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mermaid with fangs

About Me

I tend to be a different person to most people I meet in real life, and I'd rather not ruin that more intimate and appropriate relationship by attempting to qualify my personality at length.
Don't we all just want to love things?
By which I don't mean to imply involvement with one's pubic region, but rather... enjoying things & the very idea of them - whether it be particular people, particular experiences etc...

As for what I'm doing lately... I love me some Jeff. We should probably just get married.
Mmmostly... I work & go to school.

Check out the film I'm doing some fx for, if you like. :)
I'm also working with my darling friend C on a graphic novel, but that's more or less under wraps, being in it's very early stages.

{a few of my favourite songs:}

Mmm! The music player is dark-chocolate coloured!
Oh! I make music, too! Alas, I'm currently inept.

My Interests

anatomy, binary, bones, butoh, cellular physiology, continuum movement, delicacy, details, diving, drawing, ecstasy, electricity, empathy, euphoria, explosions, fae, fashion design, filmmaking, floral anatomy, glass art, good-enough-to-be-true, hypersurrealism, infinity, insanity, intensity, joy, love, magical realism, making music, molecular biology, music, obscure musical instruments, painting, photographing, saturation, sculpting, sewing, sex, singing, snow, stop-motion animation, reality, synaesthesia, symbology, systems, the _ of _, the difference, the present tense, until you, white noise, wishing on everything, x&0

I'd like to meet:

~meetings

I've come to appreciate variety personality-wise.

That said, I will always have a soft spot for the gloriously deranged.
&Prefer to associate most with people who are passionate & calmly practical.
Nearest & dearest ~ people who happen to be gloriously deranged, passionate, and calmly practical.

Music:

From classical to unclassifiable. Particularly music so happy &/or so sad I feel like my heart is breaking / so intense/weird I feel like my mind is breaking - or just really fun to dance to. A few favourites: Depeche Mode, Mr. Bungle, The Magnetic Fields, Nurse With Wound, Death in June, Andrew Bird, Imogen Heap, Swans, The Residents, Tom Waits, Pet Shop Boys, Tones on Tail, Goldfrapp, Kate Bush, Portishead, Aphex Twin, KMFDM, Hank Williams Sr., Siouxsie & The Banshees, Sisters of Mercy, Bauhaus, New Order, Coil, Cocteau Twins, Death Cab for Cutie, Wolfmother, Louis Armstrong, Lena Horne, Charlie Jordan, Scott Joplin, Ennio Morricone, Whispering Jack Smith, Ludwig Von Beethoven, Wolfgang Amadeus Mozart, Sergei Rachmaninoff, Claude Debussy, Negativland, People Like Us, The Beastie Boys, David Bowie, Queen, ETC!

Movies:

Sunset Boulevard, The Shawshank Redemption, Seven Samurai, Chinatown, Magnolia, Adaptation, Jesus Christ Superstar, 12 Angry Men, The Sand Pebbles, Network, Se7en, A Clockwork Orange, Shaolin Soccer, Naked Lunch, Taxi Driver, Ran, Pulp Fiction, Tron, Legend, The Rocky Horror Picture Show, The Big Lebowski, Cry Baby, Tetsuo the Iron Man, Conspirators of Pleasure, Serial Experiments Lain, Liquid Sky, Dr. Strangelove, Three Seasons, Jean Cocteau's Orpheus, Xanadu, Brazil, Batman Begins, The Shining, UHF, Wayne's World, Top Gun, Young Frankenstein, Beetlejuice, Big Trouble in Little China, The Producers, Ice Pirates, Real Genius, Bill & Ted's Excellent Adventure, Howard the Duck, & the others I haven't time to list.

Television:

Don't watch tv all much, but there are programs I like. Usually something surreal &/or humorous &/or informative. I occasionally go out of my way to watch Venture Brothers, local political tv, forensic criminal investigations, or manic Japanese cartoons & if I happen on the Daily Show, sit through all of it. etc. I've gone without tv though... and wouldn't much mind doing so again.

Books:

The Outsider, A Romance of Two Worlds, The Book On the Taboo Against Knowing Who You Are, The New Inquisition, The Schroedinger's Cat Trilogy, Undoing Yourself with Energized Meditation and Other Devices, Hidden Beauty - Microworlds Revealed, The Velveteen Rabbit, Street of Crocodiles, Be Here Now, Illusions, The Rose, The Black Book, The Nature of Personal Reality, Nymph, Escape From Freedom, Influence: the Psychology of Persuasion, Life Extension: A Practical Scientific Approach, The Fourth Dimension, Principia Discordia, Breakfast of Champions, Baby BeBop, Weetzie Bat, The Little Prince, Sensory Exotica, Beyond OK, Zen Mind Beginner's Mind, Another Roadside Attraction. & other things by: Robert Anton Wilson, Tom Robbins, Richard Bandler, Hunter S. Thompson, Robert Heinlein, P.L. Travers, L. Frank Baum, Roald Dahl, Jane Roberts, E.E. Cummings, Francesca Lia Block, Beatrix Potter

Heroes:

Santa Claus
Otherwise, I don't necessarily admire or wish to emulate - but am intrigued by... Nikola Tesla, Hildegard Von Bingen, Hypatia, George Patton, Hunter S. Thompson, Thomas Edward Lawrence, Luther Burbank, Pythagoras, Dr. King, Robert Owen (1771-1858), Mary Wollstonecraft, Milton H. Erickson, Jesus, Muhammed, Siddartha, as well as people I meet on a daily basis - & enjoy the art~work of Joel-Peter Witkin, Maxfield Parrish, Salvador Dali, David LaChapelle, the Brothers Quay & others.

My Blog

so I've been tired lately... &

I recently changed personalities.  It was about time to change my socks, and I got confused.
Posted by *&& on Sat, 12 May 2007 01:35:00 PST

ballyhoo in communication

I recently had a very weird and explosive argument ... and it actually led to something good... AFTER when we were both calm and interested in how the other person felt.Perhaps if the latter had prece...
Posted by *&& on Wed, 14 Feb 2007 11:11:00 PST

Shower solutions

You know those commercials that show some product with a silly name being sprayed onto obviously fake mildew, and wiped off with a sponge? Weeelllllllllll...I've just discovered spraying a mere&n...
Posted by *&& on Tue, 19 Dec 2006 10:14:00 PST

time

&Sometimes it happens that poetry's actually (poetry)!   e.e. cummings - in time of daffodils in time of daffodils (who knowthe goal of living is to grow)forgetting why, remember howin time o...
Posted by *&& on Sun, 17 Dec 2006 01:39:00 PST

JVC GR-D350u driver problem

Postscript: one (or more) disabled "plug & play" driver/s is at fault... currently trying to locate it or force reinstall.  Isn't in "Manage Hardware" features.  Probably some folder on ...
Posted by *&& on Sat, 14 Oct 2006 09:53:00 PST

the country fair ~

http://www.oregoncountryfair.org/ "The intent of the Oregon Country Fair is to create events and experiences that nourish the spirit, explore living artfully and authentically on earth, and that trans...
Posted by *&& on Sun, 28 May 2006 06:55:00 PST

Internal Exploration ~ Continuum movement & Butoh dance

Just reading this made me feel like moving (so, did & it was great).A book excerpt about Continuum Movement>& Different, but related: Goo Say Ten's Butoh Thrills>(I highly recommend the "...
Posted by *&& on Thu, 04 May 2006 02:32:00 PST

1 am Chicken soup!

{I offer my apologies to vegetarians, & my thanks & love to the "ex" chicken.} Ahhh I just made this orgasmic chicken soup, randomly! Clumsily written recipe follows! ...
Posted by *&& on Sat, 12 Nov 2005 02:36:00 PST

melo~drama!

Because it's only habit, it's fear, it's what rips me, ripe & unyielding, open, and I try to carve hearts in my chest, because I don't know what to do with the one (if) I've really got if I've really,...
Posted by *&& on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

crying & pink champagne &

Today... I was sobbing & sobbing & I decided to get drunk on pink champange someone gave me for a two-months-late Christmas. When you don't feel anything's right or wrong any more and you aren...
Posted by *&& on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST