People STILL don't get it so I will try to clarify again here that I DO NOT WANT A ROMANTIC RELATIONSHIP OR SEXUAL RELATIONS OF ANY KIND WITH ANYONE!!! I may be "single" and seperated from Hector right now but my love for him remains...he is my family...we are timelessly bonded and remain in union, even apart.
Although seperated, the door has not been closed for us...until it is, I WILL NOT want anyone else...and if it is, I will want to be alone until I heal...reclusion is part of my healing process and a way of protecting myself...I was celibate for 2 years after I left Mia's dad...my heart does not mend easily and takes time to heal. The family and few close friends I actually do have in my life mean everything to me. He is still all I see and feel, awake and dreaming. He is my greatest love and despair. I will remain loyal to the purity of us until the door is shut, and if that happens, will only move on after I heal.
Magick, blood (in human form only and given of free will), sex, love, darkness, music, art, history, body art and its pain (I have 15 piercings, nostril twice, septum, labret, naval, both nipples and four holes in each ear...a large tattoo of a lotus flower on my lower back and a small magical symbol on my upper thigh... more to come...ALL FOR TRIBALLY SPIRITUAL REASONS and it is my religious right NOT TO BE FORCED TO TAKE MY PIERCINGS OUT...EVER...FUCKING JOB DISCRIMINATION!!!)
The spirit world, astral projection, past life exploration, altered states of reality
Spiritual evolution and progression
(vegetarianism)
EXPANDING CONSCIOUSNESS
Astrology
Buddhist, Hindu, Native American, Pagan, Ancient Egyptian, and Atlantian wisdoms and traditions
All ancient tribal traditions (not so much new age fluff)
All non-dogmatic religion and philosophy.
~Kwan Yin~
~Kali~
~Ganesa~
I love and respect the earth, all of her elements and all entities born from her womb.
I am obsessed with craftwork and make essential oil blends that also include herbs, stones and resins. I wrap shells, crystals and other stones for jewelry, pendants, charms and medicine bags; love to pick and bundle sage and handmake tools for the craft. Every piece is channelled to be energetically aligned with its wearer and is magickally charged.
I love british tea and fine coffee, art, poetry, music, symbolism, candles, sage, sweet grass, cedar, juniper and incense smoke, herbs, essential oils, crystals, shells...
I enjoy walking through beautiful, grotesque cemeteries and parks and forests (especially in autumn) and want to be in water all the time.
I am horribly nocturnal and love the moon and stars, the peace and stillness of society, and the high levels of astral and multidimensional activity at night.
I love my daughter with the entire essence of my being and am truly blessed to be her mother.
~BUDDHA~
DON'T ASK ME FOR SEX OR NUDE PICS
~*NO WHORES PLEASE, MALE OR FEMALE*...
~I VALUE ***CHIVALRY***...HEARD OF IT???
~NO SHALLOW, SUPERFICIAL, MATERIALISTIC, CLOSE-MINDED, BACKSTABBING PUPPETS that lack depth, feeling, compassion, wisdom or devotion...that cling to their scene only for ego and not because of true identity...a.k.a POSERS, no matter how good they look doing it or how many "friends" they have.
***I don't care how good you think you look with photoshop and makeup, fake hair and fake nails, how much latex you have or how cool your fucking boots are...I will see right through it***
It doesn't make you holier than thou or give you the right to be snotty, and you probably overestimate yourself anyway...there are many beautiful people in this world who are REAL...who look the way they do and love what they love because it's WHO THEY ARE...not merely to rebel or be a part of some scene.
~ I ONLY WISH TO MEET SAFE, RESPECTFUL, HONEST, DEVOTED, LOYAL, COMPASSIONATE, OPEN-MINDED PEOPLE WHO AREN'T AFRAID OF INTENSITY OR EXTREMITY ~
~DO NOT INVLOVE YOURSELF WITH ME IN ANY WAY ONLY TO HURT ME IN THE END. MY LIFE HAS BEEN HELL AND I CAN'T TAKE BEING HURT ANYMORE. MY HEART HAS BEEN SHATTERED AND ***IF YOU DESTROY ME I WILL DESTROY YOU.***
~I DON'T WANT A RELATIONSHIP AT THE MOMENT, IN FACT, THE IDEA MAKES ME SICK...PLEASE RESPECT THAT...AND DON'T ASK ME FOR SEX OR PICS...YES IT HAPPENS.
~I AM A NICE PERSON...IT DOES NOT MEAN I AM ATTRACTED TO YOU...
****DID YOU FORGET ABOUT CHIVALRY ALREADY??****
~I DON'T WANT TO MEET RACIST, SEXIST OR ABUSIVE EXCUSES FOR PEOPLE.
~And I can't stress this enough...NO WHORES AND/OR HOMEWRECKERS!!!
I HATE FEELING THAT I CAN'T TRUST PEOPLE ON MY FRIENDS LIST...
If you don't like me or find me offensive then WHY add me?
If you judge...you are ASSUMING.
If you're offended, it does not mean that what you are offended by is offensive.
Offensive is a relative term and it's definition changes with EACH person.
If you are offended by body hair and nudity, you really should be ashamed of yourself and think for a second how fucked up the concept of NATURAL ever being offensive actually is...to see nature in the human form or any other and find any aspect of it offensive is ridiculous...to find it disgusting is SAD...
WE ARE ANIMALS and just because we have the ability to make clothes does not mean we should lose our earth born rights and be forced to wear them.
This does not mean I go out nude, that is "illegal"...but the point is we should be FREE...sexuality is something our culture has automatically assigned to nudity...this perspective is obviously not shared by all cultures...it is our skin...like other animals have skin, and fur or hair...***other animals aren't disgusted by their natural forms and it is SAD that we are.***
Any friend of mine would get that, so if you don't please don't add me or delete me from your friends...if I can't trust you PLEASE don't add me or delete me and leave me in peace...as I know I have never wronged you.
~Peace~
Intense, dramatic or heavy...emotionally stimulating...I appreciate real talent, creativity and skill...or I'm not likely to tolerate it. I can't help it. I've been singing most of my life and like many styles of music but I don't like music that is ridiculously happy and don't listen to much corporate stuff. Some of my favorite artists...
***SOPOR AETERNUS***
Jucifer
Cinema Strange
Scarlet's Remains
Tragic Black
Faith and the Muse
Lycia
Collide
Dresden Dolls
Inkubus Sukkubus
Mazzy Star
Switchblade Symphony
Cranes
The Cure
Tori Amos
and
Bjork's heavier stuff
Julee Cruise
*Angelo Badalamenti*
Delerium
Butterfly Messiah
Dead Can Dance
Enigma
Loreena Mckennitt
Vas
Mediaeval Baebes
the amazing Regan High Priestess
the timeless Ludwig Van Beethoven
Ravi Shankar
and tribal music from many cultures.
I adore The Phantom of the Opera
and all dark, heavy opera
(especially in Italian).
As well of course, The DOORS...forever...
There's a lot more but I'm too lazy and you probably don't care that much anyway...
I think all films by David Lynch are extraordinary works of art. He is a genius; an Aquarius on the cusp of Capricorn, he manifests masterpieces channelled from the Divine with the perfection of a Virgo moon. Twin Peaks
(a T.V show) has no comparison...Fire Walk With Me, Lost Highway, Mullholland Drive, Blue Velvet...Mists of Avalon, Baraka, Lord of the Rings, The Labrynth, Harry Potter and Dancer in the Dark.
Laura Palmer
Brainwashing is freaky but Family Guy and South Park are irresistable...
Be Here Now, The Bhagavad-Gita, The Ramayana, Animal-Wise, Illusions, The Medicine Cards book, The Symbolic Prophecy Of The Great Pyramid, ASK AND IT IS GIVEN
Aleister Crowley, The Dalai Lama, Jim Morrison, The Circle Of The Rising Ajna Lotus and all of my other close family, friends and spiritual mentors.