Creating things of beauty. Seeing others create things of beauty. Goddamn Roller Derby!!! Burning Man. Bellydancing. Flingin' fire. Striped socks. Running through the screen doors of discretion. My amazingly wonderful boyfriend. Being an Innuendo Ninja, People-watching from high up places, porch swings, climbing trees, going on Chikstok trips with Amber, having adventures of any kind, my family, random acts of kindness, old things, dead things, old dead things, sewing, fencing, photography, biking, hiking, swimming (part fish here), camping, horseback riding, making music, doing Mehndi (Henna body art), art of all kinds, interesting tattoos, anything Faery or Greenman-related, archaeology, monkeys, mummies (especially tattooed mummies), old maps, wierd and disgusting medical conditions and cultural customs, spiritual diversity, forensics, microscopes, knitting & fiber art, growing plants, campy horror movies, avant-garde makeup, beautiful masks, my pets. LIVING LIFE.
"The Invitation" by Oriah Mountain Dreamer
It doesn't interest me what you do for a living. I want to know what you ache for and if you dare to dream of meeting your heart's longing.
It doesn't interest me how old you are. I want to know if you will risk looking like a fool for love, for your dreams, for the adventure of being alive.
It doesn't interest me what planets are squaring in your moon. I want to know if you have touched the center of your own sorrow, if you have been opened by life's betrayals or have become shrivelled and closed from fear of further pain. I want to know if you can sit with pain, mine or your own, without moving to hide it or fade it or fix it.
I want to know if you can be with joy, mine or your own, if you can dance with wildness and let the ecstasy fill you to the tips of your fingers and toes without cautioning us to be careful, to be realistic, to remember the limitations of being a human.
It doesn't interest me if the story you are telling me is true.
I want to know if you can disappoint another to be true to yourself; if you can bear the accusation of betrayal and not betray your own soul; if you can be faithful and therefore trustworthy.
I want to know if you can see beauty, even when it is not pretty every day, and if you can source your own life from its presence.
I want to know if you can live with failure, yours and mine, and still stand on the edge of a lake and shout to the silver of the full moon, "YES!"
It doesn't interest me to know where you live or how much money you have. I want to know if you can get up after a night of grief and despair, weary and bruised to the bone and do what needs to be done to feed the children.
It doesn't interest me who you know, or how you came to be here. I want to know if you will stand in the center of the fire with me and not
shrink back.
It doesn't interest me where, or what, or with whom you have studied. I want to know what sustains you from the inside when all else falls away.
I want to know if you can be alone with yourself and if you truly like the company you keep in the empty moments.
I like most things, especially when they make me FEEL or just get me all riled up. I love Loreena McKennitt. Her music blows me away. Some others: Andrew Bird, Bonnie Prince Billy, Lizzie West & the White Buffalo, Gary Numan, Cathie Ryan, Annbjorg Lien, Martine Lund Hoel, Flogging Molly, B.T., Hevia, Jeff Buckley, The Shins, Blue October, The Sisters of Mercy, The Servant, Moby, Prodigy, Pentaphobe, Rasputina, Medieval Baebes, Battlefield Band, Silly Wizard, Altan, Dave Matthews, Dar Williams, Catie Curtis, Beth Hart, Live, U2, The Flaming Lips, Rachid Taha, Cheb Khaled, Ravi Shankhar, Nusrat Fateh Ali Khan, Simon Shaheen, Midge Ure & Ultravox, John Denver (no laughing!!!), Cat Stevens, Dobie Gray, most stuff from the '40s, '50s and '60s, Simon & Garfunkel, Billie Holiday, Steeleye Span, The Pentangle, Dead Can Dance, Peter Gabriel, Audioslave, Static X, White Zombie/Rob Zombie, Skunk Anansie, Imbrue, and my favorite angry boys Caustic Lye (these guys totally kick ass) www.thelye.com
Fur: An Imaginary Portrait of Diane Arbus. It's brilliant and beautiful. GRINDHOUSE, motherfuckers! Stranger Than Fiction, Idiocracy, Secretary, Spanglish, Lady in the Water, Pan's Labyrinth, Boondock Saints, Hedwig and the Angry Inch, Night at the Museum, The Three Burials of Melquiades Estrada, What Dreams May Come, Dead Poets' Society, Harold and Maude, Waking Ned Devine, The Full Monty, The Lost Skeleton of Cadavra, Dirty Rotten Scoundrels, The Fisher King, Altered States, Instinct, Kingdom of Heaven, What the Bleep do We Know?, Mirrormask (drool), James and the Giant Peach, the original Willy Wonka, almost any zombie/cheesy/obscure horror movie esp. George Romero films, Cheesy SciFi, Goonies, Evil Dead 1 and 2, Army of Darkness, Indiana Jones (oh hell yes), Fried Green Tomatoes, The Secret of Roan Inish, The Matchmaker, The Fifth Element, Amelie, The Shawshank Redemption, The Green Mile, Donnie Darko, Constantine, Office Space, Nacho Libre, Monty Python flicks, The Storyteller, Labyrinth, The Dark Crystal, Legend, Willow, and anything else that makes me laugh, I love funny stuff.
BONES!!!!! Scrubs, House, CSI. I don't have cable so I don't watch TV really. I watch a lot of movies while I'm doing other things.
I will read just about anything that can teach me something I didn't know before. Currently reading "Reviving Ophelia: Saving the Selves of Adolescent Girls" by Mary Pipher, Ph.D. Shel Silverstein. Anything he wrote. I love that man, he was wacky beautiful."Caliban's Hour" by Tad Williams, "The Lovely Bones" and "Lucky" by Alice Sebold, Madeleine L'Engle, Anything by Kahlil Gibran, Roald Dahl (especially James & the Giant Peach and The Witches), "The Jungle" by Upton Sinclair, "Lame Deer: Seeker of Visions" by John Lame Deer and Richard Erdoes, C.S. Lewis, "Tuesdays With Morrie" by Mitch Albom, "The Poisonwood Bible" by Barbara Kingsolver, "The Ordinary Princess" by M.M. Kaye, "Brave New World" by Aldous Huxley, "Anthem" by Ayn Rand, "The Velveteen Rabbit", "Fear of Flying" by Erica Jong, Janet Evanovich's Stephanie Plum books, "The Green Man" and "The Faery Reel" by Ellen Datlow and Terri Windling, "American Gods" by Neil Gaiman, "Stardust" by Neil Gaiman & Charles Vess, "Good Omens" by Neil Gaiman and Terry Pratchett, "Hitchhiker's Guide" books by Douglas Adams, "Pillars of the Earth" by Ken Follett, The Outlander series by Diana Gabaldon, anything by David Sedaris, mysteries, Isabel Allende stories, "The Sea King's Daughter" by Barbara Michaels, "The Zombie Survival Guide" by Max Brooks....dude, this is ridiculous, I read constantly, I read everything, there is no way there is enough room for all the books I like....
In general, I love and appreciate anyone who has helped shape who I am and who I will become, but that's a long list. My family is an ever-constant rock for me and I love them all. "Juan Mann", who gave love to the world with a cardboard sign. Jane Goodall because she is the fuckin' shit. Vedran Smailovic, known as the Cellist of Sarajevo, who forced the beauty of music into the world in the face of senseless violence. Morrie Schwartz. Bob Wren for teaching me how to seek truth with my eyes and mind open. Diane Arbus. And Grace O'Malley and Baodicea for being a couple of history's sauciest chicks!