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About Me


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I'am a diamond in the rough with a warm heart, and a beautiful mind.... Imaginative and creative........Through the darkness, through the sadness, I have found the path that lead straight back to me....................A tramatic life inheridated and endured, is the revelation of my soul born to those experiences. I'am different by nature, stronger from circumstances I have had to defeat. Wiser from lessons learned. This heart of my life is the essense of a solace that has recently filled me. My souls hands hold within them,my foundation, my redemption.... This is me at my innermost level, and I have begun the journey needed to nurture and explore it. Until recently, I didn't realize how far away from myself I had gotten. Running from a ghost that I finally had been given one chance to face. Destruction of a desolate past I could let go of in a breath. I'am now overcome by a calming peace, from a past, that had only known pain. Because for so long...I had become a mere reflection of it. I will no longer settle for anything then what my soul desires, what it deserves. I'am connected to myself in a very deep way, some call it intensity, if that's what defines me, so be it. I'am not afraid of my voice, I believe it is the one true key to allowing anything to work. If I feel then that person deserves to hear it, if I hurt, I will express it. If treated with respect and compassion, I will be your bestfriend. I'am in complete control of myself but not controlling. There is nothing but positive feelings growing inside me, and negativity is something I can't be around. Because when hurt comes...it's only followed by some form of argument...... I will have nothing but complete respect and admiration for real people. All I can do is believe in you, believe in your dreams. A polite voice, sensual conversation is all I require. I love to be intellectually stimulated. I wanna laugh till it fuckin hurts. To beable to look into a lovers eyes and pierce the very depths of them, that without a word, they will know what I'am feeling. What can I say...I'am a hopeless romantic....I deserve that as well.I only want the way a smile can be placed across my face..................... for I'am ONE happy gyrl! .. src="http://i92.photobucket.com/albums/l38/prada_cash/headup ass.jpg" border="0" alt="Photobucket - Video and Image Hosting"

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My Interests

Anything that encompasses water! Surfing, boating, kayaking,jetskiing, wakeboarding. Walks across some desolate beach. The moonlight. Random acts of kindness and selfless giving. Loving with all my heart, laughing, joking, cuddeling. Lightheartedness, tender, heartfelt moments. Saying what you mean, truth, honesty, and communication on several levels. Intellectual stimulation. Love making, music, dancing. Spending time with beautiful souls. Taking the time and energy to know the heart and soul of another. Quiet talks, holding hands, embrassing. Animals, dreams. destiny, improving oneself and acknowledging ones faults without judgements. Openess. Anything that involves outdoor activities. People watching, my college education, my job in an emergency room, my career.( That I will not allow another to strip away from me) Shopping, jumpin on my motorcycle and loosing track of time and reality for awhile. The rain, watchin movies over good company and yummy food. Spending time alone to ground myself!

I'd like to meet:

I have already found her. The perfect creation of a life inspired....my forbidden love in the essense of a perfect form... But as far as friends, friends and more friends.....I'am always down to meet crazy insane people. But let's not confuse that with psyhcotics, game players, or the occasional oscar nominated actresses, for the best drama series. Real people that aren't afraid of their own voice. To know what it means to be alive, where ones experiences has transformed them into passionate souls. Beautiful people that have drive, ambition, and the sheer determination to make life happen for them. Who will see things trough to the end no matter what that outcome may hold.... And in that, they are showered with everything they strive for and deserve. Warm people who's eyes have witnessed the unknowing, and with that, have learned from valuable life lessons. I enjoy having the ecclectic group of friends I have and cherrish now. To all of you, thank you for your love, support, and advice. You all know who you are..... and I love you from the heart.......

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Music:


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Sarah McLachlan...(OBVIOUSLY)Dido, Coldplay, Evanescence, Lifehouse, Natalie Merchant, The Fray, Snow Patrol, Sophie B. Hawkins, Enigma, Blue October, Hinder, Madonna, Alex Parks,Good 80's shit, Hot dance music, The Pixies, The Flammin Lips, Sheryl Crow, Nelly Furtado, Jewel,and the LIST goes on and on, and on....I'll add more with time.....

Movies:

Napolean Dynamite, Nacho Libre, almost anything computer animated. Top Gun, Weird Science, Van Wilder, Scarey movies, Psychological Thrillers, The Notebook, The Davinci Code....

Television:

Queer as Folk, The L word, Scrubs,Reno 911,Days of Our Lives...cause life can be a soap opera. My Name is Earl. Animal Planet...real life forensic shows on A&E. History Channel, Discovery Channel, TLC Channel.

Books:

My world is far to filled with college text books, so leasure reading is on hold. The Dali Lama always has the right message to convey in what IS THE WAY, of treating ourselves and humanity.... The Four Agreements should be a book ALL highschool students should read, so as adults we treat eachother with dignity and respect....But just in case the fate of HUMANITY is in question....light reading must ALWAYS venture towards STAR and ENQUIRE

Heroes:

Recently I have been blessed with a beautiful soul that has entered my life, and not a moment to soon. She empowers and inspires me to be the very essense that others have tried to strip from me. My mom....in 7 years she lost her husband and father to cancer, and her brother to AIDS. In those hours of darkness she became so much light. Her strength and courage has been a breathtaking experience. And in my recent days she has been my very pillar of strength, and I'am greatful that her blood courses my veins. Also my bestfriend Carrie...in 9 years she has stood by my side without fail.

My Blog

Discovery in my hearts compassion to help!

Those who know me know that I work in emergency mediciene. It's what I do, it's more than a paycheck, it revieals the naked truth of a soul! Yesterday it became a discovery, it became a teacher in a w...
Posted by Temptation Eyes on Tue, 25 Jul 2006 06:20:00 PST

November Rain

 NOVEMBER RAIN When I look into your eyes, I can see your love restrained. But darlin when I hold you, don't you know I feel the same....yeah Nothing lasts forever, and we both know hearts can ch...
Posted by Temptation Eyes on Thu, 06 Apr 2006 08:32:00 PST

Altered Reality

Where do you go as you're standing at the cliff? What do you dream about when you dream of nothing? You feel so normal standing in a straight jacket wondering when the medication of reality will wear...
Posted by Temptation Eyes on Thu, 16 Mar 2006 09:14:00 PST