Before you add me, I take forever to go through friends requests, sorry (there are some exceptions, of course)if your profile is private you may get denied automatically. no one will probably even read this but, I am a terrible myspace friend, so that should not matter, right? (shit I am a terrible friend in general!hahaha 'cause I am too chaotic/impulsive)
I'm not 'goth' nor am I looking for internet romance, thank you.
I am a 36 yr old mom. (sons are 12 and 8, daughter grown up, and moved out)my tastes should be pretty self explanatory, if you can't figure that out...well, don't know what to tell you.
I have been Messing around with promotions/networking for a while, meddling in the local scene when I was able via friend's band, now however; I will be having my first independent set of shows in Sept, looks to be moving right along, so far I have gotten a ton of support. Thus far this will be a west coast kind of deal- All brutal show, predominantly death metal. (of course!) Show for Portland will be Sept 5th. (more TBA as this whole thing solidifies)
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I live in a very secluded area in central Oregon, not a lot of metal there.
Have to travel to Portland for actual shows.
I like to screw around in photoshop, I continue to do a few things for to keep in practice. I find image manipulation to be soothing.
Personality wise I am not real interesting, I can be quite bouncy, I'm known to sing randomly, and laugh easily, but I can be arrogant, I can be friendly but very catty (my behavior is LOADED with little subtle barbs)I can be very shy, yet overbearing. I am kind of a control freak, and can get very compulsive about certain things. I am EXTREMELY expressive. I try to be as straightforward as possible.
I am very loyal, and VERY caring! but can be very spiteful once you have crossed my lines...I am suspicious of everyone's agendas when dealing with me. My biggest flaw is that I always want what I cannot have, (the more I can't have it, the more I desire it!)and don't know what to do with blessings right in front of me.
Basically, my music gets me by...and people like me can understand this.
There are a select FEW that I will go out of my way to keep in contact with...(and even with some of them I will avoid when I am unhappy.) but with the rest, I can be pretty evasive.
I am a mix of extremes depending on who YOU are, or how I see you. Sometimes being in all directions and caring about things I should not care about, gets me worn out...So, my name 'Lust for Apathy' is fitting for me...that is what I really want..to not really give a fuck. (yes it is part of a suffocation song, the line goes, "resurgence through a lust for apathy". Resurgence means: a rising again into life, Apathy means:lack of feeling or emotion.)
My attempt at PS cover art, created for DOD's 2008 release.
