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Bipolar Survivor for Life

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About Me

Although I've suffered with depression most of my life with severe high periods at times, I wasn't diagnosed with Bipolar disorder until June of 1997, yet I was recently reassessed as having bipolar disorder type 2 along with OCD, and panic disorder.There is a long family history of this illness on both sides of my family and I have cousins who have committed suicide when they were not medicated. This still causes me pain and sadness when I remember them...I'm an artist of sorts and enjoy creative work of all kinds and also enjoy the creations of others, especially the greatest Creator of all creation (ie, nature and people who are so unique and beautiful in every way).I'm currently studying to be a Biblical Christian Counselor to help others who suffer from the same issues I have dealt with my whole life. I'm very loving and forgiving but I'm learning to be discerning about who I let close to me. ~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~I was sexually abused by my 16-yr-old (maternal) cousin when I was 4 yrs old and ritualistically abused shortly thereafter by others until I was in my late teens.
I was also date raped when I was medicated for a misdiagnosed illness at age 18 that combined with alcohol rendered me unconscious during the date. These left scars on my soul that are still tender at times...Not only did the past abuse and untreated bipolar disorder affect my life, it also greatly affected my oldest daughter Laura Ann who was born to me two months after my 17th birthday. (The video below is dedicated to her.)I'm trying to find some medication that works well enough for me to hold down a job. So far not there yet, and at times I wonder if I will ever be ...Until then I'm just taking it day by day and trying to live and learn about myself, life and other people I meet along the way...I find the beauty in all people as the greatest work of creation that they are.I'm trying to find others like me out here in "myspace-land" who want to be friends online ~ who knows, maybe we can learn from each other how to cope with this frustrating illness?I believe it helps to help others make it through when we learn what works we should share it ....

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My Interests

I like all creative projects and artwork of all kinds, creating my own and appreciating the talent of others. I especially like to write, journal, create poetry, sing, paint, draw, sculpt, woodwork/wood burning designs, making dream catchers.I love all of nature (i.e., all animals, nature walks and sunsets, oceans, rocks, etc...)I love to teach what I learn to others; and teens and little children bring joy to my heart and I truly love them beyond words.Children and Teens have a special place in my heart because I can still relate to the issues many of them struggle with in today's world. I suffered from an eating disorder (anorexia) for years; and I also practiced self-injury during that time (cutting to cope with the pain). I know the pain that teenage girls often carry inside of them from the abusive situations that many have to endure. That is why my heart goes out to them in every way. They have fragile souls and need to be treated delicately, and with the respect that they deserve.

I'd like to meet:

I'd like to meet all those who are surviving bipolar's firm grip ... and everyone who is "real" about who they are and what they want - no hidden motives - and wants to be a "true friend" - sadly, how rare they are to find these days.I find all people fascinating, and enjoy finding the beauty that lies within each person - that inner beauty that makes them uniquely special - it's like searching for a diamond and I believe we all are as multifaceted as a diamond ~ and even more priceless.

Music:

My musical tastes are so varied that it is unrealistic to even begin to list it all - Classic Rock, Soft Rock, Indie, Christian, Classical, Country, Celtic, Native American, Instrumental, etc... and if that didn't cover it then I probably like whatever I left out too...

Movies:

Well, I will have to think on this one, but really I like them all - the artist in me appreciates all forms of art so it's difficult for me to not like something unless it just really stinks - and even then I try to find something to like about it - not always possible though.

Television:

Not too interested in basic TV anymore, I used to watch all the CSI series and Supernatural and a few others but really don't have time to do that now...

Books:

Wow, I couldn't even begin to list the authors I've read and have in my library - they are too many and too diverse to list - needless to say, I'm an avid reader... Some of the more helpful ones I've found are: My favorite so far is this one by David Mariant of www.SurvivingBipolar.com

Heroes:

My mother, my daughters (especially my firstborn daughter) ~my son and my husband ...and all of those who give of themselves to help others become stronger and healthier to have a happier life...

My Blog

Bipolar (Manic-Depressive) Disorder - Much to Learn!

Helpful Links in Your Quest for more Knowledge on this Illness...Bipolar (Manic-Depressive) Disorder.An introduction to Bipolar Disorder from the NIMH An introduction to Bipolar Disorder from the Mayo...
Posted by Bipolar Survivor for Life on Wed, 21 Nov 2007 02:28:00 PST

Panic Attacks - Heres the Info to Help You Cope

Understanding Panic Attacks What is a panic attack? A panic attack is a sudden and unexpected period of intense fear or discomfort. It comes out of the blue, without warning. Your heart begins to po...
Posted by Bipolar Survivor for Life on Wed, 21 Nov 2007 02:26:00 PST

"About Me" a brief look inside ...

I thought I'd put my "About Me" information here since it is so long, because how can someone really define his or her individuality on a page like this when we are all as multifaceted as a diamond? I...
Posted by Bipolar Survivor for Life on Sun, 11 Nov 2007 06:17:00 PST