, sleep, sleeping, social phobia, strawberries, subculture and identity through difference, suicide, sushi, swarf, sylvia plath, terminal illness, terry pratchett, the architecture of churches, the art of food, the clash, the crusades, the cruxshadows, the cure, the development of revolutions, the development of style, the ghost of lemora, the heart, the horatii, the levellers, the loss of innocence, the medicalization of beauty, the mission, the misuse of drugs, the mysteries of london, the myth of prozac, the nature of despair, the sisters of mercy, theories of human psychology, theories of social structure, third world health, tokyo, travel, tribalism in modern society, trolls, unusual and quirky literature, urban landscapes, vegetables, vikings, weird clothes, whitby gothic weekend, writing, yorkshire



PLEASE HELP!!!

I'd like to meet:

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John Peel, Sid Vicious, Kurt Cobain, Richie James Edwards, Ian Curtis, Sylvia Plath and all my other dead idols.

I'd quite like to meet any millionaires who're looking for a good cause to give money to - hey, I won't be spending it on nuclear arms or anything, so why not invest in the Marge plan for world advancement through lethargy, apathy and sloth?



If you're a random stranger, an advertising site, a serial friender, are in a bikini, are posing in some macho pose, are perverted or just dull, please just go away. I have no interest in being reminded of how many shitty morons the world contains...


If you're in a band and think I should be listening to your music, ask nicely first and I might find time to hear what you have to play - send a CD and I'll be most grateful!

If you play jazz, funk, country, soul or bad dance music and you might as well spend your time better looking at all those myspace profiles with fake breasts amd butts hanging outta their knickers.... ;o)


Let us never forget the man who made us all love music more than life itself....

Love me - love my favourite bands - please check some of the ones below out!
See my music list and my friends for more bands I think you should be listening to!

Go on, you KNOW you wanna listen to the weird mix of strangely enraputing but less well known bands i persist in obsessing over!

Music:

Devilish Presley
Hammer Horror Glamour

WATCH THE VIDEO HERE


    the sisters of mercy new model army the cure the mission the cruxshadows clan of xymox all about eve manuskript suede pulp the smiths swarf sunshine blind faith and the muse metallica manic street preachers the clash the jesus and mary chain duran duran siouxsie and the banshees bauhaus the brides bella morte rosetta stone the horatii dream disciples the last dance nick cave and the bad seeds cocteau twins nirvana the ghost of lemora devilish presley joy division psychocharger gene james rays gangwar belle and sebastian dresden dolls the birthday massacre the sex pistols hole deathboy chaos engine peter murphy fields of the nephilim the bolshoi in isolation corrosion all living fear neon zoo the sins frankenstein depeche mode arcadia the wedding present camper van beethoven dead can dance emma conquest microdisney guns'n'roses levellers libitina mccarthy robochrist vnv nation nekromantik the 69 eyes nervosa ride turbonegro puressence morrissey rhea's obsession smashing pumpkins the divine comedy the fall mudhoney the tinklers the october country violent femmes U2 the tears the sisterhood xmal deutschland voltaire stockholm monsters bel canto miserylab pop will eat itself the wonderstuff pj harvey the pixies new order his name is alive goteki moby falco bruce springsteen
...and far too much more.

Movies:


SOME OF MY FAVOURITES:

RECOMMENDED:


Television:

    ER 24 Angel Buffy the Vampire Slayer House MD Babylon 5 CSI: Miami CSI: Vegas CSI: NY Bones Battlestar Galactica Law & Order: SVU Law & Order: Criminal Intent Criminal Minds NCIS Heroes Without A Trace Oz Numb3rs Rescue Me The West Wing The Closer Cold Case Grey's Anatomy Rome Charmed The 4400 Firefly F1 Grand Prix racing
.... and those gritty documentaries set on impoverished housing estates about illness and drug abuse

Books:

i REALLY need to update this section - tried to the other day but the whole thing crashed before i could save it!

for a list of some books i've enjoyed immensely over the past 20 years please see my amazon reccomendations
my favourite book:

NOW READING:

The Whole Pig.

Some of the good books I've recently read:


other books I have enjoyed and can recommend

Heroes:



My Blog

they suffocate at night....

Two years have passed, two years of emptiness inside And the grey skies above just show how far I went wrongI wonder if she's living there the way that I recallThe way I'll always think of youAnd wh...
Posted by The Girl who wanted to be God on Wed, 30 May 2007 07:15:00 PST

Nothing changes....

The Part of You That No One SeesYou are aloof, mysterious, and distant.People feel like they really don't know the true you...Yet they're still drawn to you, almost by magnetic force.Underneath it all...
Posted by The Girl who wanted to be God on Thu, 05 Apr 2007 07:03:00 PST

no surprises there then!

Greed:Medium Gluttony:Low Wrath:High&n bsp;Sloth:Medium Envy:Medium Lust:Low& nbsp;Pride:Medium Take the Seven Deadly Sins Quiz...
Posted by The Girl who wanted to be God on Fri, 02 Mar 2007 05:31:00 PST

What is love, anyway?

The Keys to Your HeartYou are attracted to those who have a split personality - cold as ice on the outside but hot as fire in the heart.In love, you feel the most alive when everything is uncertain, o...
Posted by The Girl who wanted to be God on Wed, 14 Feb 2007 08:59:00 PST

diet demons!

i do wish that this article made me realise the dangers of reckless driving rather than crave a lovely hot spicy pizza, damnit!tonight's dinner will be mostly seafood, which i guess i could marinate i...
Posted by The Girl who wanted to be God on Mon, 29 Jan 2007 10:59:00 PST

books read so far this year

i am keeping a list of what i read this year - probably wont do too much in terms of reviewing them, but i rarely finish books i don't enjoy so i guess the list will basically be all books i could rec...
Posted by The Girl who wanted to be God on Thu, 25 Jan 2007 04:57:00 PST

ten reasons not to go to china in 2008?

not sure how much of this i would agree with, but it seems controversial enough for me to garner opinion on it. note, i did not write it, do not necessarily know if all the facts are correct and am aw...
Posted by The Girl who wanted to be God on Sun, 03 Sep 2006 03:02:00 PST

365 days ago...

 in remembrance......  ...
Posted by The Girl who wanted to be God on Fri, 07 Jul 2006 03:48:00 PST

like i ever!!!!

I am 28% White Trash.The white trash in my blood will not keep me from becoming a doctor or a lawyer, but it will keep me from a good haircut and any sort of fashion sense.Take theWhite Trash Test@ Fu...
Posted by The Girl who wanted to be God on Mon, 12 Jun 2006 05:50:00 PST

oh if ever there was a lie....

You scored as Old-school Goth. You are an old-school goth. Forget Tina and Rogue, your idols are still Siouxsie and Peter and Fat Bob, and black lipstick and white powder is still the way to go.Old-s...
Posted by The Girl who wanted to be God on Tue, 06 Jun 2006 06:42:00 PST