About Me
still under construction
London, Victorian Times and Poetry, Middle-Ages,Chivalry tournaments and reenactment history acts, Swordsmanship, Celts, Vikings, Knights and Templars,Scotts, Mother Nature,Mineral Stones, Rivers and Trees, Fire and Ice,Spiritualism, Magic forces... Love, kindness and sadness too.
You keep the rain from falling down on me.
No one destroys my dream
No one will destroy my dream
There is not much left to say about myself ...I am an expat loosing slowly my sense of patritism or identity...
I dont belong to this world anymore, lost in dreams and visionary landscapes.
I am a passionate and impassionned person, a romantic soul, I don’t feel I belong to the right century or time for my feelings and thoughts, I believe in Fate and in finding a soul sister, a solar friend, when being a lunar one …
I mistrust most people and prefer to keep at a distance.I dont intend to have a thousand friends here, if I send you a request or add you, it is because I feel deeply interested in you as a soul, as a spirit and as a human being.
I belong to a place of Dreams, a sort of Illusionary world, and as a dreamy person, full of mystery who doesn’t fit to the reality or the workplace, men or most individuals see me as a fantastic person as an entertainer, for some time and romance, but never too long,I am not the kind of woman you could share your life with or 'fellow friend for life' when you’re back to Reality and out of your dreams.Too much madness for common sense, too intensive for daily life and bloody routine.I don’t deal really with career, money, a decent house, this is evil and it means nothing good to me, but it doesnt mean I am some sort of looser not working up my ass to survive on my own.
My spirit is and remains free.
I am a human paradox : my love intends to be eternal and one, I only meet people who are unable to understand just the meaning of it.I am cursed : I would love men who wouldn’t, or be loved by the ones I wouldn’t want to.
Instead I just love each day, for it may be the last, and find myself happy in sad remembrance of the evidence that I could love truly once, and I forget my lost lover’s sorrow in my infinite love of the Earth,London or Hope for better days.By waiting…
It is all about Art and History, ancient times and mythology, the power of old stones and remains, the relics, the architecture of old churches and castles, cemeteries, a way to escape from my current life and fly away from this illusionary land of tears is the game I play.One of my fav’ occupation is to visit ruins, castles, fortresses, churches and cathedrals, victorian cemeteries, museums.I also take pictures of details no one would ever notice in graveyards or in the City, I am a gargoyles’ fanatic too.
These places are the few left where you can find peace, and escape from lead grey scenarios … I sometimes draw, write poems there too.
I have seen so much Beauty in my travels, only my eyes would tell…
I am especially interested in anything relating to Middle Ages : History and Way of Life, Weapons and Swordsmanship, Crusades and Battles, Clothing, Food and Cooking, Castles and Fortresses, Cathedrals and Old Churches, Heraldics and Manuskripts, Flags and banners, the Cathars, the Templars, the Knights Hospitalers of Jerusalem, the Malta Order …Books from Hildegarde Von Bingen, Chretien de Troie, Viollet Le Duc,Ewart Oakeshott, Georges Duby and Peter Ackroyd…
About Art, I love especially paintings from Victorian Times and Pre-raphaelism, and the European ‘Art Nouveau’ from 1900s.
I love beyond other things and unknown pleasures:Reading Poetry books and anything about Medieval Times,
Sewing,
Swordfighting on my own,
Writing my own biography and Stories untold,
Watching horror movies/ romantic or sad movies
Mother Nature, the Elements and magical forces of the Earth.
I could have been a Muse or a pagan witch in Ancient Times.My sense of sensibility witnesses every day the remains of magical forces hidden in the Elements.It is beyond my control and I can’t really explain, but rest assure that there is power, warmth and meaning in Fire and Ice, Wind, Water, Forests and Trees, Mountains and Rocks, Minerals …I can feel it every day.
I love burning incense sticks and candles, all the time, reading my Celtic Tarot cards and the Art of Divination, a few rituals I will keep secret …
Ik spreek niet goed nederlands but I fucking try lol.
Dazzled between far and near
Like the elegies relate to days beyond recall
I lingered in many memories
And again I stumbled through the back door
Seeing you, a misty shadow
I feel my repression
I can't go on
And again I am falling backwards
Tomorrow I will be here again
A silent mute of a black desire
Tomorrow I will be here again
Tomorrow I'll be here again
