The Alluring Phantasmagoria of Genuine Emotion

About Me

"What is REAL?"asked the Rabbit one day."Real isn't how you are made," said the Skin Horse. " It's a thing that happens to you. When someone loves you for a long, long time, not just to play with but REALLY loves you,then you become real.""Does it hurt?" asked the Rabbit."Sometimes," said the Skin Horse, for he was always truthful."When you are Real, you don't mind being hurt.""Does it happen all at once, like being wound up," he asked,"or bit by bit?""It doesn't happen all at once," said the Skin Horse."You become. It takes a long, long time. That's why it doesn't often happen to people who break easily, or have sharp edges, or who have to be carefully kept. Generally, by the time you are Real, most of your hair has been loved off, and your eyes drop out, and you get loose in the joints and very shabby. But these things don't matter at all, because once you are Real you can't be ugly, except to people who don't understand."~~~~HMMMMMMMM...lessee...sometimes i draw patterns in spilled water on resteraunt tables.i used to be an annoying activist-type.i'm a vegetarian.my mom says i'm beautiful no matter what i look like, but my dad says i look funny. you be the judge. i'm waaaay too energetic for some people. when i was a teenager my mother used to hide the cheese grater from me, not because i would do bad things with it, but because i would use it and not clean it.. i have 3 cats. i have 10 gerbils.i am capable of driving an antique truck through an indiana snowstorm. i have little to no hair.. i was raised by musicians, and it haunts me to this day.when i was in 6th grade i was voted most likely to write a series of books about a serial killer.i'm gonna be famous someday....oh, just you wait. you'll all be sorry.......

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My Interests

Trains. Showers. Ovens. Seeing the look on people's faces. Fuzzy cats, or not so fuzzy cats.tatoos, piercings,and shaving hair I love to knit, or rather, i knit compulsively.DO YOU WANT ME TO KNIT YOU SOMETHING!?!?!?!?!i like to dance and dance and dance, even if i'm at the grocery store.
You scored as Perky Goff. You are a perky goff! You like cute things, glitter, and scary carnivals. You think that the contrast between playful innocence and dark corruption is tantalizing, which is why you like to dress up like an evil dollie. Click on my name to take my other tests if you liked this one.

Perky Goff

88%

Romantic Goth

79%

Death Rocker

75%

Ethereal Goth

58%

Old-school Goth

50%

Anything-Goes Goth

46%

Industrial/Rivet-Head

42%

Cyber-goth

38%

Fantasy Goth

38%

Understanding Outsider

13%

Confused Outsider

4%
What subcategory of Goth best fits you?
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I'd like to meet:

Noone really...Maybe people who like to drink, but still go to work in the morning. people who have already been disillusioned, as it saves me the trouble. people who believe in animal rights but aren't all PETA-fied and shit. People who aren't gonna hit on me and be gross. Meet:

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Evil, Satanic, and Horror pictures

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Music:

MANSON! The bloody smiths,metal, bluegrass(different from country)anything goth-y with a techno beat...i'll listen to anything. and if i'm drunk enough i might not vomit. if i'm too drunk i might vomit more. there's a fine line.....

Movies:

Cartoons and not-too-bloody horror movies. and Lifetime. ya can't forget lifetime. The My-Problems-Are-So-Much-Worse-And-Yet-Simultaneously-More-Im mediately-Resolvable-Than-Yours-Are channel

Television:

The Metalocalypse is upon us. The Happy Tree Friends have informed me that we'll probably get a good view of it from South Park.

Books:

Anything by Terry Pratchett,Chuck Palahniuk,or George Carlin. Girl,Interrupted, the Coldfire Trilogy by C.S.Friedman, The Kid, Skipping Towards Gomorrah, Ain't Nobodies' Business if You Do(a history of consensual crime in America)i'm reading a book a week, so this list is by no means exhaustive...maybe i'll even add to it someday.....

Heroes:

I don't know if I have heroes.i have people i admire and aspire to emulate. wouldn't you like to know. obviously, or you wouldn't be reading this.

My Blog

Demon hunting: or, the lack of demons and presence of goodness and lighter darkness

October 15th. I had the best fucking day yesterday. Best day in a long time. I would like to thank the following people for helping me remember what it was like to be happy and have fun. This list wil...
Posted by The Alluring Phantasmagoria of Genuine Emotion on Tue, 17 Oct 2006 07:34:00 PST

smoking crack out of lightbulbs is not cool

My legs have been cut out from under me. my ribcage was split open and my heart ripped out still beating. She showed it to me, and from the look she gave me, there was no doubt at all exactly ho...
Posted by The Alluring Phantasmagoria of Genuine Emotion on Fri, 06 Oct 2006 01:18:00 PST

finally my dream comes true....

HOORAY!!!! Now Cartman and i can finally start our final solution! That Jew Gold is as good as ours........
Posted by The Alluring Phantasmagoria of Genuine Emotion on Tue, 26 Sep 2006 05:36:00 PST

Do you remember?

o.k&i'v been talking to several people about this, and i'm opening this up for discussion. Does anybody else remember that game that at least i used to play? i t was called "head's up 7-up" everyone ...
Posted by The Alluring Phantasmagoria of Genuine Emotion on Sat, 16 Sep 2006 07:45:00 PST

Zombies and sorrow

God&so, damn, tired. Brain smooth like newborn baby.Don' wannawanna gotowork! Tomorrow. Well, now that I've had a recovery period, let's go over the events of this most recent weekend, shall we? How t...
Posted by The Alluring Phantasmagoria of Genuine Emotion on Wed, 13 Sep 2006 08:54:00 PST

Wyoming strikes again

fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck fuckeditup. yes indeedy do, i did.goddammit cocksucking donkey-raping son of a bitch i hope you die, i hope maggots crawl in your ear and sh...
Posted by The Alluring Phantasmagoria of Genuine Emotion on Wed, 06 Sep 2006 01:17:00 PST

friends

An actual platonic relaitionship that i'm o.k. with.The 2nd was a great night. I love tequila. No, wait.... what's that thing that's like love, but it's different somehow?oh, right, i hate tequil...
Posted by The Alluring Phantasmagoria of Genuine Emotion on Mon, 04 Sep 2006 08:33:00 PST

just so you know

everyone and everything sucks and contributes to my pain. i in turn then contribute to your pain. then we die. i'm gonna go jerk off now....
Posted by The Alluring Phantasmagoria of Genuine Emotion on Tue, 29 Aug 2006 12:09:00 PST

Happy post- 4:20

All alone on a saturday night everyone has ditched me.I should go to bed but now i'm high, and i just got my second wind, and after that there ain't no going back. God i'm a terrible friend... i'm rea...
Posted by The Alluring Phantasmagoria of Genuine Emotion on Sun, 27 Aug 2006 03:02:00 PST

A Musing

You have to wonder...is revenge something that, in order to actually be what it is, need to be experienced by more than one person?If you do something to someone, against someone,but they never know? ...
Posted by The Alluring Phantasmagoria of Genuine Emotion on Mon, 21 Aug 2006 12:33:00 PST