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GOT EARTH?
Beautiful SeeAsia - Fly Earth WHO THE HELL IS SHE?
IF YOU'RE LOOKING FOR A QUEEN SITTING ON AN ETHNIC RUG, LEGS CROSSED INDIAN STYLE, BURNING INCENSE, CHANTING TO THE UNKNOWN, YOU'VE CLICKED TO THE WRONG PAGE. NOT THAT THERE'S ANYTHING WRONG WITH THAT BREED OF QUEENS, BUT THAT'S ONLY PART OF MY ELEMENT. DON'T LET THE BADU/IRIE/JILL SCOTT/KINDRED/LAURYN HILL STEREOTYPICAL LOOK GET YOUR MOLECULAR MIND TWISTED.
I'VE BEEN BORN AND RAISED INTO ONE OF THE MANY TYPICAL SCENARIOS WITHIN BLACK HOUSEHOLDS OF THE 1970'S IN THE TRISTATE AREA. MOTHER WORKED, FATHER SOLD DRUGS, FUNCTIONING ALCOHOLIC (WHICH EVENTUALLY TOOK OVER HIS LIFE & KILLED HIM 4 YRS AGO), WORKED AND DEEJAYED (PLAYA). ROLLING STONE FATHER, ROLLING STONE DAUGHTERS. HE WAS NOMADIC (A.K.A ALL OVER THE PLACE) RUNNING FROM EMOTIONAL CHILDHOOD & ADULT ISSUES. FROM MY CHILDHOOD EXPOSURES AND ADOLESCENT ISSUES, I WAS UNSTABLE AS WELL.
REBELLED & RAN MY WHOLE LIFE TO AVOID BEING LOVED, SINCE EVENTS IN MY LIFE THAT HAPPENED WHERE I LOVED, TRUSTED AND WAS OPEN WERE THE VERY THINGS THAT HURT ME. BY THE TIME I WAS 13, I WAS IN CLUBS, DRINKING, GIVING UP SCHOOL, DRUG DEALER BOYFRIENDS AND A MOTHER BEFORE 18. RUNNING FROM THE PAIN. NOT TO MENTION IN THE PARALLEL, FRIENDS WERE DYING, AUNTIES & UNCLES HAD THE VIRUS FROM 80'S DRUG PARTYING & LIFE AS WE KNEW IT WAS CHANGING.
I CHANGED THAT IN 1997. I ATTENDED FRONT ROW OF THE MILLION WOMAN MARCH IN PHILLY WHILE BEING AROUND GODS FROM THE BRICKS (JERZ). CAME BACK AND ASKED FOR MY LESSONS. IT WAS ON EVER SINCE THEN......
NOW AS YOU CAN SEE, ALTHOUGH I STILL STRUGGLE WITH BEING LOVED, I'M STILL GULLY. YES, MY MAN (GOD)HAS HIS HANDS FULL. EVERYONE ATTACHED TO ME HAVE THEIR HANDS FULL. BUT I STILL HAVE MY SWAGGER, AURA AND AN ARTICULATED ENERGY WITH ME THAT WILL NOT CHANGE. I NEED THAT FOR SOME THINGS....SUCH AS UNDERSTANDING MY GOD'S CODE, STREET CODE, POLITICAL CODE, MOTHERHOOD CODE, REVO(LUTION) CODE. I'M NOT HERE TO BE IN THE IMAGE OF WHAT ONE EXPECTS. I STILL DO MY BULLSHIT THAT MAY OFFEND OTHERS, PERIOD. THAT'S PART OF WHO I AM. NONE OF MY HOMEGIRLS RIFF (FORMER & PRESENT) WHEN IT TAUGHT THEM EVERYTHING CULTURAL AND RESOURCEFUL THEY KNOW (AFFILIATED WITH EARTH SCIENCE SUCH AS WRAPPING, ATTIRE, LANGUAGE of MATHEMATICS, BUILDING, GREETINGS, ETC). I'VE ALWAYS RAN MY CIRCLE. NONE OF FAMILY COMPLAIN WHEN THEY REFLECT OF WHO THE FOREFRONT OF THE FAMILY IS. SO, I WILL CONTINUE TO DO WHAT I DO, WHEN AND HOW I WANT TO. WITH THE DISCIPLINE OF GOD'S LIGHT. I RECOGNIZE MY POWERS. IN WHICH THEY'RE TOO MUCH EVEN FOR MY OWN SELF AT MANY TIMES.
WHEN MY MOTHER DECIDED TO HAVE A CHILDREN WITH A MAN LIKE MY FATHER, SHE DIDN'T KNOW THAT SHE WAS MAKING A DECISION TO HAVE CHILDREN MORE IN THE IMAGE OF HIM THAN HERSELF. THAT'S WHY MY POPS MUSTY ASS STILL LIVE ON.
FEARLESS, AFRAID, AMBITIOUS, CONFUSED, TALENTED, SLACKERS, HUSTLERS, RESOURCEFUL, FLIRTATIOUS, LOYAL, PLAYERS, POPULAR, LONELY, HUMBLE, AGGRESSIVE, VINDICTIVE, MOODY, SPOILED, FUCKED UP, FLY. WHO THE HELL IS SHE? BEAUTIFUL SEEASIA. AND YOU ARE?
IN THIS VIRTUALITY, WELCOME TO MY REALITY...PEACE
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