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Derealized®

Be a loyal plastic robot for a world that doesn't care

About Me

I hate describing myself. I'm not the most outgoing person, not in most situations anyway. The way most people live their lives, what their beliefs are, and their interests are all a big fuckin joke to me, because it all seems so meaningless in so many ways, most of the time. But I’m not exactly a judgmental person either; I just don't think the same way most people do. And it's rare that I find people who think the same way I do, which is probably why it's sometimes hard for me to hold conversations with new people. If I feel like I have nothing in common with them, then how much can come out of it? I always try to stay active, any free time I have I try to spend doing something productive. I'm always looking to try new things, see new places, and learn as much as I can. Sitting at home or even just staying in one place for too long bores the hell out of me. I get bored easily. TV is boring and you're probably boring too if that’s what you think of as entertainment. You'll probably be very bored around me if all you have to talk about is what crap you watched last night. I hate American Idol and all the rest of that BS. So if I ever seem quiet or lost or withdrawn, it's because I'm too busy thinking about something more important than what’s going on around me. I am a high school dropout (twice) I currently drink and smoke too much (working on that) and I eat foods that I shouldn't while warning everyone about the many other dangers in life (aspartame-fluoride). I am an atheist and obviously I am not very fond of religion at all, for many reasons. I'm broke and my car runs like shit. I am an Idealist. I am not here to fit some shirtless pretty boy image or collect a number of friends. I am not here to just "hook up" with someone I don't even know anything about. I just do not care about those things. What I am here to do is share thoughts and ideas. I take a lot of pictures and post a lot of bulletins (good ones). I have social anxiety as well as other phobias that I can't even begin to explain to the average person. I deal with it. I don't like most people... but I try to give everyone a fair chance. I am usually the most passive and forgiving person and it does take a lot to offend me (no, that isn't a challenge) I am in the middle of working on this profile so it will be changing as I do.


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My Interests

Right now, i'm looking ahead at doing all of those things i wish i had done in the past. but couldn't for many different reasons, things have changed a lot over the years, and i'm finally sure of what i want, i'd like to believe anyway, i like spending time out doors, having drinks on weekends, or whenever else i feel like it, movies, books and random magazine articles about whatever catches my attention, all kinds of art and photography, astrophotography, microphotography, claymation and animation, sculpting, carving, woodburning, antiques and restoring antiques, computers and technology (i'm part nerd), cars, guns, especially historical firearms, history, some psychology, not the tom cruise kind or the take this magic pill kind, just observing problems, observing everything, fixing, breaking, making and collecting things, woodwork, blacksmithing, gunsmithing, carpentry, Duct tape vice grips and PB blaster, old factories, insects, dogs, cats, animals, dreams and dreaming, staying up late, waking up early, being able to sleep at night, and also the fact that i still wake up each day after 26 years, considering my luck.

I'd like to meet:

Anyone really. but people who are honest, ambitious, artistic, creative, open minded, unafraid to take risks if they're for a good cause, and people with a sense of humor. because i try not to take life too seriously. Also people who know how to keep themselves well in control at all times, because i hope to make it as far as i can throughout my life, and it's hard enough keeping myself in line. i am somewhat of a loner too lately, thats because i'm looking for all the influence i need inside myself, which is something i think more people should do. i want to meet other people who actually know what they're living for.
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Music:

I like the kind of music that hopefully offends your mother, but basically just rock, new and old, not rap though, or country, what i really don't like are the crappy "hit" songs that are heard everywhere for about a month then completely forgotten, the annoying emo garbage (those pussies) pop pop-punk MTV bs all the kids seem to like, and most numetal is just trash so i like a lot of older songs, btw even though i say i dislike country and rap i am allowed to have a few certain exceptions there, it's just that i am a quarter of a century old now, which gives me the right to start complaining about what kids listen to these days, and i do it well. shut up. actually I'm really not as picky as i sound, i just don't feel like listing all the different bands that i like or dislike.

Movies:

Older movies, especially Comedy and Horror from the 70's and 80's, since most of the new movies coming out these days are just a disappointment to me. I like 8mm films, and I'm the last dumbass in the world who still owns a laserdisc player.

Television:

Fuck the programming. If i watch any TV at all it's the nerdy things that everyone flips right past. Planet Earth and Penn & Teller "Bullshit" are some favorites. But i don't have cable and my TV collects dust.

Books:

I don't like to read a whole lot, not stories at least. I would rather live out every minute of my own life, with what free time i have, i don't need some good fantasy book to escape reality, because I'm much more focused on making the most out of this one. When i do read, i like to be learning something, about history, or how to do something, how something works, short articles about things that get right to the point. Books about things i shouldn't be doing, or should, only more often than i am, or even not at all. But thats just me, if you like to read, then good for you, there's nothing wrong with being smart, as long as you're not a smart ass. I like books like Ain't nobody's business if you do, Steal this Book, The Emperor wears no cloths, and The Naked Ape.

Heroes:

The guy who wrinkled my Randy Travis poster, pissed the seat, and hid my keys. Frank Zappa, Robert Crumb, Abbie Hoffman, Nikola Tesla. Also Wayne LaPierre and a few others.

My Blog

Church of the Subgenius

Does anyone else know this?
Posted by Derealized® on Wed, 21 Feb 2007 11:51:00 PST

Mixed Links

Just some interesting links that I've collected over the years. Think of any i should know of, even if it's your own website, then let me have them.http://www.darkroastedblend.com/http://morbidanatomy...
Posted by Derealized® on Mon, 04 Feb 2008 02:41:00 PST

Derealization and Depersonalization

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/DerealizationDerealization (DR) is an alteration in the perception or experience of the external world so that it seems strange or unreal.[1] It is a dissociative symptom ...
Posted by Derealized® on Tue, 30 Oct 2007 09:47:00 PST

Give an opinion if you want

Even though i hate entering this whole blog area, i'm kinda bored and slowly making my way out of the house right now, was wondering though since this is coming up, lookin at college for it, little ne...
Posted by Derealized® on Sat, 24 Dec 2005 12:24:00 PST