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Ethan

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About Me

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The Persistence of Memory: Ancestral Recall & Blood Mysticism
Though each organism represents a totality, it is at the same time part of a larger whole. Sometimes in nature the part carries with it a memory of the whole, an inner longing for a union with the whole. And so it can be with certain human beings. The journey to bridge the abyss that separates the past from the present is a quest to transform the present -- and thus the future. It is not political in nature, nor could it ever be. It is defined by eternal values & divine principles. Nothing about it is determined by the temporal. It is not a quest for everyone, but for the elect who feel it's calling in their very blood.
The self seeks union with the soul, & the soul yearns to regain it's lost/forgotten territories. The instinctual awareness that such things are possible has served as a fundamental driving force for certain men down the centuries -- nay, millenia. Poets, philosophers, & mystics have searched for the means to somehow achieve these goals, and awaken in man the ancestral memory that might serve as a nexus between man and the divine. The memory is there. The quest to awaken it follows a path that leads through fire & water, forests of symbols, & initiatory ordeals not written of in books.
That memory is possessed of a power, a hunger, a will; as can be witnessed in the realm of nature & certain of it's creatures. Take as a splendid example the simple starfish. At times, during the harsh struggle for existence far beneath the waves, the starfish will lose an appendage. Although adrift on its own, the lost limb retains a longing somehow to become a part of that which was once the whole. And then within the billion cells of the seemingly dead member, longing is translated into growth. Now, cell by cell, the limb remembers that of which it was once a part. And now -- cell by cell -- reconstructs itself into the shape & function & pattern of that to which it once belonged; until finally, memory becomes reality. A new starfish has been created.
This process can be achieved by a very common creature. Are we to imagine that human beings are exempt from this same longing -- the instinctual yearning to be reunited with the primordial whole? Do you imagine that we only inherit the color of our eyes & the shapes of our heads? Or is there a deeper memory that dwells within us, in every cell: a genetic memory? Of course there is. It is a memory that can be awakened, cell by cell & soul by soul. The word "religion" comes from religio, meaning "going back to the source". The quest for the Grail is a quest to return to the source. It is a quest to reunite the part with the whole, the descendant with the ancestor, the temporal with the primordial... and in so doing, recreating the missing nexus between our past & our future.
[ More of Boyd Rice's grail-related writings of can be found at The Vessel Of God. ]
© 2005 BoydRice.com


"Religion is based . . . mainly upon fear . . . fear of the mysterious, fear of defeat, fear of death. Fear is the parent of cruelty, and therefore it is no wonder if cruelty and religion have gone hand in hand . . . . My own view on religion is that of Lucretius. I regard it as a disease born of fear and as a source of untold misery to the human race."
~Bertrand Russell


"It is not the strongest of the species that survive, nor the most intelligent, but the one most responsive to change."
~Charles Darwin

My Interests



Thelema, the occult in general, magick in theory and practice, astrology, tarot, runes, music (especially dark folk, old-school goth and industrial, old school punk and hardcore, post-punk, 70's glam, psychobilly, old school vocal jazz and blues, and cabaret), bdsm, sexuality in general, shoes.

Jungian, Humanistic, and Cognitive-Behavioral Psychology. Molecular Biology.

I'd like to meet:



Beauty

"I am fair, O mortals! like a dream carved in stone,
And my breast where each one in turn has bruised himself
Is made to inspire in the poet a love
As eternal and silent as matter.

On a throne in the sky, a mysterious sphinx,
I join a heart of snow to the whiteness of swans;
I hate movement for it displaces lines,
And never do I weep and never do I laugh.

Poets, before my grandiose poses,
Which I seem to assume from the proudest statues,
Will consume their lives in austere study;

For I have, to enchant those submissive lovers,
Pure mirrors that make all things more beautiful:
My eyes, my large, wide eyes of eternal brightness!

~translated from Les Fleurs de Mal, by Charles Baudelaire (1857)

"You beg for happiness in life, but security is more important to you, even if it costs you your spine or your life. Your life will be good and secure when aliveness will mean more to you than security; love more than money; your freedom more than party line or public opinion; when your thinking will be in harmony with your feelings; when the teachers of your children will be better paid than the politicians; when you will have more respect for the love between man and woman than for a marriage license."

~Wilhelm Reich



"Nature admits of no permanence in the relation between man and woman. It is only man's egoism that wants to keep woman like some buried treasure. All endeavors to introduce permanence in love, the most changeable thing in this changeable human existence, have gone shipwreck in spite of religious ceremonies, vows, and legalities."

~Leopold von Sacher-Masoch

Music:

Death In June, Sol Invictus, Current 93, Nature and Organisation, Antony and the Johnsons, Bessie Smith, Ella Fitzgerald, Marlene Dietrich, Roxy Music, Bryan Ferry, David Bowie, T. Rex, John Lennon, The Fall, Buddy Holly, The Kinks, Patsy Cline, Johnny Cash, Erasure, Soft Cell, Marc Almond, NON, Christian Death, Rozz Williams, Gitane Demone, SPK, Cowboy Junkies, The Gun Club, The Smiths, Leonard Cohen, Patti Smith, Bauhaus, Richard Strauss, Erik Satie, Johann Sebastian Bach, Bad Brains, Black Flag, Cocteau Twins, The Cramps, Legendary Pink Dots, Edward Kaspel, Tear Garden, Skinny Puppy, Grauzone, Swans, Angels of Light, Adam and the Ants, XTC, Yaz, OMD, The Stranglers, Bob Dylan, The Psychedelic Furs, Virgin Prunes, The Birthday Party, Nick Cave and the Bad Seeds, Einstürzende Neubauten, P. J. Harvey, The Cure, Depeche Mode, Radiohead, ::wumpscut::, The Doors, The Stooges, Iggy Pop, Echo and the Bunnymen, Talking Heads, Jesus and Mary Chain, Joy Division, The Yardbirds, Cream, Bo Diddley, Prince, Screamin' Jay Hawkins, Lords of Acid, Underworld, Sneaker Pimps, Blood Axis, Antonio Vivaldi, Ludwig van Beethoven, Maurice Ravel, Igor Stravinsky, and that's not even the half of it!

Movies:

Some of my favorites: Captain Ron, Blue Velvet, Stranger Than Paradise, Arsenic and Old Lace, Wings of Desire, Hellraiser, Pink Flamingos, Down By Law, Repo Man, Time Bandits, Brazil, Aguirre: The Wrath of God, Amores Perros, Twin Peaks: Fire Walk With Me, The Three Amigos, Pee Wee's Big Adventure, Resevoir Dogs, Snatch, Trainspotting, What's New Pussycat?, Where's Poppa?, What's Up Tiger Lily?, Harold and Maude, Amelie, Ma Vie en Rose, The Lord of the Rings Trilogy, Westworld, Velvet Goldmine, The Man Who Fell To Earth, The Philadelphia Story, Fahrenheit 451, Absolute Beginners, Henry and June, My Beautiful Laundrette, Sammy and Rosie Get Laid, The Wicker Man, Christianne F., Caddyshack, Manhunter, The Shining, The Nightmare Before Christmas...

Television:

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Books:

Currently Reading: Nothing.

All time favorite books: Master and Margarita, by Mikhail Bulgakov; The Book of the Law and The Book of Lies, by Aleister Crowley; Songs of Innocence and Experience, by William Blake; Dune, by Frank Herbert; Journey to Ixtlan and Tales of Power, by Carlos Casteneda; Stranger in a Strange Land, by Robert A. Heinlein; The Prophet, by Kahlil Gibran; The Little Prince, By Antoine de St. Exupery; Cosmic Trigger and Prometheus Rising, by Robert Anton WIlson; Principia Discordia, by Greg Hill and Kerry Thornley

I'm sure I'll think of more later.

Heroes:



My Blog

Ive got a new bike

And it looks like this:
Posted by Ethan on Sun, 20 Apr 2008 07:06:00 PST

The Reward of Ra Hoor Khut

Chapter III 1. Abrahadabra; the reward of Ra Hoor Khut. 2. There is division hither homeward; there is a word not known. Spelling is defunct; all is not aught. Beware! Hold! Raise the ...
Posted by Ethan on Thu, 10 Apr 2008 09:01:00 PST

Day 2

Chapter II 1. Nu! the hiding of Hadit. 2. Come! all ye, and learn the secret that hath not yet been revealed. I, Hadit, am the complement of Nu, my bride. I am not extended, and Khabs ...
Posted by Ethan on Thu, 10 Apr 2008 08:59:00 PST

The First Day of the Writing of the Book of the Law

Chapter I 1. Had! The manifestation of Nuit. 2. The unveiling of the company of heaven. 3. Every man and every woman is a star. 4. Every number is infinite; there is no difference. 5. Help me, o ...
Posted by Ethan on Tue, 08 Apr 2008 11:29:00 PST

damn!

I had to go and jinx things!
Posted by Ethan on Sun, 06 Apr 2008 12:04:00 PST

therapy

I met with my therapist yesterday and compared my life today with my treatment goals that were set when we started.  The conclusion was that my life rocks.  I need new treatment goals now, I...
Posted by Ethan on Sat, 05 Apr 2008 05:59:00 PST

To anyone who cares

If you feel I have been ignoring you it is because I have been.  I have been consumed with full time school and 60 hour weeks at work.  If you want my attention you better straight up tell m...
Posted by Ethan on Wed, 27 Feb 2008 12:13:00 PST

I love a girl in a tie

I can't believe it.  I am going to school full time, working full time, and still finding a few hours here and there to sleep and am LOVING it.  I even find time to hang out.  Freija mu...
Posted by Ethan on Mon, 18 Feb 2008 12:38:00 PST

aaahhhh!

I am stuck in the office with no roll calls to do for a total of 3 hours.  I can't leave because I don't have a key, and the phone isn't even ringing.  I am forced to finally sit down a...
Posted by Ethan on Sat, 09 Feb 2008 06:34:00 PST

baby wants to fuck


Posted by Ethan on Fri, 01 Feb 2008 02:08:00 PST