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Politics of Ego

Release date for album is October 31st!

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In the summer of 2000 I was diagnosed with schizoaffective disorder. This disease presents itself with both manic-depressive episodes along with hallucinations and paranoia. Before this time I regularly had visitations at night from a woman whom I knew to be Lilith since the age of 15. This woman is not real although her influence on me then and now, physically, spiritually, and emotionally, have been at times, both heaven and hell. Although I have been medicated since 2000, there are always points when, under stress, I fall. I have mutilated and burned myself for over a decade. I can no longer listen to the radio, watch television, or read the news for fear of "discovering a new destiny for my life from God". The hardest part now is coming to terms with my mind/disease but being unable to liberate myslef from consuming thoughts and fears. This project is an attempt at self-therapy and a little bit of coming out of the psychosis closet. This music is inspired by my Conversations with Lilith; the woman who hates me, loves me, sings to me, and screams at me.If you choose to add me as a friend please send a message along with the request. Welcome to the Politics of Ego.

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Member Since: 6/7/2007
Band Members: Gabriel
Influences: Memories, imaginary friends, and falling down, down, down.
Sounds Like: You Decide
Record Label: unsigned
Type of Label: None

My Blog

Conversations with Lilith

At this time I have enough material to put together a full album. The hard part about this project is that it was never intended to promote myself as an artist but rather to give myself a creative out...
Posted by Politics of Ego on Thu, 01 May 2008 02:43:00 PST

Tonight

When I was much younger I told no one of my nightly visitations from Lilith. I remember the feeling of shame as I struggled to keep it a secret from people I knew would run away from me if they knew w...
Posted by Politics of Ego on Tue, 01 Apr 2008 10:32:00 PST

Politics of Ego

Some thoughts:How do I balance the forces that seem to pull my mind, heart, and soul in different directions? Which voice do I follow? Which do I ignore? How do I fulfill all aspects of my life even w...
Posted by Politics of Ego on Wed, 05 Mar 2008 10:35:00 PST

Waiting in the Rain

When I was 15 I used to find myself following voices outside into the night as the onset if chaos began to unfold in my mind. I would walk for hours in search of someone. Whom, I never knew. I just kn...
Posted by Politics of Ego on Wed, 27 Feb 2008 04:07:00 PST

Requiem for Innocence

Requiem for Innocence is about the girl who fell in love with me when I had completely crashed into hopelessness. Please forgive me.
Posted by Politics of Ego on Fri, 30 Nov 2007 09:27:00 PST

I Wont Cry

I Won't Cry is about liberating myself from my hallucinations. The opening strings and female melody is taken from When I am Laid in Earth, an aria from Dido and Aeneus. In the opera, she is abou...
Posted by Politics of Ego on Thu, 11 Oct 2007 01:54:00 PST