Evil Carrots

..Hi. My name is Jennifer but most know me as "Evil Carrots." If you just found me, you are probably thinking I am a radical and paranoid person, due to all the videos and messages on my profile. But I wasn't always like this. I have only recently become an "activist" and I am still learning or trying to discover what in this life, this world, this universe, this level of consciousness (where ever I am, anyway) is true and what isn't and I'm trying to do so with an open mind. This isn't easy because much of it angers me, especially how much it seems evident that there are powerful people manipulating my reality and the future of this world, or fate even... Then if I go at it from a larger level of thinking rather than what is personal to me I have to struggle. Because with the idea that someone with more understanding of what is true may be doing what's right by withholding the wisdom they have (regardless of what is ethical, and I AM, I believe--more so than most people I have come to know **but then only with my interpretation of what is REALLY "ethical" which is debatable, I admit) but nevertheless I am compelled and driven to search for whatever reality is. Because I have children and loved ones and I feel it's my responsibility in nature to protect them from harm. But, above all, I firmly believe that it is true in nature that "life will find a way. The part that I struggle with is not knowing whether things are kept from the public for their own good, to protect the rest of humanity from possible repercussions that would stem from hysteria or if it's a different agenda. With the latter, I suspect that there are some out there who are trying to disrupt nature or "natural selection" because they believe having control of that would increase their power and wealth, and rid them of those people they feel are less worthy of existing. In which case I can only say "you shouldn't fool with Mother Nature." So far, my only conclusion is that I have to keep searching for the truth, and sharing what I know with anyone I can convince to listen to me. My experience has taught me that those who can handle the truth will listen and those who can't, won't. I don't know it all and I will be the first to admit that I could be wrong about anything. But my instincts as a human being are not only telling me, but actually screaming to me with a force I can't ignore, to not give up and not go back to sleep. I began this journey with the belief that God didn't exist, and not as much open mindedness that I could be persuaded to believe otherwise. But I stand corrected. I fear that if a higher power really exists then it must also be true that evil exists as well. Well that is something I guess I could never doubt or deny, anyway, based on some things I've seen and been through. Oh yes, it always did exist. My nickname is "Evil Carrots." The part of it that's "evil" only comes from a picture a friend sent me on Myspace that read: "I am an evil carrot," which I thought was funny and therefore I changed my display name to "Evil Carrots" and then it just stuck as a nickname. This is something I think a lot of people (who don't know me) read into too seriously and now I'm not sure if it's something I should take too lightly... So I am considering a change. There ARE other definitions of evil than the obvious and then, like I mentioned other interpretations of what is really evil, and I certainly don't care to let SOCIETY define that for me... especially when the majority of people who make up our "society" are mindless sheep who can't handle the truth because they are brainwashed into thinking they can find anything close to the truth by staring at a box. How can listening to mainstream media which is all controlled by the most powerful and wealthy people in this world possibly do any of us good? It doesn't take much work to be sure that mainstream media is horse shit, and if you don't believe that, just do a little research on the subject and tell me if you don't agree. It took me about a day to be certain about it, and that was with very little effort.It pretty much all started for me when I witnessed several events taking place in this world that I had heard about before they ever happened. I remembered Alex Jones on Access TV here in Austin, TX ranting about acts of terrorism and conspiracies on the local TV channel that I often liked to check for local bands and I know a few friends who do local shows... I remember thinking he was a complete nut and I often laughed at him and rolled my eyes at the stuff he said... and I felt sorry for him for being so crazy and worried that our government was so evil... I believed that if he was right they would have never let him say all of the things he said... and I was too lazy and too much of a know it all to do any digging into his claims, because I was sure he was a paranoid lunatic... because like I said... I knew it all. Then, on Sept. 11th, I woke up. I have been awake ever since. Now all I can do is do my very best to wake up as many people as I can because if many things that I've been learning about are true, it means I may have no choice but to fight for my children to have the freedom that I once believed I had (the illusion of having) and I can't do that alone; and there are so many out there who I know would fight if they weren't oblivious to what is going on... My only concern is what really IS right. In the big picture, I considered this question: are we a virus like in the Matrix? Some of those who may have plans to exterminate us or leave us behind--depending on what lies ahead, believe that is true, but whatever we are is a direct result of those people in power, themselves... because they oppressed us when they should have been educating us, and if they hadn't, who knows what we (all) could have accomplished. But money and power was more important to them.What is most important to you? The way I see it, you (we all) have less than 5 1/2 years to figure that out.P.S. Here is how I got the nickname "Evil Carrots" if you are interested... They used to call me Jennifer, but now I'm more widely known as "Carrots." It's pretty funny how that came about... I have a dear friend, also named Jennifer, and we used to live together. To distinguish between the two of us we came up with Peas and Carrots (since we often liked to quote lines from Forest Gump at the time.) With her, it didn't stick so much as it did with me... especially since I produced the access TV show "Pure Metal Sickness" where I was eventually given the nickname "Evil Carrots."***Please read my blogs. I put all the stuff from my main profile page there so it'd be easier to load***I edited my profile with Thomas' Myspace Editor V4.4