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Medicine Witch

CONFORMISM IS A VIOLATION OF THE SELF

About Me


***ATTENTION*** SICK PREDATOR FUCKS...pretend you never saw me and stay the hell out of every aspect of my life and away from me because I would only be too happy to slit someones throat for endangering me or my daughter.
I'm Courtney. I am a NEO-PAGAN WITCH with an underlying Buddhist belief system, and incorporate MANY traditions into my practice for an eclectic path. Like my medicine women ancestors, I am on a SHAMANIC path, and much of my practice is rooted in ANCIENT TRIBAL TRADITIONS. I believe in EQUALITY among ALL beings, of all forms, on all planes of existence and VEGETARIANISM in close relationships is important to me. The most phenomenal part of my life is my 5 year old daughter, Mia Sri Laksmi. She is my greatest healer and teacher. Having a SCORPIO moon sign, I open up to people based on consistent safety, loyalty, honesty, and stability. The compassion, love and devotion I have has no limitation for anyone that is truly safe and open. I am an artist, gothic because it is inherent in my nature, not to be a part of some scene.
**Now... for those who do not fully understand the implications of my Scorpio moon, it means that despite my loving, compassionate nature, I WILL strike back whenever I am threatened or wounded in any way, so do not fuck with me or the people I love. Really.**
I AM A SPIRITUAL BEING LIVING A SPIRITUAL LIFE EVERY MOMENT, WITH EVERY ACT. MY PIERCINGS AND TATTOOS AND PARTIALLY SHAVED HEAD ARE FOR TRIBALLY SPIRITUAL REASONS. I DON'T TAKE TIME OUT OF MY DAY TO MEDITATE BUT I MEDITATE THROUGH MY DAY...LIFE ITSELF IS A MEDITATION. I ASTRAL EVERY NIGHT IN MY SLEEP, MY WORK NEVER STOPS. FROM THE ASTRAL PLANE TO THIS PHYSICAL PLANE...EVERY CONVERSATION, EVERY MEETING, EVERY ENCOUNTER, ALL PART OF THE TRIP. ANY TIME I INTOXICATE MYSELF IN ANY WAY IS ALWAYS, WITH NO EXCEPTION, FOR SPIRITUAL AND MEDICINAL PURPOSES...I AM ON A SHAMANIC PATH...I NEED TO MAKE THIS CLEAR. YES I HAVE FUN TOO AND PLAY BUT IT IS JUST AS MUCH A PART OF THE TRIP.
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******WE NEED TO STAND UP FOR OUR FREEDOM PEOPLE*******
... and not submit to discrimination or forced conformism at the expense of our rights.
If no one backs down, no one can control our individuality.
We should not be penalized for offending others with our own individuality...when we harm them none...
Offensive is "different" and it's definition changes with EVERY person.
Therefore, no one should have the power to decide for us and in turn, control us.
We should decide for ourselves and have the right to follow our own beliefs without penalty or discrimination.
WHAT WILL IT TAKE TO BREAK THE MISCONCEPTIONS OF THE IGNORANT????
You can wear garters and show your ass without being a slut...you can be fiercely loyal or even celibate...what a fucking concept...we should be able to show nudity without sexual assumption or penalty...god forbid we should embrace our bodies...we are animals and I don't care how evolved we think we are, we need to get over ourselves and the illusion of "civilization" we hide behind that deludes us into thinking we are superior to other animals...intelligence and ability and raping the earth do not define value people...being a life and having a soul does and we are no more or less than any other life. We are so brainwashed and judgmental towards each other and our own diversities...and egotistical toward the rest of the earth and her creatures...which we have deluded ourselves into thinking are here only for us...us,us,us...
Being gothic and/or Pagan does not make me Satanic or evil...Satan is a Christian concept people...I don't even believe he exists other than when those who do believe in him make him a reality, like Christians and Satanists...because everything in reality only exists through consciousness, and consciousness is all we are and all that creates everything in existence...meaning WE CREATE our own realities through our consciousness.
Evil HAS NO LOOK...it can be the pastor down the street or the CEO at some company or the teenage kid next door or the fucking government ...I guarantee I am nicer than any of you who judge me...I don't eat animals because I love them too much...all I want to do is love people and teach them and learn from them so that we may all raise our mass consciousness...can you say the same? DARKNESS DOES NOT MEAN EVIL...this misconception has been ingrained in us through Christian ideology...EVIL HAS NO LOOK...darkness is simply half of reality...light and dark would not exist without each other and some of us are more aligned with our true selves in the dark...beautiful things exist in the darkness as well as the light...and many valuable things only come from the darkness...just as other valuable things only come from the light.
WE NEED TO STOP JUDGING EACH OTHER WITH OUR EGO MINDS AND USE OUR INTUITIONS....THAT'S WHAT WE HAVE THEM FOR.
I am not anti- Christ...he was one of MANY amazing teachers and healers in this world...and my belief system is more aligned with his than most of the churches that have warped his teachings and the masses brainwashed by them.
All that matters is ABSOLUTE LOVE and HARM UNTO NONE.
...not religion, practices, cultures, physical appearances, gender or sexual orientation...
MOST JUDGMENTS ARE CULTURALLY INGRAINED....THIS DOES NOT MEAN THEY ARE RIGHT...JUST CULTURALLY BIASED.
*****Just because I have strong beliefs does not mean I pretend to be perfect or flawless. I am hypersensitive, extremely emotional, have social anxiety, depression and panic attacks (which is very hard sometimes but what drives my passion), reclusive, a total homebody (to protect myself because I've been hurt enough), and am viciously protective over the people I love.*****
MEET YOUR MEAT...I have more respect for people who accept this truth and admit they don't care than deny this truth to ease their own conscience.
~Native goddess Spider Woman~

My Interests


People STILL don't get it so I will try to clarify again here that I DO NOT WANT A ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIP OR SEXUAL RELATIONS OF ANY KIND WITH ANYONE!!! I may be "single" and seperated from Hector right now but my love for him remains...he is my family...we are timelessly bonded and remain in union, even apart. Although seperated, the door has not been closed for us...until it is, I WILL NOT want anyone else...and if it is, I will want to be alone until I heal...reclusion is part of my healing process and a way of protecting myself...I was celibate for 2 years after I left Mia's dad...my heart does not mend easily and takes time to heal. The family and few close friends I actually do have in my life mean everything to me. He is still all I see and feel, awake and dreaming. He is my greatest love and despair. I will remain loyal to the purity of us until the door is shut, and if that happens, will only move on after I heal.

Magick, blood (in human form only and given of free will), sex, love, darkness, music, art, history, body art and its pain (I have 15 piercings, nostril twice, septum, labret, naval, both nipples and four holes in each ear...a large tattoo of a lotus flower on my lower back and a small magical symbol on my upper thigh... more to come...ALL FOR TRIBALLY SPIRITUAL REASONS and it is my religious right NOT TO BE FORCED TO TAKE MY PIERCINGS OUT...EVER...FUCKING JOB DISCRIMINATION!!!)

The spirit world, astral projection, past life exploration, altered states of reality

Spiritual evolution and progression

(vegetarianism)

EXPANDING CONSCIOUSNESS

Astrology

Buddhist, Hindu, Native American, Pagan, Ancient Egyptian, and Atlantian wisdoms and traditions

All ancient tribal traditions (not so much new age fluff)

All non-dogmatic religion and philosophy.

~Kwan Yin~

~Kali~

~Ganesa~

I love and respect the earth, all of her elements and all entities born from her womb.

I am obsessed with craftwork and make essential oil blends that also include herbs, stones and resins. I wrap shells, crystals and other stones for jewelry, pendants, charms and medicine bags; love to pick and bundle sage and handmake tools for the craft. Every piece is channelled to be energetically aligned with its wearer and is magickally charged.

I love british tea and fine coffee, art, poetry, music, symbolism, candles, sage, sweet grass, cedar, juniper and incense smoke, herbs, essential oils, crystals, shells...

I enjoy walking through beautiful, grotesque cemeteries and parks and forests (especially in autumn) and want to be in water all the time.

I am horribly nocturnal and love the moon and stars, the peace and stillness of society, and the high levels of astral and multidimensional activity at night.

I love my daughter with the entire essence of my being and am truly blessed to be her mother.

~BUDDHA~

I'd like to meet:

DON'T ASK ME FOR SEX OR NUDE PICS

~*NO WHORES PLEASE, MALE OR FEMALE*...

~I VALUE ***CHIVALRY***...HEARD OF IT???

~NO SHALLOW, SUPERFICIAL, MATERIALISTIC, CLOSE-MINDED, BACKSTABBING PUPPETS that lack depth, feeling, compassion, wisdom or devotion...that cling to their scene only for ego and not because of true identity...a.k.a POSERS, no matter how good they look doing it or how many "friends" they have.
***I don't care how good you think you look with photoshop and makeup, fake hair and fake nails, how much latex you have or how cool your fucking boots are...I will see right through it***
It doesn't make you holier than thou or give you the right to be snotty, and you probably overestimate yourself anyway...there are many beautiful people in this world who are REAL...who look the way they do and love what they love because it's WHO THEY ARE...not merely to rebel or be a part of some scene.

~ I ONLY WISH TO MEET SAFE, RESPECTFUL, HONEST, DEVOTED, LOYAL, COMPASSIONATE, OPEN-MINDED PEOPLE WHO AREN'T AFRAID OF INTENSITY OR EXTREMITY ~

~DO NOT INVLOVE YOURSELF WITH ME IN ANY WAY ONLY TO HURT ME IN THE END. MY LIFE HAS BEEN HELL AND I CAN'T TAKE BEING HURT ANYMORE. MY HEART HAS BEEN SHATTERED AND ***IF YOU DESTROY ME I WILL DESTROY YOU.***

~I DON'T WANT A RELATIONSHIP AT THE MOMENT, IN FACT, THE IDEA MAKES ME SICK...PLEASE RESPECT THAT...AND DON'T ASK ME FOR SEX OR PICS...YES IT HAPPENS.

~I AM A NICE PERSON...IT DOES NOT MEAN I AM ATTRACTED TO YOU...

****DID YOU FORGET ABOUT CHIVALRY ALREADY??****

~I DON'T WANT TO MEET RACIST, SEXIST OR ABUSIVE EXCUSES FOR PEOPLE.

~And I can't stress this enough...NO WHORES AND/OR HOMEWRECKERS!!!

I HATE FEELING THAT I CAN'T TRUST PEOPLE ON MY FRIENDS LIST...
If you don't like me or find me offensive then WHY add me?
If you judge...you are ASSUMING.
If you're offended, it does not mean that what you are offended by is offensive.
Offensive is a relative term and it's definition changes with EACH person.
If you are offended by body hair and nudity, you really should be ashamed of yourself and think for a second how fucked up the concept of NATURAL ever being offensive actually is...to see nature in the human form or any other and find any aspect of it offensive is ridiculous...to find it disgusting is SAD...
WE ARE ANIMALS and just because we have the ability to make clothes does not mean we should lose our earth born rights and be forced to wear them.
This does not mean I go out nude, that is "illegal"...but the point is we should be FREE...sexuality is something our culture has automatically assigned to nudity...this perspective is obviously not shared by all cultures...it is our skin...like other animals have skin, and fur or hair...***other animals aren't disgusted by their natural forms and it is SAD that we are.***
Any friend of mine would get that, so if you don't please don't add me or delete me from your friends...if I can't trust you PLEASE don't add me or delete me and leave me in peace...as I know I have never wronged you. ~Peace~

Music:

Intense, dramatic or heavy...emotionally stimulating...I appreciate real talent, creativity and skill...or I'm not likely to tolerate it. I can't help it. I've been singing most of my life and like many styles of music but I don't like music that is ridiculously happy and don't listen to much corporate stuff. Some of my favorite artists...

***SOPOR AETERNUS***

Jucifer
Cinema Strange
Scarlet's Remains
Tragic Black
Faith and the Muse
Lycia
Collide
Dresden Dolls
Inkubus Sukkubus
Mazzy Star
Switchblade Symphony
Cranes The Cure
Tori Amos and
Bjork's heavier stuff
Julee Cruise *Angelo Badalamenti*
Delerium
Butterfly Messiah
Dead Can Dance
Enigma
Loreena Mckennitt
Vas
Mediaeval Baebes
the amazing Regan High Priestess the timeless Ludwig Van Beethoven Ravi Shankar and tribal music from many cultures.
I adore The Phantom of the Opera and all dark, heavy opera
(especially in Italian).

As well of course, The DOORS...forever...

There's a lot more but I'm too lazy and you probably don't care that much anyway...

Movies:

I think all films by David Lynch are extraordinary works of art. He is a genius; an Aquarius on the cusp of Capricorn, he manifests masterpieces channelled from the Divine with the perfection of a Virgo moon. Twin Peaks (a T.V show) has no comparison...Fire Walk With Me, Lost Highway, Mullholland Drive, Blue Velvet...Mists of Avalon, Baraka, Lord of the Rings, The Labrynth, Harry Potter and Dancer in the Dark.

Laura Palmer

Television:

Brainwashing is freaky but Family Guy and South Park are irresistable...

Books:

Be Here Now, The Bhagavad-Gita, The Ramayana, Animal-Wise, Illusions, The Medicine Cards book, The Symbolic Prophecy Of The Great Pyramid, ASK AND IT IS GIVEN

Heroes:

Aleister Crowley, The Dalai Lama, Jim Morrison, The Circle Of The Rising Ajna Lotus and all of my other close family, friends and spiritual mentors.

My Blog

The loss of CHIVALRY in the masses

I do not blame the women's rights movement for the loss of chivalry because it was lost as soon as women lost their power.  TRUE chivalry existed in matriarchal societies.  People weren't ch...
Posted by Medicine Witch on Wed, 16 May 2007 01:12:00 PST

IF YOU NEED PROTECTION from spirits or people

A friend of mine was unsafe last night so I gave her direction about this and realized I should share with everyone because so many of us have such encounters and deserve to know how to protect oursel...
Posted by Medicine Witch on Wed, 21 Mar 2007 12:40:00 PST

THE LAW OF ATTRACTION AND MANIFESTING THAT WHICH WE DESIRE

I am posting this blog to share this vital information about the law of attraction with as many people as possible, to assist in the raising of mass consciousness.I have had a hard life and lately hav...
Posted by Medicine Witch on Tue, 27 Feb 2007 01:58:00 PST

PICS of my BEAUTIFUL daughter and angel incarnate <333

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Posted by Medicine Witch on Thu, 11 May 2006 11:49:00 PST

MEDICATION FREE DEPRESSION...

~A response to someone who wrote me...someone who thinks medication is mandatory to treat depression.I figured I'd post it in case it comes up again and to share my perspective...~ I do not agree with...
Posted by Medicine Witch on Sun, 19 Nov 2006 03:05:00 PST

Article on ALEISTER CROWLEY <333 by my priestess Esthamarelda ... READ THIS!!!

ALEISTER CROWLEY 101 By Esthamarelda McNevin, especially for NewWitch magazine. The life of Aleister Crowley is a wild tale of youth, ego and magick. This notable magicians pe...
Posted by Medicine Witch on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST

~ )0( ~ Wisdom For Reflection ~ )0( ~

May we find it within ourselves to reflect upon this wisdom... "He who injures harmless beings from a wish to give himself pleasure, never finds happiness, neither living nor dead... He who permits t...
Posted by Medicine Witch on Mon, 01 Jan 1900 12:00:00 PST