Todd Michael Glover

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CAREGIVER FOR MY DISABLED MOTHER JANICE GLOVER.MY MOTHER HAD A STROKE IN NOVEMBER 2001.I LOVE YOU MOM.I WAS BORN TODD MICHAEL MADDOX ON NOVEMBER 11,1971.SON OF DAVID AND JANICE MADDOX.MY MOTHER AND MYSELF HAVE DISABLING BIPOLAR DISORDER AND DEPRESSION.I ALSO HAVE SOCIAL ANXIETY DISORDER AND PANIC ATTACKS.I HAVE ALWAYS HAD AN INTENSE FEAR OF LIVING ON MY OWN AND ALONE.I AM VERY RECLUSIVE AND QUIET.I HAVE NO CLOSE FRIENDS AT THE MOMENT.I LIVE WITH MY MOTHER JANICE AND MY FATHER. I CAREGIVE FOR MY MOTHER FULL TIME WHILE MY FATHER BABYSITS MY YOUNGER SISTER CARRIES SON JACOB AT HER HOME WEEKDAYS.I DO NOT HAVE ANY SOURCE OF INCOME. MY MOTHER CAN NOT SPEAK.I AM ALWAYS VERY LONELY. I TALK ALL THE TIME TO MY MOTHER AND I AM ALWAYS MAKING HER LAUGH.IT HELPS US BOTH.I GIVE MY MOTHER HER HAIRCUTS ALL THE TIME.ALL OF MY MOTHERS DOCTORS VISIT HER IN OUR HOME.MY MOTHER REMAINS IN HER BED ALL THE TIME AT THIS MOMENT.SHE HURTS EASILY.THE STRESS OF MOVING OUT OF HER BED MAKES HER SHINGLES APPEAR.IN AUGUST OF 1983 WHEN I WAS TWELVE YEARS OLD MY SIXTEEN YEAR OLD SISTER RHONDA MARIE GLOVER WAS MURDERED BY A BOY HER AGE THAT SHE HAD MEET THROUGH HER FRIENDS. MY SISTER ALREADY HAD A BOYFRIEND.OUR PHONE WOULD RING ALL DAY AND NIGHT.WHEN WE ANSWERED THE PHONE HE WOULD NOT SPEAK.WE EVENTUALLY DISABLED OUR PHONE. MY SISTER RHONDA AGREED TO MEET THE BOY.I WAS THE LAST ONE TO TALK TO HER AND TO SAY GOODBYE AS SHE LEFT ON HER BICYCLE.SHE WENT MISSING FOR WEEKS.THEY FINALLY FOUND HER IN THE PARK NEAR OUR HOME.THE BOY CONFESSED AND WAS PUT IN JAIL.HE WAS RELEASED IN 2004.NO ONE HAD CALLED US TO LET US KNOW.WE WERE VERY UPSET.I HOPE AND PRAY THAT HE HAS PRAYED TO GOD AND MY SISTER RHONDA FOR FORGIVENESS AND IS A BETTER MAN NOW.MY SISTERS DEATH AFFECTED ME EXTREMELY.MY MOTHER HAD ATTEMPTED TO TAKE ME TO SEE HER PSYCHOLOGIST,BUT MY FIRST VISIT WAS DEPRESSING.I WANTED TO TALK ABOUT MY SISTERS DEATH AND MY DEPRESSION.EVERY QUESTION HE ASKED ME WAS A PERVERSE QUESTION.HIS QUESTIONS BECAME MORE AND MORE PERVERSE.I BECAME VERY UPSET.I WAS CRYING.WHEN I GOT UP TO LEAVE HIS ROOM HE SAID"WERE NOT FINISHED HERE,SIT BACK DOWN"IN A VERY MEAN VOICE.I BECAME VERY SCARED AND I RAN OUT OF THE CLINIC AND LOCKED MYSELF IN MY MOTHERS CAR.I TOLD MY MOTHER WHAT HAD HAPPENED AND SHE BECAME UPSET AT ME. IT WAS HER PSYCHOLOGIST AND SHE WAS NOT THINKING CLEARLY AT THAT TIME.I TOLD HER THAT I WOULD NEVER GO TO A MENTAL HEALTH CLINIC EVER AGAIN.WHEN I GRADUATED FROM THE PRIVATE AND VERY SMALL CHRISTIAN SCHOOL THAT I HAD ATTENDED I TRIED VERY HARD TO DO THE RIGHT THING AND MAKE MY PARENTS AND YOUNGER SISTER PROUD OF ME BY ATTENDING COLLEGE.IT WAS VERY HARD FOR ME.DEPRESSION,SOCIAL ANXIETY AND EXTREME PANIC ATTACKS RUINED ALL OF MY HOPES AND DREAMS.WORKING AWAY FROM HOME WAS VERY HARD FOR ME ALSO.MY COMPREHENSION AND ATTENTION SPAN ARE VERY BAD.I HAD TO STOP COLLEGE BECAUSE OF MY POOR GRADES.I HAD TO STOP WORKING.THEN WE HAD A FAMILY CRISES WHEN MY FATHERS HEALTH WENT BAD.VERY BAD ISCHEMIC ATTACKS/MINI STROKES.AFTER MANY YEARS OF SURGERIES MY FATHER WAS A LOT BETTER.THEN IN AUGUST 1998 MY MOTHER RECEIVED A PHONE CALL FROM MY FATHER DAVIDS SISTER.MY FATHER DAVID MADDOX HAD ENDED HIS OWN LIFE.I BECAME EXTREMELY DEPRESSED.THAN IN AUGUST 1998 I ATTEMPTED TO END MY LIFE WITH AN OVERDOSE OF BENADRYL.I WAS IN THE HOSPITAL FOR ONE WEEK FOR PSYCHIATRIC CARE.I HAD TWO YEARS OF OUTPATIENT THERAPY.THEY DID NOT WANT TO HELP ME AT ALL. MAINLY BECAUSE I HAD NO INSURANCE.THEY FINALLY TOLD ME THEY NO LONGER COULD SEE ME AS A PATIENT AND LET ME GO.NO MORE THERAPY AND NO MORE MEDICATION.THEN MY MOTHER HAD HER STROKE,RIGHT IN FRONT OF ME AT HER DOCTORS OFFICE.I WAS IN SHOCK.THEY KEPT SAYING THAT SHE WAS NOT GOING TO LIVE BUT SHE DID.A SHORT STAY IN HOSPITALS AND A NURSING HOME AND NOW MY MOTHER IS AT HOME WITH MY FATHER AND ME.MY BIPOLAR DISORDER AND DEPRESSION DISABILITIES HAVE BECOME VERY INTENSE AGAIN.I AM NOW GOING TO A FREE MENTAL HEALTH CLINIC RIGHT NEAR MY HOME.IT IS A VERY NICE CLINIC BUT THEY ARE EXTREMELY SLOW GIVING MEDICATIONS TO ALL OF THEIR CLIENTS.MY VERY NICE PSYCHIATRIST TIFFANY AGREES WITH ME AND KNOWS THAT THE CLINIC NEEDS TO IMPROVE THIS.I HOPE AND PRAY THEY WILL REMEDY THIS COMPLICATION SOON. ************************************************************ ******************************************************* ************************************************************ ******************************************************* Regression (psychology)Regression, in psychoanalysis, is a defense mechanism leading to the reversion to an earlier stage of development in the face of unacceptable impulses. According to psychologist Sigmund Freud, a situation can provoke so much anxiety that the retreat is the person's way of dealing with it. The person may also ignore a previous situation that caused stress, in order to avoid an anxiety attack.Regression is defined in the APA Thesaurus of Psychological Index Terms as "a return to earlier, especially to infantile, patterns of thoughts or behavior, or stage of functioning."Some people regress due to high stress and depression, while others tend to regress due to a high amount of being bullied in the past.Others have come to know Regression as Relapse Digression************************************************** ************************************************************ ***** ************************************************************ *******************************************************