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My parents named me Courtney, but when I was younger I always wished for a different name, something a bit more unique. I've learned to accept it now. I love the mysterious and the mystical, the ancient and the forgotten. I would love to go to Europe, especially to Scandinavia (Norway, Sweden, Finland), or Japan. I really really want to learn Finnish (It's so adorable! =P) and/or Japanese. If I could have lived in any other time period than now, I would definately live in the medieval times.
I love music, especially metal. My two favorite subgenres of rock are grunge and power metal, but I also love gothic metal just as much. I love the brutal honesty of grunge and the passionate intensity of power metal. My favorite bands include Flyleaf, Nightwish, Sonata Arctica, After Forever, Within Temptation, and Evanescence. I'm extremely partial to female fronted bands. I plan on one day being the lead singer of a Christian power metal band, but we'll see. It may end up being a different subgenre, but it will definately be metal influenced. :D
In some ways I am like a chameleon. Depending on my surroundings, I act differently. It's not that I'm changing myself, though, I'm just emphasizing on a different side. I can be very shy, so sometimes people consider me anti-social. Perhaps, but I really do care about people in general. Sometimes I can be really crazy and loud and just...stupid. :P I have been known to run into walls and it seriously be an accident. Other times I can be a bit more passionate about things and wear it all out on my sleeve, but that doesn't happen in public very often. Sometimes I can come across as being cold, and maybe even slightly boring. I'm talented at facades or being deceiving of what's really going through my head, though I've really been working on destroying that. I try to be honest with people and am actually very sensitive. I'm not usually quick to trust, though there have been rare exceptions...those usually turn out bad...
My best friends are Monica, Morgan, Bailey, Sarah, and Ryan. They are amazing people.
I'm musically open-minded, though I'll admit to holding a negative connotation to nu-metal (the whole metal traitor thing, yeah...guitar solos aren't boring, so I take it offensively). I can take nu-metal, I guess, and some are great musicians and are very passionate about what they do. They just haven't ever heard Jani Liimatainen play guitar. I'll listen to country and rap, but I definately don't enjoy it nearly as much as rock music. I like classical and opera a lot, and do listen to some pop punk and industrial. But, metal is my true love.
I like to sing, and when I was in choir at Olive Branch I was a first soprano. My voice has improved greatly since then, if I do say so myself. ;) I love writing song lyrics, and used to play piano, violin, and harp. I still pick at the piano here and there and know enough theory to get by. I play drums at church (but I think I suck), and am about to start drum lessons in a few weeks. I've never been one to want to play an instrument; I just like to sing, and that's where my dreams lie.
I have a large musical background. Most everyone in my family has played an instrument at one time or another. My grandmother was a piano professor at Samford University and was very famous for her skill. She died August 2, 2007 and over one thousand people came to her funeral, and a good many people weren't able to come or found out too late. I'm very proud of my grandma's achievements and hope to carry on the musical legacy. My mom has been a music, piano, choir, and voice teacher, but is now music minister at our church. I've not really had too much formal training in music, but instead have learned by observation.
Believe it or not, I'm into more than just music. I'm also into art. I'm not like the most amazing artist in the world, but I can draw more than stick people (but stick people are awesome!!!). I have great respect for Renaissance artists. I did a little bit of graphic designing, but my program is stupid, so I don't do much anymore. But, anyway, my grandma on my dad's side is an artist and writes art books.
Speaking of which, I love to write, as vaguely mentioned earlier. I, again, write song lyrics, but also have tried my hand at novels (usually mystery/romance...but it's been a long while since I've done anything). I was on the school newspaper staff from seventh grade until second semester of ninth grade when I moved to Grenada (Lord help me). I also like to read. An excellent book is "Mere Christianity" by C.S. Lewis. My favorite author, however, is Frank Peretti. I love his cinematic style and his psychological thriller stories. The movies are also excellent (and Ian Snyder is adorable!!! :D [-Hangman's Curse-])
Basically, if it's passionate/creative, I'm into it.
I love mirrors, though not out of vainity. I just find them interesting. It's really amazing how much they can teach you about yourself. You can watch and read your eyes and gestures and learn about how you come across to people. It can also help you confront situations by talking about it to yourself, if that makes sense. I like to learn about myself, and I suppose am fairly introspective, but there are many more levels I could go.
I'm also a Christian, and that plays a HUGE part of my life. I'm not one of those air-headed Christians that are obsessed with being a goody-two-shoes or one that likes the title but then is hypocritical behind the scenes. I feel blessed to have been raised in a sincere Christian home. I don't know where I'd be had I not had God in my life, perhaps six feet under. When I was younger I used to dread heaven because I thought it would be an eternal church service, but finally I have learned that it is not. Just because I'm a Christian doesn't mean that bad things don't happen to me, it just means I have a hope to get through them and that those experiences are making me into something better in the end. I won't lie and say I haven't been through rough times, but I will say they could've been worse, and that I wouldn't take them back for anything because they've contributed to who I am and to who I will be. In fact, I'm honestly grateful for them.
My greatest fears are unwanted change, hopelessness, numbness, and a handful of mud. Unwanted change brings the next two. The last is simply a realistic nightmare. My dreams mean everything to me.
Oh, and I'm into computers. I used to be really into HTML and CSS back in my RPing days, but I've forgotten most of it, ha. I can type up to like 143 words a minute, but I don't normally type that fast, probably more around 80 or 90. Unfortunately, these speeds have given me carpal tunnel and I am currently wearing big, black braces on my wrists.
I guess I'm an emotional person, but it's more passion than emotion. Emotion fades with the day, but passion stays. I live for passion. I live for music. And those are things you can't control, unlike words that can be as empty and as cheap as you like. But keeping them filled up with honesty, or even overflowing, really tells about the character of a person. I hope people remember me as an honest person with a lot of passion and character. I guess I'll have to wait until I die and from heaven look upon my legacy. Right now, I should be more concerned with making it, hmm? Afterall,there's nothing I can do about it when I get there, I suppose.
So I guess that's basically me. I love talking to people that can tolerate insightful thoughts.
~Courtney aka .:.Rawker_Chic[k].:.
Your PersonalityProfile
You are elegant, withdrawn, and brilliant.
Your mind is a weapon, able to solve any puzzle.
You are also great at poking holes in arguments and common beliefs.
For you, comfort and calm are very important.
You tend to thrive on your own and shrug off most affection.
You prefer to protect your emotions and stay strong. TheWorld's Shortest Personality Test
You Are a BlueFlower
A blue flower tends to represent peace, openness, and balance.
At times, you are very delicate like a cornflower.
And at other times, you are wise like an iris.
And more than you wish, you're a little cold, like a blue hydrangea. WhatColor Flower Are You?
You Are a VisionarySoul
You are a curious person, always in a state of awareness.
Connected to all things spiritual, you are very connected to your soul.
You are wise and bright: able to reason and be reasonable.
Occasionally, you get quite depressed and have dark feelings.
You have great vision and can be very insightful.
In fact, you are often profound in a way that surprises yourself.
Visionary souls like you can be the best type of friend.
You are intuitive, understanding, sympathetic, and a good healer.
Souls you are most compatible with: Old Soul and Peacemaker Soul WhatKind of Soul Are You?
You Are a SeekerSoul
You are on a quest for knowledge and life challenges.
You love to be curious and ask a ton of questions.
Since you know so much, you make for an interesting conversationalist.
Mentally alert, you can outwit almost anyone (and have fun doing it!).
Very introspective, you can be silently critical of others.
And your quiet nature makes it difficult for people to get to know you.
You see yourself as a philosopher, and you take everything philosophically.
Your main talent is expressing and communicating ideas.
Souls you are most compatible with: Hunter Soul and Visionary Soul WhatKind of Soul Are You?
Your Birth Month isSeptember
Tolerant and inspirational, you are wise beyond your years.
You are universally sympathetic and a great humanitarian.
Your soul reflects: Devotion, light, and love
Your gemstone: Sapphire
Your flower: Morning Glory
Your colors: Brown and deep blue What Does Your Birth MonthMean?
You Passed 8th Grade Math
Congratulations, you got 10/10 correct! Could YouPass 8th Grade Math?
Your Eyes Should BeBrown
Your eyes reflect: Depth and wisdom
What's hidden behind your eyes: A tender heart What Color Should Your EyesBe?
Your Kissing Purity Score:100% Pure
You've hardly ever been kissed
But the kisses you've given are very missed KissingPurity Test
How You Are InLove
You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.
You give completely and unconditionally in relationships.
You need your space and privacy. You don't like to be smothered.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard. HowAre You In Love?
You Are 28 YearsOld
Under 12: You are a kid at heart. You still have an optimistic life view - and you look at the world with awe.
13-19: You are a teenager at heart. You question authority and are still trying to find your place in thisworld.
20-29: You are a twentysomething at heart. You feel excited about what's to come... love, work, and newexperiences.
30-39: You are a thirtysomething at heart. You've had a taste of success and true love, but you want more!
40+: You are a mature adult. You've been through most of the ups and downs of life already. Now you get tosit back and relax. What Age DoYou Act?
You are aBeliever
You believe in God and your chosen religion.
Whether you're Christian, Muslim, Jewish, or Hindu..
Your convictions are strong and unwavering.
You think your religion is the one true way, for everyone. What's Your ReligiousPhilosophy?
What Your Sleeping PositionSays
You are secretly sensitive, but you often put up a front.
Shy and private, you yearn for security.
You take relationships slowly.
You need lots of reassurances before you can trust. What Does YourSleeping Position Say About You?
Your HiddenTalent
You're super sensitive and easily able to understand situations.
You tend to solve complex problems in a flash, without needing a lot of facts.
Decision making is easy for you. You have killer intuition.
The right path is always clear, and you're a bit of a visionary. What's Your Hidden Talent?
Your Hair Should BeRed
Passionate, fiery, and sassy.
You're a total smart aleck who's got the biggest personality around. What's Your Funky Inner HairColor?
Your Mood Ring isBlue-Green
Inner emotions charged
Yet, somewhat relaxed MoodRing Generator
Your Daddy Is DarthVader
What You Call Him: Dada
Why You Love Him: He knows best Who's YourDaddy?
You are 53%Virgo
HowVirgo Are You?
Your Band Nameis:
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Your Love Style isAgape
You are a caring, kind, and selfless partner.
Unsurprisingly, your love style is the most rare.
You are willing to sacrfice your world for your sweetie.
Except it doesn't really feel like sacrifice to you.
For you, nothing feels better than giving to the one you love. What's Your Love Style?
You Are Expressionism
Moody, emotional, and even a bit angsty... you certainly know how to express your emotions.
At times, you tend to lack perspective on your life, probably as a result of looking inward too much.
This introspection does give you a flair for the dramatic. And it's even maybe made you cultivate some artistic talents!
You have a true artist's temperament... which is a blessing and a curse. What Art Movement Are You?
You Are An INFJ
The Protector
You live your life with integrity, originality, vision, and creativity.
Independent and stubborn, you rarely stray from your vision - no matter what it is.
You are an excellent listener, with almost infinite patience.
You have complex, deep feelings, and you take great care to express them.
You would make a great photographer, alternative medicine guru, or teacher. What's Your Personality Type?
Your Seduction Style: Fantasy Lover
You know that ideal love that each of us dreams of from childhood? That's you!
Not because you posess all of the ideal characteristics, but because you are a savvy shape shifter.
You have the uncanny ability to detect someone's particular fantasy... and make it you.
You inspire each person to be an idealist and passionate, and you make each moment memorable
Even a simple coffee date with you can be the most romantic moment of someone's life
By giving your date exactly what he or she desires, you quickly become the ideal lover.
Your abilities to make dreams come true is so strong, that you are often the love of many people's lives.
Your ex's (and even people you have simply met or been friends with) long to be yours.
No doubt you are the one others have dreamed of... your biggest challenge is finding *your* dream lover. What Kind of Seducer Are You?
You Are Sky Blue
Dreamy and creative, you see the potential in everyone ... and everything!
And while you strive to have an ideal life, you are pretty mellow about it. You know your time will come. What Color Blue Are You?
Your Famous Movie Kiss is from Romeo + Juliet
"Has my heart loved 'till now? Forswear it, sight! For I never saw a true beauty 'till this night." What Famous Movie Kiss Are You?
Your Linguistic Profile:
55% General American English
35% Dixie
5% Yankee
0% Midwestern
0% Upper Midwestern What Kind of American English Do You Speak?
You've Changed 80% in 10 Years
Compared to who you were ten years ago, you've changed a great deal.
In fact, you're probably in a completely different phase of your life - and very happy about it! How Much Have You Changed in 10 Years?
what female rocker are you?
you're a Amy Lee
The deep gothic rocker,though people find u a lil scary your beautiful lyrics pierce their heart!

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My Interests


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I'd like to meet:



I would say Jesus Christ, but I make a point to meet with Him all the time. :D

In random order (except for Lacey)
Lacey Mosley
Pat Seals
James Culpepper
Sameer Bhattacharya
Jared Hartmann
Tuomas Holopainen
Emppu Vuorinen
Jukka Nevalainen
Marco Hietala
Tony Kakko
Jani Liimatainen
Tommy Portimo
Henrik Klingenberg
Marko Paasikoski
Anette Olzon
Tarja Turunen
Sharon den Adel
Floor Jansen
Amy Lee
Rocky Gray
Jessy Ribordy
Josh Shroy
Josh Dies
Spee Chamberlin
Aaron Gillespie
Corinna Fugate
Alexander S.Twiss
Mona S.Twiss
JP

Music:


#
The 69 Eyes

A
AFI
After Forever
Ambeon

B
Barlow Girl
Beseech
Blindside

C
Chasing Victory
Corinna Fugate

D
David Crowder Band
Demon Hunter
Disciple
Divinefire
Don't Wake Aislin

E
Epica
Evanescence
Extol

F
Falling Up
Family Force 5
Flee the Seen
Flyleaf

G
The Gathering

H
Hawk Nelson
HIM
Horde

I
Inhabited
Inhale Exhale

K
Kutless

L
Lacuna Coil
Living Sacrifice

M
Moonspell
My Chemical Romance
Myriads

N
Nightwish
Nine Inch Nails
Nirvana

P
Paradise Lost
Paramore
Pillar

R
Random Eyes
The Rasmus
Red
A Reign of Haven

S
Saviour Machine
Showbread
The Showdown
Skies of Crimson
Skillet
Skyeisfalling
Smashing Pumpkins
Sonata Arctica
Sullivan
Superchic[k]

T
Thousand Foot Krutch
Tristania

U
UnderOath

V
Veruca Salt

W
War of Ages
Within Temptation

X
Xandria


Movies:

The Visitation
Hangman's Curse
Phantom of the Opera
Pirates Trilogy
LOTR Trilogy
Pride and Prejudice
The Last Samurai
Sound of Music
The Chronicles of Narnia
Three
I hardly ever go see movies, but I usually like anything. =P

Television:

Screw it.

Books:

The Bible

Anything by Frank Peretti.
--This Present Darkness
--Hangman's Curse
--Nightmare Academy
--Monster
--House
--The Visitation
--The Prophet
--Cooper Kids Adventure Series


Anything by C.S. Lewis.
--Mere Christianity

Anything by Lee Strobel.
--The Case for a Creator
--The Case for Faith
--The Case for Christ
--The Case for the Real Jesus


Anything by JRR Tolkein.
--The LOTR Trilogy
--The Hobbit


Great Women of the Christian Faith by Edith Deen

Mystery Novels/Series

Horse-Related Stories

Romance Novels (preferably Christian romance for the sake of morality)

When it comes to books, I'm usually easy to please. ;)

My Blog

I don’t regret choosing You, and I’m not ashamed that it’s You who holds my heart...

God I'm crying out tonight'Cause I've given You my lifeBut I'm tired and I'm missing what's behindSo once more here's my life Greetings Earthlings, I have returned. In the midst of diagnostic testing,...
Posted by .:.Rawker_Chic[k].:. {.P.u.p.p.e.t.Girl.} on Sat, 10 Nov 2007 03:53:00 PST

Little Girl, Little Angel (Revisited)

A dream rough around the edgesBleeding fingers, feeble and tremblingHolding tightly, a death grip on the only thingThat keeps them aliveA tiny heart beating in rhythm with tiny lungsA breath of faithI...
Posted by .:.Rawker_Chic[k].:. {.P.u.p.p.e.t.Girl.} on Wed, 17 Oct 2007 04:55:00 PST

Courtney is special....:D

...because Courtney is insanely blessed! Dude, today has been awesome. One of the best things was I finally finished my art project and it looks AWESOME! Friday I went in early to school to work on it...
Posted by .:.Rawker_Chic[k].:. {.P.u.p.p.e.t.Girl.} on Tue, 02 Oct 2007 05:07:00 PST

DUDE!!! I figured out why my dad is so wary of rock music!

It's the HEAD-BANGING! He was asking me today when I was watching some vids about why they "shook" so much and if that was from drugs, and I was like, huh? So it turns out he thought that head-banging...
Posted by .:.Rawker_Chic[k].:. {.P.u.p.p.e.t.Girl.} on Sat, 29 Sep 2007 05:59:00 PST

I’m not satisfied with okay...and I’m not okay with all right..

..so point me to the edge of life; I'll stand up on my toes... Wednesday and Thursday were kind of weird days for me, but it's gotten better after Thursday night. Today was excellent, and I've gone in...
Posted by .:.Rawker_Chic[k].:. {.P.u.p.p.e.t.Girl.} on Sat, 29 Sep 2007 07:13:00 PST

I’m about to just drop out of school...and marry Tony Kakko...

...not really, but dude, I'm so ready to get OUT of this place, aughhh. I didn't go to school today. I woke up late and realized I forgot to put my clothes in the dryer last night and it took them lik...
Posted by .:.Rawker_Chic[k].:. {.P.u.p.p.e.t.Girl.} on Thu, 27 Sep 2007 06:41:00 PST

Why is my tummy making weird noises?

Teehee, it's making me laugh. :D
Posted by .:.Rawker_Chic[k].:. {.P.u.p.p.e.t.Girl.} on Fri, 21 Sep 2007 07:20:00 PST

Happy Birthday to me!

Birthdays always make you think of the past. I don't know why that is, it just...is... I was thinking today about other people's birthdays, too. Like Monica's cake from Kroger, the whole Monica and St...
Posted by .:.Rawker_Chic[k].:. {.P.u.p.p.e.t.Girl.} on Tue, 18 Sep 2007 03:01:00 PST

Me in My Trials of Life

Walking forward into depths I cant see Musty air and dreary walls accompany me And this labyrinth is the only life known to me Running into walls I cannot see   Like a zombie, I keep walking, not...
Posted by .:.Rawker_Chic[k].:. {.P.u.p.p.e.t.Girl.} on Sun, 04 Jun 2006 07:49:00 PST

Numb and Cold

The breath of AutumnIs a whisper to your soulInfatuated with the shades of red and goldIt seems so pretty now for a seasonIt seems so pretty, honey, but for a darker reason It's whispering... Play, pl...
Posted by .:.Rawker_Chic[k].:. {.P.u.p.p.e.t.Girl.} on Sun, 16 Sep 2007 07:31:00 PST