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Raw Beat

We have been at it for 3 days, ........or is it 4?

About Me

I have seen a lot of things in my life and every day seems to still have its surprises. Just when I think i have it all figured out I find that I know nothing at all. I still love everyone that I know and meet. I feel that this life is too short to fill it with hate so why do it. I have been burned by many people but it has never brought me anything to seek revenge. It seems that everyone comes around when needed, and for that reason I don't want to burn any bridges. Thanks to all those that have been a part of my history and hopefully will be a part of my future. As for Missy and I she is right we are in a point in our life that we need to figure ourselves out. I will always have a place reserved in my heart for her but for now I have to grow on my own and live my life and so dose she. Everyone knows I wish it wasn't so but it needs to be. All I want is for everyone to be happy even if it is without me. We all know that I will make it. I am strong and have a shit load to offer and now I am free.

My Interests

my interest include but are not limited to: Music programing, e=(mc)2, stories we share, figuring u out, a better me, love nature and trees, the moon, the sea, the brain, the illusion of time, making words rhyme, my inner soul, and the health of my temple, keeping my old friends and making new ones, the family unit, psychology, a way out , a way in, these are some things that interest me.

I'd like to meet:

What I want in a partner is someone who knows they are content and happy with the idea that our love will last forever. They must be able to treat me with the same respect that they expect me to treat them with. I would like someone with ambition in life that is willing to have an open mind about the future. I would like it if this person could appreciate the fact that we all suck just like life but we suck a little less with someone to experience life with us. An Unconditional bound is a must. I would also like someone that is not going to get up and run away, cheat, lie, and fall out when the going gets ruff. They should have a proper understanding of what it means to be honest to themselves and me. They also will know that communication is the key to a healthy relationship and this means that just because a little emotion comes out in an argument it doesn’t give them the right to become immature and ignore the problems we might be facing. I want to be number one like I would treat them. As long as there is total honesty then there is nothing we cant get through or work out. I will never vote you off the island as long as I am treated this way. I am a very forgiving person but you have to be genuine and understand that if you do mean that your sorry you work towards not repeating the same mistakes. Always know there is someone better you can be.View All Friends | View Blog | Add Comment

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Music:

Atmosphere, Fisherspooner, Scissor Sisters, Mount Sims,New order, Depeche Mode, Red Hot Chilli Pepers, Prodigy, Sublime, VNV Nation, Cyndi Lauper,and one, , icon of coil, nitzer ebb, imperative reaction, das ich, combichrist, suicide commando, wumpscut,

Movies:

I like movies

Television:

only educational, animal planet, game shows, comedy central, and cartoons

Books:

Running With Scissors, Lord of the Flys, Kite Runner, All is quiet on the Western Front, Animal House, Dry, Possible Side Effects, Children of the Corn, Chose your own adventures, On The Road and Encyclopedia Brown

Heroes:

Dori Lees, Heidi Martinez, Joe Martinez, Robert Sr. Einstein, Newton, Pee Wee, Pippy Long Stocking, teachers, Forest Gump, Budda, Missy Towey, and Steve and Cedric

My Blog

San Bernardino

something I wrote while on the bus leaving San Bernardino after walking around for 2 hours in the glorious downtown area.Deserted Wasteland, nothing no moreWhat is there to be proud of?No life, just a...
Posted by Raw Beat on Thu, 29 May 2008 10:46:00 PST

It is funny

How people can change who they are.  You don't even have to do anything and they can become totally different.  I guess time dose change thins and people.  In recent events I am current...
Posted by Raw Beat on Thu, 29 May 2008 10:13:00 PST

Could happen anytime to any one of us

----------------- Bulletin Message -----------------From: Crow T.Date: May 16, 2008 11:24 PMrom: AsphyxiationDate: May 16, 2008 11:12 PMAS all know we have lost two members Arielle and Chauncy from ou...
Posted by Raw Beat on Mon, 19 May 2008 01:44:00 PST

Poem I wrote while taking the train to LA

Jumping someone else's trainSeems to be the game to playCan I jump aboard with youAre you going my wayHow did you get so cool?Just yesterday were you not the fool?I know I have been thereWhen I had no...
Posted by Raw Beat on Tue, 22 Apr 2008 05:28:00 PST

Now What???

so i guess that i am not going to rehab.  I am totally cool with this but i am pissed that they waisted my time.  Although they new that Missy was still there they told me that she was gone ...
Posted by Raw Beat on Fri, 11 Apr 2008 11:39:00 PST

The politics of dancing

I wanted to say a few words about club drama.  Life is too short for us to fight over minascew high school drama.From my point of view I see a shit load of emotional unlogical stress pointed twor...
Posted by Raw Beat on Fri, 21 Mar 2008 04:57:00 PST

strange events

Lets see a turn of events has just been brought to my attention.  I called my probation officer in orange county today to see if she could find out how long it was going to take to get into the p...
Posted by Raw Beat on Mon, 10 Mar 2008 02:01:00 PST

test test after test

so today i hung out with an old friend whom i wont mention names but lets just say this friend and used to do a lot of drugs together.  after having a blast catching up on things that have change...
Posted by Raw Beat on Thu, 06 Mar 2008 04:06:00 PST

just in case

I have posted pics from different clubs that I go to.  The pic are for the clubs to show the good times and cool people that visit these places.  If your pic is up and you don't like it or w...
Posted by Raw Beat on Mon, 03 Mar 2008 04:04:00 PST

End of the month

So here i am.  i mad it another month.  i am now 95 days clean and i don't miss meth at all.  Everything reinforces the fact that i don't want nor need speed.  I am still on the wa...
Posted by Raw Beat on Fri, 29 Feb 2008 08:03:00 PST