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Esmaa Self

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About Me

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I was born in the Chicago northshore region, but spent my youth shuttling between there and the Arkansas Ozarks. 'Twas a youth of recurring culture shock brought on by a biting one-step-ahead-of-the-law reality. Well, you know, I wasn't running from the law, but my late father usually was.
Speaking of the law, that 'Yellville, Arkansas' picture in my 'Silly Me' photo album is the last time --circa 1971-- that my family was in close enough proximity to gather in front of a camera. I'm the one in the blue dress. Months after that photo Dad pulled a Jed Clampitt and loaded up the truck and headed to Californie. Actually, he called it a big adventure: we were going to get back to the land!
So, Dad abandoned my eldest sister in Yellville, Arkansas and we settled in Pecwan, the largest village in the Yurok extension of the Hoopa Valley Indian Reservation. (pics in albums section) Soon my second eldest sibling ditched us and ran away to Chicago. Things were not working out in our little hunting-gathering experiment on the reservation. Within a year, Dad's marriage fell apart and he abandoned me in the leaky, drafty, no electricity, no running water cabin.
I wrote a novel about growing up white on a remote Indian reservation. Most of what happens in that saga actually happened to me. Most of it.
So anyway, I went on to open a weaving studio. I sold bolts of fabric to one-of-a-kind clothing designers. I was so successful at garnering press coverage that soon artist buds were asking me to help spin their tales. We used radio, newspaper and TV media to our best advantage, believe me. One thing led to another and before long I found myself a partner in a full-fledged television communications firm.
Another thing led to another thing and I wound up no longer a partner in either the firm or the marriage that spawned the firm.
But once a storyteller always a storyteller and here I am writing stories about strong-willed women who are either abandoned or abused and who struggle through the maze of their life until they reach freedom and healing.
Wherever do I get this stuff?
Listen, you can suck on a lemon until your eyes squint or you can add a little sugar and water and share the happy results with your friends. Lemonade, anyone?
Fast forward to now:
I love to cook and often look at a picture accompanying a recipe and just go off that rather than the recipe. I make my own hot sauce, jams, syrups, stir fry sauce. I sun-dry my own tomatoes and hot peppers and stock my freezer with homemade zucchini bread and home grown veggies. I make my own chili, jerky, pie and pizza. In fact, I pretty much make all my own food from scratch yet rarely is my lunch more than a yogurt or a handful of baby lettuce. (I can cook for an army, but cooking for myself is too much trouble, see.)
My husband and I live on mostly wild acreage that is home to myriad cottontails, red foxes, red squirrels, an ever-growing mule deer herd, wandering elk, and the occasional puma, bobcat, bear and skunk. The property rests on one of the many smaller hogbacks forming the famed Dakota Hogback that runs the east side of the Rocky Mountains between Wyoming and New Mexico. Our little bit of hogback heaven sports grapes, pears, apples, wild plums, wild onions and cactus. We added corn, pumpkins and squash outside and all sorts of stuff in the greenhouse.
Additionally we keep chickens. So if you visit this page, you'll get a dose of back-to-the-land musings, up-to-the-minute wildlife sightings and healthy recipes, because that's what I know best.

My Interests

Art, books, story, language, lyric.

Organic gardening, farmers' markets, gourmet and healthy foods, mountaineering, long hikes, snowshoeing, energy efficiency, wild lands, Jeep roads, Christianity, Jewish feasts, American Indian traditions, readin', 'ritin' an' 'rithmatic.

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I'd like to meet:

Thinkers, doers, creatives. You.

People like humanitarian Bono; marketer Seth Godin; writers Anne Lamott, Louise Erdrich, Barbara Kingsolver, and Kathleen Norris; poet Jake Adam York.

I'd like to meet a kinder, gentler me. She's out there.

And from the other side: William Wallace, Vincent Van Gogh, Leo Tolstoy, Franz Kafka, Jack Kerouac, Martin Luther King, John Lennon.

Music:

My dad listened to swing, jazz and big band music, so that's what was most often heard 'round the house when I was little. Now I listen most to rock and roll, but play some top 40, swing, jazz and big band music.

I've been in a major U2 mode for about three years, but I do occasionally pop in someone else's CD. Those might be Annie Lennox, Pink Floyd, Alan Parsons, Bob Dylan, Bryan Duncan, Margaret Becker, John Mayer and Paolo Nutini.

Movies:

Gimme Capt'n Jack and a bottle of rum! Seriously, the Pirate movies have been a complete blast. But then I've also enjoyed most Burton/Depp collaborations (Corpse Bride not so much: fell asleep). I'm a Coen brothers fan. Loved No Country For Old Men! Additionally, I've watched Braveheart, Tombstone, A Knight's Tale and 3000 Miles to Graceland a number of times. And I'm quite fond of these movies: Amadeus, Being John Malkovich, Eternal Sunshine of the Spotless Mind, Memento and Rob Roy.

Books:

Anna Karenina, Daniel Martin, White Oleander, Running With Scissors, anything by Walker Percy, Kathleen Norris or Barbara Kingsolver. Salman Rushdie's prose is wonderful, but I get lost in that and forget the story.

On writing: Bird by Bird, Turning Life Into Fiction, The Rock that is Higher, Write Tight, Story, Stein on Writing.

On language: English Usage, The Handbook of Good English, Descriptive Word Finder.... the online dictionary and thesaurus.

Heroes:

Bono.

My Blog

Celebrate! Take Me Out!

  I'm so happy for Martyn Clayton I could just blog!   His novel, Take Me Out, which he published through LuLu (http://stores.lulu.com/garblednoise), has been picked up by indie publisher...
Posted by Esmaa Self on Tue, 20 May 2008 03:08:00 PST

Parts of the Whole

I've a smattering of live from off-center wildlife ditties to share, but first this:We have officially renamed our property. Since Wonderhubby figured out that this land is roughly the center point be...
Posted by Esmaa Self on Tue, 13 May 2008 08:12:00 PST

Coming Soon to a Culvert Near You!

  A few blog entries ago (Let the Marauding Begin!) I mentioned that the high risk season for chickens was upon us. To recap: a mile from our place we spotted three very young foxes testing thei...
Posted by Esmaa Self on Wed, 30 Apr 2008 06:41:00 PST

My Most Embarrassing Moment

 One of my tops, Dorraine Darden, author of Jack Rabbit Moon, asked readers to share embarrassing moments on her author's blog. Here's my most embarrassing moment (or at least the one I poste...
Posted by Esmaa Self on Fri, 25 Apr 2008 05:27:00 PST

Another Unexpected Sighting (and a photo essay featuring Wonderhubby)

Sheep.   We saw 600 of them and who knows exactly how many newborns.   We hiked 14.6 miles on the trail we have visited over a dozen times since New Year's. This is the trail along whic...
Posted by Esmaa Self on Mon, 21 Apr 2008 06:09:00 PST

Soaring Pelican Poetry

Just a few words and some images in an attempt to share the awe-inspiring view we had today of a 35-member flock of migrating American white pelicans. Each summer, northern Colorado hosts a number ...
Posted by Esmaa Self on Sat, 19 Apr 2008 08:05:00 PST

Long Time Coming!

Boy, oh boy, does it feel good to have this home improvement project completed! Like most --if not all-- of you, we had never lived in a passive solar home that sported a wrap-around greenhouse, m...
Posted by Esmaa Self on Tue, 15 Apr 2008 10:10:00 PST

Let the Marauding Begin!

We spotted a trio of red fox kits down by the river this morning. We were headed back to the golden eagle zone when I saw three big headed kitten-like things crawl up the creek bank. So we inspecte...
Posted by Esmaa Self on Sun, 13 Apr 2008 03:14:00 PST

When Snakes Fly

  So there we were hiking near the edge of the Golden Eagle Protection Area in one of the local open space parks when we spied a large bird silhouetted against the overcast sky.  We've seen...
Posted by Esmaa Self on Sat, 12 Apr 2008 03:00:00 PST

Morning Deer, Afternoon Elk, a Froggy Sighting and Snow!

We woke to a nice covering of loose snow over the hogback and spotted a small party of mule deer studying the property. And I do mean studying. They checked out every craggy rock and nook, the wild pl...
Posted by Esmaa Self on Fri, 11 Apr 2008 07:59:00 PST