Margaret

I am happy to say that I am on a real path of awakening to remembering that I am god and that I am the total creator of my life. This is becoming so obvious to me now. I have not always felt this way. I spent many years going to church and worshipping a god in the sky and putting all my life into thinking he was going to save me. Wow!! That one has sure changed for me. I have been such a righteous religious person. I attended a private catholic school until I was age twelve and then I continued to go to church every Sunday until I was twenty years old. I spent the next twenty years doing all the party and drinking stuff, thinking at the time that I was unsuppressing myself. I realise now that I was using all that to suppress my feelings even further. I used the alcohol and cigarettes to pacify myself all the time. I started to feel like I needed to make some changes and I can remember every day, thinking, "I wish I could change this." Looking back now I can see that I didn't want to change it at that time otherwise I would have and even though I felt like I wasn't enjoying it, I was. I started going back to church at around forty years of age. I attended as often as I could, even going on weekdays whenever I could make it there. As well as that I started going to Goddess Seminars and reading inspirational books. I felt like I was hungry to understand myself. I remember the guilt I felt and how I thought I had betrayed the church by doing this but I still continued. I moved from South Australia to the Gold Coast. That's when I ended my marriage after twenty seven years. It was the beginning of my new journey. Not long after I moved here to the Gold Coast, I met Bart & Jody. They became my awesome teachers. They are the most loving understanding people. I remember feeling like I had met the people I had always been looking for. I immediateley trusted that they were my teachers and I felt the truth of what they were teaching. It just felt like a real knowing in myself. They shared their brilliant understanding and have helped me to realise that I am god and I do create my entire reality and they still continue to do this even now. I am so grateful to them. I started making the changes that I wished for and it was at that point that I decided to finish drinking alcohol. There are many times I feel so grateful for making those descisions in myself. I love this point that I am at in my life. Back in those early times of making changes in myself I began eating vegetarian food and it has gradually changed over the years to now only eating vegan food. I feel so much love and compassion for the animals on our beautiful planet and I feel so grateful that I have made those changes to being a proud vegan. I love how there is an endless variety of recipes to make and I feel so clean in myself from eating this way. I love cooking it too. During those years of learning to understand myself I heard about Twin Flames. When I realised that I had a Twin Flame it felt like the most awesome thing I had ever heard. I can still remember very clearly in my mind the joy I felt during that day. I immediately felt the truth of that. I truly wish for my Twin Flame and I to be together. I feel complete faith that we will be reunited. I know that I won't settle for anything less than my Twin Flame. This is my greatest wish for him to be with me everyday and for us to both to be choosing the love in our hearts.I share my life with some really great people who are also choosing the love in their hearts and I feel so grateful for this every day. href="http://www.strikefile.com/myspace" target="_blank"Thomas' Myspace Editor V4.4A IMG{ border-style:none;