Shandra

Sometimes I start the day with a warm smile on my face, in love with the day and ready to smudge with some good medicines. Sometimes I bounce out of bed with fast dance music playing, bop around getting ready, and race out the door excited to work and accomplish things. Sometimes I wake tired from dreams in which I'm working hard on a spiritual task, and find myself crawling out of bed in a body with arthritis pain, lots of popcorn/salt/butter weight, and a general feeling of anxiety, loss and pain. Sometimes... I wake up singing.Generally I don't wake up hungover, and I don't wake up looking for ways to find heroin or crack or crystal meth. I don't wake up on the sidewalk. I don't wake up hoping to find ways to profit from the destruction of forests or rivers or lakes, or from the suffering of impoverished millions working in unsafe conditions... though it could be argued that just by living a North American urban lifestyle I am both the perpetrator and the victim of these same horrors... Generally I don't wake up in a stranger's bed wondering "what did I just do." uh... generally.I live in a tiny bachelor apartment in downtown Toronto that I can barely afford, and I keep working on ways to either love my life here in TO or build a peaceful and wonderful life somewhere else.I value goofiness over self-righteousness. I would rather be a bit of a fool if it meant I got to have some fun & adventure, than to be entirely appropriate all the time in a way that makes me pompous. But I do value self-awareness and self-love in myself and others! And that can take some real effort. So I appreciate people who invest in their personal growth as well. Just not to the point of being pompous & self-righteous. I guess it's all about perspective & context. Some people could find me both pompous & self-righteous depending on which end of the continuum they inhabit!I'm not the most brilliant woman in the world but I'm not the dopiest, either. I am not always kind, but I really try, and a lot of times I succeed. Some people have told me that I've made a positive difference in their lives, and I don't think I can ask for more than that.But sometimes, I do..!You can also find me at my webpage , or at Hi5 .

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