Stephanie - ProfilesArchive

About Me

I am currently a high school British literature / creative writing teacher and I love it. However, lately I've been trying to find someway to get out of this hell hole, so I may not be doing it too much longer. I'm attempting to get into the pharmacy business as a drug rep., but we'll see with that one. When I'm not teaching, I'm contemplating life and all of its mysteries. I'm a good girl, sort of. I may tell a lie to keep from hurting people, but I'm as real as they come. I'm emotional, loud, and I don't hide my feelings. If I'm sad, I cry. If I'm angry, I yell, and when I'm happy, I dance. People, especially other women, hate the fact that I'm so honest and crude. I'll never be one of those fake kiss ass girls that you just want to slap. I do not pretend. If I don't like you, you'll know it right away because I refuse to waste my time on anyone who doesn't see the real me. I'm small, but I was raised to be strong. I've been hurt and taken for granted by a lot of people I loved, many times, but when I love, it's with my whole being. I believe in committment and making others feel special. I love my family, my friends, and nature. Every once in a while I find myself stopping to watch the leaves of a tree dance in the wind, especially if it's a weeping willow. For some reason I'm obsessed with trees; the bigger the better. The smartest thing I ever did was finish college quickly and get right into graduate school. The stupidest thing I ever did was shrug off law school right away, but oh well. That's what life is about, making mistakes, picking up the pieces, and then fixing them with strong glue. The hard part is realizing that in life there are no rules, only lessons to be learned. Hearts may be broken, memories may fade, and people may be lost, but in the end we're all still breathing, right? The hardest lesson I ever had to learn was that life is what you make it, and nothing you do will ever send all those bitches and assholes to hell where they will suffer for all eternity, especially those who continually let you down. You really can't change anyone but yourself, so why waste away wishing things could be different? It's truly not about what you want, but what you do with what you get.

My Interests

I'm a bit of a romantic. Poetry, writing, and art are my hobbies. I love nature, and I believe that it takes care of us, so we should take care of it. Right now I'm trying to get into a lot of different hobby type things, like dancing, ballet and salsa. We'll see how long that lasts. My sister spins fire. Maybe I should try that too. Music, ummm, I really enjoy listening to different kinds of music, mainly independant stuff; however, I love the Muse. Their music has this strange way of outlining and explaining every detail in my life. Lately I find myself listening to a lot of weird stuff though.

I'd like to meet:

I'd like to meet a robot and an alien someday, Jude Law, and Jason Behr. I don't know. They're both so sexy.

Music:

The bands that I'm feeling good about right now are The Muse, Radio Head, John Frusciante, and some experimental stuff that I was recently introduced to. I believe in supporting local bands as well, so I try to keep my eyes and ears open to pretty much anything that makes me feel good and want to move.

Movies:

My all time favorite movies are Fear And Loathing In Las Vegas, Blow, and of course everyone's fave, Crash, and not the one about the car crashing nymphomaniacs. I also have a strange attraction to weird, older movies as well. One of my pics is The Labrynth. The giant furry creature, Ludo or whatever his name is, reminds me so much of my old dog. It makes me want to cry, but I love it anyway. Like my sister, I too love What Dreams May Come. That movie combines Dante's Inferno with a great love story that just makes me appreciate things more and question what life and love are really about.

Television:

Right now, for some weird reason, I can't stop watching Dharma and Greg. I also like Six Feet Under. One of my friends turned me onto it, and now I can't stop watching it. It's an odd yet brilliantly made show, both funny and dramatic. Other than that I could care less what I watch because I work all day and have no time for TV much less a life.

Books:

Ride The Wind, On The Edge of Nowhere, and a few things I have to teach like The Faerie Queen and Beowulf. They're actually quite good if you break them down to their true meaning. Everything is symbolic. I've also been reading a book called Dark and Perfect Angels, which is a collection of really weird poems and short stories by a guy from right here in El Paso.

Heroes:

My heroes, mmm, nope, don't really have any, but I guess I could be my own hero. Why the hell not?