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♥Beautifully Complicated

Do you love me because I'm beautiful, or am I beautiful because you love me?

About Me

Im an outgoing, open minded person. Very first, I am a MOM, and that is the most important thing in my life. My kids come first no matter what. They are my love and my life. I have many friends but few that are close to my heart. I treasure their friendships. I dont put up with dishonesty and deceitfulness. Once you open the door into my psyche you really dont know what might emerge. Sometimes I prefer to learn through the experiences of my own mistakes than be counseled by well-meaning people. I live life to its full capacity.. I am a hopeless romantic, though I am not naive. I don't have time for mind games and stupid people. I require respect, yet I love random sillyness in doses with my intellectual interactions. I am not a bore, and love to be spontaneous and wreak havoc on the streets with drunken debauchery. Yet I also love decent intelligent conversation and I am a sucker for any sort of passion in the human spirit. One that has dealt with both the best and worst that life has to offer may indeed be a bit more cynical and jaded than the rest, but to see their passion and sensitivity to humanity alone is worth my time far more than the average person that merely loves life because it has primarily been placid with them. Hardship proves to expand the human soul beyond those sheltered within comfort. ... and I have a certain attraction to that aspect of ones soul. I am known to be rude, crude, blunt, and tactless. I do not find it neccessary to lie to the weak for their benefit, it is a waste of my time.**I will give you this little bit of advice as well concerning myself: I am truthful, and expect the same from you in your relating with me. I will not lie to you, not even to spare your feelings, so if I say something to you, I mean it, because I never say something for the benefit of others... I do not care enough to spare anyone's feelings, because I would rather know the truth of matters rather than be lied to and be happier... and so I relate the same way with others. So be careful... I can be an asshole. The truth hurts... and I am the messenger for the most part...

My Interests

Nature, Wicca, Paganism, The Goddess, Deities, Spirituality, Celtic Wicca, Writing, Poetry, Tarot, Rune readings, Astrology, Art, Mythology, Photography....I believe in karma and the power of three. I believe that Goddess watches over me. I know in my heart that everything on this earth has energy, a soul. You should always treat others as you wish to be treated. Merry ye meet, merry ye part, so ye may merry meet again. I believe that we are all natural Witches, but especially those of us who have chosen to walk this path at this time. Before we lost our innocence, the unseen was visible to us. There was a time we were all visited by Fairies, Gnomes, Unicorns, and various deities in whatever form they chose or were celebrated. We had our own private rituals, and we were especially drawn to the moon in all her wondrous phases. We were drawn to various animals and picked up special rocks and crystals that had meaning for us (although we didn't recognize it as such at the time). We had our "treasure box" under the bed that was full of magical items: totems, amulets, and various other meaningful items. As we grew older, we grew out of our ability to be sensitive to the energy of the Universe and became increasingly concerned with the social mores and rituals shared by our family and by the rest of the world. We ceased to believe in the magical and therefore lost our connection to the Universe. We ceased to feel the energy that drives us. We lost our vision of the magical world.

I'd like to meet:

Any person who has become successful by his or her own terms in life, the best inspirations I've met were strangers. I want to meet any one out in the world who's ever been lost...any one out there who's found..Any one who's ever loved and ever been broken..All you dreamers and activists and hopeless romantics...In many ways, I'm just like you.***Always be yourself, because the people who mind don't matter, and the people who matter don't mind***I'M TIRED OF MEN, AND I'M TIRED OF GAMES... I DO NOT CYBER, SO DON'T EVEN ASK!

Music:


Adema, Afterlife, Alice In Chains, Anakata, Anthrax, Antiflag, Apocalyptica, Arch Enemy, Arson Anthem, Baboon, Bad Religion, Beatles, Beastie Boys, Biohazard, Bistandard, Black Label Society, Blood Red Disciple, Brutal Juice, Buckcherry, CCR, Candlebox, Chevelle, Chimaira, Coal Chamber, Cold, Counter Clockwise, CLUTCH, Crystal Method, Cypress Hill, Daisy Chainsaw, Damageplan, Days Of The New, Deadhorse, Dead Kennedys, Debri, Default, Deftones, Depeche Mode, Devastation, Devildriver, Devil To Pay, Disassembled, Discard The Weak, Disrespect, The Doors, Down, Drain STH, Dry Kill Logic, Eighteen Visions, Enemy Breed, Everclear, Facedown, Faith No More, Fear Factory, Filter, Final Obsession, Floater, Foehammer, Fuel, Garbage, Grade 8, Grain, Godsmack, Grateful Dead, Hatebreed, HellYeah, Helmet, Hemlock, Homicidal Rage, Hour Cast, Incubus, Insecticide, Instant Decay, Jacknife, Jack off Jill, Janes Addiction, Janis Joplin, Killing Field, Killswitch Engage, Kittie, KMFDM, Korn, L7, Lamb of God, Lacuna Coil, Legends Of The South, Level-C, Lifehouse, Live, Lords Of Acid, Machine Head, Mad Season, Mainline, Manntis, Marilyn Manson, Massacre Machine, Mastadon, Max Cady, Metallica, Ministry, Misfits, Mr Fairchild, Mudvayne, My Own Sin, Necrophagia, Needlemouth, Negative 263, Nevalution, Nightwish, NIN, Nirvana, NOFX, Noise Therapy, Nothingface, Obscene Gesture, Offspring, Oleander, Opeth, Orgy, Outhouse, Pail, PANTERA, Pearl Jam, Pennywise, Piston, Pixies, Powerman 5000, Premineshen, Primus, Prong, Prototype 13, Puddle of Mudd, Queen Of The Ryche, Random Walk, Ramones, Reducer 74, Revolting Cocks, Rob Zombie, Rustic Circle, Sacrum, Season Of Fear, Seether, Sepultura, Sevendust, Sex Pistols, Shed, Shinedown, Sickencide, Silverchair, Skatenigs, Skinny Puppy, Slayer, Smile Empty Soul, Society 1, Soil, Soldiers Of Scrape, Solemn Creation, Souljur, Southern Black Sand, Soulfly, Standing Hollow, Static-X, Stone Temple Pilots, Strychnine Soul, Sublime, Subversion, Superjoint, Switchbalde, System Of A Down, Taproot, Texas Jack, Thirteen Deep, Throwdown, Toadies, Tool, Trepan, Type O Negative, Vainglory, Virus, Vodnik, White Zombie, Within Chaos, World Lost, Zero 4, Zero Trigger, Zoo Seventeen

Movies:

I'm a sucker for the Burton(director)/Elfman(composer)/Depp(actor) trio, it gets me everytime. Movies off the top of my head, Phantom of The Opera, Finding Neverland, The Nightmare Before Christmas, Edward Scissorhands, The Dark Crystal, The Lost Boys, Fight Club, Queen of The Damned, Dawn of the Dead, Army of Darkness, Freeway, Legend, Sleepy Hollow, Corpse Bride, ok.. I could go on forever..

Books:

Hear Now the words of the witches, The secrets we hid in the night, When dark was our destiny's pathway, That now we bring forth into light.Mysterious water and fire, The earth and the wide-ranging air, By hidden quintessence we know them, And will and keep silent and dare.The birth and rebirth of all nature, The passing of winter and spring, We share with the life universal, Rejoice in the magical ring.Four times in the year the Great Sabbat Returns, and the witches are seen At Lammas and Candlemas dancing, On May Eve and old Hallowe'en.When day-time and night-time are equal, When sun is at greatest and least, The four Lesser Sabbats are summoned, And Witches gather in feast.Thirteen silver moons in a year are, Thirteen is the coven's array. Thirteen times at Esbat make merry, For each golden year and a day.The power that was passed down the age, Each time between woman and man, Each century unto the other, Ere time and the ages began.When drawn is the magical circle, By sword or athame of power, Its compass between two worlds lies, In land of the shades for that hour.This world has no right then to know it, And world of beyond will tell naught. The oldest of Gods are invoked there, The Great Work of magic is wrought.For the two are mystical pillars, That stand at the gate of the shrine, And two are the powers of nature, The forms and the forces divine.The dark and the light in succession, The opposites each unto each, Shown forth as a God and a Goddess: Of this our ancestors teach.By night he's the wild wind's rider, The Horn'd One, the Lord of the Shades. By day he's the King of the Woodland, The dweller in green forest glades.She is youthful or old as she pleases, She sails the torn clouds in her barque, The bright silver lady of midnight, The crone who weaves spells in the dark.The master and mistress of magic, That dwell in the deeps of the mind, Immortal and ever-renewing, With power to free or to bind.So drink the good wine to the Old Gods, And Dance and make love in their praise, Till Elphame's fair land shall receive us In peace at the end of our days.And Do What You Will be the challenge, So be it Love that harms none, For this is the only commandment. By Magic of old, be it done!

Heroes:

My kids

My Blog

IF A MAN WANTS YOU...

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away.   If he doesn't want you, nothing can make him stay.   Stop making exc uses for a man and his behavior.  Allow your intuition (or spirit) ...
Posted by ♥Beautifully Complicated on Mon, 19 Nov 2007 10:16:00 PST

TO BE A WITCH

To be a witch is to love and be loved. To be a witch is to know everything, and nothing at all.To be a witch is to move amongst the stars while staying on earth.To be a witch is to change the world ar...
Posted by ♥Beautifully Complicated on Wed, 21 Feb 2007 04:33:00 PST

WICCAN WISDOM

First of all; Wicca doesn't seek new members. Wicca does not solicit because, unlike most religions, it doesn't claim to be the one true way to Diety. Unlike some religions, Wicca doesn't view Diety a...
Posted by ♥Beautifully Complicated on Sun, 17 Dec 2006 02:33:00 PST

HAPPY BIRTHDAY.....

It's hard to believe you would have been 4 already, when it seems like it was just yesterday that we lost you. We love you, Princess. I awoke the other nightand I heard you cryingneeding to be com...
Posted by ♥Beautifully Complicated on Mon, 24 Jul 2006 10:22:00 PST

READ THIS!!!!!!!!!

Harley and I have enough going on right now without other people spreading rumors and talking shit. If you have nothing better to do with your time than talk shit about other people, we don't need you...
Posted by ♥Beautifully Complicated on Sat, 18 Aug 2007 07:47:00 PST

ADDICTION

As a sick addict I scramble for you That lust ridden animal clawing Slashing within my chestImploring for release A frenzied beastA furious rageSent to ravish youTo violate you Conquered byThis frant...
Posted by ♥Beautifully Complicated on Fri, 22 Jun 2007 12:13:00 PST

A LITTLE GAME

Leave your name in my blog comments. Once you do that, this is what I'll do for you...1. I'll respond with something random about you.2. I'll tell you what song/movie reminds me of you.3. I'll pick a ...
Posted by ♥Beautifully Complicated on Mon, 21 May 2007 12:41:00 PST

TIRED

So I'm in one of those moods today that I just want the whole world to disappear. I'm tired of trying so hard to make everyone else happy when I'm so freakin miserable all the time. Maybe one day I wi...
Posted by ♥Beautifully Complicated on Sat, 05 May 2007 08:31:00 PST

CUTS YOU UP (my new theme song)

I make no apologiesFor the pastI had to liveThrough it all to getWhere I amFuck it allIf you don't like what I amThen don't youLook at meWho ever madeYou a godWho ever gaveYou the rightTo criticizeTak...
Posted by ♥Beautifully Complicated on Mon, 30 Apr 2007 04:35:00 PST

IF YOU WERE HOME....

Just for this morning, I am going to step over the laundry, And pick you up and take you to the park to play. Just for this morning, I will leave the dishes in the sink, And let you teach me how to pu...
Posted by ♥Beautifully Complicated on Wed, 11 Apr 2007 12:22:00 PST