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In the summer of 2000 I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder. This disease presents itself with both manic-depressive episodes along with hallucinations and paranoia. Before this time I regularly had visitations at night from a woman whom I knew to be Lilith since the age of 15. This woman is not real although her influence on me then and now, physically, spiritually, and emotionally, have been at times, both heaven and hell. Although I have been medicated since 2000, there are always points when, under stress, I fall. I have mutilated and burned myself for over a decade. I can no longer listen to the radio, watch television, or read the news for fear of "discovering a new destiny for my life from God". The hardest part now is coming to terms with my mind/disease but being unable to liberate myslef from consuming thoughts and fears. This project is an attempt at self-therapy and a little bit of coming out of the psychosis closet. This music is inspired by my Conversations with Lilith; the woman who hates me, loves me, sings to me, and screams at me.If you choose to add me as a friend please send a message along with the request. Welcome to the Politics of Ego.
