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Xsyntrik's Apathy

Swallowing Glass just to Stay Pure...

About Me

People call me Devan (I used to be 'Kelli' many years ago but I didn't like her so I killed her). I'm a friend to everyone, an enemy to a few and loved passionately by the people who matter most.
I'm a rock star without the talent...
I am opinionated but not judgmental, unless you're stupid. Ignorance is annoying.
I am pretty open about my life, I don't try to hide anything, good or bad, about me. Like me or not, I am who I am. I have no regrets in my life. My past made me the person I am today and brought me the life I have now.
I could be a better person but I'm doing the best I can. I like me though, (I have no choice) so who else matters? finite.
XSYNTRIK'S APATHY - Devan's Live Journal
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I never try anything. I just do it. Wanna Try me?.
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My Interests

MUSIC, music, music, astronomy, psychology, philosopy, theology, camping, Art, painting, Life, my daughter Keira, Art, Music, Animal Rescue, Animal Welfare, Vegetarianism, Anti Vivisection, Southern Comfort, Late night baths, Parrots, Making you think, dirty dirty dirty!, candles, loud music, fast cars, taboo, learning how to live, loving, close friends, Detroit, Atlanta, Oregon, photos, urban decay, San Francisco, Philosophy

I'd like to meet:

There is no one, that I want to meet, that (in some way) I could not meet if I was determined to do so. Frankly, I am not particularly impressed enough with anyone to make an effort on. I think most people pretty much suck.

Music:

.. width="425" height="350" .. Ministry, NIN, Disturbed, KMFDM, Tool, Mazzy Star, Clouddead, Smashing Pumpkins, Depeche Mode, Skinny Puppy, Garbage, Hole, Duran Duran, Genitorturers, Marilyn Manson, Thrill kill kult, 80's metal, Ludacris, Eminem, Guru Stew, Blind Gypsy, Electric Lullaby, Guns N'Roses, Motley Crue, old 80's hair bands, Sage Francis, dose one, Justin King, Themselves, David Bowie, Mr.Bungle, Faith no More, Massive Attack, Godsmack, Weszt, Seether, Garbage, Grunge, Kaki King, Matt Costa, Iggy Pop, Alice Cooper

Movies:

Fifth Element, But I'm a Cheerleader, Highlander, Wicker Man, Dracula, Interview with the Vampire, Labyrinth, Arlington Road, Hackers, The Corporation, Brokeback Mountain, Quills, Star Wars, Drop Dead Fred, Party Monster, Clerks, Chasing Amy, Wrong Turn, Spun, The Breakfast Club, Weird Science, Legend, The Dark Crystal, Labyrinth, What the *bleep*,

Television:

24, Medium, Monk, King of the Hill, Simpsons, Dateline, Nip/Tuck, The 4400, Ghost Hunters, House, The L Word, Queer as Folk, I LOVE the Discovery Channel, Sci-Fi Channel, The Learning Channel, Comedy Central, and most news programs and documentaries are good.

Books:

Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy, Illusions: Adventures of a reluctant Messiah, Interview with the Vampire, A Confederacy of Dunces, Fast Food Nation, Why Elephants Weep, Dominion, Diet for a Small Planet.

Heroes:

Me, My rebellious Keira monster, me, and the 10 year old Mexican Red Headed Amazon I rescued. Just because his 8 years of life before he met me were so hard & he still has such a beautiful soul anyway.

My Blog

Damn good quote find, Brent Ray

LOVE this quote.  I am in a very dark place in my life right now but I have exactly what I wanted when John and I split.  I have my freedom.  Now I am just scared of it. "Do not sp...
Posted by Xsyntrik's Apathy on Sun, 12 Nov 2006 03:52:00 PST

Birthday Stuff

So here is the extent of my Bday today so far (it's 6pm so it's pretty well over) http://xsyntriksapathy.vox.com/ I also got lots of Bday wishes in the form of email, IM and text messages.  Than...
Posted by Xsyntrik's Apathy on Mon, 06 Nov 2006 03:17:00 PST

Better late than never.

Here's my latest thing.   I don't care what you hear. I don't care what you say. I don't care what you do. I don't care what you think. I don't care what you swallow. I don't care what you smoke....
Posted by Xsyntrik's Apathy on Sat, 04 Nov 2006 02:04:00 PST

Prelude

This is what I brought you this you can keep,This is what I brought you may forget me.I promise to depart just promise one thing,Kiss my eyes and lay me to sleep.This is what I brought you this you ca...
Posted by Xsyntrik's Apathy on Tue, 24 Oct 2006 09:20:00 PST

When Death Comes

This is an excerpt from a poem by Mary Oliver called "When Death Comes": When it's over, I want to say all my lifeI was a bride married to amazement.I was the bridegroom, taking the world into my arms...
Posted by Xsyntrik's Apathy on Sun, 22 Oct 2006 12:20:00 PST

I'm losing focus, kind of drifting in the abstract

I'm waiting. What am I waiting for? For something to happen. Something that will guide me in figuring out my next move. Should I stay or should I go?
Posted by Xsyntrik's Apathy on Thu, 19 Oct 2006 09:42:00 PST

'Cause it's easier this way.

Funny.  Life is never what you expect from one minute to the next.  Just when you think you have it all figured out, someone throws something at you that draws your attention completely awa...
Posted by Xsyntrik's Apathy on Tue, 17 Oct 2006 08:30:00 PST

Alone in a world you must despise

I am so bored.  Bored bored bored bored bored.  Alone.  Alone alone alone alone.  Hehehe. My brain is going non stop and my thoughts are demons.  I wish I could stop thinking....
Posted by Xsyntrik's Apathy on Sun, 15 Oct 2006 10:21:00 PST

The deception you show is your own parasite...

If I gave you the truth, would it keep you alive?Though I'm closer to wrongI'm no further from rightAnd now I'm convinced on the inside that something's wrong with meConvinced on the inside, you're so...
Posted by Xsyntrik's Apathy on Sat, 07 Oct 2006 12:20:00 PST

Perfect Drug

The perfect drugI got my head, but my head is unravelingCant keep control, cant keep track of where its travelingI got my heart but my heart is no goodAnd youre the only one thats understoodI come alo...
Posted by Xsyntrik's Apathy on Sat, 07 Oct 2006 11:28:00 PST