Where on heaven and earth do I begin?... I think i'll start from where i'm at and flit between the beginning and ultimately where i'd like to end up... I've been recently going thru what can only be described as an emotional upheaval. A very painful but very necessary twist and change in my life. I based my happiness, joy and peace upon someone else's life rules and have unsurprisingly found myself very unhappy! The fact is, love and a need for intimate love caused me to put aside my needs and wants thinking that they weren't good or realistic enough and that another's dreams and desires for life and the future could be something that I could live for... In short, I compromised myself to a ridiculous degree which has ultimately left my soul fucked up... Entirely self-inflicted might I add... So now, here I am. Living thru the mistakes and madness that a bad choice put us both thru, hoping that the darkness will let up just enough to allow love and light to be who I am again... And pretty much wishing and hoping that things could go back to the way they were... But I know that's not realistic right now... I suppose you could say that the energy of this situation has been the thing that has sent me hurtling back to who I am and what I do believe i'm here for. Aside from my passion for music and creative arts i've always had this deep fascination and desire to understand spiritual principles. I grew up going to church (pentecostal) and was totally captivated by folks getting 'in the spirit' or seeing 'the devil' come outta people. Years later when I was in school I went thru a period in which myself and my class mates would have debates and discussions about the meaning of life and the universe. Growing up as a christian obliged me to argue for that, but something didn't feel right. I began to question myself and the religion I knew since birth due to the new-found knowledge I attained from these playground talks. I eventually came to the realisation that christianity wasn't for me but that left me with nothing for a little while. Soon after that tho, when I got to college, I met a few people who were heavily into Egyptology and that's where I feel my true spiritual education began. Everything just felt natural and made sense to me. But also something weird started to happen. I decided that I found 'it'. My search was over. This was the truth to me and there was nothing other... Right? Wrong. I was so wrong... I never felt the love that I think is necessary in these spiritual groups and so I kinda got turned off and gradually went back into the spiritual wilderness, all disillusioned and shit. After a while of wandering I started doing my own research into things and going back and forth on this process called RAW based in East London, I kinda came to a conclusion - i'm a Cosmologist. Cosmology is a belief in the 'universal interconnectedness of all things'. I'd say this pretty much sums me up. I truly do believe all paths lead to GOD and that we are all manifestions of energy in different forms and states. We are all made up of the same shit! However there are certain wrongs that need to be righted. Slavery is a big issue for me. Everyday I see the results and effects that it has had and continues to have on black people. Please don't be afraid of the reality of these things! Just educate yourself to the facts and be willing to learn and understand where your place is in the grand scheme of things! I feel like its so important for us all - the human family - to come together and fight darkness everywhere but i'm also painstakingly aware of the psychological hurt inside us all, people of African descent (like myself) in particular... It doesn't matter what colour of the rainbow you are, check this: www.joyleary.com... So I think we've gone back and forth enough, i've given you a little insight into my journey thus far, and now we shall return again to the present. I must give a big shout out to all the folks who appear on my 'top friends'. I don't know all these people personally but I have nuff respect for anyone who puts themselves out for the TRUTH like they do... There's a lot of darkness in this world and I feel like we all should take responsibility and follow the ancient African philosophy of 'each one teach one'. Please visit my top friends' pages and share it with your people. The more information I gain on certain topics the more blogs I'll put up so hold tight! (Also i'll go into much more detail about the things i've mentioned here in future blogs...) So yes... This is me at this present moment in time. I'm a young black woman on a path that is currently showing me the importance of love for myself and others, that unity and universal love is possible when we have a profound understanding and acceptance of our brothers and sisters differences, and the fact that GOD IS ALL!!! Thanks for reading and enjoy the rest of my page!! Peace.
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You Are Midnight
You are more than a little eccentric, and you're apt to keep very unusual habits.
Whether you're a nightowl, living in a commune, or taking a vow of silence - you like to experiment with your lifestyle.
Expressing your individuality is important to you, and you often lie awake in bed thinking about the world and your place in it.
You enjoy staying home, but that doesn't mean you're a hermit. You also appreciate quality time with family and close friends.
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What is your Spiritual gift? Meduim You have a very special gift. You are a Meduim .....AMeduim is some one who can talk with spirit and bring peace to those who have lost loved ones and the loved ones they lost. This is a gift that you must use wisely and not take for granted. Quizzes by myYearbook.com -- the World's Biggest Yearbook!
What kind of Sunset are you? (more pics by me!)You are the Warm Sunset. (This picture is absolutely breathtaking to me.) You are a warm and bright person, just like the colors. You are mainly friendly and happy. But, if you notice, there is a bit of blue sky in there...which represents that not all of you is 100% happy all the time. Most compatible with: Pink Sunset, because you are both happy, peppy peopleLeast compatible with: Covered Sunset, because you like to show your true colors and the Covered Sunset tries to hide them. **********************************I spent several days making this quiz, and even took the pics myself. It only takes a second to let me know what you think!
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What Planet Are You From?
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What Orisha (West African God..ess) Are you most like?CONGRATS! Your most like Obatala! The Orisha of purity, calmness, and tranquilty. He is the oldest of all of them, and is oftan seen as an old man who can just barely walk. He is actually for the most part, a fierce warrior,causing revolution and change wherever he goes. You, being most like him, may have phychic ability, or may not even have the slightest idea of having it. Some are plagued with anxiety, having to live their life in fear of it. You might have a pure subconcious, alothough your actions seem to speak much different. ::slaps your hand:: shame on you.
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You are The High Priestess
Science, Wisdom, Knowledge, Education.
The High Priestess is the card of knowledge, instinctual, supernatural, secret knowledge. She holds scrolls of arcane information that she might, or might not reveal to you. The moon crown on her head as well as the crescent by her foot indicates her willingness to illuminate what you otherwise might not see, reveal the secrets you need to know. The High Priestess is also associated with the moon however and can also indicate change or fluxuation, particularily when it comes to your moods.
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