Demetra

No one really knows the real me. They think they do. Like they know what I love and how I love. But they don't really. Like in the song Nina Simone sings. Always looking for her Porky. That use to be me. I don't think I ever will. Yes I am married a lot of us are. Life goes on. I mean sure you look at something that looks like love and then find out it's so not true. No one has ever captured the true heart. I don't think it happens. Not by man anyway. God yes. Not that I did not try to give my heart at one time. It was rejected to the point where I just don't know anymore so much sin aganist my soft heart. So we go on and live life. Not knowing how to feel or how to ask for it because we never had it. Did you ever wonder what it felt like to be the first one he or she truely loved. He or she gave you the first of everything that they had to offer. Well for those of you who has had that. Beautiful. But me never had the first of anything. Always felt I played second to it all. So what does that say about me. I dont'know. If it ever happens the way it is in my mind what would I do? I don't think I will ever know. Because its in my heart to give. I will never stop giving. I think I am a pasionate person. I give from the heart. I know no other way its just a part of my being. But you have those who abuse soft hearts. Really no one has ever taken the time to dig deep enough to show me anything new. So I live with that. Until Someone can show me otherwise. so until then I guess the real romantic will always be looking for her Porky. The soul and heart of a man. But at the same time I don't believe in true love. We love yes but true love in my mind is a myth. You grow up with fairy tells and find out life is not that way. I might sound a little harsh but I had a rough start when it comes to love and being honest and trusting people who only wished me harm. It's all in the pass now but call me what you will. I just don't believe. You get what you get and make the best of it. Now enough of that now for what I do want you to know. Love to cook ask my kids. Love someone who enjoys good food. Love Interior Design projects I also sing gospel and Jazz music. Love my family so much. I'm private at times. I love to laugh and Miles Davis puts me in the mood for so many things. Love jazz music Love to read and love for my surroundings to be calm and beautiful. If it's not I'm not very pleasant. Clean and neat I am and unpleasant smells turn me off. Love a clean smelling man. I love to be outdoors if It has nice surroundings otherwise I will stay inside. Heat bothers me. I love spring and fall. Winter is okay if there is no ice. Romantic bones run all through my body. Sometimes I wish it didn't. I remeber people from long ago. I just like happy people and a happy family. I have children I have adopted as my own. People come into your life from all races and all walks of life and become my family. Look at me I can't complain I'm not sure where all my family came from. But I do believe sometimes they do find you and you may never know it. Thats why they become my family because they very well could be. I love life I love my God and no one or nothing comes between us. It is JAH who sends your kin back to you. So long ago we were split up and lost. JAH knows who you are and makes your family whole again. My family grows still and I'm loving it no matter where you come from.Your Signature Style is: Modern Romantic My home is where my heart is. And whether I"m decorating or dressing, everything has to have a little extra touch of femininity I dress to please the man in my life, as well as myself. When I Was a little girl I thought pink was the only color and it's still high up in my favorites. I don't need to be the center of attention, just the center of attention to those who matter to me. You take time to smell the roses, because you've always known what's most important in life.
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