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JenLostHerMind

stop fighting and breathe in what's meant to be...the anger comes out before you exhale

About Me

never take it seriously, if ya never take it seriosuly, ya never get hurt, ya never get hurt, ya always have fun, and if you ever get lonely, just got to the record store and visit your friends.
A WOMAN WHO SHALL PASS
Dancing on a line between so many worlds
Dangling the tips of my toes in your water
I wear no armor
I heed no warning
Laughing through the moments knowing
This could be your last
A moment could be all you have with me
As I am a woman who shall pass
I chose to be uprooted many years ago
It was love that made me do it and took me far from home
And so I grew and fell upon the gravel
I take those whose hearts I break inside my pocket while I travel
Bare in mind that you are not used, disrespected or forgotten
I travel with the clouds my dear and oceans carry my belongings
In one world I pay my bills, take vitamins and use logic
I am embraced by one man's music
another man's melody is orgasmic
A woman's touch inside my soul as she reached in to my eyes
A crowd has gathered closely to feed from the leakage of my mind
So I rest alone and travel weighted
Prepared with a pen and gun
The pen is truly sharper than the sword
But my weapons protect my body
A mere shell of who I am, self respect and strength
Five foot tall beauty
Mistaken for nievity
Five foot tall lunatic
Crazy is just a form of self defense
To live so free and to embrace such knowledge
My roots yearn to be planted
But the flowers that bloom must be handed about
As I remain unjaded
So I dance with devils, angels and criminals...
I caress the starving aching souls...
I fire my guns with compassion towards all the ones who haven't got there...
You may read this and wonder why...I ramble rant and rave...
There are many lives within me...and so many that I gave...
My roots can not be planted...because of one man years ago...
I will never again live the life
of supposed tos
or as any man's slave...
Dancing on a line between so many worlds
Dangling the tips of my toes in your water
I wear no armor
I heed no warning
Laughing through the moments knowing
This could be your last
A moment could be all you have with me
As I am a woman who shall pass
Hold my hand while you have me near
Please don't get attached
This moment could be your last
As I love you dearly, every spirit in my midst,
Remember that this is just this
And this moment could be your last,
I plant no roots and hand you flowers
As I am a woman who shall pass
I wrote three books, travelled, paint, do all sorts of things...nosey folks
Free
Every ticket validated
Every flight I've flown
I danced until after midnight and kissed the lips of all I've known
Played poker with the devil
Sat on Henry's thrown
Swam with mermaids singing
Seen everything you've shown
Now I'm free to fade away
Rest my head today
I'm free to move to cloudy gates
Or sleep in the Elvis estate
I'm free to talk with Dylan
Smoke a blunt with Bob
Whiskey with Jim Morrison
Or hang out on the corner with some random slob
I'm free to write a novel, but I already did
I found my life come full circle
Free is how I lived
I smoked upon a mountain, somewhere off I95
I pulled over to take pictures while you were getting high
I laughed at all my problems and it made them go away
I'm free to leave you now
But the life that I've completed
Is always free to stay
Being free ain't easy
Someone always pays a price
I hope you find i did for you
I lived this amazing life
Now I'm free to walk away
Knowing you're okay
I hope you saw yourself in me as i prepare to disappear
Keep on driving towards that passion
I'll be in your rear view mirror
When you reach the circle and you don't know how to turn
Light up those balding tires
Be free like me and make em' burn
Living is about beleiving in all the things you've learned
Be free like me
Take on everything you yearn
I must rest my head my dear but please don't shed a tear
I'll be dancing in the clouds for you through every waking year
I pray you find the things that I somehow found in me
I will meet you at the ocean when you find your road to freee

My Interests

sociology, poetry, music, art, fashion, reading, writing, marketing, design, law,education, politics...any random tales you have to tell me.

I'd like to meet:

everyone ever and forever

Music:



The Soundtrack to Your Life SurveyMake a soundtrack for your life, matching songs with the following:Opening song: Black Betty-Ram jamWaking up: Manic Monday-BanglesFirst date: Catch Me if You Can-The Beau SistersFirst kiss: A Dream Is a Wish Your Heart Makes-Ilene WoodsFalling in love: Billie Holiday-I'll Be Seeing YouSeeing an old love: Shelter From the Storm-Bob DylanHeartbreak: Band of Gold-Freda PayneDriving fast: Stop-Jane's AddictionGetting ready to go out: Supermodel-Jill SobulePartying with friends: Gin & Juice-DevanteDancing at a club: Dancing Queen-AbbaFlirting: Next To You-Rose RoyceFeeling sexy: Girl, You'll Be a Woman Soon-Urge OverkillWalking alone in the rain: Against the Wind-Bob SegerMissing someone: Georgia On My Mind-Ray CharlesPlaying in the ocean: Sugarhigh-Coyote ShiversSummer vacation: Blinded by The Light-Manfred Man's Earth BandFighting with someone: End of the World-Skeeter DavisActing goofy with friends: "With a Little Help From My Friends" by the BeatlesThinking back: "As Long as We Got Each Other" by Steve Dorff and John BettisFeeling depressed: Not gon' Cry-Mary J BligeChristmas time: Charmed Life-Leigh NashFalling asleep: Twinkle Twinkle Little Star-Bill FrisselClosing song: Here I Go Again-Whitesnake Take The Soundtrack to Your Life Survey
Get more cool things for your blog at BlogthingsNIN, Rush, hair bands from the 80's, john zorn, the beatles, Jungle, trip hop, reggae, motzart, beethoven, lullabies...I'm a sucker for the sound of an honest piano....

Jane's Addiction, RHCP,WILLIE NELSON,The Killers, CCR, Britney Spears, Madonna, Punk, Classic Rock, Jazz(but not so much big band), Tori Amos, Aerosmith, The Pretenders, Tom Petty, Bon Jovi (shut I'm from Jersey), Smashing Pumpkins, 80's Pop Trash like the bangels and debbie gibson along with hair bands and that bullshit...classical(i'm a sucker for classical pianists), country, hip hop, oldies, Guns N' Roses, Freestyle (like Viper Records c.d. hanging from your trans am kinda freestyle...the good ol' shit w/ Lil' Suzie and Cynthia ...mmmm...my hair is getting hard just thinkin' about it )world music (as in from all countries in case you were confused), weather channel music (it's oddly addicting but I leave it on all night while I sleep weeeeeeeeeeeeeeee! I love cable t.v.), Bill Frizel, P.J. Harvey, Old Metallica, Primus, Miles Davis, Norah Jones, Soulfly, Canderia and now I'm oddly drawn to this new thing Juliet Lewis is doing...oh and lullabies...give me a lullaby without vocals it's almost as good as the smell of rain...mix the two and I'm in paradise.

Movies:

Catacomb, Grace of my heart, Welcome to The Dollhouse, I shot Andy Warhol, The Doors, Basquiat, Natural Born Killers, Cinderella(Disney of course), Any horror movie, Star Wars, Lord of The Rings, Clueless, Jerry Maguire, Sweet Home Alabama, The Color Purple, Singles, Girls Just Wanna Have Fun, Killer Clowns from Outer Space, Edward Scissorhands, Nasferatu, Steel Magnolias, A Walk to Remember, Closer,Stand by Me, Cool as Ice, Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles, The Rainbow Bright movie,The Sweetest Thing, Gummo, Clerks, Chasing Amy, Closer, Memento, Finding Neverland, Disney's version of Peter Pan, Doom Generation, When The Cat's Away, Pet Semetary, Waxwork, Puppet Master, Hell Raiser, And The Beat Goes On, The Never Ending Story, The Goonies, The Nightmare Before Christmas, James and The Giant Peach, Spy Game, Training Day, Oceans 11, Boondock Saints, E.T., Shrek, Mean Girls, Saw, Aladin, Beauty and The Beast, Boys Don't Cry, Iron Jawed Angels, White Oleander

Television:

rescue me, HOUSE, Grey's Anatomy, ER, Law and Order, Extreme Makeover, home improvement shows, the history channel, forensic files, south park, the man show, i really love the news and the discovery channel. i love documentaries. i get annoyed enough mindlessness from the general population of the united states, so i find educational television relaxing

Books:



loving you always forever yoursgrowing up jerseyThe Prophet,

On The Road,

Illuminated Poems by Allen Ginsberg,

The Outsiders,

Catwalking,

Pet Semetary,
The Wanderer

how-to books,

psychology books,

philosophy books,

THE MOST INFLUENTIAL WRITER IN MY LIFE HAS BEEN KAHLIL GIBRAN MOST FAMOUS FOR WRITING "THE PROPHET", HIS WORK AND HIS LIFE WERE CONTRADICTORY BUT INEXPLICABLY COHERANT TO ME FROM VARIOUS PERSPECTIVES.

Heroes:

i'll never tell anyone again.

My Blog

Grateful to all of my friends on and off myspace and around the world

I know I haven't been on much and have been shady in 2007, but the research I did required me to do so. I also still do not have internet access at home...long annoying story. I'm much more clear-head...
Posted by JenLostHerMind on Wed, 30 Jan 2008 12:27:00 PST

2008

i'm going to stop these stupid meds that the dr. keeps giving me. i'm so much more forgetful and worried with them than without them. i will also stop playing dr. when i get sick of being in the hospi...
Posted by JenLostHerMind on Sun, 30 Dec 2007 12:28:00 PST

I hate you

I hate you for making politically correct decisions that are incorrectly affecting our nation, communities, future and allowing those who choose to serve their communities as teachers, law enforcement...
Posted by JenLostHerMind on Fri, 07 Dec 2007 03:19:00 PST

the jenny lane experiment

multiple "costumes" hair and makeup illness poverty drug behavior lies cryptic messages being annoying or disappearing it was all research for a sociology experiment and an unbiased article intended t...
Posted by JenLostHerMind on Sat, 24 Nov 2007 09:04:00 PST

vero beach

i may leave again. life is crazy. people are crazy. can't write much, don't want the crews to have ammo against me
Posted by JenLostHerMind on Sat, 22 Sep 2007 03:00:00 PST

help me god!

looking for a gallery to donate my car as art - pics sooni'm on tv and not getting paid for the use of my face.i saw the love of my life, the one everyone i meet is yet to compare to...and there's not...
Posted by JenLostHerMind on Wed, 05 Sep 2007 04:50:00 PST

yup

puter still down but my life is getting better workin' modelin' education travel found out who my real friends are investigations, lies and scum bags i'm done with men, the last one lied so bad. he h...
Posted by JenLostHerMind on Thu, 16 Aug 2007 08:53:00 PST

The truth comes out eventually

I'm used to name calling. Sadly, it still sucks. It has come to my attention that my life online is now being used and misinterpreted to hurt my feelings or be judgmental or whatever people have nothi...
Posted by JenLostHerMind on Tue, 10 Jul 2007 06:34:00 PST

S FACTOR

Single and celibate: no other energies to impact the positive force behind success Sober: chemical intervention only causes cloudly judgment including medications Sincerity: no bullshit people or inse...
Posted by JenLostHerMind on Tue, 10 Jul 2007 05:31:00 PST

offline

hey now i.. www.lulu.com/jmsabatino or buys some gear www.cafepress.com/barhogear my return will be fabulous so prepare yourselves!
Posted by JenLostHerMind on Tue, 10 Jul 2007 05:19:00 PST