JANE: I could say i'm a plain JANE type of chick... BUT my life consists of nothing plain. Let's see... I say i'm more of a g.i. JANE type of chick... fighting battles after battles. Like an open book I take in anything and everything the author writes on the battle field. Looking to succeed and be victorious in what I do. Whether it be school or simply living life. I do what I do... get what I want when I can get it. I look for nothing but the fulfullment in life... keep my glass half full instead of half empty. No matter how much I struggle... as long as I know what I want... do what I have to do... believe in myself... have faith in myself... and maintain to be me. That smile you see will always conquer for that smile tells you i'm alright and life is good to me.
DOE: Depending On Experience... the seat of knowledge to which taught me well. I've learned alot of me and who I want to be through my past and present. Alot of people say the past is the past and it's not worth it to lurke in your past. But you know what... For me... my past is a great deal to who I am and what i am today. I left my past behind me yet "AS I ACKNOWLEDGE I LEARN TO ACCEPT AND GROW TO UNDERSTAND". My daily happenings has taught me to be on the outside looking in and the inside looking out. I see things in a medley of perspectives... I don't just look both ways (right to left... left to right) before I cross the street... I look what's behind me and what lays ahead of me as well. Some say as much as I put my mind & heart out on the table i'm vulnerable to catching an infection of parasites that'll eat away at my heart and mind until i'm left with nothing. I say... they can run away with my mind to give them more insight in life and possibly come to grips with thier selfishness... hold my heart and crush it so the blood stains their hands. But... there's one part of me they can't take away from me and that's my soul. My soul which radiates life... through my eyes... my smile. My soul can help rebuild what they've taken away.
JANE DOE: For those who already know me and built a friendship that is worth preserving with me... they are able identify me not only physically but emotionally and mentally as well. Therefore to the best of myabilities I have shown them the best of me so i'm not just a JANE DOE to them. For those who don't know me or starting to get a feel of who I am... you can point me out in the crowd... say she looks familiar... basically just identify me physically. But when someone asks you do you know her... all you can say is... No i don't but i'm itching to get to know her. So therefore i'm just another JANE DOE to you until you get to know me.
I WANT ALL THE PRESSURE TO GO AWAY BUT I KNOW IT'S NOT GOING TO HAPPEN...
Take this to the dome and breathe on it...
This world lives in greed... "people screamin it's all about me..." personal gain in deceitful ways manipulating verbal games sways mentalities in more ways than one... stunned to see how coniveing people can be! Just to get a taste of something new but yet try to savor the flavor that already exists for as long as that flavor maintains to salvage the tongue.
when it's convenient? When it's convenient for you? I'm not only there when it's convenient for you. I'm there when you don't realize I am. Your to self absorbed with what you want that you fail to understand me. I'll tell you but you'll only hear. You tell me and I'll listen. I see but you only see what you want to see. Blind to what is in front of you simply because you fear the unknown. I let you in but why won't you let me show you? I'll embrace the smile and accept what the out come may be. All I ever wanted was for you to honestly tell me. Prolonged toooo long that emotions sent on a rollercoaster distracted from life's journey. I won't force you to do anything you don't want to nor will I force emotions upon you, you know how you feel. All you have to do is lay them out on the table. what you decide is on you and i'll find acceptance, give you that respect, and maintain to love you unconditionally like i've always have. Now I can finally relax and recollect myself. But it all seems to fall when it's convenient for you!
"ONCE TRUE FEELINGS ARE OUT IN THE OPEN, FOGIVENESS BECOMES POSSIBLE"
LATELY I BEEN THINKING BOUT... THAT TIME I SHARED WITH YOU... AND THERE'S SOMETHING I FIGURED OUT, DARLING YOU MUST HAVE BEEN HEAVEN SENT... THERE'S NOTHING BETTER THAN... THINGS YOU SAY AND DO... SO WHY DO I FEEL I'M BEING PLAYED FOR A FOOL... CAUSE WHENEVER YOU CALL ON ME I COME THROUGH FOR YOU BUT... WHEN I NEED YOU, YOU CAN'T SEEM TO DO THE SAME FOR ME... AND I LOVE THAT YOU PAY YOUR PHONE NO MIND WHEN WE'RE ALONE BUT SOMETIMES... WHEN I TRY TO REACH YOU... I WONDER IF YOUR JUST BUSY, OR YOU DON'T KNOW THAT IT'S ME... CAUSE YOU LOVE ME DON'T YOU... I KNOW YOU DO... CAUSE ALL THE WONDERFUL THINGS THAT YOU PUT ME THROUGH... I KNOW YOU LOVE ME... CAUSE I LOVE YOU TOO... SO TELL ME WHY IS IT I'M HAVING DOUBTS ABOUT YOU... EVERYDAY WHEN YOU'RE AROUND... YOU ALWAYS CATER TO MY NEEDS LIKE... YOU SEEMED CONCERNED... IF I'M EATING OR SLEEPING PROPERLY... IT HAS TO BE THE GREATEST THING TO KNOW... THE ONE YOU LOVE LOVE'S YOU BACK... OR IS THE LOVE YOU HAVE FOR ME REALLY TRUE OR IS IT JUST AN ACT... CAUSE WHEN YOU HARD AT WORK AND WHEN I'M HARD AT WORK AND WE CAN'T TALK... WE JUST PAGE EACH OTHER WITH OUR SEXUAL WISHES... BUT WHEN WE'RE SPENDING QUALITY TIME AND YOUR PAGER RINGS I WONDER... WHO COULD IT BE WHEN YOU ANSWER LAUGHING AT YOUR REPLY OR IS IT THAT I'M JUST BEING SUSPICIOUS... NOW MAYBE I'M JUST A HOPELESS ROMANTIC... FOR THESE MATTERS OF THE HEART AND SO I HOPE WE CAN GROW TO RAISE A FAMILY... NOURISHED IN TRUST HAPINESS AND LOVE. -YOU LOVE ME-MUSIQ
LET LOVE BE YOUR MOTIVATION, BE COMPLETELY HUMBLE AND GENTLE, PRACTICING PATIENCE AS YOU BEAR WITH ONE ANOTHER IN LOVE"
A LOVE NOT LOST... LOST IN LOVE
"IN A RELATIONSHIP, WE CAN BRING MANY DIFFERENCES TO THE TABLE. SOME OF THEM QUICKLY NOTICEABLE AND WONDERFULLY APPRECIATED; OTHERS, HOWEVER, LIE IN THE BACKGROUNG, ANNOYING AND DISTRACTING US. THESE DIFFERENCES HAVE THE POTENTIAL TO EAT AWAY AT A RELATIONSHIP, KILLING IT WITH RESENTMENT AND FRUSTRATION, OR THEY CAN ENERGIZE A RELATIONSHIP, TAKING IT TO NEW WORLDS OF ADVENTURE AND NEW LEVELS OF TRUST. OUR DIFFERENCES FORM A PATH TO MUTUAL UNDERSTANDING. WE CAN WALK THAT PATH AND LEARN TO APPRECIATE EACH OTHER, OR WE CAN COMPLAIN ABOUT THE CONDITIONS AND NEVER EVEN BEGIN TO JOURNEY. LEARN TO EMBRACE AND CELEBRATE OUR DIFFERENCES"
WHY LET GO OF SOMEONE WHO IS NOT ONLY GOOD BUT THE BEST... WHY PUSH THAT SOMEONE AWAY AND CONGRATULATE THE NEXT FOR BEING THE LUCKIEST MAN AND STARE AT HIM IN ENVY?!?!? BE THAT LUCKY MAN THAT EVERYONE WILL CONGRATULATE AND ENVY. KEEP THE ONE THING THAT'S NOT ONLY GOOD... BUT THE BEST...!"A GOOD WOMAN IS THE BEST FRIEND, AND THEREFORE SOONEST TO BE CHOSEN, LONGER TO BE RETAINED; AND INDEED, NEVER TO BE PARTED WITH" BESIDE EVERY MAN IS A GOOD WOMAN...
TO HAVE FAITH IS TO BELIEVE... TO BELIEVE IS TO TRUST... TO TRUST IS TO HAVE CONFIDENCE. CONFIDENCE IS HAVING FAITH IN WHAT YOU BELIEVE IN AND TRUST ONE'S ABILITIES!
"TO LOVE AND CARE FOR YOU THESE MANY YEARS HAS BROUGHT ME MORE HAPPINESS THAN I CAN DESCRIBE"
What goes up must come down... I ain't going no where so you can get to know me...
"WHY CRY OVER SPILLED MILK... WHEN YOU CAN CLEAN IT UP?!?!?!?"
I listen while you speak...let's cut the NONSENSE... JUST ASK and we'll do some REAL TALK!
(in other words... "F*CK THE DUMB SH!T and STEP CORRECT!!!" lol that's real though)
SEX IN THE CITY... every female yerns for a MR. BIG... I want an ADEN... is it possible to find a MR. BIG and an ADEN in one or can someone who's a MR. BIG evolve into an ADEN?
"DO WHAT YOU GOTTAH DO BUT IT AIN'T WHAT yOU DO... IT's HOW YOU DO IT..." ~bahamadia~
"IT'S NOT WHAT SHE HAS, OR EVEN WHAT SHE DOES THAT DIRECTLY EXPRESSES THE WORTH OF A WOMAN, BUT WHAT SHE IS." THE SEAT OF KNOWLEDGE IS THE HEAD, WISDOM IN THE HEART~THE WISE WOMAN WILL PURPOSE TO PURSUE BOTH KNOWLEDGE AND WISDOM. SHE COMBINES THE BEST OF WHAT SHE KNOWS WITH THE DEPTH OF WHAT SHE FEELS."IF YOU COULD TAKE BACK ANYTHING THAT YOU DID OR ANYONE ELSE DID, WHAT WOULD IT BE: NOTHING! I wouldn't take away anything that i've gone through or i'm about to go through. It helps mold me to who I am. What I do, think, OR say defines me. NO THING OR NO ONE can create you.... YOU CREATE YOURSELF... NO ONE TELLS YOU WHAT TO DO... YOU HAVE OPTIONS... BUT IT REVOLVES BACK TO "YOU"... YOU is WHO DECIDES WHERE WHEN WHAT OR HOW... YES NO OR MAYBE!WORDS DISPERSED... thoughts provoked:
AGILE VERBALIST
SWEPT MENTALLY... ESCENTIALLY DRIFT...
INTENSITY COALLESED WITH...
DEFINITE SENSED ENGERY...
SHIFT RECIPE REMEDIES...
LYRICAL NOURISHMENT... INCREASE LOW LEVELS OF ENCOURAGEMENT...
SETTLE FOR TURBULANCE...
SEEN IN VISIONS OF ADOLESCENCE... NON PROFICIENT... NON CONSISTANT... NON HAVING SKILLS...
THE FACT IS STILL...
I FIND ELEMENTS TO COMBINE INTELLEGENCE... HIGH IN CLEVERNESS... OBIDIN THE VITAL TESTAMENTS... FINALIZING MISSIONS WHICH SEEK DEVINE INNOCENCE...
(RETHINK SITUATION)
LITTLE DID I KNOW YOU GOT ME FALLIN LIKE ALICIA KEYS/ PEACE TO MIND/THEN I FIND/ I WAS BLIND TO SEE/ VISIONS UNSEEN REALITY/ WHAT LIES BENEATH UNSPOKEN TRUE CONFESSIONS/ WITH NO AMBITION TO AMEND ALLEGED ALLEGORY AFFECTATION/ TEMPTATION/ CHOSE TO DEVIATE THE PATH OF INFEDELITY/ ESPECIALLY TO THOSE WHO HAVE THAT PLAYALISTIC MENTALITY/ BUT IN REALITY/ YOUR ONLY CAUSIN MENTAL FATALITIES/ YOU SCARED OF COMMITMENT?/ WELL THAT'S WHERE WE HAVE A DISAGREEMENT/THE NEXT TIME YOU SEE ME/ IT'LL ONLY BE A PIGMENT/OF YOUR IMAGINATION/ DISAPOINTED?/ TO BE CONTINUDE/ ONLY TO BE CONCLUDED/ WITH SOMEONE WHO'S POSSIBLY NOT YOU/PEACE
DESPITE ALL THE PHYSICAL CONTACT WITH EMOTIONAL TIES... In due time TRUE FEELINGS will come from within and recited out in the open weather BAD or GOOD.
"My heart's dictionary defines you, it's love and happiness Truthfully it's hard tryin to practice abstinence The time we committed love it was real good Had to be for me to arrive and it still feel good I know the sex ain't gon' keep you, but as my equal it's how I must treat you As my reflection in light I'ma lead you And whatever's right, I'ma feed you.." ~common~ "The Light"
SO let's build and...
I FIGHT WITH MYSELF IN THE RING OF DOUBT & FEAR...
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THE RAIN AIN'T GONE, BUT I STILL SEE CLEAR..." common
ONCE YOU HAVE LOVE, YOU'RE GOING TO LOOK FOR PEACE. WHAT'S LOVE WITHOUT PEACE? IF YOU LOVE SOMEBODY & THEY DON'T LOVE YOU? THEN WHAT YOU GET IS WAR. PEOPLE SPREAD LOVE WITHOUT PEACE, OR PEACE WITHOUT LOVE. - WHAT RESULTS IS ALWAYS A FORM OF WAR. HAPPINESS IS COMPLETE SATISFACTION WITH YOURSELF. IF YOU HAVE TO KEEP LOOKING OUTSIDE YOURSELF FOR HAPPINESS YOU'LL NEVER FIND IT. ~the rza~